"Manager Qi, what you have to do in recent years is to help me repay the money."

I smiled at Manager Qi, "I can guarantee that you will become more and more angry with me in the future, if you really treat me as a family member, just think about the future, and when I am twenty-four years old, you can't get along with me if you want to, these nine years, we will do business."

After a moment of silence, Manager Qi smiled a little helplessly, "To be honest, I'm afraid that you won't be able to get out, just now I was sitting here, thinking about how to comfort you, and after I understand the whole story of Teacher Feng's incident, it is difficult to understand what you thought at the time, I think if it were me, can I ......do it tactfully."

After a pause, he tapped my notebook with his knuckles, "Why are you singing this song you wrote yourself?"

I lowered my eyes when I listened, and naturally understood what Manager Qi meant, in fact, the moment I stood on the stage, I was not so nervous that I lost my voice.

But I vaguely knew that it was a renunciation.

Many of the images that flash in my mind are weighing and colliding.

For a moment, I even thought, should I sing a song in a foolish way, so that the teacher in the audience thinks that this kid has no talent and fails the interview, but I found that I can't do it, first, because the status of opera in my heart is very high, and I deliberately sing blindly, which is a bit blasphemous, and second, Teacher Feng is still being slapped in the face by me, and then she will hear that I didn't sing seriously, and will blame my 'poor performance on my stage fright and nervousness......

Things will not pass easily, just the moment Mr. Feng pulled me to the stage, I saw Mr. Feng's persistence.

Maybe earlier, when I first met her, Teacher Feng said that learning Taoism is the quintessence of China, and learning opera is the quintessence of the country, study hard, you will have a great future, at that time my understanding of her words was very simple, if you like it, you will learn it, when I was on stage, I understood, Teacher Feng has always felt that learning Taoism is my hobby, and the same is true for learning opera, so the future of the two is compared together, she stands in my mother's point of view, and naturally wants to choose a career for me that is more acceptable to ordinary people, has more social influence, and has a brighter future.

She wasn't wrong, she was just that she gave all her heart rashly without my knowledge.

Sincere and fiery heart.

In the eyes of others, they may think that she is inexplicable and too self-righteous.

But this is her, and if you recognize you, she will be very fearless, the most true temperament.

How fortunate I am to have met Mr. Feng.

So I can't fool her, but, if I finish singing seriously, don't say what I will receive, whether the test will perform well, even if Teacher Yan does not accept me as an apprentice on the spot, according to Teacher Feng's character, she will be more sure that I am a good seedling, Teacher Yan does not see my excellence, other masters will definitely find out!

In another way, I finished singing hard, and then I went to say sorry to Mr. Feng afterwards, I couldn't engage in the opera industry.

She asked if she liked it? I said I like it, why can't I engage in this industry, I said that learning the Tao must save my life.

What life? You look healthy and lively, take a step back, you can also learn opera while being Mr. Yin and Yang, there is no school dedicated to teaching you Taoism, but there is a school dedicated to teaching you opera.

In other words, isn't your master also doing business and being Mr. Yin and Yang at the same time?

In the few short minutes I was on the stage, I realized that I couldn't convince her.

In the end, there will only be two results, Ms. Feng is disappointed in me, or she pays more for me.

I chose the former and sang the song I had written.

In disguise, explain why I made this choice.

Of course, Teacher Feng wouldn't listen at all in that situation, she would only think that I couldn't get on the wall.

Even so, I wanted to sing to myself, and at that moment, I needed to be firm in my heart.

I need to go back and see how I got here, step by step.

It's an honor to be appreciated, but without my master, I wouldn't have a chance

Go and get any glory.

In the process of singing, I knew that Mr. Feng was pushed away by me.

This affection was cut off by me.

I don't know if I'm cold-blooded, calm, or too sober.

The only thing I know is that in some cases, I have to be ruthless.

If I don't be ruthless, I'm probably not going to be able to keep one of them, and I'll be disappointed on both sides.

But when Ms. Feng's tears fell on my forehead, she said that she would never see each other again......

I still broke down.

Because I know that I am not just pushing away Mr. Feng.

This kind of emotion, I will never have again.

Although it is nothing compared to life and death, death just hurts, but this kind of parting is always painful, always painful.

"Manager Qi, I want to say sorry to my brothers."

I controlled my trembling voice, "I shouted those words on the wall, not to question anyone, the agreement was agreed by me, not who forced me to go up the wall, when I shouted, I was just venting......

"The night before Brother Hou and they scared me, Qian'an once said that going up the bar and the wall is a thorn in Brother Hou's heart, and I said at that time, if I can't go up the wall in my life, you won't be able to recognize me in this life?"

With an ugly smile, I looked at Manager Qi, "But at that time, I was actually able to go up, the reason why I didn't tell Qian'an was not that I was holding my breath to slap someone's face, but that I wanted everyone to accept me first, treat me as a sister first, and then ......."

I can't tell what kind of psychology it is, like a parent loves his child, he will not love him because the child has scored 100 points, but he loves the child himself and will encourage him to get 100 points, right?

Just like Master accepted me as an apprentice, it was not because of how good I was, but because Master was the first to recognize me and give me self-confidence.

Manager Qi opened his mouth obscurely, and before he could speak, I nodded along with him, "I understand, I know that the situation is different, several brothers have requirements for Master's apprentices, and if I don't meet the standards, it will be difficult for them to accept me, but I just want to get that acceptance first, I tell myself not to be too greedy, I understand everything, I can think about it, but I still ...... Screw."

"At that point yesterday, everything came together, and I couldn't control it."

I relieved the sourness in my nasal passages, "Manager Qi, I have to say sorry to the five brothers, it's me who is hypocritical."

"No, you're not hypocritical, it's just emotion and reason colliding."

Manager Qi whispered, "I've seen you cry, you're a girl who doesn't dare to cry loudly, you are very tolerant, beyond the ordinary, that's why you will be very out of control when you break out, but your performance yesterday was very good, you proved everything with your strength, and they understand your feelings, no one blames you, on the contrary, they have to compensate you."