The sunset is like blood, and corpses are everywhere.

I leaned against the cold concrete wall, one hand chained, the other pierced through the palm of my hand with a dagger, nailed to the wall. Blood ran down my forehead, blurring my eyes.

In the faint sight of the weak, I could see the men I had loved or loved had fallen to the ground, bruised and out of breath.

Suddenly, a hollow and dark muzzle appeared straight in front of my eyes and slowly pressed against my forehead.

It all started on my 26th birthday.

That day, I broke up with my boyfriend......

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My name is Xia Mo, an ordinary girl who works and lives in a second-tier city, and today is my 26th birthday!

If I had to describe my current state of mind in one sentence, it would be: humbled to the dust for love.

Three days ago, my boyfriend, who had been dating for three years, called me and told me that he was going to break up with me, and he was resolute.

The news of these five thunderstorms made me want to cry without tears, and I kept asking him why? He said calmly: "You, you have an average appearance, an average family background, and an average job." Tell me, what am I trying to do with you? ”

In the past three days, as long as I am alone, I have washed my face with tears. I tried to ask for help on Zhihu, but all the answers told me that my boyfriend's performance like this fully shows that he already has someone else, and it is impossible for me to get back.

But I just didn't believe this fact, and instead fell into self-reflection.

I suddenly felt that something was wrong, in fact, I still have "things to do" as a person, for example: I care about him meticulously, I will cook his favorite dishes, I pay attention to his joys, sorrows and sorrows, I obey his words, only go where he wants to go, only watch the movies he wants to watch, aren't these my things to see?

After figuring it out a bit, I started calling him like crazy, trying to ask him to see him one last time, or at least I had to make it clear to him that I wasn't useless.

Bombarded with my phone calls, he finally reluctantly agreed to meet today in the café downstairs of his house, and he emphasized word by word that this was the last time they would meet.

I think I should dress up, but I can't cover my eyes that are swollen from crying.

I opened the zipper of the simple wardrobe, the zipper was broken, and I wanted to change it last month, but the salary was used to help him pay the rent, so the wardrobe was just made up and used. I took out the most expensive skirt, but I didn't expect the zipper to pull very hard, it seems that the broken love did not make me haggard for Yi, but turned grief into food, and did not lose weight and gain weight.

To cover up the awkward tightness, I added a thin coat over the skirt. His house was not close to my rented house, so I rode my bicycle in the sun. Fortunately, I didn't wear makeup, I think, otherwise the sweaty makeup on this head and face would have been gone. Suddenly, something slammed my tire, the bike fell over, and I fell to the ground. It was unlucky, the skirt was scratched, the skirt was also stained with mud, and I stood up and patted the dirt on my body.

Suddenly, something on the ground emitted a blinding glow in the sunlight.

Is this what I'm flying about? I bent down to pick it up, and it was a badge the size of a coin. The surface of the bright silver is unusually smooth, and there is a circle of strangely shaped lace around it, and if you look closely, you can vaguely see a head pattern: a girl with long hair and a shawl, with a mask on her face, which is not like the one commonly used at masquerade, but is made of metal, and only makes some simple outlines with bumps and bumps in the eyes and nose.

Overall, it's a pretty chic badge.

The coat I'm wearing now is a single color, and the skirt is stained with mud, so it would be better to tie the badge to the coat to divert everyone's attention from the gift on my dress.

So, I pinned this badge to my neckline. And so, my fate took a strange turning point, and I began to go in another direction that I would never have imagined.

The café downstairs from my boyfriend's house is small in size, but the decoration is fresh, I parked my bicycle at the door and tidied up my dress again, and walked in with trepidation. Of course I arrived early, every time I went on a date with my boyfriend, I would arrive early. Not long after I sat down, a waiter came over, he was tall, sunny looking, at first glance, he knew that he was a part-time college student, such an excellent boy, if it weren't for the fact that I was a customer, I guess I wouldn't even look at me more.

"Classmate, oh, no, beauty, beauty, this is our menu, no, this is our water list......" The handsome big boy, for some reason, was a little nervous and stammered, could it be that he was on his first day at work?

I ordered a latte, and the handsome boy's hand was still shaking slightly when he put the coffee cup in front of me. I poured all the bags of sugar into my coffee, and the sweetness helped me tone my mood.

As I stirred the coffee, I suddenly felt a little strange, and turned my head to see the handsome big boy still standing behind me, looking at me with an inexplicable idiotic look. Seeing me looking at him, he blushed and said, "I'm sorry!" "Turning to leave, I stopped him and asked if he could get me another bag of candy? He trotted away, and in a moment he took four or five bags of candy and put them on my desk. To be honest, whether it's eating or shopping, I've never received such preferential treatment, should I give a five-star review on the review network for a while?

After about half an hour, my boyfriend finally opened the door of the coffee shop lazily, he was wearing a T-shirt and shorts, stepping on a pair of flip-flops, looking like he had just woken up, I waved to him and motioned for him to sit here. But unexpectedly, he was suddenly stunned when he saw me, and then he turned around and walked out of the café quickly! What does that mean? Come and go, don't you want to meet? I sat down at the table and drank the sweet latte.

While I was still immersed in inexplicability, my boyfriend returned to the café, and this time, he actually put on a flat collar T-shirt, khaki trousers, and the pair of designer leather shoes that he usually reluctant to wear, wore a watch on his wrist, his hair seemed to be groomed, his face was cleaned, and even the overnight beard stubble disappeared?!

He smiled slightly at me, then walked up to me and sat down. Damn! What is he doing here? Even if he has to solemnly swear to break up, it will not be solemn to this extent, his dress seems to me to be like going to the company for an interview, and it has to be the kind of tall head company.

I was about to say something when the handsome boy came over and brought me another latte, and I said sorry, I didn't order a second one. The boy quickly replied, "Ah, it's a free refill." Then he said a little shyly, "The sugar has been added to you...... too."

Of course, I didn't care about the coffee, and I was about to blurt out the words I had prepared all night, but my boyfriend suddenly lowered his head in pain and said to me: "I know I'm not worthy of you, your appearance, family, and mind are so good, and I'm just an ordinary worker, to be honest, I don't have the face to beg you to give me another chance." ”

Is this crazy? Obviously he proposed to break up?!

I watched with wide eyes and inexplicably at his "performance." ”

"I've been wondering what you're trying to do with me." The boyfriend sighed and said, that expression really didn't seem to be pretending, "I know I'm not good enough for you, I'm not good enough." ”

To be honest, I've never seen him like this in the three years I've been dating him, and now I need to take a sip of coffee to suppress my shock. But before I could think of it, the lovely handsome boy put too much sugar in the coffee, and I coughed so hard that my cough became a terrible signal in front of my boyfriend, and his lips suddenly trembled, his eyes were red, and he covered his face with his hands and said, "I knew that you might never want to see me again!" Then he got up and ran away in pain!

I was sitting in a daze, my ex-boyfriend was running in pain outside the window, and the handsome boy who was looking at me obsessively behind me......

What's wrong with the world? What is wrong with I Am the World?