A little light in the darkness seemed to arouse Jimmy's desire to survive, and he suddenly realized that there were still people in this world who cared about him and remembered him.

He hated the life of his parents and the death of his parents, but when he grew up like this, he fatally embarked on the old path of his parents.

Ten years of muddled nightmares is enough to destroy a person's mind, and Zhong Canaan's concern is one of the few warmth Jimmy has received over the years.

He didn't know how long he had in his life, and he wasn't even sure if he could try again.

With the help of Chung Canaan, Jimmy finally took the initiative to take that step.

He contacted a medical facility, received psychotherapy, and it took him three years to go from being a walking dead to what he is today.

And Zhong Jianan also fulfilled his promise.

But years of alcohol erosion have had a great impact on Jimmy, and even though he looks like an ordinary person, the job of an actor has become an extremely difficult task for Jimmy.

His memory has deteriorated so much that lines that he could memorize a few times when he was young can now take days.

That's why he always has to carry the script with him.

The role of Amy's husband is not complicated, and there are not many lines, but even so, Jimmy does not dare to relax for a moment.

He used three times or even five times the efforts of others to support the performance during this time, only today, a slogan that needs to be read quickly pierces the illusion of whitewashing peace in his heart.

It was as if he had suddenly lost his memory during the shooting, and he couldn't remember anything.

The indescribable panic covered him like a flood, and he was afraid that he would not be able to film anymore.

It took him three full years to get out of hell, and acting was his only salvation.

But now, it seemed that salvation was about to leave him.

Jimmy leaned back against the tree, his gaze unfocused, and his whole body was gloomy and frustrated.

He laughed self-deprecatingly: "Maybe I'm not suitable for filming." ”

He was unwilling to accept this reality, let alone live up to Zhong Jianan's trust, but it backfired, dragging his body full of holes, and he seemed to be unable to afford filming.

Yan Fuguang listened quietly to Jimmy's past.

Although I guessed that there was a reason for his alcoholism, I really didn't expect him to grow up in such a family.

Maybe he wasn't strong enough to get out of the mud, but he was born into such a deformed family, and no one taught him to distinguish between good and bad.

To him, his mother was just a vague symbol, and his only remaining relatives were demons who lured him into the abyss.

What's even more sad is that perhaps in the young Jimmy's heart, what Kenchi Sr. gave was paternal love.

If you can't tell the difference between good and evil, you can't break free from the quagmire.

By the time he grows up, it's too late.

Jimmy didn't struggle, but the constraints of his family of origin were deeply rooted in his body.

The past that he can't shake off is the blood flowing in his veins, pinching and stopping.

"Actually, you acted very well."

The embarrassing memories were suddenly dispelled by the breeze, and Jimmy looked up in disbelief.

Yan Fuguang never spoke, and Jimmy was also immersed in his emotions.

I have to say that Yan Fuguang is a very ideal person to talk to.

There would be no unnecessary comfort, no unnecessary persuasion, and although she was quiet, Jimmy could feel that she was listening attentively.

"It's just an objective condition to have a good memory, but a performance is a performance, and at least the parts we've done are good."

Although Zhong Canaan also said something similar, Jimmy subconsciously felt that this was just Zhong Canaan's "encouragement" from the perspective of a friend.

He was grateful to Zhong Jianan for giving him this opportunity, but the lack of confidence in his heart could not be eliminated with a few words of encouragement, and today's memory collapse made most of his precarious courage collapse in an instant.

People who are in a state of intoxication all year round must have nerve damage, and this damage is usually irreversible.

Yan Fuguang knew very well that with the current medical treatment, Jimmy would probably have to fight against the continuous decline of his memory for the rest of his life, which was a reality that he had to accept.

But how good his memory is doesn't affect Jimmy's acting talent.

Even if the role he plays is not complicated and has a certain villain color, he can still interpret such a thin role as flesh and blood.

Even if he didn't read that advertising slogan well, he had worked hard to complete the part before today, which was completely worthy of the talent given to him by God and his persistence in breaking free from the quagmire in the past three years.

Looking at Jimmy, Yan Fuguang's tone was very affirmative.

"It's just a paragraph, it can't erase your efforts, let alone judge your acting skills, your efforts in the past three years have not been in vain."

Yan Fuguang knew that although Jimmy seemed to have come out of the fog, his psychological defense was not strong.

If this time he collapses, he retracts back to the drunken dream of dying in the past again, maybe what awaits him is a slow death, and there may never be a second Zhong Canaan to help him.

If Jimmy doesn't believe in himself, it's good to give him more affirmations.

Yan Fuguang's words were like a twilight drum and morning bell, striking Jimmy's heart.

Yan Fuguang is not Zhong Jianan, they are not friends, and they have never crossed paths before, so there is no need for her to express sympathy and pity to him.

So, it's not a false kind of comfort, is it?

"You...... Is it serious? ”

Jimmy's hesitant look was like his hesitant heart at this moment, and he desperately needed a hook to drop anchor to keep him from falling to the bottom of the sea in the rough seas.

Having someone emotionally stable by his side at this moment is a lifesaver for Jimmy.

Yan Fuguang smiled gently, nodded and said: "Seriously, even if it is not as good as your previous award-winning works, but for you now, this is perfect." ”

There is not much exaggeration, and even bluntly says that Jimmy's current state is not as good as it used to be, but it is such a simple, fact-based description that Jimmy needs the most reassurance now.

Acting seemed to be his instinct, so he knew very well how different he was from the past, and it was normal that it was not as good as it used to be, but anyway it was better now than it was three years ago.

Jimmy's eyes fell on the script that he had been snubbing for a long time, and he reached out to caress the folds on the page, and the waves in his heart gradually subsided.

If three days or five days didn't work, then ten days, eight days, a week and two weeks, he would always remember that passage.

At this time, Yan Fuguang's voice sounded again.

"I'll talk to Director Zhong later, let's see if I can shoot the back first, the set of the previous scene is not complicated, and it should be okay to move it back."

Jimmy looked up in disbelief, but Yan Fuguang seemed to have said something very ordinary, still so calm and calm.

(End of chapter)