Wang Gu sat on top of the palace, closing his eyes and thinking.

Did you do it right before?

According to the task given to him by the black sky, he was supposed to be the guardian of the 10th layer, but he was defeated by the alliance of adventurers who wanted to break through the first class, and handed over the treasure he guarded to the adventurers who were good at it.

Yes, this is his duty, it is his rule, it is his daily routine that he repeats I don't know how many times.

But, not so long ago, his routine collapsed.

The moment he saw the black moon that appeared in the sky, something more went through his mind.

He saw in his eyes something that he could never see before, and even if he did, he would not take it seriously, but it was enough to completely change his worldview that did not exist in the first place, or to establish a new worldview.

Then, he woke up.

It's not a human being, but as a human being, to be precise, he knows something, has the same thinking power as a human being, and then wakes up.

He had a consciousness of his own.

He woke up.

At the same time, he also understood that the so-called thousands of daily lives he had used to be nothing more than the deepest memory carved into the depths of his soul by an irresistible force.

His daily routine was pre-designed by something else, destined to repeat itself a hundred, a thousand, ten thousand, an infinite loop.

That's what he discovered.

Before witnessing that round of the Black Moon, before awakening, as a king, as a pure guardian lord monster king, he didn't feel that his life was repetitive.

Although it doesn't make sense, it's not meaningless, and it doesn't matter if it's a qiē.

Once in his mind, there was no such concept as meaning.

But now Yiqiē is different, he learns to think and finds that his world has completely changed.

He knew that he had only been resurrected from the dead again and again, and there was no possibility of getting rid of this constraint.

Although the awakened self is consciously free from the control of rules and constraints, unlike his kindred, he does not have enough wisdom to realize that what he has done is just a futile repetition.

But sadly, I still can't get rid of the shackles of the rules of the dark sky.

Waking up is painful, especially when only you wake up, only you know the truth, but you still can't change the tragic situation.

The status quo is that he can't leave the black sky, and even this palace can't leave now.

He is the lone king imprisoned in this secluded palace.

The black moon in the sky awakened itself, and at the same time, it also gave itself a new task, that is, as the guardian of the Black Moon Temple, waiting for the arrival of adventurers, and then finally being defeated by them, and they took away the qiē they guarded.

Including treasures, including memories, losing what you have, and then dying.

After that, as a new 10th class, he lived and resurrected, repeating the daily, weekly, and monthly routines that had been repeated many times in the past.

At that time, he will lose his memory, lose his sense of autonomy that he was lucky or unfortunate enough to have due to the change of the Black Moon, and lose his ability to think as an intelligent creature, so that he will be included in the Black Sky Control system again, and become an NPC monster that moves mechanically according to the preset rules.

NPC monster, the word is one of the many words that come into contact with when you are shocked in your mind when you look at the black moon.

He didn't quite understand the meaning of the word, but he also roughly guessed that it was his past self, his past, present, and future kindred.

But even so, what can it be?

Among them, there seems to be nothing to lose, and nothing to gain.

There doesn't seem to be anything bad about it, and at the same time it doesn't seem to be good.

Because he has only returned to his original state, and this moment may seem like nothing more than a dream after that, or perhaps even this dream has been completely forgotten.

Because what he guards is never his own, that qiē is just arranged by something else.

Yes, even so, it's no different than before.

It's just a return to the familiar daily life of the past.

But why......

He felt a deep disgust.

He didn't understand what was wrong with him.

He felt that his thoughts were merely disorganized and disjointed.

Even these words only popped into his head out of nowhere, without knowing what they really meant.

Although because of the Black Moon, he has gained self-consciousness, gained wisdom comparable to that of humans, and knows something that he only knows but cannot understand.

But also because of this, he ...... Confused.

I used to be confused, I used to act mechanically according to the preset rules and rules, and I didn't have time or thoughts to generate and carry this confusion.

Because of the disgust in his chest, he violated the rules of the black sky and killed almost all the first adventurers who came.

Is it because of anger?

Do you want revenge?

He didn't know.

Is it because of helplessness?

Want to help?

He didn't know.

Is this the right thing to do?

Why?

He didn't know.

He was confused.

He was confused.

He was deeply confused.

This confusion irritates him and makes him ...... Suffering.

Dysphoria?

Why?

I don't know.

Suffering?

Yourself in pain?

Why?

I don't know.

He can only ask questions, but he can't solve them.

This not knowing also irritates him and makes him miserable.

But he didn't know why he was upset and miserable because he didn't know.

The new one that doesn't know just as irritates him and makes him miserable.

Again, the reason he still doesn't know.

Circulate.

The infinite loop that was temporarily freed from because of the Black Moon is actually back.

My head hurts.

Think no more.

Don't think about it anymore.

Maybe it won't be irritating and painful, right?

I don't know.

Perhaps, killing those adventurers is to solve the confusion in your heart, right?

I don't know.

But.

Even after killing those adventurers before him, the confusion in his heart still exists.

Not only that, but it permeated his entire body more profoundly.

He felt a sense of confusion in his body.

What are you doing?

I don't know.

Shouldn't I help those adventurers slowly improve their strength, and then be killed by them, so that they can get good treasures, equipment, go to the lower areas, and then resurrect, and continue to repeat the process?

I don't know.

It's just that he shuddered as he looked at the other people who were destined to continue the process of awakening over and over again without tire.

As the strongest of the entire first class, he was scared for the first time when he thought of the future that his clan was about to face.

He feared that he would once again sink into an infinite daily life with no end.

Are you really afraid?

I don't know.

No, he knows.

This simple multiple-choice question of likes and dislikes, likes and fears, he knows the answer.

Follow your own reaction to the moment the question comes to mind.

He was disgusted.

He was afraid.

He didn't want to......

Here's his answer.

Although he didn't know why, he knew that he didn't want to repeat the endless cycle.

He was afraid to repeat the never-ending, infinite cycle of daily life.

Being killed by those nasty creatures called Adventurers as a treasure protector and resurrected by something, being killed by those nasty creatures called adventurers and resurrected by something as a large class master, being killed by a nasty creature named Adventurer and resurrected by something......

Ah, want to die.

When he thought of such an endless cycle of life in the future, he wanted to die.

I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die,

Perhaps, this is the reason why he killed those adventurers directly, instead of following the normal procedure, giving them time to prepare and unite, and giving them time to rest and recuperate enough to defeat themselves.

However, he finally noticed it.

No, he had already noticed it, hadn't he?

Although he unexpectedly awakened, he still couldn't get rid of the control of that invisible force.

Moreover, although the awakened self has the autonomous consciousness to temporarily leave the infinite daily life, it is still imprisoned in this world.

Nothing has changed, except for the self-consciousness that has one more that will make him miserable and make him think of death.

Then die.

If you die, you may lose this sense of autonomy due to the Black Moon accident.

If you die, you may return to the infinite daily life that has no end.

At that time, I was unconscious, and therefore there was no pain.

There is no joy and no pain.

That kind of life......

Okay? I don't know.

Isn't it good? I don't know.

Ah, here we go again.

That deep ignorance and confusion.

Ignorance because of knowing, confusion because of knowing, pain because ignorance is confused.

In that case, let's die.

Come, adventurer, come and kill me, and end my life of suffering because I awakened because I knew.

It doesn't matter what the future holds, whether it's complete darkness or a return to the dead cycle of the past.

Anyway, when the time comes, I don't even have the consciousness to recognize the status quo.

There will be no pain.

Come, adventurer, kill me and end my boring mission as the keeper of the Temple of the Black Moon.

For that, I would like to thank you, and I will take revenge on you, and I will give you the mask that you longed for, and which at the same time caused me pain.

PS: I enjoyed this chapter and I hope you guys will enjoy it too. The NPC monster boss who was supposed to be killed during the protagonist's monster fighting and upgrading awakened, and at that moment, the character was alive and he had his own life. I'm looking forward to the next life of this awakened boss.

I don't know this yet, or I haven't thought of it yet, or it's useless for me to think about the plot until that step, and the changes at that time are not even under my control, of course I can forcibly control it, but that comes at the cost of losing logic and losing rationality. That's why there is a saying that when the character appears, the author can no longer fully control his character.

Yes, just as Don Quixote jumped down and Charlotte had to go down, it wasn't a plot that I had arranged in my outline, but something he had to do. Even such a change as the Berserk Demon Ape King was written by me on an impromptu basis, and the two bloody or difficult plots that I had thought of before were all overturned.

The plot after that will be interesting, and the thought of it makes me want to write there quickly, hoping to write the feeling I want to write. So, help me, dear book friends, recommend me, collect me, make my numbers look better, and give me encouragement!

Dear book friends, I need your recommendation and support!