Chapter 92: Resentment
Pei Feng's movements were as neat as ever, Cui Jinniang was not surprised after getting the news, and early the next morning, she took two burdens to find Bai Yindi and Qi Xiu'er to go to Pomegranate Lane together.
Wearing the small green cloth jacket that Cui Jinniang brought to herself, Bai Yindi twisted the hem of her clothes uncomfortably, glanced at Cui Jinniang who was leading the way in front, and she said to Qi Xiu'er:
"I'll just say that the Zhu Erjia suddenly gave us food and money and didn't let us go to pick up any more customers, and we must not have held back anything to go into the water, how can there be such good people in the world?"
Touching the silver bracelet hanging from her hand, she smiled coldly.
"Fortunately, our rotten flesh and skin are not worth anything, and we are not starving ghosts after a few days of being full."
Seeing that she said as if she was going to die, Qi Xiu'er raised her hand to support the plain bun on her head, and lowered her head to straighten the green cloth jacket on her body that looked like Bai Yindi, and then glanced at her and said:
"You also know that it's food, it's money, and it's giving us this new clothes, which adds up to five or six taels of silver, not to mention the two of us, it's enough to buy a fresh and neat girl from Song Laobustard's hand, even if it's a terrible deal, there are girls who are more innocent than the two of us, and you really think that others are worried about your rotten life? Zhu Erjia said it a long time ago, just let us help find out some news, and we also have to read the feelings of others."
Bai Yindi smiled coldly, only to feel that Qi Xiu'er's head was broken when she thought about Congliang every day.
Passing by an alley, Bai Yindi suddenly felt a cold in her hand, she looked down and saw that there was a three-inch-long cone in her hand, and her head was sharpened and flashed with cold light.
She was shocked and looked at Qi Xiu'er, but saw that Qi Xiu'er was still in her new clothes as if she was fine.
Walking to the back door of the Shen house, Cui Jinniang glanced back at the two of them, and said in a deep tone:
"You two put away those useless thoughts, and you will be careful when you see the people in this portal. If she's happy, she's a fool, and if she's not happy...... You were beaten to death by her, and she didn't blink."
Saying this, Cui Jinniang glanced at the cuffs of the two and shook her head.
"Take out the things, don't hurt yourself."
Bai Yindi staggered forward and stood in front of Qi Xiu'er, with a smile on her face: "Zhu Er's family, you must say a few more good words for the two of us, the great kindness of your master and our two hearts are firmly in mind, and we have no other thoughts."
Cui Jinniang sighed lightly, stretched out her hand, palm up.
"Bring it. With these things on you, you can't protect yourself if you really have something, but it can make me more taboo and white."
Bai Yindi took out the cone hidden in her sleeve, and the smile on her face was not embarrassed at all.
Behind her, Qi Xiu'er put her fingers on the bun, and unexpectedly pulled out another cone, which was also sharpened.
Cui Jinniang's palm was still there.
Qi Xiu'er glanced at her, and then pulled out a few embroidery needles from the hem of her clothes.
Seeing that "Zhu Erjia's" still didn't move, she tilted her head to the side, raised her arm, and pulled out a two-inch-long silver needle from under her elbow. ….
"No more."
She whispered.
Cui Jinniang glanced at her again before turning around and throwing these things outside the door of the Shen Mansion.
"If you can't find it when you leave, I'll compensate you again."
Qi Xiu'er didn't dare to make a sound, followed her into the small door, and as soon as she entered, she first saw a little girl standing against the wall, with her legs apart and her back against the wall, looking very tired.
A handsome woman with a cardigan over her garment, was born handsome, and there she took the trouble to change everyone's movements.
After only one glance, Qi Xiu'er withdrew her gaze.
These girls who are slaves and maidservants in large families are much cleaner than her.
The handsome woman saw them too, and walked briskly:
"The girl is in the main hall, Xiaobao and Diecui have been brought to Yanjing, Diecui's injuries have healed, and now she is learning embroidery with Qingying, knowing that you are coming today
She's waiting for you at the front entrance."
Cui Jinniang was stunned for a moment before saying:
"Thank you, Miss Peifeng."
Pei Feng waved his hand, and he was not polite to her, and went straight back to practice those girls.
Looking at her back, Qi Xiu'er heard Bai Yindi whispering in surprise in her ear: "Where did this female head come from? looks good, and behaves magnificently, Zhu Er's family, isn't your master a general?"
Cui Jinniang shook her head, and led the two of them around a hanging flower door, entered the middle road, and after a while, Qi Xiu'er saw an extremely pretty girl again.
This girl was wearing an embroidered cotton armor, and she was talking to someone, and when she looked up and saw "Zhu Er's family", she frowned first.
Cui Jinniang stepped forward and gave a half-salute:
"Miss Achi."
The woman who was called Ah Chi looked at Qi Xiu'er and Bai Yindi, and Qi Xiu'er couldn't help but shrink her body.
She is not afraid, she has been a secret prostitute for all these years, and it is not for nothing that she is spit on in the face of others, and it is not a problem to tear and beat, what can such a clean and decent little girl do to her?
But Qi Xiu'er is still timid.
Like a crow with withered feathers, the bird cowered in the grass and saw a magpie standing on a branch.
The magpie couldn't beat her, and he couldn't scold her.
It's just clean.
Just because it was clean, there was no need to beat or scold, and the magpie could make her hairless crow unable to raise her head.
Ah Chi didn't say much to "Zhu Er's family", and only led the three of them through the corridor together to the main hall.
When I opened the satin-faced door curtain, I first felt a warmth, and at once I brushed away most of the cold and tiredness that people were running in the cold wind early in the morning.
Qi Xiu'er didn't dare to look at anything, and knelt directly on the stone floor with a "plop", and when she heard another plop, she knew that it was Bai Yindi who also knelt down.
"Girl, these two people are the people I recruited before, Bai Yindi, a native of Shandong, was sold to a Ya Po as a goddaughter since she was a child, and traveled around Zhili and Shandong, and was sold by Ya Po to a Beijing official as a concubine at the age of thirteen, because she did not give birth to a child, and five years later, when the Beijing official was transferred to a foreign office, she was released, and the Ya Po took her to do a secret business.
"Qi Xiu'er, a native of Baoning, was originally married, when she was twenty-one years old, the man was gone, she was driven back to her parents' house by her mother-in-law's family, her father was sick, in order to raise money, she went to a Jin merchant as an outer room, because of the war in the imperial court in the first two years, the Jin merchants' carriages and horses went to transport military rations, and the Jin merchants did not come to Yanjing, Qi Xiu'er collected the soft that the Jin merchants gave her, and usually made some shoes and sachets to take out, and was still able to make a living, but her family wanted to marry her brother and daughter-in-law, so she became a secret prostitute." ….
"Zhu Erjia's" said in detail, and Qi Xiu'er's heart tightened when she heard it, she usually didn't want to mention her old past, and she only knew Bai Yindi who was familiar with her words, and she really couldn't imagine that her old background would be touched so clearly.
The inside of the hall is very quiet.
Qi Xiu'er looked at the bricks on the ground, which had just been scrubbed not long ago, and there were still water marks in some of the brick joints.
An extremely delicate lambskin boot stepped on the crack of the brick.
Qi Xiu'er, who was so frightened, forgot to even gasp.
"You've been sold since you were a child, and you're willing?"
The woman's clear voice sounded, and Qi Xiu'er knew that she was asking Bai Yindi, so she shrank her neck slightly and didn't dare to move again.
"The girl asked this very noblely, how could the slave family be unwilling, the slave family still remembered the four sisters in the family, only a little brother, the younger brother ate white flour buns, and the only thing left for the slave sisters was bran paste, and the wild vegetables had to go up the mountain to dig them themselves, and Mother Li bought me but I could eat them all the time, and I was given clothes during the New Year's Festival. If you are willing or unwilling, the slave sisters are not as good as the slave family, and they are even more unwilling."
"It's in the same situation you used to be, and if you can be sold, you'll float." The young woman in the lambskin boots seemed to sneer.
"What about you? I was sold by my family again and again, and I was kicked out by my in-laws, are you willing?"
Knowing that she was asking herself, Qi Xiu'er trembled and put her head on the ground.
"There is really nothing to be done at home in the slave family."
Qi Xiu'er heard herself answer in a whisper.
"Huh." The woman laughed, "If I told you I could kill the person you wanted to kill the most, who would you want to kill?"
Qi Xiu'er heard the murderous aura rising inside, and she didn't dare to say a word.
But the woman refused to let her go, "Was it from your husband's house that insulted you? Or the merchant who gave you up in Yanjing? Those so-called benefactors who make you feel bad, or ...... What you hate the most is your father and mother?"
Qi Xiu'er raised her head, but she still looked at the pair of lambskin shoes in front of her.
People like them are like sludge, and a single look can bring death to themselves.
"Slave ......"
"If you can kill someone, the slave family wants to kill such a broken villain." Bai Yindi snatched the conversation for Qi Xiu'er, "The slave family has received the benefits of the girl these days, and can be fed and clothed, but when the dog kills it, I feel that the slave family has gone to do dirty things with people again, so I have to scrape some oil and water from the slave family, saying that otherwise I will sue the slave family."
Bai Yindi gritted her teeth when she spoke, as if she really hated those people.
Qi Xiu'er breathed a sigh of relief in her heart, and worried about her again.
At this moment, the woman in the lambskin boots smiled.
Yes, she actually laughed.
She laughed heartily, not like a woman except for her voice.
"It's funny, a thousand hands have pushed you to such a situation, and you hate the hands closest to you...... That's right. Qi Xiu'er, are you the same as Bai Yindi?"
Qi Xiu'er was stunned.
Because she seemed to have seen countless hands in front of her pushing herself into the mire, she couldn't tell which hand was the closest to her.
"What the slave family hates the most is the person who told the slave family to keep his body like a jade and marry a good husband, and from then on give birth to children and be filial to his in-laws. Whoever says this to the slave family, the slave family hates him." ….
She whispered.
"Because of those words, the slave family always wants to be able to return to the right path, and it is also a secret door, and the slave family is a hundred times more embarrassed and a hundred times harder than the one who really sowed shame."
She hates.
She hated the "right way" that she could never go back to, and she hated herself who always dressed up as a good family and refused to spread her needlework, and hated herself who couldn't leave her family and worked hard every day.
She hated herself for still having a conscience in her heart.
Until she came out of the house, Qi Xiu'er felt heavy in her heart, as if all her disguises over the years had been stripped off, so her heart could only curl up as much as she could as much as she could.
"Qi Xiu'er, are you okay? I'm afraid that girl wasn't born by the Bodhisattva, right? It really benefits us, and we don't have to do open-legged trading! Finding out the news, oh, how can this business be done?"
Bai Yindi's face was much lighter than hers, and she had a few taels of silver in reward, and she could really get silver and meat from Zhu Er's family in the future, Bai Yindi only felt like she had a good dream, and she was fluttering when she spoke.
Qi Xiu'er didn't say a word.
Of course, she also got money and promises, but she was not at all happy.
Because she knows that she can't go back, even if she doesn't have anything to do with any man in her life, even if she gets rich and expensive and has a torii in the future, she still can't go back.
How can a person come back to life when he dies?
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"Girl, the kitchen has made jujube paste snacks, can you use some first?"
The two secret prostitutes left, but their own girl sat with a calm face for a long time, and Ah Chi was a little uneasy.
Waving his hand to let Ah Chi put the snacks aside, Zhao Surui sat on the chair with Erlang's legs crossed, still thinking about what the secret prostitutes said.
It's interesting, it's so interesting.
The lowest, unbearable woman who no longer cares about her reputation, also has such resentment in her heart, how similar is it to Shen Sanfu.
They hate the gnats who want to drink blood when they step on their wounds, and the "rules" that women have adhered to for thousands of years.
If it had been before, Zhao Surui would have felt that this was just a useless anger of incompetent waste.
Now he doesn't see it that way.
Because of being a woman these days, he actually has these two kinds of resentment.
Even if it's just in those inconvenient moments of menstruation.
Even if it was just the very brief moment when Ah Chi prevented him from eating meat.
Even if it's just ......
Suddenly, Zhao Surui slapped the table.
He couldn't think about it anymore.
Zhao Surui, the wise and martial Emperor Zhaode, is an emperor, not a woman.
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