Autumn is high and crisp, and there are no clouds.

Sitting in a tractor trailer, Mucha humming out-of-tune pop songs, follows her family to harvest corn.

"Second sister, what song are you singing, why haven't I heard it?" Mu Jin sat on the side, listening to her second sister no longer singing, so she asked curiously.

Mucha hasn't reacted yet: "Ah, what song?"

"It's the song you just hummed," Mu Jin reminded, "What's worthy?" Match! That's it. ”

Mucha sighed in her heart, how could she sing the pop songs of 2022, she was vigilant, and said vaguely: "Ah, this, I don't know, I just heard it in my classmate's MP3, by the way, did you use the method I taught you last time?"

"I used it, second sister, the method you told me last time was so useful, I don't understand anything in class now, I went to the teacher after class, I found that learning is really an interesting thing." Mu Jin said with a bright face, and the whole person exuded a confident brilliance.

Mucha patted his younger brother on the shoulder and said happily: "That's right, learning is the fastest and easiest way for us to change our destiny, you see my parents face the loess every day, just so that we can go to school and be easier in the future, so we must not live up to those tuition fees."

"Second sister, how do you talk like your parents, and you still look old-fashioned." Mu Jin looked at her second sister's outstretched hand and dodged to the side.

Mucha didn't touch his brother's ear, pretended to be fierce, and said: "Are you looking for a fight, you just say, the method I taught you, does it work?"

Mu Jin came over with a grin: "It works, it works. Second sister, when do you plan to go to grandma's house, I will go with you then. ”

"Don't you like to go to your grandmother's house, why did you take the initiative to ask to go this time?" Mucha didn't know what to do.

Mu Jin scratched his head and said: "Last time, didn't I take a book from you, just the book you brought from my uncle's house, I finished reading it, I didn't think about it, I also went to see it, maybe there are books I am interested in, the extracurricular book I read, it is interesting."

Mucha thought for a moment and replied: "When we break corn, ask Mom before deciding, and Uncle They must also be harvesting in the autumn, if we want to go, we will try to find a night to pass, and Uncle and they should also return home at that time."

"Okay, it's time for the cornfield, I'll ask Mom." Mu Jin said with a smile.

……

Standing in the trailer, Mucha looked around at the large cornfields, with only a few tractors parked here and there, and busy farmers shuttling between the corn stalks of equal height.

I saw a tractor trailer full of corn cobs, shining golden in the autumn sun.

When Mu He parked the tractor in a cornfield, Mucha saw Li Xiangxiang who was cutting corn stalks, and realized that the land under his feet was his own cornfield.

If it weren't for his family, Muxia, who hadn't been to his own field for ten years, would definitely have gone to someone else's cornfield to break corn.

Mucha got out of the car, and before she could stand on her feet, she heard her mother's roar.

As soon as Li Xiangxiang saw Muxia, she opened her mouth and scolded: "Muxia, why didn't you come back yesterday afternoon, every time you worked, you grinded, you didn't think about coming back early, helping us do more work, when you opened your mouth to ask for money, why was it very fast, could it be that the money was blown by the wind?"

"I ......" Before Mucha could think of what to say, he was interrupted by Mu He.

"Okay, don't talk about Xiao Xia anymore, every time I have a long vacation, the bus is very nervous, you can't squeeze it if you want to, just last time I went to give Xiao Xia a parent-teacher conference, the bus was full." Mu He said as he loaded the trailer with corn.

"And Xiao Xia also came back early today, and when I went back to pour corn, Xiao Jin was still sleeping."

"Xiao Jin is now the time to grow her body, what will happen if you sleep more." Li Xiangxiang muttered, and shouted at Mucha again, "Hurry up and break the corn, what are you doing standing there, do you want me to invite you?"

Mucha and his younger brother glanced at each other, quickly broke the corn, and rejoiced in their hearts, "Fortunately, Dad blocked it for me, if I told the reason, Mom would definitely not reveal it easily."

Get busy, and time flies.

During the autumn harvest season, if the peasants do not have time to go home to eat, they will eat casually in the shade of their fields, rest for a while, and continue to work.

When the sun was scorching, Mucha cooked noodles in the shade of a tree using his father's makeshift stove.

After more than ten years, Mucha once again ate the soup noodles that fell into the sand, and her heart was full of guilt and incomprehension.

At that time, why couldn't she understand it, obviously her parents had done their best to provide the best to their sisters and brothers, even if her mother favored her sister and younger brother, but her father still favored herself, why did she feel that no one loved her, and she was so emo.

After a simple lunch, Mucha lay down on a snakeskin bag of corn stalks, her parents already snoring.

Listening to the snoring of her parents one after another, Mucha only felt extremely relieved, and after a while, she also fell into a deep sleep.

Every day in the morning sun, with the moonlight home, after dinner, Mucha still hurried to complete the homework assigned by the teacher.

Thinking of her previous life, every time she went home on holidays, she always kept the homework assigned by the teacher and went back to school to copy other people's.

At that time, she always used the excuse that she worked during the day, and went to bed after eating at night, and did not pay attention to her studies at all.

Now that I think about it, there is a basis for not studying well.

High school is completely self-conscious, and during the holidays, when others study during the day, she is working; While others were still studying at night, she had already fallen asleep.

And the holidays are the easiest to pull away, it's really a step behind, step by step.

This time Mucha learned a lesson, although it was ten o'clock after eating every night and washing the pots and dishes, she still insisted on studying for an hour, and then got up half an hour early the next day to recite every day.

……

The sun and the moon alternate, and before you know it, the day is October 6th.

"Second sister, when are we going to grandma's house, we will go back to school tomorrow." Mu Jin sat at the dining table to catch up with homework.

Mucha looked at the time, and said: "Mom will come back from the vegetable selection later, let me ask, if the sunflowers in the field can be harvested earlier in the afternoon, we will go early, how much homework do you have?"

"Now it's all left to write essays and copy English words, I'll write some in the afternoon, and tomorrow before I go to school, I'll write some more, I'm sure I'll be able to finish it." Mu Jin hurriedly reassured.

Reconciled, Mucha washed his hands and said, "Okay, that mom is back, I'll ask."

"What are you going to ask me?" Carrying a basket of vegetables, Li Xiangxiang walked into the kitchen.

Before Mucha could organize the language, Mu Jin on the side couldn't wait to ask: "Mom, my second sister and I want to go to grandma's house, can we go today?"

"Muxia, did you instigate Xiao Jin to go with you?" Li Xiangxiang didn't wait for Mucha to say anything, so she scolded, "Every time you have a holiday, you think about going to your grandmother's place, am I short for you to eat or short for you to drink, are you going to your grandmother to sue me again?"

"Mom, I didn't, I just wanted to go and see my grandparents, and you said to sue, what should I sue?" Mucha was stunned by what her mother said.

Li Xiangxiang didn't listen to Mucha at all, and still scolded: "You still said no, when did Xiao Jin take the initiative to say that he went to see his grandmother, if it wasn't for your instigation, who else could there be?"

"When I delivered something to your grandmother last week, your grandmother also told me to give you more money, saying that you have worked hard to go to school, and you don't have enough money to spend, so don't go hungry. If you hadn't said it, what would your grandmother have told me? Li Xiangxiang said endlessly.

Mucha listened to her mother's scolding and recalled her daily life with her grandparents during the summer vacation.

"Xia Xia, don't you usually eat well at school, why are you losing weight again?" Grandma grabbed Mucha's hand and asked kindly.

"Grandma, I have a good meal, I eat a big bowl of rice every time." Mucha drew with his hands.

"Then your mother gives you a hundred yuan, is it enough for you to spend a month? I heard your cousin say that he needs 300 yuan a month in high school. Grandma babbled.

"I'll save some money, enough to spend. Besides, my cousin is a boy, and he eats a lot more than me, so he must spend a lot of money. Mucha said with a grin.

Thinking of these warm chat pictures, Mucha guessed that it was because of these words that her grandmother taught her mother a lesson?

Mu Jin saw that her mother scolded indiscriminately, and stopped: "Mom, don't scold the second sister, I want to go by myself, our teacher asked us to read more books, but our family only has school books, so I thought about asking my cousin to borrow a book to read."

"Xiao Jin, is what you said true?" Li Xiangxiang couldn't believe it.

Mu Jin immediately said: "Mom, will I still lie to you? In the past, I didn't like to read and study, but now, I use the method taught by my second sister, and I find that learning is really interesting. ”

"Our Xiao Jin has grown up and is sensible, whatever book you want to read, I'll take you to buy it." Li Xiangxiang happily touched Mu Jin's head.

Mu Jin was afraid of his mother, so he was going to take him to buy books now, so he hurriedly interrupted: "Mom, my cousin has a lot of books at home, I'll ask my cousin first, if my cousin has it, we don't have to spend any more money to buy it."

"Our Xiaojin is sensible and knows that she feels sorry for her mother. Then you can go with your second sister in the afternoon, and after dinner, I will bring something to your grandmother and them, and you will take it when you go. Li Xiangxiang said, and went to pack her things.

Seeing that her mother said that the wind was rain, Mucha hurriedly said: "Mom, don't worry, let's go later in the afternoon, at that time, my uncle and they will also return home."

"Didn't you say that you were going to see your grandmother, you were late, what could you do, waiting for your grandmother to cook for you? After lunch, go early, wash your grandmother's clothes, and bed sheets and quilts, and go to help your grandmother do more work. Li Xiangxiang lowered her face coldly.

Mucha thought of the sunflowers in the field and hesitated: "Mom, will you collect the remaining sunflower heads tomorrow?"

"You and Xiao Jin went to your grandmother's house, so you can only go with me and your father in the afternoon, and you can't count on you for the work at home." After Li Xiangxiang finished speaking, she went to wash the vegetables.

Mucha stood still, her heart rippling.

Reborn back, even though she had thought it out a long time ago, she no longer expected anything from her mother, and no longer expected love from her.

She also knows that a person's love is limited, and her mother has already divided her love with her sister and brother, and there is no more love for her at all.

But Mucha is still sour, her mother has two faces on her and her younger brother, and it seems that her heart is still not strong enough.

Mucha squeezed her hand tightly, allowing her to withdraw from this emotion, comforting herself in her heart, she still has her father, sister and brother, grandparents and grandmothers who love her, so many people care for her, she is happy enough.

She needs to be stronger, and she needs to love herself more.