Chapter Ninety-Two: Dusty Pain
Dad was sitting on the sofa reading a book, she half-knelt in front of her father, she spread the album in front of her father, and asked suspiciously, "Dad, who is this girl?" How do you look exactly like me? Don't tell me, this girl is me! But I don't think we've ever had a photo like this."
Xueluo said in great surprise as she said her question.
Looking at the album that Xueluo brought over, Dad was still stunned for a moment with a calm and serene expression, and a distant but still clear pain suddenly tore open the dust seal and poured into his heart again......
Dad put down the book in his hand and caressed the photo album in front of him with his hand, his vision was already a little blurred. How many years had he not touched it again?
"Snowfall, where did you find it?" Dad's voice was calm, but there seemed to be some excitement.
Xueluo didn't answer, but pointed in the direction of the attic.
Dad caressed the album with his hand and looked through it page by page.
Xueluo watched the pain in her father's expression getting worse and heavier, and she thought that this album must have touched his sadness.
"Daddy, this girl, who is she?" Xueluo asked again. "Why does she look so much like me?"
"Xueluo, she's your sister." Dad gently closed the album and said something like this.
Actually, Xueluo was not too surprised by Dad's answer. A girl who looks exactly like herself, in her father's arms, until she grows up, in addition to having a blood relationship with herself, how else can she explain it? However, to Xueluo's deep surprise, in the past twenty-two years, he never knew that he had a sister! I don't have any memories of my sister! Why? She had never heard her father talk about it, and she had never heard her mother talk about it. She didn't know what kind of story her father's past had that she didn't know. In this regard, Xueluo is full of curiosity.
Seeing the surprise in Xueluo's eyes, Dad whispered again: "She is your half-sister." ”
Dad's words made Xueluo suddenly realize! So, the woman holding hands with her father in the album is her father's ex-wife? So, when Mom married Dad, Dad was already married?
But why did Dad leave them?
"Dad, sister, where is she now?" Xueluo asked cautiously. She saw the pain on her father's face and knew that the old past had provoked his sadness, but Xueluo still couldn't help but be curious.
"Your sister, she's gone." Dad replied faintly.
"Gone? What does it mean to be gone? Xue Luo asked puzzled. She really didn't understand what the "gone" in her father's mouth meant.
"Gone. It's just never going to come back. Seeing Xueluo's stupid appearance, Dad touched her head with his hand lovingly. His eyes had become moist.
Snow fell, and a pair of eyes were full of consternation.
My sister died?
"So, sister's mother, are you okay?" Xueluo confirmed that her sister was no longer in this world, and her heart was surprised, but it was also full of pain at that moment. And how unfortunate and painful the young beautiful and gentle woman who lost her daughter and her husband must have been.
However, what Xueluo didn't expect was that her father actually gave herself such an answer: "She is also gone." The voice was already full of sadness.
Dad's words made Xueluo even more stunned, and he couldn't help blurting out: "Dad, why? ”
Dad glanced at the snow and sighed deeply. His eyes were filled with sorrow. Dad reached out again and touched Xueluo's head: "She gave birth to her sister and left." She loved me, and she wanted to give me one of the most precious gifts in the world, so she gave birth to her sister,...... Actually, I know that she can't have a child, and she paid with her life for this child. However, I did not expect that the gift she left me with her life would leave me at the age of sixteen......" Dad said, tears already flowing from his eyes.
"Dad is a doctor, and Dad has saved many people, but Dad can't save either of the two most important women in Daddy's life......"
Looking at the tears on his father's face, Xueluo reached out to wipe them for him. "Dad, I'm sorry that the snow fell and made you sad."
Dad held Xueluo's hand in his hand, and tried to control his sad emotions, "It's not that you make Dad sad, but the sadness has always been there." Fortunately, God has treated me well, and it has given you to Dad again. Dad has always been grateful to your mom for all this. ”
Dad adjusted his emotions and made himself as relaxed as possible. There is no need to mention the past, and even if you mention it again, there is no need to be so sad. However, in the past fifteen years, no one has spoken of his past again. He thought he was able to face the past with a calm heart. Now that he was suddenly turned out by his daughter, his heart is still faintly painful.
He told Xueluo about the past that he had never told Xueluo: "Your sister's mother and I met and fell in love, until we got married, no one did not bless us, and no one did not think that we would grow old together." However, everything is not as perfect as people think...... My sister's mother has congenital heart disease. All the doctors don't recommend that we have children, for her sake, I can do without children, I just want her to be by my side...... However, she carried me behind my back and stopped taking birth control pills, and finally, she successfully became pregnant...... The child was born, but she left me. ”
For Dad's past, Xueluo still wants to ask more. However, at the same time, she thought that in order to satisfy her curiosity, she would tear open her father's scar fifteen years ago. It was a selfish and cruel thing, so she didn't continue to ask.
However, Dad took the initiative to talk about him and Mom: "At that time, your mother was still a little girl, probably similar to you, and she fell in love with Dad ......"
Speaking of this, Xueluo couldn't help but praise her father: "That is, a handsome man like Dad, what girl will not be tempted when he sees it?" It's a pity that I can't marry Daddy-"
Hearing Xueluo say such things, Dad couldn't help but touch her head lovingly: "Net is crazy." I just talked about it when I was a child, but now I am a person who has a boyfriend, and I still say such crazy things. ”
Xueluo saw that her father's mood eased a little. So he got up and went to sit down next to his father, and said, "So, Dad married Mom later?" Is it? ”
However, at that time, my father could not let go of the things and people of the past. So I didn't accept the love from your mother, and at that time, my father didn't want anything but to raise the poor child who didn't see his mother at birth. It's not easy for a single man with a child to go to work. At this time, your mother gave me a lot of help. She did everything a mom could do for her child...... Your mom stayed by your dad's side and took care of your sister for ten years...... Your sister is so eager for your mom to be her real mom, so, we got married. Later, we had you again, but in the end, your sister left us, and she was the same sick as her mother......"
The corners of Daddy's eyes were already moist. The past is really unbearable.
Xueluo and Dad fell silent for a while.
Then, after a long time, Xueluo asked again: "But, why don't I have any memory of my sister at all?" ”
"It's because you're too young. After you were born, my sister's health was already very bad. Especially in the last few years, in order to take good care of my sister and take better care of you, my grandmother took you home. You barely get a chance to meet. And my sister is either in the hospital or in a nursing home. When my sister left, you weren't even five years old after all, and my sister didn't spend her last year in W City. ”
"Oh, no wonder I don't have a memory of my sister. Where did that sister go? "Snow falls curiously.
"Your sister ended up living in City A. She also left in City A......"
City A? Has my sister also been to City A? Xueluo heard the word City A, and her heart trembled inexplicably.