Tang Muye lay back on the bed, took the big envelope and looked at it for a while, but did not open it immediately.

Although he didn't know what was written in it, he knew that it was definitely not what he wanted to see.

After being in a daze for a long time, Tang Muye felt that his emotions had basically calmed down, so he slowly opened the envelope and took out the stationery inside, oh, it was not letterhead, but three pieces of A4 paper.

When I opened it, the font was the same as on the envelope, but the handwriting was sloppy and messy, and it was written in a hurry at first glance.

And there are still tear stains on it, which shows that she finished writing this letter in tears.

Tang Muye took a deep breath before he began to look-

"Makino: I'm sorry, please forgive me for saying goodbye, I'm really sorry!"

"I think you should also see that I have been unsettled for the past few days, and my heart is full of contradictions and entanglements, as well as deep pain and guilt."

"I thought that meeting you was the end of my life, I really planned to take wedding photos with you after the New Year, go to get a marriage certificate, and then spend a lifetime together, this period of life is the happiest day for me to grow up, you fully meet all my imagination of my husband."

"Moreover, Fan Fan also likes you very much, and she also wants to call your father after we take wedding photos."

"However, since I joined the group of classmates and got news of him again, my heart has begun to mess up."

"His name is Li Yunhai, he was my classmate in junior high school and high school, and he was the first boy I liked in my ignorant years."

"At school, he is sunny, handsome, good at studying, cheerful, likes to play basketball, is the prince charming in the minds of almost all girls, and there are many girls who have a crush on him, and I am one of them."

"However, I didn't understand anything at that time, how could I really confess? They are all hidden in their hearts, and they dare not let others know easily. ”

"Probably because of such a missed experience, so when I met you, I became so decisive, and we had this relationship."

"From the first year of junior high school to the third year of high school, I had a crush on him for six years, and in those six years, he fell in love and broke up, but I just didn't dare to confess to him."

"After graduating from high school, he went to college, but I didn't make the list, so we went on two different paths, and later, I gradually lost news of him, but, even then, I didn't care about anyone anymore, and my heart still seemed to be silently looking forward to it, fantasizing about meeting him again one day."

"However, when I heard the news of him again, it turned out to be the news of his marriage, and I even received an invitation and went to his wedding, you don't know how I felt at the time."

"It was also the shattering of the dream, I was introduced by my relatives at the time, and I hurriedly went on a blind date with my ex-husband, and I thought to myself, anyway, the person I like is already married, for me, except for him, everyone else is a general, and it is not the same who to marry, so I got married without much thought, thinking about living a lifetime like that."

"Yes, I didn't really love my ex-husband, sometimes I think about it, it's also unfair to him, so after getting married, I didn't really care much about him playing games every day, but then he became addicted to gambling and couldn't continue his life, so he divorced."

"In my life, Li Yunhai is the first person I am excited about, and you are the second person who makes my heart move, so I am very conflicted, very entangled, and very painful during this period of time, I don't know how to tell you, sometimes I deliberately put my phone aside, just hoping that you will inadvertently read my messages, find out and make noise with me, and even slap me or something, so that we can break up justifiably."

"But you never checked my messages, didn't ask me what happened, and I couldn't talk to you."

"You are not at home today, I thought about it for a long time, and finally decided to choose not to say goodbye, otherwise, I would not have the courage to leave you."

"Originally, when I joined the group of classmates, I thought everyone was just chatting about nothing, catching up with the old days, and sending red envelopes to grab fun during the New Year, but after chatting and chatting, I learned that he was divorced before the New Year."

"When I learned the news, I was stunned for a long time, but I didn't ask, because I felt that I already had you by my side!"

"However, when he sent me a private message greeting, I finally couldn't help but talk to him."

"He said that his wife had abandoned him and the children and left, and that he had heard that I was divorced and knew that I had liked him, so he wanted to renew his relationship with me."

"At first, although I was upset, I didn't promise him, because I didn't want to leave you."

"However, after that, he kept talking, and kept talking, and said a lot of things, and I gradually broke the defense, and I seemed to have returned to the days when I had a crush on him, and wanted to return to him."

"He was the first dream of my life, the most beautiful dream of the best years of my life, although several years have passed, but I really can't refuse his confession."

"My pain is that on the one hand, I don't want to leave you, I don't want to hurt you, but on the other hand, I can't refuse him, I can't resist his pursuit, and I can't help but want to fulfill my girl's dream."

"For the past few days, I feel like my brain is going to tear apart, and I'm swaying emotionally, and I really don't know what to do?"

"Today, you are not at home, I have been thinking about it alone at home for a long time, and finally I made this decision with pain, I dare not face you, and I don't have the courage to say goodbye to you in person, so I can only choose to say goodbye."

"I feel like I have a lot more to say to you, but my heart is in turmoil right now, and I don't know how to express it."

"Makino, I love you, I love you from the bottom of my heart, I haven't cheated on you."

"However, compared to this first love, I still can't help but want to go back......"

"I don't regret knowing you, nor do I regret being with each other and having each other during this time, it really was the happiest time I've ever had."

"You should also know that I live alone with my daughter, I'm really tired, before I met you, I found that I was on the verge of collapse, take my children to work, and the boss also has opinions, but if I don't take my children to work, how can I live my life?"

"It is also because of this that I especially understand your situation, and at that time, I felt that our love was the most perfect combination."

"I want to live with you for the rest of my life, I really want to grow old with you, I sometimes regret it, if I didn't join that classmate group, wouldn't so many things have happened?"

"However, there is no if in this world, joining is joining, reunion is reunion, I have also secretly asked my heart, what do I need more, and finally I can't help but want to fulfill a dream, that is the most real dream of a girl."

"I'm sorry, Makino, I'm really sorry, I'm leaving, you must take care!"

Finally, it is the payment "Ruoling, the sixth day of the first month." ”

Tang Muye had already finished reading it, and although the letter was a little messy, the matter was finally clear.

He reached out and wiped his eyes, feeling a mess in his heart, and couldn't sleep at all, so he got up gently, put on his coat, and walked out of the small garage.

It was still cold and rainy outside, but Tang Muye didn't feel much cold, it seemed that compared to the tingling feeling in his heart, this cold was nothing.

Standing in the drizzle, Tang Muye still felt that his mood could not be calm, painful, irritable, lonely, tired, and overwhelmed, anyway, he just wanted to do something.

He walked into the rain and saw that a small supermarket in a garage turned into a small supermarket not far away was still lit, so he immediately walked over, bought a box of cigarettes and a lighter, and then lit a cigarette and took a deep breath.

"Ahem, ahem, ahem......"

He rarely smokes, but when he inhaled like this, he involuntarily coughed continuously.

However, as soon as he recovered, he couldn't help but continue to take a big sip.

This time, it seemed to feel much better, and he slowly inhaled it one bite after another.

The child was still sleeping in the garage, and he didn't dare to go far, so he could only walk back slowly, came to the outside of the garage, squatted under the eaves and smoked.

Gradually, his mood seemed to calm down a little, and he began to think about this problem calmly.

Hate her? Not really.

Do you blame her? There seems to be a little bit of it.

gave himself hope, but suddenly abandoned himself.

People are not afraid of no hope, what they are most afraid of is that they have just had hope, but it is instantly shattered, which is a more desperate feeling.

But was she wrong?

Emotionally, who can judge right from wrong? Who she loves and who she doesn't love, that's her own freedom, who she loves more and who she loves less, she also has her own judgment in her own heart.

How can there be a right or wrong in love, since she loves her first love more in her heart, isn't it the best choice to go? If she stays, it is disrespectful to feelings, if she lives with herself every day, but what she thinks of is another person, is that kind of relationship what she wants?

Tang Muye seems to have figured it out, but why does his heart still hurt so much?

So, Tang Muye took out his cigarette and smoked it one after another.

It turned out that Yunhai was called Li Yunhai, and that was her former crush, but it was actually not her first love, because the object of that person's love was not Qin Ruoling.

He fell in love, broke up again, he got married, divorced again, and then accidentally knew that Qin Ruoling had a crush on him, so he launched a pursuit of her.

Pursuing a girl who has had a crush on him for many years, that natural thing is twice the result with half the effort.

Tang Muye had a fire in his heart at the moment, but he had nowhere to vent, he suddenly understood why someone would duel for love.

Whether you win or lose, you can vent the evil fire in your heart if you have a happy fight.

However, is the love won in this way considered real love?

Shouldn't love be irreplaceable? If it is obtained by fighting, what is the difference between it and an animal competing for a mate?

She is gone, it is possible that in the future life, the two will never have any intersection, such a turn, this short life has become a memory for a lifetime.

It turns out that life is really impermanent, and joys and sorrows are experienced inadvertently.

It turned out that she was really just a very short dream of herself, and now, it was time for her to wake up.

Thinking, thinking, before he knew it, a box of cigarettes had been smoked, Tang Muye silently picked up the cigarette butts on the ground one by one, put them into the empty cigarette box, and then slowly stood up, walked to the trash can not far away, and threw the entire cigarette box into it.

Turning around, his emotions had basically calmed down, except for a burning pain in his mouth because he had smoked too much cigarettes.

After all, there is more than love in life, he also has a son.