Although it is awkward before reading a book, once you enter the rhythm of reading, the feeling of embarrassment disappears.

Needless to say, Patchouli doesn't care about the environment when she studies hard, and Qin Deng also reads books from the outside world very seriously.

Qin Deng's reading speed is very fast, not to mention quantum speed, but it is also very fast, not only fast, but also can effectively absorb and notice the key points in the book.

Time ticked away, and at dawn, Pache put down the book in her hand and unhooked her state of immersion, ready to observe Gensokyo.

When she put down the book, it occurred to her that there was a guest on the other side.

At this time, Qin Deng did not put down the book in his hand, the very thick book was placed vertically on the table, and Qin Deng was slowly turning the pages.

Looking at the thickness, Pache knew that the book had not been read more than one-fifth, Patchouli gently knocked on the table, Qin Deng did not react much, and then Patchouli knocked on the table again.

Qin Deng seemed to be awakened suddenly, and pushed down the "Gone with the Wind" in his hand from vertical.

"Ah...... Good morning. Qin Deng said hello to Pache Li, took out a small notebook and pen from his arms, and wrote down the number of pages he saw, and then closed the very thick and large "Gone with the Wind".

"The story of love, war, and change? Are you interested in these? Pache asked, "Your tastes are different from those of most human villages. ”

Qin Deng could only smile at this: "I read books more messily, I like to read everything, but it's not too different from others." ”

"You came in as a human being, but suddenly you seem to have changed as a person, not only brought by Penglai's medicine, but your character, way of doing things and behavior are too far from the standard that can be hidden by the gods." Patchouli summoned an ordinary little demon and ordered her to put the book back on the shelf: "Have you been hiding for a long time, or have you suddenly taken possession of your body?" And why don't those sages dispose of you? ”

"I guess that's the answer that only I can be sure of, right?"

"It shouldn't be a question."

Qin Deng was a little speechless because he didn't know what his situation was.

From the time he disappeared to the time he appeared, apart from the memories that were extremely real, it was as if the guy who was accepted, had a job, and studied Japanese did not exist.

Qin Deng, who had been busy and traveling for a long time, noticed the most incomprehensible place, and his wonderful sense of separation reappeared.

"You seem to be lost in thought? Can't figure it out? Or is your memory being manipulated? Patchouli asked again.

"I ......" Qin Deng thought for a long time, he thought of the answer, so he replied: "I used to come here to learn Japanese when I lost my memory, and then I recovered my memory and gained the ability to resurrect. ”

"So the me who lives in the human world is also me, the me who has lost the pain and the sadness has disappeared, and the me who has forgotten me, but it is still me." Qin Deng hesitated for a moment, but he was still determined.

"Is your memory accurate? Can you be sure that you are not encroaching on the physical body of that human named Qin Deng? Can you guarantee that's you, too? How do you make me sure I'm not being cheated on by you? "Patchouli gets to the bottom of it.

"The diligent Qin Deng is me, the ignorant Qin Deng is me, the hidden one is me, and the one who is divided is me......" Qin Deng replied slowly: "It was me from the beginning, it was me in the process, and it was me in the end; I am now, I was in the past, and I will be in the future; It is me who is in time, and I am also who is not; I came from another world, and I was the one who was like a god......"

In the end, Qin Deng's voice in reply became smaller and smaller, so small that it was inaudible, and he was no longer answering, but affirming himself.

Because he was lucky to come here, although there were many doubts, Qin Deng never doubted himself.

He constantly denies himself and affirms himself, he has never been a person who is good at affirming himself.

Otherwise it wouldn't be a labeling guy.

He came here because of the favor of that world, because of the closed loop.

He got lucky, so he got lucky, because he was lucky, so he was lucky to get lucky; He was lucky to get lucky, so he got lucky, so he was lucky to get lucky............

Ignoring time and space, the luck of escape can only be obtained by him.

Qin Deng finally seemed to have found that person.

"You...... Is it me? ”

"Yes." The man looked back, and it was Qin Deng's appearance: "Don't worry, you are me." ”

"How can I be sure that you didn't come to deceive me?"

"Why are you sure? You're me, I'm you, it's a fact now, isn't it? ”

"Is it a fact? I've been living with inexplicable feelings, I've always felt like I'm encroaching on something, am I doing something wrong? ”

"You're who you are now. You've always been you. ”

"I ......"

"No, you shouldn't have said it was you anymore." The figure smiled: "The answer is, I am me." ”

After saying that, the person in Qin Deng's heart pushed his glasses with the back of his hand.

Opening his eyes and raising his head, Qin Deng faced Pache in front of him.

"You've got the answer." Seeing this, Patchouli knew in her heart, she lowered her head, and then looked at the book: "From human to non-human, from one's own memory to the memory that suddenly appeared, human beings will always encounter all kinds of psychological problems in their cultivation to become non-human. ”

"Denial of oneself, denial of others, denial of the world, negation of time...... Those who practice the Heavenly Dao will have problems, those who practice magic will also have problems, and even those who are born strong will have problems. Pache slowly flipped through the pages.

"Questioning authenticity is a sign of progress. But you have to remember that if the world is false, you are still a creature living in falsehood; It exists, so you exist. With that, the library fell silent.

"Hahahahaha

But suddenly there was a sound of laughter, Pachouli looked up suspiciously, and Qin Deng in front of him was laughing.

He laughed wildly, laughing and coughing as if he had lost his breath.

Qin Deng finally stopped and resumed his distant appearance, but the corners of his mouth did not retract: "I haven't given up questioning and denying. ”

Patchouli closed the book and looked up at Qin Deng.

"I am me." Qin Deng said: "And I am also me. ”

"I'm still questioning if I'm encroaching on someone else, but I know now that guy is me, so I'm who I am, and I'm me."

At this moment, Qin Deng felt his return, no need to paste labels, no need to how, be polite if you want to be polite, and be arrogant if you want to be arrogant.

People can never be seen in one direction and aspect, and a person can be very complex.

"And Your Excellency Patchouli ......" Qin Deng put away his flamboyant face, because after all, he still had to live in Gensokyo, and he couldn't be too much: "I'm still a human being." ”

Seeing this, Patchouli patted her hat: "You have the answer, don't you?" ”

"What I have is not the answer, but the result."

Pache smiled and lowered her head, opened the book, and continued her silent study.

But before that, she said, "I'm looking forward to you, Mr. Shin of the Humans. ”

"Thank you for your anticipation, Your Excellency the Witch of the Seven Days." Qin Deng returned the favor.