On a cool night in early spring, I sat on a field with green grass and stargazing.

Looking and looking, looking around, I didn't see any of them being my father.

A gust of night wind blew, and I wrapped myself in a wrapper, this feeling that the world is unique to me, I was so lonely!

On the same day, after my father Jin Zhao was assassinated by the dead Shichen in Xihua Tower, my grandmother and I became the 'three nos'!

No one cares, no one takes care of it, no one comes to the door!

Since then, the silver candle knows deeply, Yeping Jiawei, thousands of girls are sad in their hearts, and there is no need to tell anyone!

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My surname is Jin, and the word is a cicada, which means 'cicadas shed in filth and float outside the dust'.

This is the name that my grandfather Jin Oak chose for me when he was alive, and he hoped that I would be noble and psychic, and that I would be resurrected and immortalized after the rain and wind.

Dad always felt that this name was not domineering enough, mixed with the rivers and lakes, and the name should at least have something to do with dragons, tigers, or something, but grandpa was stubborn, and my father didn't force it.

After my grandfather passed away, my father took over the huge beggar gang, built a large courtyard, and was busy with the affairs of the rivers and lakes every day, so he temporarily fostered me in the gentle and virtuous grandmother's house. After I moved here, my grandmother dismissed all the family servants, and in the end, only I was left with my grandmother in the small Sanjin courtyard, and I had little contact with my father.

Under the care of my grandmother, I don't go out of the door, learn the six arts, read poetry and books, read all the classics of the predecessors, and love the first "Book of Changes". With the support of my grandmother, I ignored the world, was free, and quietly left home in the jasper years, reading the fertile soil of northern Xinjiang, and I was just picked up by Uncle Ling Xiao on the winter solstice last year.

When I went out, I also saw the other side of my father, greedy for money and profit, cruel and murderous, in Bozhou, almost everyone mentioned their father, and they had to unconsciously scold a few words.

I once suggested that my grandmother persuade my father, but my grandmother touched my forehead and said earnestly, "It's hard to take care of the child when he grows up." The cause and effect, right and wrong, life and death, let this child suffer by himself. ”

Then, my grandmother said to me meaningfully, "I can't control him, I can still control you!" Cicadas are at ease, with grandma here, you will definitely grow up strong. ”

Today, I finally understand the meaning of my grandmother's words.

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I have a thin temperament since I was a child, I have no impression of the mother who died early, and I only made two or three confidants and friends after traveling to the north for three years, three months ago, I had a whim, for myself to divinate a hexagram, the result is: parents are injured, middle-aged and tired, the mood is often changed, changeable and folded, more than clothes, and a safe life.

Because of this hexagram, I was annoyed that the ancients deceived me for a few days ago, and it was not until my father's death that I completely believed in this hexagram!

The ancients did not deceive me!

On April 15, in Xihua Tower, my father's coffin board had not yet been covered, and the beggar gang outside the building put away the spring fat to the people of Liaoxi under the instruction of Uncle Ling Xiao. I stood at the side window, looking coldly downstairs, and the beggar gang members were smiling one by one, as if their father's death was just an opportunity for them to make money.

Upstairs funeral, downstairs celebration, how ridiculous?

The scum of people in the world, such as the Beggar Gang, is dead, so let's die!

On the night of my father's death, a middle-aged man with a rag on his back, sideburns like a knife, and dry bones gently knocked on the door of the west house. The middle-aged man who called himself Su Ran didn't wait to sit down in the house, and said to his grandmother that he wanted to 'solve the old grudge for many years, and return the sun and moon to Liaoxi, and the sunny sky'.

Grandma sighed softly and said, 'That's it, let's go,' and waved her hand to see off the guest.

Su Ran resolutely left, rode out of the West Gate, and never returned.

That night, as I did tonight, I watched the moon with my grandmother for a long time.

On the second day, before dawn, my grandmother gently woke me up and said softly to me, "Cicadas, don't be greedy, get up and pack up, let's travel lightly and go out of the city at the right time." ”

I asked my grandmother, "Where are we going?" ”

Grandma said softly, "Liaoxi is about to change, and for you, Yangle City is already a dangerous city!" Let's go, go with grandma, grandma will take you to a place where there is no quarrel with the world. ”

I didn't even ask the destination, so I went out of the east gate with my grandmother, all the way east, two and a half days short, I followed my grandmother to a low mountain in the northeast of Wuci County, which is the junction of Wuci and Wuning counties.

This unknown hill is very wonderful, although the mountain is short but there is an auspicious fog to cover the top, although the forest is dense but there is no tiger and leopard insect swarm, the great river of Jean runs through the mountain, forming a natural boundary, find a mountain top everywhere, look at this distant mountain reflecting the water, the sunset is low, continuous, there is no end, suddenly live in seclusion here all day long to take the river boating thoughts.

Deep in the low mountains, by the Jean River, there are dozens of fireworks, more than 100 households, villagers are old and young, they are all waiting at the entrance of the village, grandma on crutches, smiled at me, "Child, it's here." This is your home! ”

I was ignorant when I heard this, but out of trust in my grandmother, I still followed her into the village.

I didn't feel that it was a national beauty, but I still amazed the villagers, led by an old man trembling, and sighed with emotion, "This girl, when I hugged you, you were only the size of a palm, and in a blink of an eye, you have been so out and down, this old golden man, good life!" Hahaha! ”

My grandmother took me through the past, and the old man led me and my grandmother to an empty room in the middle of the village, which was equipped with everything in the house, and it seemed that it was the most exquisite house in the whole village. According to the old man who led the way, this house has always been kept by the descendants of the Jin family, but he didn't expect it to come in handy so soon.

After a while, two river carp and three brute heads were served a meal by a tiger-headed young man, and then the old man said, 'Madame will rest for a while, and the rest will be discussed the next day', so he retired from his grandmother and turned to leave.

I was full of doubts in my heart, although I was extremely hungry, but I was not in a hurry to eat, and hurriedly asked about cause and effect, and asked my grandmother in confusion, "Grandma, what is this?" ”

"Come on, boy, don't be hungry, grandma and you will talk while eating!" Grandma pulled me to sit on the edge of the earthen kang, sandwiched a piece of fish belly, put it on my plate, she began to hazy eyes, and gradually tears in her eyes, that was not even in the father's funeral did not show the sadness, before I stepped forward, grandma quickly wiped away her tears, sighed softly, "This is all many years ago!" Today, Grandma will tell you all about it. ”

I had a hunch that this would be a sad past, so I gently shook my grandmother's hands.

Grandma looked at me gently and said, "Your grandfather Jin Li, who was originally a lieutenant general under the Wuci Army, you have read a lot of books, and you must also know about the Qin and Han wars many years ago, and your grandfather led his subordinates to create the Beggar Gang at that time." ”

I nodded vigorously and said to my grandmother, "Grandma, you have said this past many times!" ”

Grandma patted her thigh with one hand and laughed, "Haha! You see, this person likes to be verbose when he is old, so I won't talk about what you know, let's talk about something you don't know, and something that is not in this book. What do you think? ”

As she spoke, my grandmother gave me another piece of fish, and this time it was fed to my mouth, and I swallowed it naturally.

Grandma's mind gradually fell into the past, and began to say, "Yijiazi ago, our Wuci Mountain in the north of Wuci County is originally called Wuci West Mountain, and the mountain range where you are now is called Wuci East Mountain, this mountain was originally a strategic place for the Wuci Army, and your grandfather once led a part of the Wuci Army to hide troops here, as a barrier to defend the eastern border. Forty-five years ago, the Qin and Han wars, it was really tragic, the famous Qin general Feng Qiong led the Great Qin 100,000 Eastern Army, suddenly invaded the territory, with lightning speed, within two months to hit the Old Yan Great Wall, the famous Gongsun family almost the whole family died, and the entire Han Xinjiang north of the Lingyuan Mountains fell. The soldiers of Daqin drove straight in, and the supply of grain and grass was the problem, so they took my Han people as food, the old and thin men were called 'Rao Fire', the women were called 'unenvious sheep', and the children were called 'and the bones were rotten', and my Han people were also called 'two-legged sheep', according to your grandfather's recollection, in Wuci County after the war, the most were not the living and the dead, but the bones of my Han people! ”

Hearing this, I got goosebumps on my body, and the scene of people eating people made me shudder a little.

Grandma picked up the chopsticks, took a large piece of fish and meat, and said slowly, "Your grandfather is very good at leading troops to fight, there are not many natural barriers in northern Xinjiang, they are all vast black soil, when Feng Qiong hit Chisong County, which borders Liaoxi County to the north, he expected that the entire northern Xinjiang might be lost." So, under the instruction of General Wuci, your grandfather quietly hid Wuci, some of the people of Wuning and the main Wuci army in this mountain, wanting to be a team of strange soldiers to block the back road of Daqin in the future counterattack. Later, Emperor Shenwu personally drove the expedition and blocked Feng Qiong from the outside. ”

I interrupted my grandmother at the right time and asked, "Grandma, what is the Central Plains?" ”

Grandma replied with a smile, "The north of the Lingyuan Mountain Range is the northern border; To the south of the Lingyuan Mountains, the vast and rich Central Plains! ”

I asked smartly, "So, after Emperor Shenwu set out on the expedition, he blocked the Qin thieves north of the Lingyuan Mountain Range on the battlefield in the northeast, right?" ”

Grandma nodded, and then said, "The Central Plains is a flat river, as long as the Qin army passes the Lingyuan Mountain Range, it will be a thoroughfare, and when the Qin army is proud of the iron cavalry, it can gallop in the hinterland of Quzhou, burning, killing and looting." Therefore, at that time, Emperor Shenwu personally sat in Lingyuan City, the generals worked hard, the soldiers died, and the corpses filled the mountain ravines into mountains, so as to block the offensive of the Qin State. ”

I was silent, and finally muttered, "The country is in trouble, and it is a blessing for the country to be able to get a strong man to die!" ”

Grandma got down to business and continued, "Just when the Qin and Han dynasties were facing each other in the north and south of the Lingyuan Mountain Range, a child hiding in the mountains with his relatives accidentally set fire to the mountain, and the Eagle Eye guards scattered everywhere in the Great Qin immediately detected the soldiers and horses hidden in the eastern mountains of Wuci. ”

My spirit tensed up all of a sudden, and I hurriedly asked, "And then?" Grandmother. Isn't my father exposed? ”