Chapter 339: A Sense of Loss

That night, Yan Xin was so worried that he couldn't sleep for a long time. Feng Xi, who was curled up in his arms, had already entered the dream realm, with a happy smile on his face.

That night, everything that should have happened happened. Reborn in a lifetime, this wife from the previous life became his woman again.

went around and around, but returned to his arms. At the beginning of his rebirth, he thought that he and Feng Xi would never have any intersection in this life, and each lived their own lives, and they were okay.

Because of the married life of the two people in their previous lives, they were really unhappy. Otherwise, he wouldn't have filed for a divorce.

It's just that he still has a deep sense of guilt in his heart for the woman who took care of his sick father for a few years and suffered with him for a few years, and he feels that he owes her a lot, failed to give her a better life, and finally hurt her in the matter of divorce.

That's why I thought about stopping Feng Chen from committing suicide, so that the burden of her life would be lighter. Unexpectedly, because of this incident, there was an intersection in this life.

Unexpectedly, Feng Xi actually fell in love with him in this life, which was something that had never happened in the previous life.

He does have the heart to change Feng Xi's fate, so that she can be happier in this life and not have to live so hard like in her previous life.

But at that time, he really didn't think about changing Feng Xi's emotional line and making Feng Xi like him.

At that time, he thought that as long as Feng Xi could live happily, then the two of them would not have any involvement.

He didn't like Feng Xi's attitude towards him in the years of marriage, and what he found it more difficult to accept was Feng Xi's parents.

In his eyes, Feng Xi's parents are simply the same existence as enemies. He didn't want to be their son-in-law again in this life.

He still can't figure out how Feng Xi likes him, and what day and what thing he started.

But now there is no point in dwelling on this issue. If you like it, you like it. And he also found that in his previous life and Feng Xi's married life for several years, not all of them were negative emotions, but there were also some less negative emotions in them, and even some beautiful things.

For Feng Xi, he is not just grateful and guilty. At least, he would be very distressed when he saw Feng Xi setting up a stall on a snowy day.

Many times, I still unconsciously regard her as my own relative. And, most importantly, he found that he couldn't accept Feng Xi marrying and having children with other men - although he did hope that Feng Xi could live happily, he didn't want Feng Xi to live happily with other men.

Under such complex emotions, in the end, he went against the decision he made when he was just reborn, and came to this point with her.

If he had known that he would come this far, he would not have had such a relationship with Arily. Can help Elili, but there won't be any ambiguous contact.

It's a pity that I didn't expect to have such a relationship with Feng Xi at that time. As a result, he became like this, a scumbag with two boats on his feet.

Feng Xi didn't want to give up, and he didn't want to give up, but the legal system of this society didn't allow him to have both, at most he could only keep one.

Or either they were heartbroken and left him. He was really confused about what to do in the future. What he can do now is to temporarily hide the reality of pedaling on two boats, and try to extend this time as much as possible.

But he also knew that it was only temporary and would definitely be discovered later. What will be the situation after being discovered, imagine the head is as big as a fight.

I struggled in my heart for a long time, and in the end, I couldn't think of any good way. He didn't know when he fell asleep in the end, but when he was woken up by Feng Xi, he felt very sleepy.

"Get up, let's have breakfast." Feng Xi shook him awake.

"What time is it?" Yan Xin said this sentence before he opened his eyes. I felt as if I had just fallen asleep and was woken up, and I just wanted to continue sleeping.

"It's past seven o'clock," Feng Xi said,

"If you don't sleep well, let's finish breakfast and go back to sleep. But be sure to eat breakfast so that it is healthy. Yan Xin rubbed his eyes, tried to open his eyes, and found that the room was already very bright, and said helplessly: "Okay, go for breakfast." Feng Xi saw that he was very sleepy and asked him, "When did you sleep last night?" Is it not a good sleep? ”

"I don't know when I went to sleep, it's a little hard to fall asleep, maybe it's a bed." Yan Xin said.

He couldn't say that he couldn't sleep just after stepping on two boats, so he could only find a random reason.

Feng Xi said: "I thought you were tired last night and would sleep better." After thinking for a while, he said, "Why don't you continue to squint here for a while, and I'll go out and bring you something to eat." Yan Xin originally wanted to refuse, but his body was really tired, and when he went out to eat, he had to wash his face and brush his teeth or something.

It's better to hurry up and get a little more sleep. So he nodded and said, "Then I'll trouble you, you can bring me food after you finish eating." Feng Xi bent down and kissed him on the face, and said with a smile: "It's not a hassle to bring food to my dear husband." Lost in the lake, Yan Xin had a thought in his heart: "She is so good to me." Feng Xi hadn't left the room yet, and Yan Xin fell asleep again.

So much so that when she walked out of the room, she closed the door carefully, for fear of waking him up and disturbing his rest.

When she walked, her legs and feet were a little inconvenient, but Yan Xin didn't see it. By the time she returned, more than half an hour had passed.

Being woken up again, Yan Xin still felt quite sleepy. But when you eat here, you don't have to prepare anything, you don't even need to wash your face and brush your teeth, you can eat when you get out of bed, and you can go to bed after eating.

What Feng Xi brought back was a bucket of beef powder, not bought in the supermarket, but made by the store, with enough materials, and you could see pieces of beef.

Moreover, she also asked her boss to add an extra yard - and of course she also gave an extra yard of money.

Yan Xin ate quite deliciously, but it took less than three minutes to finish the beef powder, and even drank the soup cleanly.

Then climb into bed and continue sleeping. Feng Xi was originally going to go to the store with Yan Xin, but seeing that Yan Xin's eyes were not very open, it was not easy to call him over.

After thinking about it for a while, he finally climbed into bed and slept with him. When she went to bed, Yan Xin was already asleep.

She hugged him right behind Yan Xin's back, her face pressed against his shoulder, closed her eyes, felt his breath, and gently stroked him with one hand.

She fell asleep at ten o'clock in the evening, and slept quite well, and did not wake up until after seven o'clock. Sleep is enough.

However, holding Yan Xin like this, slowly, he fell asleep again. By the time I woke up again, it was already past ten o'clock.

At this time, Yan Xin was still sleeping. After looking at the time, Feng Xi couldn't help but shout: "It seems that I really didn't sleep well last night, otherwise I wouldn't be sleeping at this time." He closed his eyes and squinted for more than ten minutes, and his mind became clearer and clearer, and then he got up from the bed.

After getting out of bed, he sat on the edge of the bed, looked at Yan Xin for a while, and reached out to touch his face a few times, and said in a low voice: "In this life, you are still my husband." He said this with a smile on his face.

Yan Xin was still asleep. Feng Xi's eyes fell on the Nokia mobile phone that Yan Xin put on the bedside to charge.

thought of one thing - Yan Xin was sleeping at this time, and he wanted to check his mobile phone, and now was the right time.

She really wanted to know what this man's circle was like now, and whether there were any ambiguous objects in the circle.

However, checking the phone is a very taboo thing, if it is discovered, will it affect the relationship between the two of them?

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but show a tangled look in my eyes. I wanted to find out the truth, but I was afraid that Yan Xin would be unhappy, so I was very entangled for a while.

The hand reached over there, and was about to reach for the phone, and retracted again. But after a while, seeing that Yan Xin was still asleep, his mind moved again: "Just take a look, he shouldn't know, right?" So he stretched out his hand again.

His hand touched Yan Xin's mobile phone, stopped there, glanced at Yan Xin again, and thought to himself, "What if he suddenly wakes up?" Will you be upset to see me rummaging through his phone and think that I don't trust him? He hesitated again.

After struggling like this for a long time, I finally didn't get Yan Xin's mobile phone. Seeing that the time had reached eleven o'clock, it was estimated that Yan Xin was almost asleep, so he woke him up: "Husband, get up and get ready to go to lunch." It took several shakes to wake him up.

I regretted it in my heart: "I knew that he slept so dead, I should have taken this opportunity to look at his mobile phone." Yan Xin was shaken awake, and asked in a daze, "Is it already noon?" ”

"It's 11 o'clock, wait until you're cleaned up, and then go down, it's almost time for lunch." Feng Xi said.

Yan Xin sighed, rubbed his eyes, opened his eyes and lay down for another two minutes, took the mobile phone on the bedside, looked at the time, and then looked at the QQ message, but didn't see the message from Ellili, a little relieved, and then sat up from the bed.

Feng Xi looked at his mobile phone, smiled, and said, "You bought this mobile phone the year before last, right?" Yan Xin nodded: "Yes, and it's second-hand." "This mobile phone was given to him by Ellilie, and at that time he was just a small security guard with a monthly salary of eight or nine hundred.

When I think of this, I suddenly feel emotional. Feng Xi smiled: "Can you let me see your phone?" When she said this, she didn't look at Yan Xin, just looked at the mobile phone.

Yan Xin was stunned for a moment, his heart was vigilant, and asked, "Why do you want to look at my mobile phone?" This is already very backward. He's right.

This mobile phone is a Nokia mobile phone that was launched in 05, and it was a new mobile phone at that time, with all kinds of cool features, and it cost thousands of dollars a piece.

But two years later, the phone is already lagging behind, and the so-called cool features now seem like a joke.

However, the backwardness of the mobile phone was just a reason for him to come up, and he was worried that Feng Xi would find any clues from his mobile phone.

In his previous life, Feng Xi was keen to check his mobile phone, flip through his WeChat friend list, and then accurately find out the woman's WeChat in it, and ask him what his relationship is with him and how he added it.

Only in the last two years have not done such a thing, the relationship between the two people in the last two years is very stiff, most of the time they are in a state of cold war, and their schedules are different, although they live in a very small house, but many times they are not together, and there is no time to inquire.

Feng Xi still had a smile on his face and said, "I'm just curious about what your mobile phone looks like, and then take a look at any videos and photos in your mobile phone." But if you don't want to show me, forget it. Yan Xin pretended to be shy and said, "There are a few small videos of island countries...... It's not for you girls. Feng Xi's eyes suddenly lit up, and he stretched out his hand to him: "Bring it quickly, I want to see it!" Yan Xin was stunned again: "Huh? The small video of the island country is that kind of ...... Do you want to see the kind of people who don't wear clothes? ”

"Look! Want to see it! Feng Xi said. Yan Xin's mind was a little dizzy - how could it be different from Feng Xi in his memory?

When he was with Feng Xi in his last life, he proposed to Feng Xi to watch island films together to learn posture, but every time he put it forward, he was ruthlessly rejected: "Are you a psychopath?" ”

"Neurotic!"

"Wouldn't it be nice to have this time to learn something useful?" After a lot of blows, he gave up that thought.

This also made him have such an extra impression of Feng Xi - disgusted with island films. He used this to talk about things, that is, he hoped that Feng Xi would stop the idea of checking his mobile phone.

Unexpectedly, Feng Xi turned out to be this expression, expressing a strong desire to see it. At this time, he couldn't refuse, so he could only hand over the mobile phone, and deliberately flipped to the video for her: "Just these few videos, there is actually nothing to see......" Fortunately, some of the videos and photos taken on the mobile phone and Ellili were deleted by him after they were transferred to a mysterious folder on the computer hard drive, so that Feng Xi couldn't find anything.

Otherwise, he would have to create a broken mobile phone incident - even if this would arouse Feng Xi's suspicions, but it was only suspicion, and it was better than finding evidence directly.

"I don't believe it, it's not good to see what you're doing here? Does your phone have a lot of memory? Feng Xi said as he took the phone.

She clicked on a video, and sure enough, it was an island film. It's just that the voice is a little loud, and a little bit is a strange sound, which scared her so much that she quickly turned it to mute, and then glanced at Yan Xin with a red face, and said, "Dead pervert!" "The memory of mobile phones in this era is very small, Yan Xin's mobile phone is still produced in 05 years, and the memory card that can be read is only 512m, and it is easy to make the mobile phone stuck when a G memory card is inserted.

With that bit of memory, it's impossible to store a complete film. The few small videos on his mobile phone are all clips of a few minutes, and the shortest is even only a minute or two, which is the kind that enters the wonderful part as soon as you open it.

That's why as soon as I opened it, the voice was very improper. After turning it to mute, Feng Xi glanced at Yan Xin, who was coming over to see next to him, with a red face, and pushed him: "You hurry up and wash your face and brush your teeth, let's go eat when it's over." Yan Xin was a little worried about the fact that the phone was in Feng Xi's hands, and he didn't want to leave, but he had no reason to answer, so he could only answer, and then went to wash his face and brush his teeth.

As soon as he entered the bathroom, Feng Xi quickly withdrew from the video, then clicked on his QQ, looked at his chat history, analyzed which one was male and which one was female from the screen name and avatar, and then clicked on the chat history with what she thought was a woman, and quickly browsed to see if there was any ambiguous communication.

Because of the limited time, she uses the sensitive word search method, opens the chat history and pulls it up to see if there are sensitive words in it, but if there are ambiguous words involved, she will stop and take a look.

With this method, it is possible to read a person's chat history in a very short time. In this, she also saw the chat records of several online store supervisors and Yan Xin, and also clicked on it and browsed it, and found that they were all talking about work, and there were no ambiguous words involved.

What she was most worried about was the female classmate who was taken to her home by Yan Xin during the Chinese New Year the year before last, and the avatar she soon saw in Yan Xin's chat list was called

"Xiao Shiyu" - this is Yan Xin's remarks name. clicked on it and found that the relationship between the two people was indeed unusual, and they had been in contact intermittently.

But after a quick browsing, there is no ambiguous content. Although there is always a connection, it is not every day, and after saying a word or two every few days, the chat page shows a few months of content, and there are only dozens of messages in total.

It doesn't seem to have an ambiguous relationship.,At best, it's just a classmate with a better relationship.。 This made Feng Xi let go of the big stone in his heart.

She has seen Xiao Shiyu, she is indeed beautiful, and she can dress up. If you choose between her and Xiao Shiyu, without considering money, probably the vast majority of men in this world will choose Xiao Shiyu.

Yan Xin didn't have an affair with Xiao Shiyu, which is good news, which shows that this man is still very good, and he still thinks about his old love, and he doesn't become bad as soon as he has money.

She didn't read the details, she just scanned it, but it was a little more careful than the online store supervisors, and there was really no ambiguous news.

In this chat list, she also found Ruan Siyao's record, and her avatar is also a beautiful girl.

Ruan Siyao's screen name was also noted by Yan Xin, so she could see it at a glance. She has some knots in Ruan Siyao's heart, mainly because her brother always wants to introduce his sister-in-law to Yan Xin to repay the grace of saving her life, which makes her have to think about whether the two of them will have anything to do with each other.

But I clicked on the chat record and read it, there was no ambiguous record, there were more chats than Xiao Shiyu, but the chat content was scanned, and they were basically complaining that they were too tired to study, or they were talking about Feng Chen and Ruan Mengyao.

It's just a chat between very ordinary friends. In this list, Feng Xi also saw herself, but she didn't click on it.

The two of them talked about something, of course she knew, there was no need to waste time on it. While checking those chat logs, I pricked up my ears and listened to the voices in the bathroom, nervous like a spy.

Hearing the sound of Yan Xin finishing brushing his teeth, he quickly withdrew from QQ, and then clicked on the page of the video and clicked on another video.

Fortunately, she turned the video to mute in front of her, and Yan Xin wouldn't find out about doing these things. If she turned on the sound of the video and suddenly quit again, Yan Xin would definitely be able to hear it, so it would be inconvenient for her to do such work.

After all this, less than three minutes had actually passed. If she has enough time, she can click on Yan Xin's friend list, click on the column where she sent a message, and check the chat history one by one.

But time is limited, and Yan Xin's friend list is too long, so he can only click on those that have chat history on the homepage.

If there is anything missing in this, she doesn't know, in such a short period of time, she can only rely on feelings to do such things.

Yan Xin first brushed his teeth, then washed his face, and came out after washing his face, and it took less than five minutes in total.

In fact, he still wanted to go to the toilet at this time, but the mobile phone was in Feng Xi's hand, which made him feel very unsafe, and finally simply dispelled this idea, thinking that he could bear it.

It's really because of this worry that he brushes his teeth and washes his face relatively quickly. After coming out, I saw Feng Xi lying on the bed watching the video on his mobile phone.

Seeing that Feng Xi was indeed watching the video, Yan Xin was relieved a lot, and thought: "It seems that I am still too careful, she has not developed the bad habit of liking to check her mobile phone in her previous life, and she is still a good girl with a pure mind." Then he blamed himself: "But I am deceiving a good girl with a pure heart, alas, what is this called? Leaned behind Feng Xi and looked at it: "What kind of film are you watching?" When he saw it, he was stunned: "Two women...... Feng Xi, do you like to watch this kind of film? In an instant, there was even such a thought in my heart: "If she can accept this...... She and Lily ...... That seems to be quite harmonious...... "Some harmonious images suddenly came to mind.

Feng Xi's face suddenly turned red - she just clicked on a video casually, her mind was not on it at the time, she was still thinking about the chat records she saw, thinking about whether there was anything missing, and she didn't watch what kind of content was in the video at all.

In her mind, it's nothing more than that kind of video, isn't it all those contents? That is, after Yan Xin said it, after taking a closer look, he found that it was two female goblins fighting, and he couldn't help but blush.

She doesn't discriminate against people with special hobbies, but she doesn't have that special hobby, but thinks it's a particularly disgusting thing for two women to do something like that, compared to what she would rather see two men together.

Seeing Yan Xin's eyes becoming strange when he looked at him, he was afraid that he would think that he had a special hobby, so he was ashamed and anxious, so he raised his hand and slapped him, saying, "I just want to see what kind of videos you have on your phone, I didn't expect you to make such a disgusting video, why are you so perverted?" Yan Xin was stunned: "Just like you women like to watch two men fall in love, isn't it normal for men to like to watch this?" ”

"Hey, it's disgusting!" Feng Xi expressed disgust. Then he said to Yan Xin: "Even if you are a pervert, can you have some normal perversion?" How do you get this disgusting thing? In the future, such videos are not allowed to be stored in mobile phones. As he spoke, he deleted the little video in front of Yan Xin.

Yan Xin felt that his dream was shattered, and with a sigh, he felt a great sense of loss in his heart.