Fu Qingjiao went crazy for a while after her plan was punctured and her father Fu Qiuyuan died tragically in prison.

She was trapped in the palace and couldn't go out, and the palace people around her said that they were here to serve her, but they were clearly taking care of her.

On such a dark day, how could someone as arrogant as Fu Qingjiao stand it?

It was under such circumstances that Fu Qingjiao looked at the young Sixth Prince, and had the urge to strangle his son to death for a while, and since then he has been over.

However, when her fingers were placed on the neck of the Sixth Prince, which was so slender and soft that it seemed to be easily broken, she finally failed to give her heart.

After all, this is the child she conceived and gave birth to in October, even if the child's father is no longer there, even if this child can no longer help her sit in a higher position, she can't bear to hurt him.

With such a hesitation, the six princes slowly grew up unconsciously.

He learned to walk, he would pull the corner of Fu Qingjiao's clothes and call his mother in a milky voice, his smart eyes were full of clarity, everything was so clean and harmless in his world.

In this way, Fu Qingjiao will no longer be ruthless.

It's the world that is dirty, it's her, not this kid who doesn't know anything.

It was she who brought such a clean child into the world.

So she can blame everyone, not the child.

Fu Qingjiao never thought of taking the six princes to die with her, and even wanted to survive herself.

Fu Qingjiao raised him silently in the deep palace.

As the Six Princes grew up, it was obviously not appropriate for him to continue to live in the palace.

Leng Mo Dye saw that Fu Qingjiao had not been a demon for many years, and let her go out of the palace with the six princes.

The six princes are the bloodline of the first emperor, and the first emperor specially instructed Leng Mo Dye to take care of him before he died, so the six princes were given a mansion in the capital after leaving the palace, and they were naturally crowned kings.

According to the regulations, the mother concubine of the six princes will be crowned the queen mother.

No one thought that Fu Qingjiao rejected the will of the queen mother, but said that she wanted to go to the nunnery to practice.

Although Leng Mo Ran was unexpected, seeing that Fu Qingjiao had no other bad intentions, he agreed to her request.

Fu Qingjiao ruthlessly left her parents, didn't even bring a maid, and found a nunnery to cut her home alone.

Watching the three thousand green silks slowly fall to the ground, Fu Qingjiao had a feeling that everything could be put down for a while.

She didn't feel like she was in the wrong place.

Fu Qingjiao chanted sutras every day, copied scriptures, and talked about Buddhism with her teacher.

The days passed slowly in such a plain life.

After living in the nunnery for a few years, Fu Qingjiao felt more and more that her state of mind had become more and more peaceful.

You can also calmly face everything you have experienced in the past.

Whether it's painful or unwilling......

Thinking that back then, she died of heart because she wanted to marry Xiao Xizhi, and entered the palace as a concubine as if she was angry, she felt naïve and ridiculous.

There are many good men in the world, even if there is no cold ink dyeing, she is not unable to find a good marriage.

It's a pity that she was arrogant at that time and didn't want to admit that she lost to Xiao Xixi, so she chose to enter the palace to prove herself.

It didn't even occur to her if these were really what she wanted.

After entering the palace, Emperor Honghui really doted on her.

This kind of favor can't be compared with other concubines at all.

Fu Qingjiao even felt that her status in Emperor Honghui's heart was definitely not lost to Empress Murong Xi.

But as an emperor, there are so many women in Emperor Honghui's harem, and Fu Qingjiao is just one of them.

No matter how pampered you are, you can't be spoiled alone.

Emperor Honghui wanted to divide his favor into many parts and give it to countless concubines in the harem.

Assigned to Fu Qingjiao, no matter how pampered she is, it is already so subtle that it can't be done.

Fu Qingjiao forced her heart to cool down, and at the same time persuaded herself that the emperor was like this, she didn't have to be too emotional.

Since she wants to enjoy the dignity brought by the emperor's favor, she also has to accept that the emperor has other women.

The good things in the world cannot be taken up by one person.

But after seeing that Leng Mo Dye ascended the throne, and Xiao Xixi was still the only one in the harem, Fu Qingjiao suddenly understood that there would be such a love.

No matter where you and I are, we only have each other in our hearts, and we can't tolerate anyone else.

Emperor Honghui's affection for her is just a concubine's favor, not this deep love.

After thinking about it, Fu Qingjiao couldn't help but laugh dumbly.

She had never seen such a love before, and she didn't know it could be like this.

And she didn't think she'd be able to get it.

This kind of love can be met but not sought.

Fu Qingjiao thinks back now that she feels that she has done too many wrong things in the past, but in those times, she doesn't think that what she did was wrong.

But now that I think about it, I not only feel that it was a big mistake, but also feel ridiculous and naïve.

She clearly doesn't love Emperor Honghui and has no feelings for him, but she enters the palace as a concubine as if she is angry, and competes for favor with a group of women every day.

She clearly did not covet power, but poisoned and murdered the former prince, just to put her son on the throne.

But was that really what she wanted?

Probably not.

Even her son, the Sixth Prince, probably doesn't necessarily want to ascend to the throne by murdering his brother.

Fortunately, none of the things she did succeeded.

Fu Qingjiao even vaguely felt that in a certain life, the sixth prince ascended the throne and she became the queen mother, but those were not what she wanted.

Even if she sits in a high position, she will not know what to do next, and life will start to become like a pool of stagnant water.

Lifeless.

Now, she puts down all the things of the emperor's concubines, and her daily concern is to chant scriptures and participate in meditation, eat fast and go to bed, simple little things, can make her experience unprecedented happiness and comfort.

She thought she would have figured this out sooner.

and they will not live in vain for so many years.

Many years later, Fu Qingjiao, who was in the nunnery, met Leng Mo Ran, who had abdicated, and Xiao Xixi came to live with Shangxiang.

Fu Qingjiao was already able to calmly shout "donor", and then poured tea for the two of them without any waves.

She has long let go of the love she had for Leng Mo Dye when she was young.

has also let go of his hatred for Xiao Xixi.

Love or not love is not something that can be simply explained.

Even if she encountered Leng Mo Dye earlier, Leng Mo Dye didn't have her in her heart.

In the past, she couldn't accept it, but now, she can finally face it calmly.

Xiao Xixi also smiled at Fu Qingjiao and told her that the sixth prince is now very good in the capital, and the eldest princess Yongzhao is ready to choose a princess for him.

After Fu Qingjiao heard this, she also smiled indifferently, she believed that the eldest princess would choose a good marriage for the six princes.

How nice it would have been if we had been so indifferent earlier?

Fortunately, it's not too late now.

She still has time to slowly feel the beauty that life brings.

For the rest of her life, she just wanted to spend her days in silence in the nunnery, and it was enough to see the six princes being able to marry and have children with their beloved.

(End of chapter)