Chapter 245: Disappointment
Zhuyun likes him, and Wanning can't stand her brother standing with Zhuyun and playing together. She does not allow any other woman to exist between the two. The addition of my sister is already very worrying. Does he really want a group of wives and concubines? What are you when the time comes? And right now, she doesn't allow her brother to have emotional ties with any other woman.
He kept saying that he was close to the emperor, and she only hoped that her brother could fully trust him on this matter. She really didn't have anything to do with the emperor in the palace, and nothing would happen. But no matter how he said it, how to express his position, he just didn't believe in himself.
Wan Ning couldn't have imagined that the relationship between the two would come to this point, suspicious of each other and accusing each other.
She even didn't believe that the person in front of her was the good brother who had been with her day and night through the most difficult days, the person who grew up with her, and she didn't believe that he was the person she had to rely on in this life.
She was suffering from pain and suffering, lying on the bed all the time, crying from time to time. For a long time, Gao Ziang listened to her voice a little hoarse.
He stepped forward and hugged Wan Ning in distress, wiping the tears on her face: "Sister Wan, don't cry." Girl, from childhood to adulthood, in my brother's impression, you are so sad only when your uncle and aunt leave. Are you afraid that our relationship will come to an end? ”
"Do you still care why I'm crying?" Wan Ning said disdainfully.
"Of course I do. My sister Wan was a crybaby when she was a child. At that time, as soon as you cried, the whole house seemed to be about to come to a catastrophe, and they coaxed vigorously. As long as everyone does their best, Wanning will suddenly change from a violent storm to a sunny sky. Now it's unlikely that you'll have an immediate sunny day, at least not so sad. It's all my fault, don't cry. You won't lose me, I promised Uncle Li that I would take care of you for the rest of your life no matter what. ”
"You let other women break into our world, and you don't trust me. We have a relationship since childhood, and I think this relationship is invincible. But right now, it's vulnerable. Could it be that our previous relationships were all fake? ”
Gao Ziang probably didn't want to quarrel with Wan Ning, so he just said lightly: "The emperor has stayed in your room at night, how can you tell me not to be angry?" ”
"The emperor originally came over that night to talk for a while, after all, I did something disrespectful to the emperor before. Later, he fell asleep because he was too tired. It's not as dirty as you think. ”
He didn't agree with Wan Ning's explanation, and glanced sideways at Wan Ning, a hint of coldness flashed in his eyes, he tried his best to cover it up, but Wan Ning still found out.
She wanted to explain something, but it could be seen that his face was expressionless, from the sensitivity to him, as if it was superfluous to say anything, and once again felt a pinprick in his heartache. Wan Ning had never felt that the person in front of her was so strange, her heart was empty, and she suddenly felt very small.
No amount of explanation could dispel his doubts, and she didn't say anything.
"Didn't the Emperor break into our world? Everything you do, whether normal or excessive, the emperor is full of doting and conniving with you. And do you think only you know the emperor? I'm afraid I know the emperor better than you, and I know the emperor's feelings about a woman better than you. Do you have to let me watch you have an irreparable affair with the emperor before I have the right to be angry? ”
Last time, he was beaten because of this kind of words, and today he said that Wanning was very annoyed.
She held back her anger, looked at him and asked, "Do you like Zhuyun?" ”
"How could I like her? But Wan Ning, I want to ask you, doesn't the emperor have the slightest attraction to you? His eyes wandered as he answered. Wan Ning felt that this was due to his uncertainty, which he had not even noticed himself.
After a trace of sadness inadvertently passed through her heart, she only said two words: "No." ”
Wan Ning's words were firm, but he didn't believe it, how could a generation of kings not be attractive to a little girl?
Wan Ning never thought that the relationship for so many years would be crumbling at this moment. Staring at him, he said faintly: "I woke up early this morning and saw the beautiful sunrise, and that scene was like imprinted in my mind. However, no matter how beautiful the sunrise is, it will eventually face the sunset in the evening, and the changes in the world are so impermanent. ”
She hopes that her brother can hear that she still has a meaning, and the changes in people's hearts are also so impermanent. If he and Zhuyun continue to develop, they will appreciate each other sooner or later, but he doesn't want to admit it at the moment.
In the face of Wanning's sudden emotion, Gao Ziang didn't say a word, but in Wanning's opinion, he seemed to acquiesce.
She wanted to ask, do we have a future? But how to ask, did it clearly mean that he risked his life to rob the emperor of women?
"Brother, don't you think that we are talking now, we are holding back our anger, we don't want to quarrel, but the fire in our hearts will burn more and more. I think it's best for us not to see each other in the near future and give each other enough time to think about it. ”
Gao Ziang also feels the same way, and no amount of argument is meaningful. Agreeingly, "Okay, let's all be quiet." ”
With that, he quickly got up and walked out without the slightest hesitation. After taking a few steps, he said without looking back: "Wanning, my brother also wants to go back to the beginning." Also, when I went to Qinfang Pavilion that day, Zhuyun only drank a few glasses of wine with him. Today, she also came to the Li Mansion on her own initiative, and I didn't know about it. I will not ask you any more about you and the Emperor. In the future, no matter what your situation is, or that sentence, I will take care of you for the rest of your life. ”
Of course, Wan Ning knew that the meaning of "taking care of yourself for a lifetime" that he said twice in a while had different meanings. Looking at his back as he left, Wanning's tears rolled down her cheeks like beads.
That night, Wanning didn't feel sleepy until late at night, she sat under the lamp and silently picked up the wick. She was very disappointed with Gao Ziang's performance, and even turned from disappointment to despair, feeling powerless.
But after so many years of affection, how to give up? Does he think about how reluctant I am? It's hard to part with. But so what? His heart had flown into the distance. Wanning thought hard, what did she do wrong? Why did he treat me like this?
In the dim and lonely candlelight, Wan Ning wrote absentmindedly, her father once said, 'Writing can calm the mind', and now the words are in place. What if you don't meditate? Love is dying.
Wanning fidgeted, writing for a while, and playing the piano for a while. Lonely and desolate night, standing alone under the lamp, floating in self-pity. The orchid on the windowsill used to bloom so delicately, but now it is shrunk and dim, sad and lonely.
The long night was long and sad, and Wan Ning spent the whole night in gloom and sadness. At dawn, the candle flame had gone out of its own way.