Ying Chengcheng has been in a bad state lately.

I want my mother to understand that he is very strong, very powerful, and will be fine, and the difficulty is not much different from changing the law.

He wants his mother to live well and live well. He also wants to change the world and make it close to the world of his dreams. When reality and dreams collide, he wants to take care of both, but he can't think of a way.

He rode out of the city on horseback and asked everyone not to follow, even the Yue Nu, who had been secretly protecting her.

The morning sun rises from the horizon.

He marched towards the source of light and light.

The half-withered grass retreated rapidly, and the strong wind continued to hit the face.

The horse under his crotch that had not been released for a long time had run happily, and his front hooves rose more than a meter when his mouth was strangled and he hissed for a long time.

He rode on a horse, and as far as the eye could see, the blue sky and the earth were vast.

At the end of the eye, heaven and earth meet.

Meng Tian expelled the Xiongnu for 700 miles.

In these 700 miles, the Xiongnu did not dare to graze here, and the Qin people did not dare to live here - there was no area of cities and counties, and it was not safe.

Seven hundred miles of land is uninhabited, which is exactly what Cheng Cheng wants, he wants to be alone and talk to himself.

He jumped off the horse, led the horse, and walked casually, without any goal.

Guessing the soft grass and the cool wind, he smiled bitterly, and the mess in his heart was still a mess, and he couldn't solve it.

He made such a choice in his previous life, and he regretted the dream of choosing it to this day.

"The two lives are ordinary, life is not a hero, and death is not a ghost."

He muttered abruptly, then stopped and spat vigorously.

"Damn! It's been too long, why is it so sour to talk when no one is around! ”

He continued to walk, and the steed followed the hooves, occasionally eating two mouthfuls of grass and spitting out most of it. When the summer passes, the grass is no longer tender.

In the bald sound of the horse's spit grass, Ying Chengcheng began to think back to his previous life.

He was born in a small northern county, although his teachers have praised him for his intelligence since elementary school, but his grades from childhood to adulthood have not been outstanding, and he is above average.

More than one person has spoken about him.

"Do you know how many points can you add to the exam by looking at those useless things? If you focus on your books, you will be the first in the whole grade. ”

He has a wide range of interests, in a word, he is interested in things that are useless.

From how Qin Shi Huang died, to the mystery of the Bermuda Triangle, to the strange people and strange things in history, etc., he just likes to read books that are extremely useless in the eyes of his parents.

Of course, it's no wonder that his parents, who made him have too wide of interests?

Look at a little bit of everything, and only look at a little bit of everything, broad but not precise.

If you can drill a bull's horn, such as history, after reading "Historical Records" and then watching "Twenty-four History", study it in depth, make headlines, and finally be admitted to the history department of a prestigious university, there is a high probability that his parents will not talk about him.

He has been nagged by his parents since he was a child, and as soon as he entered high school, he was determined to study hard, get a high score and go to a foreign university. Home to school round trip for at least five days, eleven or seventeen days off is not suitable for the kind of return.

He persevered for two days, and the boring math, the unpleasant English, and the physical education class that he couldn't attend made him go back to his old ways.

He felt a little guilty every night before going to bed, repented that he shouldn't stop working hard, and every day before closing his eyes he told himself to study hard from tomorrow.

As I talked, I talked about graduation.

In the college entrance examination, he is still above average, with more than two books and one insufficient. He wanted to apply for a university in another country, but when he filled in the application, his first choice ended up being a university in the province.

His aunt, who was a teacher, persuaded his parents with professional knowledge that he didn't understand, but his parents didn't convince him and made the choice for him.

"If you want to go to Tsinghua University, you will repay your love!"

He wasn't angry, just a little unhappy, but quickly forgot about it. He cared which university he attended, but none of the universities he could go to cared about.

Is what the parents say wrong? His score is really not enough.

So by whom? Lai He was playful in high school and didn't study seriously.

said that he regretted it, but it was not much, he didn't believe that he couldn't live after he couldn't go to a prestigious university.

How many of China's 1.4 billion people can graduate from prestigious universities? Those who can't pass the exam are all living well.

Soon, the acceptance letter came.

He was admitted to the first choice, a university in the province, a book, when his parents held a college banquet, he stood on the stage and thanked his aunt and tearful.

If you don't have someone who knows how to do it, where can your child get a copy?

Most local universities give preferential treatment to locals, admitting local students with low cut-off scores, except for Shandong and Henan.

He also said a few words of thanks, and he seemed to be sincere and sincere.

My aunt was also moved, and her eyes were so red that she said to him:

"It's not easy for your parents to provide you with education, learning is for yourself, not for your parents, how much light can your parents borrow from you? You see that your parents draft greedy black every day, just to make a few more money, isn't that all for you? After going to college, study hard and don't look at those useless things, otherwise who is worthy of it! ”

His father stopped in junior high school, learned a trade, and worked as a casual worker on a construction site.

My mother went to college and opened a breakfast shop.

He snorted heavily, seemingly unconcerned, but this time it was genuine.

School has started.

It was the first time he went to college, and he had a lot of dreams about it.

Whether it is an elementary school teacher or a middle school teacher, they have all said it to them.

"Now study hard and go to a good university, no one will care about you in college, you can play whatever you want."

The new senior sister is very beautiful, and the senior is very pretending.

He was very excited on the first night he lived in the dormitory, and he hadn't forgotten his aunt's earnest advice, thinking about getting a scholarship, joining the student union, and joining the party!

Soon, the military training made him think only of one thing, it rained.

After a year of college, he was a sophomore and got his wish to spend a year in the student union.

At the end of the year, he withdrew from the meeting, and he felt that the student union was really pretending, both male and female. If he hadn't promised to do it for a full year when he joined the club, he would have left early, and he was extremely uncomfortable with these idiots.

Go back and invite the four good buddies to have a big meal, celebrate his escape from the sea of suffering, and invite everyone to have a good night of fighting, and he treats him.

Because there are too many things to do when they join the student union, the number of five blacks in this year is only a handful.

Four buddies scolded while eating:

"I would have asked you to withdraw a long time ago, and you would not have returned! Tease! This broken wall student union doesn't know why you're staying! ”

He put on a man's expression of promise.

"When Lao Tzu joined the club, he said that he would work for a year, which is called a promise! All year round! One more day of drying, one less day of non-work! ”

He thought that his good buddies would praise him for being awesome, or stupid.

He guessed very right, three out of four people held up their thumbs and said bullshit, and one person disdained to say stupid.

But what he didn't expect was.

The one who said stupid, the most sassy of the five of them, the scumbag who changed seven or eight girlfriends a year, said with a look of hatred:

"You're going to leave after welcoming the new year! Let's just get there! ”

It dawned on him, he regretted it, and drank a large glass of draft beer.

There is nothing commendable about the next three years of college life, just an ordinary college student's daily life, falling in love, failing courses, and skipping classes.

If I have to mention something, that is, he has to go home not only on May Day, but also on Eleven, and even during Qingming, which makes those who have been admitted from other places envious.

The university is an hour away from home.

At this time, he had long forgotten that he wanted to be admitted to a university outside the province.

It's good to be close to home, otherwise it will take three or four days to go home, which is really uncomfortable.

In his senior year, he made up for the big exam before graduation, and he passed all five subjects.

Two invigilators, one playing with his phone in the back, and the other sitting and sleeping in the front, if this is not, it is really unintentional.

Graduation thesis, with a barbecue to ask the master for detailed guidance.

If you go online and copy that and start the Chinese-to-Chinese program, the teacher will definitely not be able to deceive you, just deceive Wanfang.

In the end, there were seven questions in total, six of which were answered correctly, and I successfully graduated.

That night, I invited the master to have a barbecue, and the bet was really good!

In the end, it was the master who settled the bill, he didn't let him, he knew that the master's family was very poor, and he was extremely poor for four years.

The master smiled and said:

"It's always you who invite me, why do you want me to invite you for this graduation meal. I just got a scholarship, I have money. ”

He was genuinely happy for the master, and the two touched a glass.

When Huang Chengcheng's beer flowed into his stomach, he remembered his three goals when he was in college - to join the party, get a scholarship, and join the student union.

After graduating, the party did not succeed, and the scholarship was even more detrimental to him - he passed the exam with 60 points, and he felt that it was a waste to take an extra test.

As for the student union, although he quit at the end of his freshman year, he withdrew by himself, it should be, it's not unattained, right?

It's time to get to work.

When he was recruited, he successfully found a job, car sales.

I went back and told my parents, but my parents didn't agree.

His parents also got him a good job, a bank clerk.

In the eyes of my parents, this job that cost money and found someone is decent, stable, and very good.

His parents wanted him to stay and stay in this small northern county.

His parents are ordinary people, who have been in a small county town all their lives, and their relationship networks are here.

These relationships, the money saved, and the house, may not be able to allow him to live without worry for a lifetime, but they are enough for him to live in peace for a lifetime.

He refused, very tough.

It's not that the job he found himself is good, or that he likes to sell cars, but that the company that recruited him is in Shanghai, and he wants to go out and see it too much.

Staying in this small county town, he could see death at a glance, and sat in the bank from the age of twenty-two until he retired, during which time he got married and had children.

It's the same, it's boring.

This kind of life is not what he wants, he is still young, he wants to break out, and he firmly believes that he can break into a look.

He felt that even if he died in Shanghai, it was better than staying in a small county.

He was particularly fond of a quote:

The world is so big, I want to see it.

He was replaced by his parents for more than 20 years, and for the first time, he made his own choice against his parents' wishes.

At that moment, he felt like he had grown up.

He embarked on a journey with the money he had saved from substitute teaching, tutoring, and food delivery in the past four years, and he didn't take the 10,000 yuan given by his parents, how could he still spend the family's money when he grew up?

The world is not what he thinks.

He didn't go to Shanghai, but to a 4S store in Shanghai.

For a year, he has been here, without the Oriental Pearl Radio and Television Tower, Disney, or the Bund where Brother Qiang haunts.

He was tired to death every day, and finally had a day to rest, and he just wanted to lie in the rental house and play with his mobile phone.

I finally came to the interest, wanted to go out to play, looked at the balance of the account, silently ordered a barbecue takeaway, and used the free coupon, which cost eighty-three, not enough to eat.

He was discouraged.

At his house, mutton skewers cost a dollar, and he can eat fifty.

Take your phone and look at the things that don't help your grades, only now no one says anything about him.

The screen flashed a video call, and the word mom was written, and he hung up and dialed the voice.

His mother asked him how he was doing, and if he lacked money.

He smiled and said that it was good, there is no shortage of money, just finished eating barbecue, don't worry.

Mom asked him to pick up the video, see him, miss him.

He looked around at the ten-square-meter hut and said it was inconvenient to be in the bathroom.

It is not easy to live in Shanghai, he can't afford to rent a single room, so he shares a house with others. When renting, he chose the north bedroom, because the north bedroom is the cheapest.

After hanging up the phone, he gritted his teeth and made up his mind to make a video call to his mother next time.

With no future in car sales, he submitted his resume while working, and resigned after three months.

Five years have passed, and he has finally gained a firm foothold in Shanghai, with a monthly salary of 20,000 yuan.

Ten years later, he bought a house in the best neighborhood in his hometown, a house in Shanghai, which he felt he could not afford in his lifetime.

The moment he paid the down payment, he didn't breathe a sigh of relief, but a tight breath.

Thirty years of mortgage, just by sounding terrible, is terrifyingly long, he is only thirty years old.

He worked harder and wanted to go further, but two years later, he was still in his same position, and he didn't make any progress.

He really tried his best, he really worked hard, but his salary just couldn't last, and he couldn't get promoted.

Is this my problem?

He asked himself.

If only more than a decade ago, he would have said it was a societal problem.

But now, he takes a sip of coffee, turns on the computer, and checks if there is anything that needs to be improved in the PPT to be talked about tomorrow.

He had less and less time to look at useless things, and his parents were calling more and more, and he became more and more impatient.

He's so busy that he really doesn't have time to talk about his parents.

What does the neighbor Uncle Wang's dog have to do with him, and what do you do with him?

The wine he makes, let him go home every day to get it, how much is the wine worth? Even the gas money he drove back was not enough.

He drove, drove tiredly, got into a car accident, and died in Shanghai.

Before driving, he stayed up two all-nighters to make a plan.

The night before, I received a call from home, and there were only two words from there.

He said impatiently:

"Mmmm, if you have time, you're busy, it's okay to hang up."

The moment he crashed, his mind was in a mess, and two words lingered in his ears.

One sentence was said by my mother.

"When are you coming back? Mom misses you, and your dad misses you too. ”

One sentence was said by my father.

"I didn't think about it!"

Ying Cheng let go of the reins of the horse, lay on his back on the ground, closed his eyes, and put his hand to his ear with the gesture of making six.

"Dad, Mom, I'm sorry, I can't go back......"

couldn't dispel his mother's doubts, he really didn't want to go on the expedition.

He was an ordinary man, in both lives.

If his grandfather, King Qin Zhaoxiang, had come back to life, he would have been furious when he saw this scene.

"Lone is a prisoner of Qin's mother, causing her mother to die of hunger strike, and she has no regrets! You, a vertical son, are worried about your mother's life, hesitate to move forward, and have the heart to give up the great cause of opening up the territory and expanding the territory! The surname is in vain! ”

PS: I hope my characters can make you feel like real people. People are contradictory and imperfect, and so are the protagonists. He is not a domineering emperor of the ages, nor is he a saint, he is just a lucky traverser, it is you and me.