The crowd looked for him thousands of times, and suddenly looked back, but the man was in the lamplight.

The quiet night, the familiar emptiness, unveiled the melancholy of loneliness in the bottom of my heart, loneliness continued to be lonely, and sorrow awaited sorrow.

Yu Man received her first salary of the year and decided to give herself a day off to spend time with her boyfriend.

I haven't seen Shenxin for nearly a month, and I still miss it very much. By ten o'clock in the evening, Shen had not returned, and he had not replied to the message.

Because I didn't know where Shenxin's factory was, I walked to the intersection where Shenxin went to the factory and waited......

In the night sky, the moon is dim, the stars are sparse, and the quiet night is awakened by a silver bell-like laughter.

Yu Man looked in the direction where the voice came from, a bald boy carrying a girl on his back and playing as he walked.

Yu Man looked at the approaching person with his mouth slightly open, stunned. Turning to leave, tears welling up in his eyes.

After walking away, he raised his head and tried to hold back his tears, but he couldn't stop it, and the tears fell like beads with broken threads......

The moment Shen Xin saw Yu Man, his heart rose to his throat, and he said in his heart:

"It's over, it's going to capsize."

The idiom pedaling two boats comes from Yin Li Zhuowu's "Collection of Books": "Taoism in the world is good to ride two horses, and like to kick two boats." Qing Chen Mu's "New Collection of Enlarged Retention Tables" Volume 12: "When things are not decided, they are all stepping on two boats and falling with the wind, why do they determine the great difficulty and dissect the big doubts?" ”

The boat still didn't capsize, and the moment Yu Man turned to leave, Shen Xin breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that he was doing it again.

Zheng Mengmeng also found out that something was wrong and asked:

"That person is so strange, do you know him?"

Shen Xin calmed down, laughed and said:

"I don't know, maybe I look handsome, I call her."

Zheng Mengmeng pinched Shenxin's two ears and said with a smile:

"It's a cricket, isn't it?"

"I'm a male cricket, you're a female cricket, squeak ......"

"Ha, hahaha......"

……

Rental house door.

Shen Xin took a deep breath and pushed the door open, thinking that he would be greeted by crying and fussing, or staring at him with a cold face, but he definitely didn't expect it to be

……

"You're back?"

Seeing Shenxin open the door, Yu Man walked over with a smile on his face and pulled Shenxin's arm.

The person who made Shen Xin feel like he met at the intersection was not Yu Man, but a girl who was more similar.

"But how is that possible?"

Shen Xin sighed, and didn't want to hesitate any longer, since he had already made a decision in his heart, let's make it clear to her.

"You can see that I have other women."

The smile on Yu Man's face couldn't hold on any longer, and said with a crying voice:

"I don't care, as long as it's in the house. I don't care what happens to you outside, I'll show you the house, okay? ”

Shen Xin couldn't bear it for a moment, having such a woman as a wife is a blessing that has been cultivated for several lifetimes.

Yu Man squeezed out a little smile and pulled Shen Xin to sit on the bed. took out a stack of money from his small bag, handed it to Shen Xin, and said happily:

"You see, this is my salary last month, it's more than five hundred and seventy! I'll take out five hundred today, and I'll give it to you." I also decided not to pay for the family, and we used it ourselves. ”

Shen Xin looked at the girl who was humble in front of him, felt sorry for her, and looked at Yu Man in a daze and didn't know what to do.

Seeing that Shen Xin didn't accept the money in his hand, Yu Man gritted his teeth, looked at Shen Xin with pleading eyes and said:

"Don't want me, okay? I can be a little one for you. I'm not going to bother you, just come and see me when you have time. ”

"Yu Man......"

Yu Man saw that Shen Xin was going to refuse, so he covered his mouth and didn't let him say it, and said aggrievedly:

"I know I'm not worthy of you, and I'm not as pretty as that girl. But I can help you have a baby, and I'll raise it myself. Come to me when you're tired of staying with her, and I'll always wait for you to come back. ”

As he spoke, Yu Man was about to take off Shen Xin's clothes.

Shen Xin grabbed her hand, if Yu Man made a big noise, Shen Xin would feel better, but the more Yu Man did this, the more unbearable he couldn't bear to hurt her.

While scolding himself, he also said to Yu Man:

"Yu Man, don't be like this, you will find a better one. Shall we get together and disperse? ”

Yu Man's eyes flashed with tears and said:

"No, Shenxin, I don't want to leave you, can I have a child? You know I'm very obedient, and I'll try to satisfy you whatever you want. ”

Shen Xin shouted:

"Yu Man, don't practice yourself like this, you can't do it for anyone. No one is inseparable, you are still young, you have to think more about yourself in the future. ”

Shen Xin felt guilty about Yu Man, Yu Man was a good girl, and when she met this kind of bastard, Shen Xin didn't want to ruin her life.

Whispered:

"I'm sorry Yu Man, I've never liked you, and I don't want to go on like this with you anymore. You're a good girl, I'm a jerk, not worth it. ”

Tears fell out of his eyes one by one, and soon, a patch of moisture was moistened in front of him.

Yu Man sobbed silently:

"I ...... You...... Wow......"

Holding Shen Shin and crying loudly.

Shen Xin kept saying sorry.

Ruthlessly, he pushed Yu Man away from him, put his clothes, shoes and computer in his bag, picked it up and left.

walked to the door and turned his head to look at Yu Man, who was squatting on the ground and crying, and persuaded:

"It's not worth it for a bastard like me, I hope you'll be okay in the future."

The stupid Shen Xin said a word, not knowing how to persuade again.

I can only go on to say:

"I won't come back, and I'll lose my mobile phone number, you and I will be strangers in the future."

As the door slammed, the crying in the room grew louder.

I got out of the rental house with mixed feelings and walked aimlessly on the street.

"Isn't it too much? To Jia Xiuying, Yu Man, Zheng Mengmeng, Yuan Kejing. ”

I also asked myself in my heart:

"Is that really fun? Hurt them for the sake of desire. Will there be no more conscience in one more life? Why is this happening? Do you want to hurt Zheng Mengmeng next? ”

Confusion does not distinguish between the humble and noble, and confusion does not distinguish between failure and success. The only difference between them is that the former is depressed by it, and the latter is strengthened by it.

Why are you confused when you are confused? I always feel that no amount of words can reach the desolation in my thoughts, and no amount of expression can witness the desolation of my heart.

No one will confess themselves, and no one can be trusted anymore. Even lost himself for a while, blurred who he was, and forgot where he was and where he wanted to go.

After Shen Xin left, Yu Man also slowly recovered.

The two never saw each other again, and Shenxin completely became the first love in Yu Man's memory.

Yu Man did not move out of the rental house, and still worked normally to earn money.

A year later, I met a boy who was not handsome, but he was very good to Yu Man. The two finally came together, and there were two children, a boy and a girl.

The boy's name was Xin, and Yu Man fulfilled his original promise. Treat girls as princesses, and boys educate them fiercely......