Gu Ru has been busy since the beginning of the New Year and has been busy until after the New Year.

She has enjoyed the benefits of being popular, the price of commercial performances has soared, and it takes one or two hundred thousand yuan to sing a song, and some performances have to sing several songs, and the price is more than 500,000 yuan.

It can be seen from the feedback from the scene and the media that she has indeed become popular, becoming a hot singer and realizing her original dream.

But after the dream came true, suddenly there was something empty.

Something that has been chasing for more than ten years suddenly catches up, and then finds out, but that's it.

The sudden explosion brought her a lot of glory, but it also brought her a lot of trouble.

When performing in other places, you have to be cautious when traveling, and if you want to go to a famous local place to play, you are told that you can't.

- She's a star now, and being recognized can be a problem.

Enjoyed the dividends, but lost a lot of freedom.

Of course, she knew this before, but at that time she felt that it was worth sacrificing some freedom in order to become famous.

But now that he has become famous, he has earned enough money for retirement, and then he found that this kind of day when he has to wear a mask and sunglasses when he goes out is very boring.

What's more, she knows very well where her ceiling is, and she has already reached it.

Her own potential is not so high, but she has encountered a dozen good songs.

It's not those songs, she can't reach this height.

If any professional singer sings those songs, it is possible to reach her current height, and there will be many singers who can surpass her current height.

Among professional singers, her skills are not top-notch, at most she is above average, and her appearance is almost like this.

She was luckier than those singers, she met Yan Xin, a person with creative talent.

However, Yan Xin has also clearly told her that the songs she wants to write have already been written, and without her previous state of mind, she will never be able to create such songs in the future.

There have been no new works for several months, which also proves that Yan Xin is not lying.

- If he can create good music works, Gu Ru believes that Yan Xin will definitely create them, because Starlight Yu is his own company, and he can make money from this.

If you don't come up with such a work, you really can't write it.

She understands that her potential has been exhausted.

No matter how hard you work in the future, you can't go to the next level, but go downhill step by step.

That was the end of her dream.

The only thing that can support her is money.

But she's also making a lot of money now.

I have already got what I want the most, and suddenly I am tired of this kind of life, and I don't have much motivation to continue.

In the previous ten years of dream-chasing journey, she didn't feel how hard it was, at that time she had a goal and was motivated to move towards that goal.

Now that I have no motivation, I suddenly feel very tired.

In order to increase her popularity and get a better price for her performances, she will participate in some radio and television programs, and will also give interviews to some media.

And then she said something against her will, which she felt was quite tiring.

Fortunately, she is not in the circle, otherwise, there will be more people to befriend, and it will be even more tiring.

The reason why she doesn't mix in the circle is also because she heard some stories in the circle, and she feels that it is not what she wants.

She can make more money and have more choices in the circle, but her demand for money is not very strong, so she gave up the circle and gave up the worldly sophistication that ushered in the world.

With her current popularity, as long as she wants, she can still get a lot of opportunities for commercial performances, but she couldn't stand it later and chose to give up those invitations.

Then I returned home the day before the Qingming Festival and accompanied my parents to visit the tomb.

For the so-called dream, I have been confronting my parents for more than ten years, that is, the relationship has eased in the past two years, but it is not very close.

Now she has lost the motivation to continue chasing her dreams, and when she returned home and saw her parents, she found that more than ten years had passed, and her parents had entered old age and had gray hair on their heads.

When she saw that scene, she felt sad.

More than ten years have not left too many traces on her, but it has only allowed her to mature from her immature youth.

However, in the same more than ten years, her parents have moved from middle age to old age, with gray hair on their heads and wrinkles on their faces.

After returning home, it is inevitable to urge her to get married.

She said that she is still very busy and has no time to talk about this, and later said that she does not want to get married and have children, and wants to live a free life alone.

And also complained a few words - every time she went home, she had to face such a problem, which made her mentally stressed and didn't want to go home.

Her parents didn't push her anymore.

Just when she was sweeping the graves of her grandparents, her mother said to her: "When I die with your father one day, and you are still thinking about us, you will come to sweep our graves every year." But if you don't get married and don't have children, you ...... in the future The barren grass in this cemetery probably won't be cleaned up, right? ”

Gu Ru was very sad when he said this.

If her parents had told her that ten years ago, she wouldn't have taken it seriously.

But now that I see that my parents are old, saying such things in front of my grandparents' graves makes me feel very sad.

It turns out that my parents are old enough to think about what will happen after the death.

And she herself is in her thirties.

Growing old and dying was once something far away from her, something she had never considered.

But now, I suddenly felt the tremendous pressure from birth, old age, sickness and death.

At that time, she could only smile and comfort her parents: "I just said that I don't want children for the time being, and I don't mean that I don't want children for the rest of my life, don't worry, I won't give our Gu family a break." And I promise you that if you have a child in the future, I will definitely let him have the surname Gu and inherit the incense of our Gu family. ”

"But you are already thirty-two years old, and if you don't get married and have children in a hurry, you will be an advanced maternal age in the future." Her mother said worriedly.

"Mom, don't worry, I'll be busy this year at most, and then I won't do anything, just wait to have children, and besides, I still have to give birth to two!" Gu Ru said.

She only talked about having children, not getting married, because she didn't want to get married at all.

With her current conditions, she doesn't need to rely on a man to live, and she can raise her children by herself.

As for how to have children without getting married, in modern society, there are too many methods, and she is not worried at all.

It's just that it's not easy to say this to her parents.

Her parents also heard that something was not right, but they did not investigate the details.

is such a daughter, and her personality is still very rebellious, she can break away from the family with a good material life for her dreams, and she has struggled outside for more than ten years, and now she has strong financial ability, and they have no ability to force this daughter to listen to their ideas.

Now the willingness to compromise is already a windfall.

Willing to have children, in their concept, that is, they can have a person to rely on when they are old, and they will not be alone, and they will be relieved.

As for whether to get married or not, it is not so important anymore.

Getting married, having children, and living a normal life, of course, is better.

But having a child out of wedlock, in the hearts of parents, is better than not getting married and not having children.

Gu Ru was able to make such a compromise, not because she was forced by her parents, nor because of her parents' pleas, but because she was really touched.

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When my parents are there, I still have a home, even if I don't go back to that home much.

When her parents are gone, she will be alone.

When you think about it, it's actually something that's already terrifying—for someone her age.

This time, when I went home, I deliberately stayed with my parents for two days, and I also thought about a lot of things that I would not have thought about before.

Slowly, I found the feeling of home again.

She runs a factory at home and doesn't make much money, but in a normal year, she can earn hundreds of thousands of dollars a year, and her family is not short of money.

After going home for a few days, she doesn't need to give her family any material subsidies.

What her parents needed more was her company.

She was now over thirty years old, thirty-two years old, and she thought differently than before.

Her parents are old again, and they are no longer strong in front of her.

The current home is not the same as the old one.

A few days of companionship also gave her a new understanding of her parents, and she gradually became identified with her from the previous rejection.

There is still some fear in my heart, afraid that one day my parents will leave me.

She knew that something like this would happen one day, but she didn't know how to deal with it.

It's devastating to think about it now, and I don't know what the real time will be when I face it.

Now I sing the song "Where Has Time Gone" again, and I have a deeper feeling.

Once I was singing and singing, and suddenly I burst into tears.

At this time, I had some doubts in my heart - how did Yan Xin, a young man less than twenty years old, write such feelings?

The mood has actually been a little low in the past two days.

After returning to Yangcheng, I learned that she lived alone in her house, and even Xiaoyuan moved to the house she bought, so she was even more depressed, so she didn't even go home and stayed here with Yan Xin.

When I was eating dinner, I was arguing to drink, and I was also depressed, so I wanted to use wine to kill my sorrows.

A bottle of red wine, which she and Arily drank together, quickly ran out.

Then another bottle was opened.

She went downstairs to the supermarket to buy both bottles of red wine.

She has been a singer for more than ten years, and she inevitably goes in and out of some social occasions, and her alcohol consumption has also been practiced, which is better than the average person's alcohol consumption.

Elili didn't drink as much as she did, two bottles of red wine, half a bottle at most.

The rest went into Gu Ru's stomach.

As soon as she drank too much wine, she talked a lot, and began to talk about her home a few days ago, about her parents urging her to get married and have children, and about her thoughts.

As he spoke, his eyes suddenly turned red, and he scolded himself: "I'm really not a thing, I'm too selfish, I've only cared about chasing the so-called dream for more than ten years, and I've been so stiff with my family, and I've hurt them for more than ten years." At least half of the white hair on their heads is white for me. ”

Yan Xin echoed: "Pity the hearts of parents all over the world! I was also very rebellious for a few years, and I was very bad to my dad, and I should have broken his heart in those years, and now that I think about it, I can't wait to slap myself a few times. ”

Chen Li also drank some wine, but he drank beer, shook his head and objected: "Don't pity the hearts of parents all over the world, it's not that parents all over the world are so pitiful, some parents are really not good, what they give their children is not necessarily love, but harm." ”

Arily thought of her mother, and thought so.

Her mom was the shadow of her childhood, the shadow of her adolescence, and the shadow of her adulthood.

That is, after knowing Yan Xin, he gradually got rid of that shadow.

She didn't say it, though.

She really didn't feel the warmth of the family, she just felt that the home was the one that bound her.

Yan Xin wanted to refute Chen Li, but soon thought of Alili's parents and Feng Xi's parents, and felt that Chen Li was also reasonable.

Some parents really don't care.

Alili's father seems to be very good to her, but he has always refused to give this daughter a name, and if something really happens, he has to sacrifice his daughter to protect his son.

That's the kind of fatherly love, that's it.

Not to mention, Ai Jing has only used Alili as a tool to make money from beginning to end, and she is not worthy of being called a mother at all.

Feng Xi's parents are very good to Feng Chen, with complete fatherly and maternal love.

But for Feng Xi's daughter, she is quite harsh.

What about Chen Li's parents Yan Xin has not been in contact with it, it is not clear, but from Chen Li's narration, it seems that it is quite partial.

Thinking of this, he sighed and said to Chen Li: "Of course, there are exceptions, but most parents still think about the good of their children. ”

Chen Li shook his head: "Not necessarily the majority. ”

asked Liang Wei again: "How are your parents treating you?" ”

Liang Wei drank some beer with him, but he didn't drink much, pursed his lips, and said: "That's it, maybe they also want to be good to me, but they don't have the ability to be good to me, I always feel that I am not as happy as other people's children." ”

Chen Li raised his wine glass and touched it with her, drank it all, and said with a smile:

"I feel the same way as you, no other people's children are happy, well, not as happy as my brother."

He also said: "When we have children in the future, we can't be partial, don't be that kind of unfair parents." ”

Liang Wei glanced at him and said in a low voice, "You drank too much." ”

Chen Li said: "How can you drink too much? Can beer get me drunk at this point? ”

Liang Wei said: "Our country's policy is that we can only give birth to one. ”

Yan Xin couldn't help but laugh.

And that's still the case.

But in a few years, I will gradually let go of the second and third children, and even beg you for the next life.

The impermanence of the world can be seen here.

Chen Lidi muttered: "As long as I want, what if I have two?" Can't you afford to pay that fine? ”

Gu Ru said with a smile: "I have thought about this problem, I can go abroad to give birth to a child, go directly to a foreign household registration, and when I return to China, I will still be a foreign guest, and the treatment will be good." ”