Chapter 12: Self-deception
Pictures of his past life came to mind one by one, and finally he drank poison and jumped off the edge of the cliff, leaving no bones.
Isn't it all irreversible?
Even if he did it all over again, he still ended the same way.
Love but can't.
The cold eyes were a little stubbornly red, and he just looked at her like this, for a long time, and confided a few words word by word.
"I, no, I believe it."
That look is unbearable to watch.
Even Shi Lin was a little hesitant, but quickly realized that she could not be a stand-in for anyone, even if she occupied this body at the moment.
Since she is the one who occupies the body now, then she is the owner of this body.
No matter how much Zhisu likes the original body, she is not.
She also disdains to accept feelings that don't belong to her, so it's better to break off thoughts that shouldn't have earlier.
"Believe it or not."
Shi Lin turned around and left, without a trace of nostalgia, and the ruthless appearance was the same as in his previous life.
She was still her, and she didn't love him.
But it doesn't matter, this time she just met him, and it's normal to have no feelings, so you can take your time.
Zhisu knew that he could be called self-deception, but there seemed to be no other way than this.
He couldn't let her go.
I can't let go until I die.
Then sink as before.
During this time, no matter how cold Shi Lin was to him and spoke hurtfully, Zhisu still turned a deaf ear to her, treating her gently and considerately and meticulously.
The surface is indifferent and cold, but the behavior is very focused and serious.
If you change anyone, you will be soft-hearted.
Even when the time came, there was a momentary wavering, but it was only for a moment.
The person he likes, not her.
Therefore, she will not be willing to be someone else's shadow.
Everything that happened in this life has been out of track with the previous life, Shi Lin did not return to the palace, nor was he poisoned, avoiding the possibility of acquaintance with Jun Chu, but it also disrupted the original marriage.
For example, Ouyang Hui has already determined that Shi Lin is his fiancée, and he comes back to the National Teacher's Mansion to see her in three days, and sometimes takes her out to play.
"Ah Lin, are you going to go today?"
When Zhisu asked this sentence, he had a bit of hope.
Every time Ouyang asked her out, she would go.
"Hmm."
She is a little unaccustomed to the plain white she wears today, but the freshness is troublesome, and it doesn't hurt to wear it.
What she didn't pay attention to was that Zhisu rarely called the original body with a name in the past, and even if she did, she also shouted Shiye, and never called Ah Lin.
She would only shout like that.
He lowered his head slightly, his silver-gray eyes dimmed, but he withdrew his hand and pursed his lips.
"Come back early, then."
Shi Lin was inexplicably a little bored, but he couldn't say the specifics, so he finally chose to ignore it and went out to the appointment.
Today, I made an appointment to go to the lake with Ouyang Huan, and the young general bought a beautiful rabbit lantern for her, but it was daytime now, and it looked a little ordinary.
He thought that his daughter's family should like this kind of gadget, so J chose one for her.
Until night, the rabbit lamp emits a halo that illuminates the surroundings.
"You seem to be in a bad mood today?"
"Huh?"
When you raise your eyebrows slightly, you're in a bad mood?
"I see that you don't talk much today and smile less, so I guess if you're in a bad mood, or if I'm doing something bad and making you unhappy?"
The young man in front of him was dressed in flamboyant red, different from Zhisu Qingqing and noble, he had sword eyebrows and starry eyes, red lips and white teeth, and beautiful facial features, like a rich flower in the world, at his fingertips.
That's enough.
How did you think of Zhisu.
It's even more annoying.
"I'm not in a bad mood, it's not early today, I'll go back first."
"Alright then, I'll send you."
Ouyang Yan didn't ask much, drove the boat to the shore, and waited for her to go ashore before going up by herself.
"No thanks, thank you for the lantern."
Shi Lin replied faintly, and walked away with the rabbit lamp in her hand, in fact, she didn't like this kind of thing very much.
Outside the National Teacher's Mansion, there was still a person standing, who had been waiting here since she left, and had not moved until dark.
The silver hair was blown up by the cold wind, and the mask covered the face coldly, and the eyes moved when they saw the comer.
"I'm back."
"Don't wait for me."
Shi Lin's attitude was very indifferent, and he walked away from him, but he was grabbed by the wrist, and his hands were very cold.
Now that the end of autumn is about to enter winter, he is still standing here for a day, and he really doesn't know that he is afraid of the cold?