As the fourth week passed, Lewis was disgusted with himself and life, and his sense of failure embarrassed him. Now he understands that there is a reason for the review and editing to reject his work. He laughed at himself and his dreams. Momoe Yamaguchi sent his manuscripts of "Ikuchako" and several of his works, and he read her letters indifferently, and she expressed her liking for his works as much as she could, saying that they were beautiful. He understood that these poems were not successful. He could tell from the lack of enthusiasm in every line of her letter that she did not approve of it, and that she was right. He reread the poems, convinced that his feelings were not wrong. Beauty and wonder had left him. When I read the poem, I found myself wondering: What did I feel when I first put pen to paper? His imposing words gave him the grotesque impression that his smug pen was actually very ugly and vulgar. Everything is absurd, hypocritical, and unspeakable. If he is strong enough, he will burn "Sheng Chazi" on the spot.

In the dead of night, the desire to create sprouted in Lewis's heart. Novels and poems popped out of his head and took shape naturally. He hastily jotted them down and prepared them to be written later. He knew the world in all its variety, and had made its way through a whirlwind of ever-changing situations. In the process, he learned a code of conduct to let others do all new tricks first. This method has made him invincible many times before, and it has also cultivated his observation skills. He knows how to look at new things, wait for weaknesses to be exposed, and then seize the breakthrough and rush in. It's the same as waiting for an opportunity to attack in a fight. With his long-term experience, as long as he finds a flaw, he can grasp it and chase it hard.

When he reads the works of successful writers, he always writes down their penmanship in every situation, analyzes their tips for success, the tricks of narration, expression, style, their opinions, contrasts and aphorisms. Making a list of all of them and studying them one by one, he pursued only the principles in them. After dissecting and understanding the structure of beauty, he was one step closer to being able to create beauty. He had developed the habit of writing down a question after thinking about it and maturing it, and he didn't take it seriously if it wasn't published......

The months went by forever, and at this time, when he was at the end of his rope, on Sunday morning, the courier brought him a thin text message envelope, and Lewis glanced at it, and read the name and address of the editorial office of "Novel.com", and his heart pounded. He suddenly felt a faint spin, his knees trembled, and his body sank. He stumbled into the room and sat down on the bed. The letter had not yet been opened, and at that moment, he understood why some people would die because of the sudden and unusual good news. This is good news, there is no manuscript in the thin envelope, so it is a notice of adoption. He knew what kind of work was sent to the "Novel Network", which was "The Seven Sons of the Heavenly Dragon", a novel with the theme of love, freedom, and peace, with more than 300,000 words. Since it is a first-class online literature website, it is generally paid as soon as the manuscript is adopted, and there should be a check in it. The letter, unfolded, without a check, he glanced into the envelope, and then looked at the letter into the light. He couldn't believe his eyes. Trembling, he hurriedly tore open the envelope: no checks! He hurriedly read line by line, skimming past the editor's praise for his work, and to find the point, why didn't there be a check? He finally found it, but he suddenly collapsed. The letter fell from his hand, his eyes losing their luster, and he lay back on the pillow, pulling the blanket over his body and reaching his chin.

The letter said that the manuscript fee for "The Seven Sons of the Heavenly Dragon" is 30 yuan, 1 yuan and 10,000 words! It's not 5 cents for 1 word! The editor also praised the good writing, and the check could not be cashed until after the work was officially published and the cumulative remuneration reached 200 yuan. It turns out that this is all nonsense! It's all a lie, and he was deceived. If he had known, he would never have planned to write. He would have gone to work a long time ago, and he would have gone to work for Yamaguchi Momoe. He thinks back to when he first started writing, and he can't help but feel sad about how much time he wasted. In the end, it ended up with 1 yuan and 10,000 words! At first, what he had read about the high salaries of other writers seemed to be false.

He's been hooked by someone else. Nonsense on the Internet and in newspapers about writers and remuneration wasted him more than a year. Now he's going to spit out the hook in his mouth. He's never going to write again. He had to do what Momoe Yamaguchi asked, which is also the request of many parents, to find a job. When he thinks of work, he thinks of Li Riqing, the Li Riqing who wanders in the idle world near the hot springs. Lewis let out a long sigh, envious in his heart. However, after Li Riqing ran away in public with Yoko Ono, he did not remarry for 18 years, and he had no responsibility for love, and he could wander in the idle world. And he, Lewis, has a goal to strive for, he wants to go to work, to work.

10,000 words for 1 yuan, this is the price of literature and art in the market! The disappointment, the falsehood, the shamelessness, always came to his mind. He lay on the bed, shaking, his bones ached, his lower back hurt, his head hurt, his head seemed to swell, and his forehead ached unbearably. It seemed that after a long time, he was awakened by a knock on the door. Li Riqing asked him if he was sick. He mumbled that he didn't know, that he just took a nap. He was taken aback when he noticed that it was already dark in the room. It was four o'clock in the afternoon when he received the letter, and he knew he was sick......

A month later, Lewis's good fortune rose like the sun. On Saturday morning, he received a check for $1,200 from a weekly magazine in Tokyo, Japan, as payment for three of his articles. Two days later, an online literary agency in Osaka picked up his "Silver Beach Story" and promised to give him $1,000 after publication. Although the pay was not high, it was his first work, and it was the first time he wanted to turn it into a prototype of a lead print. To his particular delight, his second trial work, a serialized adventure mystery story, was also adopted by a monthly magazine called Jin Yong on Sunday. Yes, that article was 30,000 words, and they promised to give him $1,500 after publication.

His earliest works, though clumsy, were not mediocre. Their clumsiness is characterized by their superiority, the clumsiness of the fledgling who smashes butterflies with a ram and draws patterns with a big stick. Therefore, he is still happy to be able to sell his early works at a low price. He understood their value and understood it soon after they were written. He pinned his faith on his later works. He had strived to surpass the level of a novelist, and had tried to arm himself with all kinds of artistic means. On the other hand, he does not want to weaken the power of his work. He consciously increases the intensity of his work by avoiding over-the-top ones. He also did not deviate from his love for reality. His works are realist and romantic, both depicting scenes and emphasizing lyricism, and the scenes are like parents, giving birth to "truth" in the blending of scenes!! But he also strives to blend it with fantasy and imaginary beauty. What he pursues is a kind of passionate realism and sober romanticism, full of human ideals, beliefs and passions. What he portrays is a life of fireworks on earth, which integrates spiritual exploration and soul achievement in life.

He dimly felt that the world was very beautiful, indeed much better than usual. For many weeks the world has been very depressed and grim. But now, when the heart is full of the joy of success, the sun is bright and warm. At this moment, a sudden rain fell and drenched the unprepared pedestrians, but he was still happy. When he was starving, he always thought of the countless hungry people in the world he knew, but now that he was full, the countless hungry people in his mind disappeared and were forgotten. When he fell in love himself, he also remembered the countless people in love in the world. The themes of love lyric poetry have unconsciously begun to work in his mind, and he is swayed by the passion of his creation.

However, the goddess of success lost Lewis's address, and her messenger never came to Lewis's door again. He toiled for twenty days to complete a "Shan Genzi" of about 40,000 words, and there was no rest on holidays and Sundays, and Lewis sent it to magazines and literary websites, only to lose his voice like a weighing stone falling into cotton------ The dozen or so short stories returned by the newspaper story feed were still stuffed under the table, and he flipped them out and read them again, trying to find out the reason for the failure of the writing. He came up with a reliable formula from it. He found that newspaper stories cannot be tragedies, they must have happy endings. The language does not have to be beautiful, the thought does not have to be detailed, and the feelings do not have to be subtle, but they must have feelings, and they must be rich, pure and noble.

Soon after studying the art of writing short stories, Lewis developed fixed patterns that he often used as a reference for writing, like clever mathematical tables from which a variety of different results could be deduced without deep thinking, each accurate and reliable, and standing up to scrutiny. In this way, it does not take an hour to sketch the outline of more than a dozen short stories. He put them aside, and when the day the serious laundry was over, it was time to go to bed, and when he was free, he would fill them up again. Sometimes he comforts himself by saying, "Someday I'll be paid as I do!" ”

That's when he found himself with a passion for perfection. Under the domination of that emotion, he revised and polished his early writings "Halo------ Ordinary Road", "Origin", "Tender Spring Life", "Thought, Faster than the Speed of Light" and some other works. He still writes and reads as hard as he did in the past, and even forgets the pain of quitting smoking in his busy schedule. When he was struggling, he especially wanted to smoke, and he felt uncomfortable, no matter how many times, he held back his addiction, which was always as strong as his past memories. He considers quitting smoking to be his greatest achievement.

When he was most unlucky, Lewis won a perfect score in a prize competition organized by the Propaganda Department of the Yunlian County Party Committee. The competition was divided into three parts, and he participated in all of them, and he couldn't help but smile bitterly at himself, he had actually reached the point of exhaustion! His "Sheng Chazi" won the first prize, 3,000 yuan; His selected songs, namely "Yunlian Song" composed by him and composed by Yuzhi Koji, won the second prize, 2,000 yuan, which made him satisfied.