Jiang Nian.

It's a strange name.

But I'm going to call it that name from today.

Mother said: Forget your original name, forget your original gender, you are Jiang Nian, a girl, you have to have long hair and wear a skirt.

I was four years old.

Watching my father commit suicide, I had to hide under my desk.

I knocked on the door.

But it's noisy outside.

I've cried.

But it's noisy outside.

I watched my father sway above his head, his shoes skimming over the top of my head, and I watched as the old smile on his face was replaced by a look of horror and pain.

I started to fear my father, so I hid under my desk, and the small space gave me a lot of security.

The father began to rot and stink.

Corpse spots on the body.

It's even more terrifying.

But I became more and more calm, and just stared at him blankly....

I was rescued.

I thought I wouldn't have to be locked up in a small space anymore, but my mother was locked in another cage.

I stayed in the darkened room, watching my mother cry heartily outside the window, holding my father and his spirit card.

I cried until late at night.

I knew I was going to be locked up until everybody forgot about me, until I grew up to be a little more disconnected from my younger self, until I grew long hair, until I forgot that I was a boy.

The mother cried and hugged her: Nian Nian, obedient and obedient.

Well.

I'm Jiang Nian.

A girl.

。

She was sent back to school by her mother, dressed in a princess dress with long hair draped.

At that time, she was only in the first grade of primary school, and the students in it had already learned about good looks and bad looks, many boys surrounded her, many girls hated her, made a mess of her homework book, deliberately made excuses for her to be punished, and deliberately counted her every day on duty.

She answered.

Because Mother said, "Don't cause trouble."

。

Junior high school.

She is pursued by more people.

But he was also plagued by all kinds of rumors.

- She is from the Jiang family.

- Which Jiang family?

- It's the Jiang family! The Jiang family is so poor now, and there are so many debts, you see that she is pursued by so many boys every day, and on the surface she looks cold and cold, no one agrees, and she must have promised a lot of people behind her back, maybe they are all that, otherwise why does she wear so much in spring and summer? It must be to cover the kiss marks! And then let those boys give her money to pay off the debt!

....

She passed by the basketball court.

Looking at the male classmates wearing T-shirts and shorts, having a good time on the field.

I can't help but think of my favorite leather ball toy when I was a child.

....

Those don't belong to Jiang Nian.

。

She went home.

Looking at her mother, who was busy with all kinds of phone calls inside and out, she carefully opened the sealed door, which was filled with things from her past, as well as the ball toy.

Suddenly—

She heard her mother hang up.

Hurriedly hugged the ball and wanted to hide, but he didn't know where to hide, so he stood behind the door.

The mother walked slowly, and when she looked in her direction, she seemed to pause, but then pretended to be nothing, and said:

"How did this door open by itself, it seems that the door lock is broken, forget it, let's fix it tomorrow."

....

It's been so long.

For the first time, she hugged her childhood.

。

A man pursues her.

She disagreed.

She was blocked in the alley, and the man smiled fiercely and threatened to take possession of her directly.

She tilted her head to look at the man.

Then a punch was struck.

The man's nose was bleeding, his eyes were full of anger, and he was about to rush to hit her.

She kicked the man in the stomach again.

Seeing that person let out a cruel word and ran away, she originally thought that she was going to be taught a lesson by her mother, but she didn't want her mother to look at her with satisfaction: "Son, you did a good job." ”

She was stunned...

Mother called her -

Son.

Yes, he's a boy.

Right.

I'm a boy.

My mother hasn't forgotten that I was always a boy.