As he spoke, Xiao Mao scratched his head with a smile.

"I don't want to pull into our friendship, don't we all say that friends just trouble each other?"

Looking at Xiao Mao's appearance, Yan Ming sighed helplessly.

He knew that Xiao Mao should have felt the depression in his mood just now, and it was the first time that he was not participating in a festival event alone, and Yan Ming's heart was a little touched.

I don't know why, Looking at those cheerful crowds, Yan Ming couldn't help but think of himself.

Crossing over, alone, only the partners around you can accompany you.

But apart from the ghosts and Zoroa, Yan Ming couldn't talk to the elves.

And because the ghost has been underground all the year round, he has recently followed him to live in the middle of the city, and Zoroa has always been because of his heart, so that there is always a small gap between the two, which makes it difficult for Yan Ming to talk to Zoroa or other conversations.

Although this world is the world of elves, Yan Ming understands it, but when he came to this world as a teenager, he didn't know why, he always felt a sense of isolation from the world in his heart, which was a sense of loneliness from outsiders.

Everything he had been through since he had traveled through, the killings, the crises had been surrounding him, forcing him to move forward, and in order to cope with these, he began to exercise non-stop and pursue strength.

And at this moment, because of the holiday leisure, and he has a simple rest time, he feels a little lost.

What are you pursuing?

Is it a good life......

But for yourself, what is the so-called good life in your own eyes?

Yan Ming didn't know that for him, being able to have no worries and have the capital to fight for the current situation in the future was already what he had always longed for in his previous life.

As for the future he wants, Yan Ming has not imagined it.

For him, maybe he has a normal family, even if there are some contradictions and fights from time to time, for Yan Ming at that time, it is already a longing in a dream.

Yan Ming doesn't know, if he really reaches one of those, his strength is invincible in the world, and there is nothing that he can't get, will he really be happy, and he really has no regrets?

Yan Ming's eyes drooped.

He felt that he would still have regrets and longings.

He thought that the collapsed family in his previous life was a gap in his life, and everything he was fighting for now seemed to be aimed at filling this gap.

But Yan Ming also knows that this gap is also something he can't make up for no matter what, no matter how strong he is, as long as he still has human emotions and remembers that time, then this lack will always be with him.

Maybe he will forget it in the future, but as long as he thinks about it inadvertently, it will be like a sharp sword, which will make Yan Ming's heart upset.

Looking at the laughing family in the fireworks festival, Yan Ming always couldn't help but feel a little envious, jealous, and even despicable and resentful.

Why, it's obviously the first time to be a person, why do you have to go through that.

Jealousy made Yan Ming's thoughts ugly, he ignored that experience that led to the birth of his stable personality at the moment, and also ignored his crossing of this opportunity, at that moment, he was really unwilling.

But this kind of low-ebb thoughts come and go quickly, plus what he just experienced, whether it is the street parade with Xiao Mao, or the care of Zoroa and the elves, or the pleasure brought by the victory in the battle, Yan Ming understands one thing.

Although what I am doing now is more or less making up for the past, it is undeniable that everything I am experiencing now, whether it is the first time I met and accompanied the wind speed dog, the first time I said some of my inner words to the ghosts, expressing negative emotions, or the simple kindness given by the people I met after coming to this world.

are reminding Yan Ming that his life should not be limited to the shadows of the past.

The beautiful encounters that have always been in this world have taken root in Yan Ming's heart.

Just as he had spoken to Lijia before.

Everything he has experienced now is a part of his journey, and only by experiencing the process of the journey can he leave the precipitation of this world in his eyes.

Maybe in the future he will grow to unimaginable heights, or he may experience a heart-wrenching challenge in the future, but no matter what the future holds, the present is what he cares about.

Yan Ming figured it out, maybe it doesn't matter what the better future is sought, because the past has become a regret, and the reason why regret is regret is that it can no longer be changed.

What is important to you is that you are moving forward because of that good wish.

Everything he has experienced on this road will be the bricks and tiles for him to make up for the past and run into the future, and it is this accumulation that will breed the satisfaction in Yan Ming's heart.

Therefore, Yan Ming was relieved, he reconciled with his past self tonight, and accepted the fact that his life was not perfect.

Maybe in the future, he will continue to move forward in pursuit of his desires, but he will no longer force for the impossible result because of this.

"Okay, I'm fine, but you, how adult, are worried about me getting up."

Seeing that Yan Ming pointed out his careful thoughts, Xiao Mao's eyes were also a little fluttering.

"What, Xiaoyan, what are you doing to yourself, I just saw that you came to such a remote place during the holidays, it's very unpleasant, it's obviously a ten-year-old little kid, but he has a sad face, and the atmosphere of the festival has been ruined by you."

He also understands that Yan Ming is alone and the other party's life experience, knows that Yan Ming has lived alone since he was very young, plus he admires Yan Ming's talent in elves, and the age difference between the two is not big, after several exchanges, he also has a good sense of Yan Ming, so he is a little concerned about this friend who he rarely really wants to make friends.

is different from Xiaozhi, who grew up together, he has lived such a difficult life for Yan Ming since he was a child, and he can still have the growth of not losing to himself and others, and even has the ability to not lose to the formal cultivators.

Yan Ming naturally understands Xiao Mao's thoughts that it is indeed difficult for ordinary people to achieve his current achievements, so Yan Ming has always been grateful, although there is no lack of his efforts, but it is undeniable that these changes are not something that can be achieved by hard work.

And it is precisely because of this that Yan Ming feels very helpless.

With the continuous improvement of his own strength, the rapid improvement of his strength and the experience that happened to him on the surface are enough to make people care and want to explore.

This is also what Yan Ming has been worried about.