Everyone has secrets, and the nature of human curiosity makes some people like to make secrets or like to peep secrets, which is not part of the moral framework, this is the dark side of intelligent animals but also the motivation for the development of certain things, so from this point of view, the exploration of the unknown territory must break through the limits of law and morality. In order to alleviate this contradiction, the exploration is constantly deepening, and the legal and moral standards are also constantly being revised and improved. So, once people understand the essence of the secret, there will be a brief period of confusion. For example, if you suddenly discover a secret mechanism of close-up magic, you will suddenly feel bored. This confusion comes from the temporary absence of rules, which are the rules that you believe in the magic performance to follow.

Xiao Xun sat in a hotel room, writing a diary on his laptop, he wrote, "Like Shen Liang, war can destroy a person's body, but it can't destroy a person's determination to survive, but after surviving the baptism of war, what kind of mood should you use to spend the rest of your life?" This is something I can't guess as a post-80s generation, but it is worth affirming that a certain part of human nature will be strengthened, such as the will will be more resolute, or to create or to destroy......" At this time, he looked out the window, the night of the capital was becoming thicker, a crescent moon was like a silver hook in the night sky, the prosperity here is beyond imagination, and a city is only seen more realistically at this time, its lights, its pulsation, its charming lines outlined by neon. Xiao Xun stood up, walked to the window, and caressed the city with his eyes, he enjoyed the pleasure brought to him by this perspective, it was by no means the window of his own office, everything needed to look up. It suddenly occurred to him that if he had chosen another life, he might have been a very good businessman.

The doorbell in the room rang, and Xiao Xun subconsciously glanced at his watch, it was ten fifty o'clock in the evening. Xiao Xun thought, who could it be?

Xiao Xun opened the door, and surprisingly, there was Mr. Peng standing at the door, he walked into the door without Xiao Xun's consent, and closed the door again at the first time, Xiao Xun felt that he was very unreasonable and was about to say something, Mr. Peng took out something from his tunic and handed it to him. It was an old-fashioned Nokia 5110 phone, and Peng said in Mandarin with a strong Thai accent, "Mr. Shen asked me to hand it over to you." With that, he turned around and opened the door and left. Xiao Xun held his mobile phone and froze in place. Shen Liang: What does this mean? If he guessed correctly, he wanted to have a one-line contact with Xiao Xun in the future. It was all through Feng Xiaoling before, do you still have to carry Feng Xiaoling on your back for some things?

Just thinking of this, the doorbell rang again, Xiao Xun subconsciously put 5110 into his pocket, who is it?

Xiao Xun opened the door again, and Feng Xiaoling stood outside the door, she was wearing a bathrobe and her hair was wet. Feng Xiaoling didn't go through Xiao Xun's consent, and entered the room while muttering, "The hair dryer is broken, why do you want to stay in this kind of business hotel, isn't it good to go to the Wangfu Peninsula with me?" As she spoke, she glared at Xiao Xun who was standing at the door, Feng Xiaoling walked into the bathroom, and then the buzz of a hair dryer came from inside. For a while, Xiao Xun was a little overwhelmed, he didn't know whether to continue to stand at the door or return to the computer, his mind was a little messy.

Just when he hesitated, Feng Xiaoling walked out, she wrapped her arms around Xiao Xun's neck, raised her toes and kissed it affectionately, the strap of the bathrobe had fallen off, and the bumpy figure was revealed in the bathrobe. Xiao Xun was a little at a loss, and his mind was even more chaotic. The coldness of his wife Zhou Yang trapped the desire and lust in Xiao Xun's heart, the chains of morality suppressed the passion of the original blue beast, and the tower of reason was crumbling before the wind and rain.

A spring breeze blew through the treetops, swaying like undried hair. The street lamps were on fire, and they became more and more warm and confused in the darkness. Wild cats moaned in the corners, and spring was near. Who is playing the amorous jazz, singing her love and hot lips, who is wandering on the side of the street, looking for the youth and nostalgia of the past.

Xiao Xun's fingertips crossed Feng Xiaoling's curves, like a sailboat lost in the sea, he looked at the sleeping Feng Xiaoling, and his heart had never been so calm for many years. Instead of recalling the past or planning for the future, he is willing to walk to the end of time with the cursed mysterious treasure like the greedy dragon in Western mythology.

Xiao Xun gently kissed Feng Xiaoling's forehead, he likes Feng Xiaoling like books. But he didn't love Feng Xiaoling because he had no reason to love her. Feng Xiaoling also knew that it was impossible for her to marry Xiao Xun, and marriage was not the result she wanted. As the song sings, "One night here, I left a lot of love, whether you love it or not, it is the dust of history." "Two trains deviated at the same time in the track of life and crashed to pieces, but they would rather do this than pass by in parallel.

When the first rays of sunlight slanted into the room in the morning, Xiao Xun was still asleep, Feng Xiaoling put on her bathrobe again and left, she returned to her door, and took out a small plastic bag from the makeup bag she carried, which contained some white powder...... Feng Xiaoling in front of the makeup mirror was extremely beautiful, she became excited and sober, but no matter what, Feng Xiaoling couldn't be happy, the more she thought back to last night's warmth, the more she hated her fate. Two lines of tears slipped from her eyes, and a montage of past events flashed through her mind.

In 1979, crossing the border, Gaoping City, a vanguard was ordered to carry out deep penetration but was discovered by the enemy's heavy army group, it was a fierce battle, as a reconnaissance company commander, Feng Xiaoling's father was surrounded in order to cover the evacuation of his comrades, and the instructor Shen Liang led the rest of the troops to withdraw to a safe area, and returned alone to meet the company commander. After the two met, they fought and retreated until they ran out of bullets. In order not to be captured by the enemy, Father Feng and Shen Liang sounded a glorious bullet. When Shen Liang woke up, he found that he had been rescued by a Thai businessman who was doing business in Gao Ping, and in order to save Shen Liang's life, he was injected with a large amount of poison. Since then, Shen Liang has returned to Chiang Rai with a Thai businessman, who turned out to be a big drug lord in the Golden Triangle. Later, Shen Liang married Chu Qi, the daughter of a drug lord.

When Shen Liang returned to China to do business, he funded Feng Xiaoling, who was still in high school, at first Feng Xiaoling didn't know Shen Liang's true identity, only knew that he was his father's old comrade-in-arms, but with the continuous in-depth understanding, the keen Feng Xiaoling still felt strange. She once forced Shen Liang to ask Shen Liang about the details with death, and Shen Liang finally compromised, but on the condition that Feng Xiaoling had to taste the poison. Feng Xiaoling once naively thought that her will could defeat drug addiction, but she failed.

What if life could be restarted? Feng Xiaoling imagined it countless times, and countless times his liver and intestines were broken.

When I returned to City C, it was already dark, and a black official car drove into the compound of the Education Bureau, and the leadership team of the Education Bureau did not get off work, and they were still waiting for the families of Xiao Xun and Yang Bureau. Under the leadership of Chen Ju, the leaders took Yang Ju's ashes to the conference room, and the memorial service will be held the next day, when the conference room has been decorated solemnly. When he was free, Chen Ju called Xiao Xun aside and counted the city leaders who will come tomorrow. In particular, Xiao Xun was told to write the memorial speech beautifully, because Vice Mayor Han Yin, who was in charge of personnel, wanted to speak on behalf of the city leaders. This night, Xiao Xun didn't sleep much, and he wrote a masterpiece comparable to Zhuge Hangxiao.

This eulogy was really extraordinary, and Chen Ju read it in the depths of his feelings, and the audience cried. In Xiao Xun's heart, Director Yang is indeed an excellent cadre, he is upright, honest, responsible, and willing to act. People like him because he has worked hard for the education of City C and never cares about personal gains and losses. As for the real-name report of Zhou Yang back then, Xiao Xun looked at it very lightly, in addition to feeling a little regretful in his heart, he also knew that this was a mistake, in fact, Xiao Xun did not approve of Lao Chen's proposal at the beginning, but Zhou Yang's attitude was very resolute, so he did it.

After the memorial service, Han Yin shook hands with Xiao Xun under the recommendation of Chen Ju, "Director Xiao's article is well written, young talent." Xiao Xun said modestly, "Thank you to the leader, it is Chen Ju's good guidance." Lao Chen suddenly felt that there was a light on his face, and naturally his eyebrows danced, "Director Yang's death is a loss to our bureau, since Lao Yang is sick, I am in charge of all the work under his hands, but I am also at this age, I am really powerless." Who else can I give it back? The bureau team is all over fifty years old, alas! Han Yin thought thoughtfully, "The team of your bureau really needs to replenish fresh blood, is there a suitable one?" There are suitable candidates to mention. A young man like Xiao Xun should go to a leadership position to exercise and exercise. Director Chen sighed, "Our team also has this meaning, but isn't it promoted alone?" Han Yin said, "Isn't your bureau a special situation, and the promotion of the firing line is the time to test the cadres." In this way, your bureau should hurry up and write a report about the actual situation, and I will report to the secretary when I go back. After speaking, he looked at Chen Ju, but patted Xiao Xun on the shoulder and said, "This report can't be written by Director Xiao to avoid suspicion." Xiao Xun saw it really, the two of them were playing double reeds, sometimes, this was not a tacit understanding, but a private word was expressed in a high-sounding way. Xiao Xun hurriedly expressed his gratitude and thanked the leaders for their cultivation.

Ten days later, the Education Bureau received the city's personnel appointment and dismissal documents, and Xiao Xun was promoted to the deputy position of deputy director of the bureau for a one-year probation.

On the day the document was issued, Xiao Xun received two phone calls, one was from Zhou Yang, and the two of them were coming back from H Province, and they were on the plane two days later. One was called by Feng Xiaoling, she congratulated Xiao Xun on his promotion and invited Xiao Xun to dinner, and in addition, she wanted Xiao Xun to accompany her to watch the just-released "Super Body".

Xiao Xun wrote in his diary that day, "No matter how beautiful the world is, there will be no return in the next life, there is only one reason, I feel that I have fallen into a temporary lack of rules." ”