Xia Chuxue was startled by my slap, and she didn't pretend anymore, she got up and ran directly in front of me, looked at me with a strange expression and said:

"Are you crazy?"

I'm like, indeed, crazy, what a weird idea.

I looked at Wang Shuo, my face was still red, and my eyes were even narrower, so that people couldn't see his eyes, but I felt nauseous.

I sat back in my place, Wang Shuo picked up the wine glass and came to me, patted his chest and said sincerely:

"Brother, I couldn't stand you back then, and today I can't compensate you here. This is the end of the page between the two of us, and we will still be a family in the future! If you have something, just give me a call, don't talk about this county, even in the city, there is nothing that I Wang Shuo can't do! ”

"Where did Mr. Xiao Wang get the term 'family'?" I pretended to be confused.

He was stunned, and at this time, Yang Chen, who came back from the bathroom, hurriedly came out to play the round.

"What do you say, Yiming, aren't everyone here all a family?"

"Hahaha yes, Yang Chen is right." Guo Xingfan hurriedly agreed.

"Come, Yiming! Keep drinking! ”

I waved my hand and said:

"If you don't drink it, you'll have to go home in a while."

"Hey brother, you're ruining your fun. Mr. Wang has even arranged a place to live, and it is in this Yajie Hotel. ”

Xia Chuxue said seriously: "Han Yiming can't drink anymore." ”

"I didn't expect Miss Xia to be so in charge of Han Yiming."

Xia Chuxue nodded as a matter of course and said:

"Of course. I don't care about him, who cares about him? ”

I'm now sure that I drank too much, probably because I drank alcohol and went to the bathroom to blow the wind, and the alcohol went straight to my brain, and I felt my head sink suddenly.

I couldn't say anything to refute Xia Chuxue's words.

I was afraid that I would suddenly fall down, and I shook my head frantically.

After that, I saw Wang Shuo's face sink suddenly. I was about to open my mouth and continue to ask.

At this time, Wang Shuo's mobile phone rang suddenly, and he stood by the window to connect the phone. It's just that his face instantly became gloomy, and after a long time, he gritted his teeth and said:

"Got it."

"Wang Shuo, what's wrong?" Yang Chen asked.

Wang Shuo gritted his teeth with the strength of wine and said, "That stinky label actually went to my house to find my father!" ”

Then he scolded again, "Stinky label, slut, really fucking cheap!" I'm really blind..."

Yang Chen hurriedly stepped forward to cover his mouth and motioned to stop talking.

The memories in my mind came to me with the white wine that was tumbling in my stomach, and deep down I was grabbed by something nameless, then loosened and thrown onto the road, and finally overwhelmed by a steamroller.

I tried my best to keep myself calm, but I was panting so heavily that my hands kept shaking, and I said in my mind over and over again:

"It's all gone!"

···

"Han Yiming, why doesn't the teacher let us girls wear makeup?"

"Did you desert at the class meeting?"

Feeling a pain in my lower back, I grinned and hurriedly begged for mercy. I moved myself away from Wang Shuo, who was sweating and playing basketball in the playground, and looked at Shen Yu beside me.

She wore a blue and white school uniform to set off a slightly mature figure that I yearned for, and the black school uniform pants perfectly covered the slender white legs I imagined.

Now she is sitting next to me, her legs straight, and her feet in small black shoes are swaying slightly.

"But the makeup is beautiful. What girl doesn't wear makeup. Shen Yu said.

I pouted and said:

"I haven't seen it again!"

Then I looked at Wang Shuo, who was about to shoot.

"Good shot!"

Wang Shuo smiled in my direction when he heard this, and reached out to pull his hair.

I secretly scolded: "What kind of handsome am I playing with Lao Tzu!" ”

···

"I think you're a fool." I smiled in my heart and looked at Shen Yu, who had just come back from the teacher's office and was called to talk.

Who told Shen Yu not to listen to the teacher's advice, and actually put on makeup to come to class today.

Shen Yu didn't speak, just stood in front of me like this. Tingting Yuli, but her eyes are a little red.

"Actually, I think the teacher is right, makeup really doesn't look good without makeup." I said seriously.

"Sister Yu! Can you tell me how he found his girlfriend with his stubborn mouth? Isn't it all because of Yiming, look at you, he doesn't appreciate it at all. Wang Shuo, who was my tablemate, put his arm around my shoulders and looked at Shen Yu with a smile on his face.

Actually, I know everything.

Shen Yu sighed, leaned into my ear and whispered:

"Don't go to the grove tonight, bastard!"

···

"Why?" I gritted my teeth and looked at Wang Shuo and Shen Yu who were sitting by the window of the coffee shop.

Shen Yu sat on Wang Shuo's lap, her legs were spread apart, her arms were tightly wrapped around Wang Shuo's neck, and her head was buried in Wang Shuo's neck.

Don't look at me.

Wang Shuo wantonly lit a cigarette and secretly showed me a cheap smile that would make me sick for the rest of my life.

Stretched out his other hand to cover Shen Yu's hair and patted it gently.

Don't speak.

My legs were limp and I staggered aimlessly.

I didn't believe it at first, but now I'm even more upset when I see the truth with my own eyes.

A figure that ran through my years has long since blurred, and a figure that satisfies my fantasies about the future is now fading away.

I shouldn't be looking for the so-called "why." ”

My fantasies about the future are still there, and it's just a pity to remember my two years of high school.

A figure departed, like a frog boiled in warm water, and I quickly accepted it when I reacted.

A figure drifted away, like thunder on a sunny day, so that I had no defense at all, and my devastated heart was once ravaged.

I walked to the trash can, stretched out my clenched right hand, and slowly spread out my palm, and the "Chanel" lipstick that I had saved for more than a month to buy was gently rolled off and buried in the trash can.

Didn't even give me a chance to regret it.

···

I felt my hands being wrapped, warm and cool, and I didn't react for a while. The pupils constricted, and the last thing that caught her eye was Xia Chuxue's worried eyes.

As if I had seen a savior, under the stimulation of alcohol, I suddenly had the courage to pounce on Xia Chuxue, and stretched out my hand to hug this pretty body tightly.

For fear that she would run away, her arms tightened and tightened.

I closed my eyes, it was pitch black, and I buried my head in the warmth.

Feeling the slight struggle of the person in my arms, I also realized that there was some impulse, and slowly let go of my arm.

But I didn't want to, my head, which had just left the warmth, was pressed back with a soft force, and I felt my hair being gently rubbed. The other hand wrapped around my waist and gently patted my lower back.

Buzzing in my ears, I can't hear anything.

Just a wisp of fragrance wafted into the nostrils and jumped into the mind, slowly washing away the alcohol and chaos.

But I didn't want to leave, I just wanted to cry.

I just want to die like this, don't get up again, don't open my eyes and look at the world that is not good, don't feel the loss of my loved ones again, I don't want to be very unwanted.

I admit that I am lonely, even the former Wang Shuo and the current Chen Chengfei can't let me have a quick idea.

I have tried to be the companion of loneliness, to be friends with all the resentment and resentment in the world. I also comforted myself that there must be a parallel time and space in this world, Han Yiming, who is living the way I expected.

But all of this was shattered in the dead of night by the barking of dogs outside the window and the sound of distant trains passing by.

I opened my eyes countless times to see the roof without a single light, and finally hid my face and wept bitterly, forcing myself to sleep, I was afraid that if I didn't fall asleep again, I would die suddenly on the construction site the next day.

Scenes from the past came back to me again. I want to die, just to die in this lonely world.

I'm afraid that no one will mourn me after I die, and I'm even more afraid that no one will visit my grandfather after I die.

There are also peaches grown in my grandfather's field, and I can't eat them.

I was scared, so scared that I trembled.

Fear and tangle collide like two electrons.

I'm afraid of dying, and I'm afraid of being alive.

It was as if the pent-up emotions had reached their peak at this moment and were released.

I greedily breathed in the body fragrance from the early summer snow, and I could only feel a little fluorescent light up in the deep darkness that stretched out of my heart, followed by a second, a third, gradually like a star in a distant galaxy, scattered in my inner world, and another gentle touch.

The galaxy is splendid!

I don't want to die.