Chapter 92: Doubt Yourself
"Get him in order!"
Zhu Zhaozhao was stunned for a moment, this was the first patient to die at her hands, and she was still a child!
Zhu Zhaozhao clenched her fists vigorously, she tried to keep herself awake, she can't fall now, there are still many children!
"Miss......"
The doctor next to him had already seen that the eldest lady's eyes were red, this was the first patient sent away by the eldest lady, and it was still a child, the eldest lady was tired all day last night, and she didn't know if she could hold it.
"We're going to hurry, there are so many kids!"
I don't know if it's for the doctor, or for Zhu Zhaozhao himself;
When everyone saw that the eldest lady had calmly ordered, they went to the side to clean their hands, and then went to the bedside of another child.
"Sister, is Applejack's brother dead?"
A child grabbed the corner of Zhu Zhaozhao's clothes and asked with a crying voice.
"He felt too tired here, and he went to another beautiful place, and that place was not sick, it was beautiful!"
Zhu Zhaozhao comforted the child softly;
"Applejack's brother takes care of us every day, that's why he's so tired!"
The child's voice is full of self-blame, as if Applejack is like this because of herself.
"Brother Applejack wants you all to be well!"
Zhu Zhaozhao gently took the child's hand, and the next child was still waiting for her.
"Miss!"
When Su Mo came back, he found that the child had not moved, and the eldest lady continued to check the child.
"Su Mo, go and bring a bowl of medicine!"
Zhu Zhaozhao didn't have time to listen to Su Mo's words of comfort, she had to be fast now, and she couldn't have another child like Applejack.
Su Mo didn't say anything more, and obediently went to bring a bowl of medicine.
"Pour it down!"
This child is in a coma and now has to drink medicine, so he can only drink it!
Zhu Zhaozhao checked the twenty-eight children one by one, and she checked ten children by herself, and when all the people were checked, it was already noon!
Zhu Zhaozhao asked everyone to manage all the children according to the previous system, but they should pay extra attention, after all, their situation is different from that of these people.
Everyone could see that the eldest lady was barely holding on, and now her face looked extremely ugly.
"Miss, you go back and rest first, we are here, if there is anything, we will inform you in time!"
Imperial Doctor Su really can't look at it, the eldest lady is more like a patient than a patient now.
Zhu Zhaozhao nodded, turned around and began to walk back;
Wang Fei and Su Mo glanced at each other, Su Mo couldn't leave now, so Wang Fei followed:
"Miss, take a break!"
Wang Fei couldn't help much in the epidemic area, so he could only send medicine back and forth; Looking at the eldest lady who has never stopped, Wang Fei is very worried, the eldest lady sent away her first patient today, it should be very uncomfortable!
"Where's Applejack?"
Zhu Zhaozhao asked about today's teenager.
"In the outer world!"
They still specially cleaned up a room to store the corpse, but they didn't expect it......
"Prepare for me!"
Zhu Zhaozhao's voice was low and his mood was low;
"Miss, it's not your fault, you ......"
Wang Fei was stupid and didn't know how to comfort the eldest lady.
"Help me get ready!"
Zhu Zhaozhao left after speaking, she also needs to clean it now.
"Miss, the bath water is ready!"
Sister Hong had already received an order, and as soon as the eldest lady came out, she asked her to clean it.
"Good!"
Zhu Zhaozhao nodded her head, all her actions and replies now were completely instinctive.
"Miss, you ......"
Sister Hong is also anxious, but she can't seem to say anything, and whatever she says now will be a burden for the eldest lady.
"I want to be alone for a while"
Zhu Zhaozhao didn't want to talk to anyone now, she just wanted to be alone for a while.
They had a separate bathroom, in which Sister Hong had already prepared hot water, which was steaming, and the whole room was full of smoke.
Zhu Zhaozhao instinctively untied his clothes, stepped into the barrel, and when the whole person sat down, because the temperature was slightly high, Zhu Zhaozhao's whole person was now cold again, and he shivered all of a sudden, and Zhu Zhaozhao suddenly sobered up.
Zhu Zhaozhao couldn't suppress his sadness, and his mind was full of Applejack's last appearance:
He kept vomiting blood, and he couldn't stop it, and the healer couldn't wipe it clean......
She has always been very confident, her medical skills are taught by the old man, and the head of the Fu hospital also praises her, so she has always felt that she is very powerful, she thinks she can save them, but today, she can't save Applejack......
Zhu Zhaozhao sank her whole body into the barrel, and she now doubted herself, could she really do it well?
Although she said to every healer: do your best, obey the destiny of heaven, and do your best!
However, she was wondering if she really tried her best, and if she knew more about the epidemic, would she be able to save more people......
She only now realizes that she can't do her best and resign herself to her fate!
She didn't save anyone in her previous life, not even herself, can she really save people in this life?
Zhu Zhaozhao, who felt suffocated, finally got up and got out of the bucket, the water was already cold, she should go out, now she didn't have time to be low!
"Zhaozhao, come here!"
As soon as Zhu Zhaozhao walked into his yard, he saw his father;
"Daddy, you're here!"
Zhu Zhaozhao was not surprised that his father would come over, and his father probably saw what happened in the morning.
"Grab a bite to eat, you've been busy all morning!"
Zhu Yao personally served a bowl of porridge to his daughter.
"Do you remember the story of the military camp I told you when I was a child?"
Watching his daughter drink porridge in small sips, Zhu Yao was so distressed that he couldn't do it, he also saw what happened in the morning, and he could even understand his daughter!
"I don't think I told you about the first time I went to war with your grandfather."
This can be regarded as Zhu Yao's secret, even Madame has not said it.
"Your grandfather is also a general, when I was fifteen years old, I went into battle with your grandfather to kill the enemy, when I first went to the battlefield, I was just a nerd who knew the book of war, that battle, Dayong won a big victory, but it was something I didn't want to think about in my life!"
Zhu Yao recalled that he was a fifteen-year-old boy at that time, and he was also a romantic figure in Kyoto, and his father was not used to letting him do nothing all day, so he insisted on taking him to the battlefield despite his mother's opposition;
When he first went to the battlefield, he was excited, because he was tired of playing in Kyoto.
Even if he had a riding and archery course at home since he was a child, he still wore out his thighs during the march for a month, but his father never asked him to rest, and what about other people, he did too, so he held his breath and went to the border.