Chapter 180: Warm and Cold at First + Crying Endlessly + Learning to Reconcile with the World

Returning to the crew of "Soul Ferryman", Ni Bingyan felt like it was warm and cold.

Bai Jing is an experiential school, filming urban love dramas with Ni Bingyan, in order to maintain his performance state, he treats her with an earnest attitude towards his girlfriend in and out of the play.

He is not like some actors with corrupt morals, under the banner of experiential school, playing children's dramas in the crew and throwing girlfriends, fascinating people, and doing everything he should do, but when he left the group after the finale, he broke up immediately.

He's a real experiential person, the kind with a bottom line.

The two get along, he is Gu Feng, Ni Bingyan is Wen Qing, except for the physical contact that should not be in place, he never does it.

Pure script, stop at reality.

Speaking of which, it is also a rare sobriety in the circle.

In the past, he often had scandals when filming, and most of the time the woman couldn't tell the difference between inside and outside the play, couldn't control herself, fell into his affectionate eyes, and couldn't help chasing after him.

Ni Bingyan is sober-minded and won't really fall in love with him because of this, but getting along with him is still relaxed and happy.

The director's ability is excellent, there is no difficulty in filming romance dramas, and the partner is easy to deal with, Ni Bingyan has been here for a few days, and his life is very comfortable.

However, when he arrived at "The Ferryman of Souls", smelling the smell of incense, candles, paper and money in the air, listening to the wailing from the mourning hall, and looking at the props and wreaths piled in the corner, Ni Bingyan's mood suddenly became heavy.

Thinking of this week's script, I feel even more prickly all over my body, and I feel uncomfortable anywhere.

"You are now Han Su, the older sister in a patriarchal family. You have a brother who is two years younger than you, and unlike you, who is despised, your brother is adored by a thousand people.

"From childhood to adulthood, when he makes mistakes, you are beaten, he is injured, and you have to be beaten even more, even if he just protects you and says a few words for you, you still have to be beaten. Because you dare to provoke your brother to take the blame for you.

"At the end of the college entrance examination, although the score is ideal, it is easy for you to find a job in order to graduate, and the tuition fee is low and the bonus is high, so you can choose the funeral major without relying on your family. After work, you save money and buy a house in the city on your own.

"You first moved your hukou to the school, then from the school to the workplace, and then to the city.

"You never go back to your hometown during the Chinese New Year, and your contact information is not left at home, even if it is your younger brother, you only contact him online, and you unilaterally abandon the person who treated you badly in your childhood.

"Your job is special, your interpersonal relationships are simple, two o'clock a day, and in addition to home, it is the funeral home.

"You think you've completely gotten rid of this home, you think you can start a new life, you think your life is finally on track, you're peaceful, content, cold, numb.

"Until early that morning, a deceased person arrived at the hospital. The deceased died in a car accident, his internal organs were shattered, he was bleeding profusely, and he was rescued overnight, but in the end he was not rescued.

"The hospital issued a death certificate, and the family took the person to the funeral home. When you open the body bag, you find that lying there, lifeless, is your own brother who you love and hate.

Your hands start shaking, your eyes drift uncontrollably to the side, you can't believe what you're seeing, your eyes quickly turn red, you look up at the sky, tears running down your cheeks, wetting your mask.

"You think you've forgotten your life, but when you see this pale face, you immediately remember. In fact, in the family that suffocates you, the care from your brother is the only warmth you have ever felt.

"You hate him deeply, you hate the injustice of fate, let you be reincarnated into this family, and reincarnated as a girl, you hate his existence to make your life more and more difficult, hate that he is so small, but so easily, with the attitude of a protector, in front of you.

"But you love him. He is the only brother of your mother, and the only person in this family who has shown kindness to you.

"It was he who encouraged you to be admitted to college and escape from this home, and it was he who kept telling you that you are actually very good, and your family dislikes you, not because you are not good enough, but because they are not ...... right"

Li Yiru is a very good director, although she is young, she has been with her father in the crew since she was a child.

If you really want to talk about the experience of filming, compared with her, many of her peers are just empty for many years.

She is especially good at guiding the emotions of the actors, and before each filming, she will talk to the actors.

She speaks in detail, and the rhythm is very immersive, even if the actors who are not so good at acting, under her guidance, they can also burst into wonderful performances, if the acting skills are good, the effect is even more extraordinary.

Probably, this is also one of the reasons why this TV series, which has a very unpopular theme, has such a strong empathy ability.

If nothing else, let's just say that most of the owners in their community who went to see their grandchildren last week have not returned home yet!

"Do you understand how I want to feel?"

Seeing her looking at herself, Ni Bingyan nodded, signaling that she was ready.

She was well prepared, and the director expressed her thoughts so clearly, just like a top student who had a solid review before the exam, and met a teacher who liked to focus on the key points, everything became easier.

"Finally, check out the makeup props! Departments get ready, go down first! ”

The ministries had already been prepared, and when they heard the shouting, they checked it again.

At the end of the walk, seeing that there is no problem, all departments have signaled that they can start.

Li Yiru stared at the machine and signaled: "All in place, ready!" Action! ”

The scene was recorded, and the corpse movers pushed the deceased into the funeral room.

Han So, who had just gotten off the night shift, yawned and entered the door while wearing a mask.

"It's so early today?"

"Last night's car accident, rescued overnight, not in the early morning, the family said that they couldn't delay a good hour, and they called several times in a row, and kept urging. Hey, I heard that it was an only child, it's pitiful, the family cried so much that I had no choice but to pick it up early. ”

Han Su put on a mask and rubber gloves, and was tying an apron, when the junior sister came.

"Senior sister, you just got off the night shift, hurry back and rest, why don't you leave it to me!"

"It's okay for the car accident, I'll be with you!"

The master is not here, and she is afraid that the junior sister will not be able to handle it alone.

The corpse movers had other tasks, and the deceased arrived, and left.

The two sisters got ready and came to the operating table.

The junior sister opened the waterproof body bag, Han Su glanced at it casually, saw the face of the deceased clearly, and the makeup bag in her hand immediately fell to the ground.

Hearing the movement, the junior sister looked up and looked at her in surprise: "Senior sister, what's wrong?" ”

In my impression, the senior sister works neatly and has strong emotional management, when she first came, she couldn't help crying when she met someone who died miserably, and the senior sister only came a year before her, but she was always calm.

What's going on today?

Han Su's eyes were red, and his hands trembled uncontrollably.

The moment he looked up at the ceiling, two lines of tears flowed down the corners of his eyes, and the brand-new blue mask was suddenly wet.

Not only for her younger brother, but also for the corpse movers' "only child".

"Woo woo woo ......"

After a few moments, she lowered her head, covered her face with her hands, and let out a suppressed cry of great mourning.

Seeing her sister coming over, she was like an injured little beast who didn't want people to see it, turned around and turned her back to the camera.

The emaciated back trembled slightly, and the cry lingered in the room, and the senior sister walked up to her anxiously: "Senior sister, what's wrong?" ”

After a while, the cute junior sister suddenly realized: "This person ...... Do you know? ”

"He's me...... Brother. ”

Han Su took a deep breath and took a long time to say this.

Crying made it difficult for her to breathe, and she walked out of the mortuary quickly.

The younger sister didn't care about anything else, so she hurriedly chased out.

She can't hold tears when she is buried, she can't handle the corpse of the car accident, and the master hasn't come yet, so she has to hurry up and coax the senior sister to do it!

"Over!"

Li Yiru has rarely scolded Ni Bingyan recently.

She still likes this kind of actor who can always accurately understand her meaning and work very efficiently.

"Take a break, adjust your position, and do it again."

Seeing that the group actor who played his younger brother wanted to sit up, Li Yiru became the tyrant on the set again, and immediately scolded: "Don't move!" I'm not done yet! ”

The group of actors was lying on the stage, half of their bodies were still in the body bag, rolling their eyes and sighing: "Hey! Lying here weird and panicked! ”

"It's all props, this is a storeroom, what are you afraid of? Rest assured, the red envelope tube is enough! ”

Ni Bingyan stood under the eaves, and he could still hear the uncontrollable laughter of the people in the house.

But she couldn't laugh.

It's not easy to get into the play, and it's also difficult to get out of the play.

Her mind was now full of the death of her only brother, and tears flowed uncontrollably.

Duanmuli brought a glass of water and asked her to sit down and drink lemonade.

The slightly cool lemonade was in her stomach, and she felt better.

"It's not over yet! Don't swell your eyes! ”

The makeup artist came over with an ice towel, afraid of ruining her makeup, and deliberately put a plastic bag on her eyes before applying it to her eyes.

The day was getting hotter and hotter, and the ice towel was applied to his eyes, and Ni Bingyan closed his eyes and felt much clearer.

That's right, she's acting, she can't get her brother~

After calming down a little, Ni Bingyan quickly recovered.

I re-shot it twice and started filming the second one.

Han Su was crying outside the funeral room, and the junior sister couldn't bear it, so she went behind her back to call the master.

Master had already arrived at the gate of the funeral home, received a call and ran in.

"Don't cry, do our business, sooner or later we will encounter such a thing, come, go with Master, send your brother on his last journey, let him leave decently, dress him up a little more energetically, and he will be happy in the next life."

Master is used to seeing this kind of thing, his face is calm, but there is tenderness in his eyes that cannot be hidden.

After doing this business for a long time, you will forget how to laugh, but the tenderness in your heart will not only not disappear, but will precipitate into compassion and calmness over time.

Han Su looked at the master fragily, wiped away his tears, nodded, took out a new mask, and put it back on.

"Farewell to the deceased, we want them to come cleanly, go cleanly, and stay decent on the Huangquan Road."

The master presided over the "old man bathing" ceremony, and Han Su looked at the hideous wound on his brother's chest and abdomen, and tears almost burst out of his eyes.

But seeing that the master's movements were gentle and delicate, and her expression was as solemn as ever, she finally controlled it.

Metamorphosis is only in a moment.

This kind of thing, as an undertaker, will encounter sooner or later.

She will gradually look down on life and death, and no longer be afraid of death.

She will gradually enjoy this special job and learn how to reconcile the injustices of this world.

Because she still has to film "Umbrella on a Rainy Day", after coordination, as long as she comes here, she will follow her filming, and after filming the second scene, the third scene is still hers.

In this scene, the younger brother was buried and sent to the mourning hall.

Han Su's parents and grandmothers suddenly cried to the sky.

She stood at the back door, looking at it with mixed feelings.

The colleague who was arranging the mourning hall saw her standing outside the door and didn't leave, thinking that she had something to do, so he called her: "Xiao Su!" ”

Han's mother, who was crying with the ice coffin, suddenly raised her head.

Han Su saw her red and swollen eyes, and immediately ran away in a panic.

Han's mother felt that something was wrong, so she got up from the ground and chased her out the back door!

"Xiao Su! Xiao Su! Isn't it you? Isn't it you? ”

When Han Su went to college, her family filled in her younger brother, who knew where she went to college and where she worked after graduation, but he never bothered her.

Not only that, but he also hid it from his family for her and did not allow his family to look for her.

For the sake of this precious single seedling, the family really hasn't looked for her for so many years.

But that was before.

Now the only root is broken, and the daughter has become precious.

Han's mother ran so much that her shoes fell off, and the funeral home shouted "Xiao Su", and some staff saw that she was so excited that they thought something had happened, so they came to ask her:

"Eldest sister, what's wrong with you?"

In a place like a funeral home, yelling and yelling has a bad impact, and furthermore, if something happens to the family of the deceased here, it will also be troublesome for the unit, so the staff has an excellent attitude.

"I'm looking for my daughter! My daughter Xiao Su! ”

The man thought that her daughter was lost, and hurriedly asked her:

"How old is your daughter? What to wear? Let's go to the radio room and shout, maybe naughty and don't know where to run. ”

How old is my daughter?

Han Mu was stunned for a moment.

How old is her daughter?

Seeing that the staff member looked at her with a concerned face, Han's mother replied with empty eyes: "My daughter, her name is Han Su." ”

In fact, she is not sure whether her daughter is still called by this name, because her hukou has been secretly moved away for many years, and it is very easy to change her name.

"Han Su? We have an undertaker named Han Su here, what a coincidence! ”

Remembering that the girl at the back door was also wearing a funeral home uniform just now, Han's mother suddenly perked up and nodded hurriedly: "It's her!" ”

In this line of work, it is easy to have conflicts with her parents, and that person is not strange, and directly shows her the way:

"Her office is over there, you can look for it! Hey, the blood relationship is endless! Between mother and daughter, how can there be an overnight feud? It's good to open up. ”

Outsiders think it's not good to do this business, but they are under the civil affairs department, a serious public institution, how many people want to be admitted, but they can't get in!

Xiaohan is a professional counterpart, has strong work ability, has a compilation, and is beautiful, as far as he knows, there are many suitors!

If it's his daughter, the baby will die! Don't want to be angry with her!

Han's mother walked to the mortuary's office in a trance, and halfway through, she met Han's father who came out to find her.

Han's father was full of anger and slapped her in the face:

"What are you crazy about? Don't miss the auspicious time for your son! Whether it's a dragon or a worm in the next life, it's up to you! This is calculated by the masters! It worked! ”

For this time, they didn't even wait for the spirit to stop, and they had to send the child to be cremated.

On the one hand, her son's next life, and on the other hand, her daughter, who she hadn't seen for many years, Han's mother only hesitated for two seconds, and then followed her husband without saying a word.

Han Su stood behind the spherical Haitong and watched them leave, tears suddenly welling up in his eyes.

After filming three scenes in a row in the morning, each scene was filmed for an hour, Ni Bingyan cried so much that his eyes hurt, thinking that there would be another crying scene in the afternoon, he hurriedly returned to the RV, closed the curtains, and took a nap quietly.

When she finished recuperating, the afternoon drama began again.

In this scene, she hid in the cemetery and cried, crying about the injustice of her parents, crying about her fate, and crying about her dead brother.

Then the forensic brother who was her ambiguous object came to persuade her.

Ni Bingyan doesn't understand why this kind of TV series also has romance elements.

And then the traffic password, don't you think it's strange to fall in love in the cemetery?

She felt uncomfortable, and Gao Junhui, who was used to playing the boss, couldn't stand it even more.

"Cards! Kakaka! ”

"Male number one! This is the girl you like! Are you looking at pig ears? Can you stop being so greasy?! You are a cold and wise forensic doctor! It's not a greasy uncle who sells pork at the entrance of the village! ”

Ni Bingyan: "......"

The vocabulary is so rich, why don't you write it? I want to be a director.

Uncle Meat Seller Messed With You?

"And you! Han Su! You're a fragile girl now! The person you like comes to comfort you, and you just look at you? What about your love? Aren't you impressed? Wood is like no enlightenment, when will I be able to get off the list?! ”

Ni Bingyan wanted to say that she really didn't dare to move at all.

Who knows how many invisible onlookers are eating melons here?

Falling in love in front of so many people, even if you know it's fake, it's embarrassing, isn't it?

Seeing her embarrassed, Li Yiru directly provoked people: "Idle people wait for me to go away!" Take a look, and watch it slowly when the TV station broadcasts! It's no problem to turn on ten TVs at the same time! ”

Seeing that she was angry, everyone hurriedly touched their noses and walked away.

There are people filming in the cemetery, which is quite rare, but unfortunately people don't let them watch it.

It's a pity that the actress, such a beautiful girl, can't breathe when she is roared by this overlord flower.

Ni Bingyan didn't know that he had become a pitiful little in the eyes of people, and he was still adjusting his emotions there!

As time passed, she found that if she looked at the forensic brother as a stack of walking RMB, the love in her eyes could meet the standard.

After filming this scene, I continued to shoot the scene where Han Su was approached by his parents.

According to the plot, Han Su was on the night shift last night, and she was supposed to rest today, but because of the unexpected encounter with her younger brother, she didn't make it.

went to the cemetery to vent, and talked about life and philosophy with the forensic brother, but before I knew it, it was too late.

In the twilight, she left in a hurry with her bag, but met Han's father and Han's mother squatting at the gate.

Seeing that she was really squatting, the two of them hurriedly blocked her way.

"Xiao Su!"

"Mommy's good girl!"

Han Su had never seen her parents show such a surprised expression to her, and she was a little stunned when they grabbed her arm.

I didn't know what to say, so I heard her mother cry and laugh and said, "Your brother really can't rest assured, and he will guide us to find you before leaving!" ”

Han Su's expression suddenly turned cold.

She remembered when she was a child.

took the first place in the exam, and her parents did not praise her, but praised her brother.

"It's worthy of your own sister, as smart as you!"

During the Chinese New Year, the younger brother broke the bowl, and the whole family clapped together:

"Worthy of my son! Broken peace! That's a good idea! ”

At that time, she was also young, and when she saw this, she deliberately pushed a bowl to the ground, and fell to pieces with a "pop".

As a result, my mother's backhand was a slap: "Such a big person, I can't even serve a bowl well!" ”

If it weren't for the Chinese New Year that day, she probably wouldn't be able to eat again, and she would have been punished by her mother to stand in the corner.

……

In the past, there would be young actors to act, and when editing in the later stage, it would be made like a memory.

Ni Bingyan has already entered the play, and her mind is full of these memories, as if she grew up from such a little girl.

"Let go!"

She scolded with a cold face.

"Don't let it go!"

"Where are you going?"

She didn't speak, broke free of the two of them's hands, and walked out desperately.

She is no longer the weak child she was when she was a child, and her parents are no longer as strong as they once were, and when she went crazy, they wanted to restrain her, but it was just delusional!

Han's father caught up and wanted to slap her, but Han's mother immediately grabbed his hand - they are too old to have another child, and now they are such a child, and they have to count on her to support them in their old age!

"I just buried your brother in the afternoon, and we don't know where to go tonight, so your father and I can just bear it, your grandma ......"

Han Su ignored her and ran away.

"Over!"

After dinner, the envoy filmed this scene, and it took five back and forth filming before passing.

After finishing work, I changed my clothes and took off my makeup, and when I looked at the time, it was already ten o'clock.

The parking lot is a little far away, Ni Bingyan is in a hurry to urinate, so he went to the toilet.

The funeral home at night was very quiet, and the people who were crying in the mourning hall probably couldn't cry anymore, and they were all resting.

Thinking that no matter how fanatical the fans were, they wouldn't chase her to the toilet of the funeral home, Duanmu Li was waiting for her outside the toilet.

They slept in the RV tonight, so they didn't have to leave in a hurry, Wang Biao was going to stay in the hotel, and he had just left with other staff.

After going to the toilet, Ni Bingyan washed his hands in the mirror, and as he washed, tears welled up.

It is said that there are no parents who are not, but why, children born to the same parents will be treated completely differently because of different genders?

As the one who is disliked, how can you not complain? How can you not hate?

is a good girl, she could have applied for a better school and a better major in the college entrance examination that year, but she was forced by reality, in order to successfully escape from that home, she chose a college and went to antiseptic plastic surgery.

During her internship, she saw a corpse for the first time, and she had nightmares for many days.

There are boys who like her, and when they heard about her profession, they stretched out their hands and silently retracted them, and they have never been in touch since.

Once, after finishing the night shift, she was too tired to accidentally say goodbye to someone, and as a result, she almost broke the bridge of her nose......

What is so good about a son compared to a daughter?

Is it because it can be passed on to the next generation?

If you think about it viciously, the son's son is not necessarily his son, the daughter's son, but it must be her son, the so-called blood inheritance, can't the daughter be?

If you don't get married, it's not like you can't have children?!

She looked in the mirror, a little angry.

She knew that she was too deep into the play, and she couldn't adjust her mood for a while, so she bent over and washed her face with water.

The scene has not been filmed this week, and maintaining such a state is conducive to filming, and she is not in a hurry to leave.

On a June day, the cold water poured on her face was not too cold, and she wanted to let herself stop her tears quickly and put away her emotions a little.

Straightened up, and was about to wipe his face, when he saw a girl standing next to him.

Unsuspecting, Ni Bingyan was startled!

Before she could exclaim, the girl asked her, "Why are you crying?" ”

Ni Bingyan didn't answer, and looked at her while wiping her face.

The girl was wearing a white coat with an indifferent face, and she wore no jewelry on her body, only a silver watch.

Ni Bingyan knew that she was a forensic doctor at the funeral home.

The screenwriter changed the play last week, because he didn't understand some knowledge, the crew hired this professional as a consultant, and Ni Bingyan had only met him from afar.

"You are filming this drama, and you are under a lot of psychological pressure?"

Feeling her kindness, Ni Bingyan didn't pay attention to it anymore and nodded lightly.

For her, who has to be strong all her life and cries to avoid people crying, it is not easy to admit her weakness to a stranger.

"Do you want me to refer you to a psychiatrist? You may need counseling. ”

People who do this line of work can also be alleviated by mutual encouragement among colleagues, and after working for a long time, they can also become numb, or get used to it, she is just an actor, or it is better to see a psychiatrist.

It is not so easy to reconcile with the world.

"No thanks."

In fact, she has been seeing a psychiatrist since last week.

That psychiatrist was an expert found by Wei Shujietuo, and he was very capable, so she didn't need to change it.

The man saw that her attitude was not warm, and left directly.

But when I walked to the door of the toilet, I still couldn't hold back and turned back.

"Actually, I'm your fan, and your three views are particularly to my liking. I hope you will continue to keep a clear head and move forward with determination and perseverance. I don't want you to be left with psychological hidden dangers because of this drama. ”

Ni Bingyan was helpless, so he had to sigh and tell her: "Thank you for your concern, I already have a psychiatrist, if there is a need, I will definitely ask you for help." ”

The corner of the man's mouth was inconspicuously hooked, he put his hand in his pocket, turned around and left.

It's just so cool!

Ni Bingyan has seen too many calculations when she was a child, and she especially cherishes those who are really good to her, and when she sees that she is leaving, she can't help but speak: "Excuse me, what's your name?" ”

The man waved his hand and didn't look back: "You can call me Kata." ”

Ni Bingyan is still thinking, in the past, I only heard that barbers like English names, but now this is also popular in the forensic world?

The forensic lady had already taken advantage of the night to go away.

Pen fun pigeon