Zheng Zha felt very sad.

He thought that if he wasn't the strongest player in the team, he would at least be able to secure the second position. And given time, he and Jiang Yu can't tell who has higher combat power.

However, now, the companions who are one stage later than themselves have all opened the second order. The distance between two and three is even greater than expected—after learning that the main god divides the reincarnation level by whether or not the genetic lock is opened. The importance of strengthening the exchange level is naturally placed under the level of gene lock opening. And at this time, I was stuck in this critical gear!

Gan!

The gene lock can not be rounded by carrying, 2.9999, nor can it be regarded as three!

- Why am I stuck here?

He gritted his teeth secretly, the technique that he had deduced from the gravity bomb and could use blood energy more effectively could not make his mood any better—he saw Jiang Yu sharing his experience of opening the third-order gene lock with others. And a word mixed in the communication suddenly drifted into his ears along the wind, and the sense of presence was very strong.

“…… The key may be to go with the flow, and when I jumped, I finally realized that I just didn't want to settle for the status quo......"

That sounds like a bit of truth. Indeed, Jiang Yu really seems to be a guy who is not satisfied with the status quo. If it weren't for that, he wouldn't have been able to distribute the T-virus to everyone and take the lead in the return journey, so much so that 'going back to the last world to dig for resources' has become a traditional practice for the Middle-earth team. And...... He has been a little timid lately.

That feeling seems to have started when he was the default captain of the hidden nature. After gaining recognition, although Jiang Yu still rushed to the first one directly as in the past. But when it comes to the team as a whole, he's a lot more cautious – he takes into account everyone's role when planning, and checks everyone's status when he speaks, votes, and acts, to make sure that no one feels left out. And the most significant manifestation is his embarrassing college student speech.

- This is normal...... Jiang Yu was only nineteen years old. The blood is still not cold, whether it is a crisis or a responsibility, he dares to carry it directly with an iron head.

- The duties and obligations of the leader of the team are indeed bound by his nature. And the opportunity for him to open the third-order genetic lock was to face up to his nature and follow his heart.

- So...... What is my nature, my heart?

The mood of sorrow faded silently, and was replaced by confusion. Zheng Zhe felt as if he had returned to the chaos he had before arriving in the world of reincarnation. Self-indulgence, wandering ...... Every day is living a boring and erosive life that is no different from the day before. The boundary line of decay and depravity is at his feet, and he has even taken half a step out.

So...... What changed all this?

Is it because of a life-and-death crisis? - No, I didn't have much fear during my hours in Resident Evil. Even the laser channel that almost killed him was quickly calmed down.

Is it because you've met a new companion? - No, Jiang Yu, Zhan Lan, Mu Gang...... and Zhang Jie, although they are all very good people. But I have been soaking in the social dye vat for too long, too long. To become a confidant, at least until the battlefield under Ambrera.

So......

- It's Luo Li.

— or more precisely...... It's the Luo Li in my heart.

Zheng Zha pursed his lips, he knew that the Sun Golden Sutra could resurrect the fresh dead. And the Black Sutra of the Undead can resurrect the dead who have been dead for a long time. One of these two books can be reached out and picked up by yourself. And the other one, you only need to say hello to get it. And if you want to, then the possibility of returning to the real world with these two books and the corresponding ritual materials and bringing back the real Luo Li...... It's not small.

Maybe I can't do it, but I should want to do it - if what I really love is really the Luo Li who died of cancer many years ago.

- But I never thought about it...... Even if I thought about it, I didn't plan to do it.

- Ha ...... There is no point in deceiving oneself. If I really love the same Luo Li of the past. Then, when the Lord God extracted her from my memory, I should have seen her who had lost her hair from chemotherapy, her face was pale and weak, and her whole person was as thin as a dry firewood.

The answer is no.

The Luo Li she created by herself is Luo Li who has not suffered from cancer since the beginning. It is in line with all the fantasies of his first love, and he loves Luo Li as deeply as he expected - ten years! I have changed from sixteen years old to twenty-six years old, and the change in body shape, appearance and temperament is basically the same as in the past. If she really created the original Luo Li, where would she let a stranger who was similar to her childhood sweetheart go to bed without any resistance?

There is only one answer, and that is that she was not her from the beginning, but was set up by her own subconscious, loving this perfect creation of herself now. The person I miss in my heart is just a phantom in a dream, and the childhood sweetheart who died ten years ago...... Only the appearance is the same.

It is not an easy thing to go deep into one's own heart, and the most difficult thing for a person to do is to admit his mistakes and bad qualities - when Zheng Zhe clearly recognizes this. He felt as if his heart had been pressed against a stone, and a tingling pain erupted as if he had been pricked by many fine needles.

It feels like something betrayed...... It was like something was torn apart. The old smile had long been blurred in his memory, but when he went deep into his heart and reached the bottom of the memory. He was stunned to find that Luo Li, who was still alive ten years ago, and the Luo Li next to him, even had inconsistencies in appearance.

The legs should be shorter, the chest should be flatter, the curves should not be so soft, the skin should be a little rougher, and the tone should not be as bright as the one next to him - there is no doubt that in the decade-long dream completion, he has already added many additional parameters that are different from the real Luo Li, but in line with his own aesthetics and preferences. Perhaps, if you bring this Luo Li back to ten years ago, there will not even be a twin-level face collision between her and the genuine product.

Zheng Zha realized that he had done the right thing - the right thing was that when he returned to reality, he did not bring the creator Luo Li with him.

In his original plan, in addition to introducing Luo Li to his parents, he also took Luo Li to visit the old couple whose daughter died of illness ten years ago—he thought that this might bring some comfort to the two world friends. It's good to find any reason, at least it can make them relieve the pain of losing their daughter a little.

Thankfully, he didn't.

Fortunately, because of Chu Xuan and Cheng Xiao's operation, he didn't treat that return as a honeymoon vacation. Instead, it was seen as a difficult business trip that needed to be handled cautiously - he didn't bring Luo Li with him, and he didn't say much. He just completed the booked transaction quickly, and then withdrew and returned to the world of reincarnation.

- I almost poured a handful of salt on the wounds of a pair of parents who may have barely come out of the grief of losing their daughter.

- What will they think? I was nervous, and I struggled to find a replacement for Luo Li. And then force them to admit that it was their dead daughter, so that they can relive the grief of their memories?

- Will they hate me?

Zheng Zhe's thoughts turned, and then he shook his head silently in the bottom of his heart.

- No, Uncle Luo, they won't hate me. They will only pity me. In their eyes, I'm already crazy for Luo Li. And they will pity Luo Li next to me even more, because in their opinion, she will be a pathetic person who loves me so much that she is willing to give up everything in her past, and even has plastic surgery, just to become my imaginary first love.

- They won't debunk it...... They will only hold on to the psychology of compensation and guilt. Take care of Luo Li as her own daughter. However, the longer you spend together, the more pain you have. All I will bring for them is torture.

The heart was beating violently, and more pain overflowed. The negative emotions of self-hatred and disgust gather like an ocean, turning into a dark vortex in the depths of the soul.

- So...... It's not because of Luo Li's arrival that I have regained my fighting spirit.

- What makes me desperate is the disgust and gradual integration of that sludge-like erosive life. And what gives me courage is the redemption brought about by the realization of my heart's dreams.

- I...... Longing for that ray of light that pours into the depths of hell.

— or......

The dark whirlpool is right in front of you, and what makes up the whirlpool is an endless sea of hatred. It is made up of a person's heart, and it is very small in number but it can be very large.

Then, take a step forward.

- Or, the one who burned hell, the fire!

Zheng Zha's will fell into the dark whirlpool.

And the next moment, the entire black ocean burned with pitch-black fire!

…………………………

Zheng Zha's line of sight returned from divergence to condensation. The change of mind does not take a few seconds in reality.

Jiang Yu has finished talking about his experience and is now discussing his next move.

"Seth is undoubtedly the last opponent we will face." Jiang Yu said, and then the topic changed. "Then, Gab, the god of the earth, and Nut, the god of the sky. These are the things we have to deal with next...... Considering the effectiveness of the nuclear bomb explosion, it is not a big problem to draw the gourd in the future. But I think maybe we can take a more radical approach. ”

His gaze turned to look at Zheng Zhe.

"Zheng Zha, do you have any ideas?"

He just made a sound with his vocal cords very ordinarily, and spoke.

However, in Zheng Zha's vision, Jiang Yu, who was 'not long after', had already said the corresponding answer.

- If I were Jiang Yu...... What would I say at this point?

The voice of the reply became clear. Next, it's just a matter of simply repeating it.

"They are two, and we are two."

Zheng Qi pointed at Jiang Yu and then at himself.

"The two of us and the two of them, heads-on."

Unexpectedly, he saw the consternation in Jiang Yu's eyes—even if Jiang Yu's helmet was covering his face.