463 I can't live without you (Happy Chinese New Year!) )

As the door of the Buddha hall was pushed open from the outside, a thin figure appeared in Ma Wan's sight along with the light leaking in from outside the door.

It is the end of March, the beginning of summer is imminent, and the person who comes is still wearing a thin shawl, and a silver-gray embroidered bamboo robe under the cloak, which complements the warm and elegant atmosphere of his body.

His movements as he walked into the temple were not in a hurry, but his gaze found Ma Wan at the first moment.

Ma Wan, who stood up and looked in the direction of the door when he heard the movement, never missed his searching gaze.

Looking at each other, Ma Wan's heartstrings tightened, her eyes were red, and she wanted to call "Shizi" like before, but she couldn't speak.

She hadn't seen him for many days, and she didn't know his attitude and thoughts these days, as well as his intentions at this time, so she didn't dare to speak rashly in such a situation, let alone what she could say.

The moment they looked at each other, thousands of thoughts flashed through Ma Wan's mind.

It all started with the letter she received last winter......

In the letter, her grandfather asked her to secretly investigate whether Yu Zeng, the head of the Rong Palace, and gave a very clear clue - before Yu Zeng entered the palace, two familiar companions were sent to the Rong Wangfu as servants. Many years have passed, one of them is no longer alive, and the remaining one came to Yizhou with King Rong that year.

According to Ma Wan's investigation, that person is now a small steward in the Rongwang Mansion in Yizhou. In terms of talent and qualifications, this person is only average, and in terms of background, he is not as good as those children in King Rong's mansion, and he can get a position as a steward, which is also a qualification that has been boiled out for many years.

Therefore, objectively speaking, this person is not regarded as being reused by King Rong, but since his grandfather has made it clear, Ma Wan can only try to do it.

It is precisely because of this situation that the person in the Rongwang Mansion is not up and down, that Ma Wan can "smoothly" envelop her as the princess.

After that, this person secretly treated Ma Wan, the princess, and also had a lot of clever gestures, revealing that he was happy to be used by Ma Wan.

Once, Ma Wan chose the opportunity to ask this person about the old things related to Yu Zeng, the head of Sigongtai, but this person did not show anything unusual, nor did he deny that he and Yu Zeng met when they were young. But he told Ma Wan that after he was added to the palace, the two gradually had no chance to communicate, and at the end he sighed that "the same people don't have the same fate".

Although he did not provide any valuable information, the other party seemed to have a normal reaction, and his answers were very careful and attentive, without evasion or perfunctory.

But after this person left, Ma Wan felt a chill in her heart, and an unspeakable uneasiness emerged.

Because the other party's reaction was too "normal", even when she asked about Yu Zeng, she didn't even show a trace of surprise, and this was an old incident that was older than her...... The other party was not even curious about how she knew? Why did she ask?

Is this a manifestation of being a smart person, or is it something else?

That night, Ma Wan stayed up all night, thinking a lot, about the steward, about the Rongwang Mansion, about the grandfather and the saint......

The next day, she went to greet Princess Rong as usual, but when she was about to leave, she was stopped by two mothers-in-law, who only said that the princess's illness was difficult to recover, and asked her to go to the Buddhist hall to pray for the princess to fast and copy scriptures.

As a daughter-in-law, especially the daughter-in-law of the Li family, it is very common to serve her mother-in-law or pray for her mother-in-law, and she has also offered to ask for it, but the princess always smiled and said, "It's enough to have this heart."

So that's not what the princess meant...... Thinking of her conversation with the steward yesterday, it was hard for Ma Wan not to think about it.

She subconsciously said that she wanted to go back and prepare one or two first, but the two mothers-in-law's obedient attitude revealed toughness, and only said that "the maidservants will prepare everything for the princess and concubine."

At that moment, Ma Wan's brain roared, and there was no luck.

The steward must have heard of her hearing in the ears of King Rong......

Admittedly, she wasn't very clever at spying on her...... But looking at this huge Rongwang Mansion, there are eyes staring at her everywhere, and there is no one who can be used by her, and she has no more secure and thoughtful means to use.

Most importantly, her grandfather told her in the letter that she [must find out about it]...... In such a situation, the word "must" itself represents adventure and no cost.

But if such a secret thing is true, is it really just something she can find out at any cost?

Supposedly, grandfather wouldn't have been so whimsical, and neither would a saint......

She was not stupid, so from the moment she saw the letter, she realized that the meaning of this errand was not in the answer, but in the process of her obedience.

She sensed something strange and aware of the danger, but she couldn't help but follow her grandfather's orders...... I still hope that the Rong Wangfu is "innocent", and I only hope that the saint can dispel his doubts through this matter.

But these days, she is not ignorant of the changes in the situation in Yizhou, and the string in her heart has unconsciously tightened and thinned.

On the first night of spending the night in the cold Buddhist hall, in the cry of Lan Ying, the maid who accompanied the marriage, the string in Ma Wan's heart finally broke.

She could no longer deny that her attempt to probe the connection between Yu Zeng and the Rong Mansion had probably touched the taboo of the Rong Mansion, or at least the Rong Wang's Mansion, or perhaps she had stepped into some part of the political struggle that she had no right to know the whole picture......

And as the tenth, twentieth, and fiftieth days passed, Ma Wan gradually realized that she, as the eldest granddaughter of the current right minister and the princess of the Rongwangfu who was ordered to marry by the saint, was placed under house arrest by the Rongwangfu in such a form, which shows that the Rongwangfu is no longer as jealous of the court and the saint as before......

Even just looking at this move, it is enough to explain the dissent of the Rong Wangfu, isn't it?

And months passed, grandfather, saint...... Do you know where she is now?

The question seemed pointless, and at the time of the letter my grandfather had anticipated her situation at this time, or at a worse point than this...... But can she blame her grandfather for treating her ruthlessly?

She married into the Rongwang Mansion, not because her grandfather coerced her, but because she knelt down and begged her grandfather to fulfill it...... At that time, she kept saying that she was for the Ma family, but this was not the case.

As for the saints...... Since she became the princess of King Rong, she has never heard really useful news for the saints, on the contrary, she has repeatedly explained and testified for the palace of King Rong......

In the eyes of the saints, she was probably already a disappointing and useless waste, and this time she had just turned this waste into an outcast.

Ma Wan often couldn't close her eyes all night, she thought back to everything she had done after marrying into King Rong's mansion, only to feel that she was really naïve and ignorant, and everything was full of ridiculous traces of self-deception.

She thinks that King Rong is benevolent, so she is convinced that he will not give birth to rebellion, but is it really that simple?

She has always been looking forward to the "law of both worlds", so when she looked at the matter of King Rong's mansion, she unconsciously fell into bias.

She thinks that there is a limit to what she can do, there are no available people in this Rongwang Mansion, but all available people and things will never appear out of thin air, has she really tried to manage it with her heart? She didn't, because she subconsciously didn't want to make a "centrifugation" with Rong Wangfu, and she didn't want Rong Wangfu, especially her husband, to see her as a scheming and insincere spy eyeliner.

So she has always been just passive and perfunctory, and has never actively faced up to her situation.

She is in such a situation at this time, and she is to blame.

But...... What about him?

From beginning to end, what kind of position and mood did he treat her? Are all the music, the promises, fake?

After waiting for a day, just when Ma Wan was about to be disheartened, that person suddenly appeared.

At this moment, Li Lu approached her, with guilt and pity in his eyes, but he only turned it all into one sentence: "Wan'er, I'm here to pick you up." ”

Pick her up?

Ma Wan was stunned, and finally spoke: "Mother, she ...... Healed? ”

This was naturally not the most important thing for her, but nominally she was praying for the blessing of Princess Rong, and the servant woman who came to deliver the meal had said that she could leave when the princess was cured.

Moreover, at the moment, it is inconvenient to speak rashly about the rest of the words.

Li Lu looked at her and said softly noncommittally: "Wan'er, go back with me first." ”

As he spoke, he stretched out his hand to her in order to reassure her.

Ma Wan looked at the hand that was reaching out to her, fair-skinned, thin, and slender, but it seemed to have a heavy determination and the strength to take her away.

After so long, as the prince of the Rong Palace, he must have known the real reason why she was placed under house arrest...... From a standpoint, there is no right or wrong, but it was her spying on his home first.

Ma Wan's mind was full of emotions and she didn't move for a while.

Li Lu took a step closer, lightly held Ma Wan's hand, and noticed that the hand had lost a lot of weight, Li Lu's fingers were slightly stronger, and Ma Wan's hand was held tighter, and the action seemed to contain infinite distress.

But he didn't say anything, just led her like this and walked out of the Buddhist hall. The pace is unhurried, but calm and firm.

The servants who stood guard outside the temple saluted, and no one stopped them.

The sunlight outside the Buddhist hall was dazzling, and Ma Wan looked at the surrounding scene, only to truly feel that it was the late spring of the year.

The bright spring scenery and the warm palms of her sweetheart silently soothed and dissipated the cold, dim, fearful and uneasy that had shrouded her body and mind these days.

But all these emotions were destined to be completely unloaded, and she already had many clear answers in her mind, and so many things she wanted to ask.

But should she take the initiative? Or do you pretend that nothing has happened and continue to play your part?

Reason and emotion are intertwined, and when Ma Wan was at a loss, she had already returned to her long-lost courtyard.

To her surprise, Li Lu chose to take the initiative to explain everything to her-

Before that, Li Luping retired from all the people in the room.

Lan Ying, the maid who came back from the Buddhist hall with Ma Wan, stood still and did not move.

Seeing this, Ma Wan said, "Lan Ying, you should also go out first." ”

Lan Ying, who dreamed of tearing off the red thread between her own girl and King Rong, was very reluctant, she was very scared that the girl who had finally begun to see the situation clearly, would be poured ecstasy soup by this fox and the son of King Rong!

But facing the eyes of her own girl, Lan Ying also knew that now was not the time for her to be a maid who could be willful, the girl was walking on thin ice at the moment, and as a maid of girls, she had to be more cautious and careful in her every move than before.

Lan Ying could only reluctantly salute and retreat, closing the door.

In the inner room where there was no third person, Li Lu took Ma Wan's hand and asked her to sit down on the couch by the window.

But instead of sitting, he squatted down on one knee in front of her, and lightly grasped her hands on her knees.

For Ma Wan, who was in a panic, this action was a reassurance, a gesture of goodwill, and a manifestation of lowering her posture.

Ma Wan felt that something was wrong and wanted to get up, but his hands were held by him.

He looked at her emaciated and bony hands, lowered his eyes to hide his pity, and said in a hoarse voice: "Wan'er, I'm late, I've made you suffer for the past few months." ”

Ma Wan's eyelashes trembled slightly: "The prince ......"

"My father he ...... Indeed, there is a desire to start a matter. Li Lu looked up at her with a complicated expression.

Ma Wan was stunned, not because of his words, but because he chose to explain it to her.

"During this time, I have had a lot of disputes with him about this...... Li Lu had a trace of struggle in his eyes: "But my father said that the general trend is the trend of the people, and the people's hearts are wanting, even if he refuses to conform to the general trend, the saint will never tolerate the existence of the current Rongwang Mansion, this is a situation that must be injured, and it is not something he can choose." ”

"Besides, if there is chaos today, my father, as a descendant of the Li family and the son of the emperor, has an unshirkable responsibility for the people of the world in this world......

Li Lu's voice gradually lowered, and it seemed difficult to evaluate the rights and wrongs in it, as if he was just an indifferent person who had no quarrel with the world, and was forced to be involved in these sharp and cruel life and death struggles, which was a kind of cruelty to him.

Ma Wan listened to his words, and her mood was in turmoil for a while.

This is the first time since the two got married that this issue of political stance has been raised head-on.

"Wan'er, I always knew that the reason why you married me was because of the sage's instructions......" Li Lu looked up at Ma Wan and said, "But I can also perceive that you treat me from the bottom of your heart, right?" ”

This question made Ma Wan's heart hit hard.

Under such a complicated position, she had clearly made an attempt to spy on the secrets of King Rong's mansion, but the people in front of her were still willing to believe her sincerity...... This is of extraordinary significance to Ma Wan, who has been reduced to an abandoned child and is on the verge of life and death.

His eyes were full of sincerity that he didn't need her to explain, only her answer.

Ma Wan, who had been tense, still didn't speak, but tears suddenly rolled down her eyes.

Li Lu seemed to have received the answer, and the strength of holding her hand was heavier, but with cherishment and happiness, the tails of his eyes were also a little red, and he said in a frank tone: "Wan'er, at the beginning I treated you, and I did have a defensive heart......

"But this precaution has disappeared somewhere...... I gradually discovered that you and I are the most compatible people in this world, and it is a great blessing for me to be married to you. ”

"These days, I have repeatedly discussed with my father for a long time......" he said, "Wan'er, I can't live without you, let alone see you have an accident." ”

Ma Wan was stunned and wept again, so it was he who pleaded with King Rong and saved her? (End of chapter)