CHAPTER XIX

When the time came for Tang Xia to meet, he excitedly invited the Witch King to watch this scene. I was happy in my heart, and I could finally get rid of the ancient sword.

Bigu Sword and Black Cloth fought for three rounds, no matter how big or low. Heiyi understood that Bigu Sword's force was above him, and the reason for the tie was because Bigu Sword was distracted and had been worrying about the woman who had just been almost killed by him. Bigu Jian thought, it is not a way to fight like this again, this is the Witch King's Mansion, and the longer the battle, the more disadvantageous it is.

Bigu Sword invited the god to possess the body, and invited the god of war to possess the martial arts, and suddenly with a wave of the scimitar in his hand, the black clothes were shaken out of the three zhang, and the little soldiers who were fighting jade barnacles were vibrated with the sword qi. is carrying jade barnacles and Qin Chufeng out of the Wuwang Mansion. Stopped by the witch king brought by the Tang Xia Society.

The witch king's chest rose and fell, and he said, "Son, you can't be caught yet."

Tang Xia Hui added fuel and vinegar and said: Third brother, you are really confused, you betrayed your father-in-law for a woman, and went along with the traitorous party.

The witch king Yuzhi said: As long as you kill the jade barnacle today, this king will not be guilty of the past, and you are still a good son of this king.

Jade Barnacle's eyes widened and said, "Uncle, you really want to kill me."

The Witch King turned his face away, and there seemed to be a sad look on his face.

Bigu Jian turned around, faced the jade barnacle, and said sadly: I'm sorry, I can't protect you anymore.

The jade barnacle was frightened: Bigu Sword, do you even kill me.

Bigu Jian invited the wind god to possess the firmament, and used the wind power to send the jade barnacle and Qin Chufeng out of the Wuwang Mansion.

The jade barnacle finally saw Bigu Jian's sad and blessed smile, and her heart was both sad and warm because of Bigu Sword's protection. After the ancient sword sent the jade barnacle and Qin Chufeng away. Bigu put down his scimitar, knelt down before the witch king, and said, "The child has been entrusted by the witch king, please punish the father-in-law."

The witch king said angrily: Take down the rebel son and put him in the dungeon.

The creep stepped forward and locked the pipa bone of the Bigu Sword with a chain to seal the power and prevent the Bigu Sword from counterattacking. Bigu Jian did not resist, and allowed the soldiers to lock the pipa bone and escort them into the dungeon.

What happened after that was what Lin Xiaoyue saw, Bigu Jian was tortured, and Tang Xia would fall into the ground.

After figuring out the matter, Lin Xiaoyue felt that Bigu Jian was a rare person who valued love and righteousness, and came to the dungeon to see Bigu Jian.

Bigu Jian was lying weakly on the grass to rest, his pipa bones were locked, and he couldn't heal his injuries. But there was still vigilance, and when he heard footsteps, he sat up and said defensively: Who?

Bigu Jian saw a woman with a delicate face, an indifferent expression, and a compassionate look in her eyes, thinking that this woman was not like a bad person, and relaxed her guard a little: Why did the girl come to this dungeon.

Lin Xiaoyue said: Bigu Jian, I'll save you out.

Bi Gu Jian was slightly surprised, and said: No need, I did something wrong, I betrayed my father-in-law's trust and respect, and I deserve to be punished. I have already betrayed my father, and I cannot turn my back on him again. It's just that the girl and I have never been masked, why help me.

Lin Xiaoyue said: Because you are a good person who values love and righteousness, I can't bear to see such a person suffer.

He was a little more relieved than Gu Jian and said, "Miss Xie is kind." The girl can come to the dungeon so quietly, she must be extraordinary. If the girl really wants to help, ask the girl to help take care of the little pot.

Lin Xiaoyue sighed, and did not forget the jade barnacle when she was in prison, and said: Okay.

Bigu Jian said: Xiaoju has been pampered since she was a child, and she will have to endure hardships when she wanders outside, so I'm afraid she won't be able to stand it. At first, when I helped her escape, I secretly sent someone to help her all the way. But three months ago, I was caught in a dungeon. There is a way that the tree is falling and scattered, but I am afraid that the person who secretly assisted her has withdrawn. I don't know if Qin Chufeng has taken good care of her, I'm worried about her.

Lin Xiaoyue said: I understand, don't worry.

Bigu Jian clasped his hands and said, "Thank you, girl." The girl's kindness, he will repay it one day.

Lin Xiaoyue asked: What are the appearance characteristics of jade barnacles.

Bigu Jian said: Xiaoju has a delicate face, a round face, and a black mole under the right corner of his mouth, which is easy to recognize.

Lin Xiaoyue retreated incognito and said: Got it, take care of yourself.

After Lin Xiaoyue left the Witch King's Mansion, she sat on a broom and flew to the southeast. I learned from the servants of the Wuwang Mansion that the jade barnacle asked Wang Qingming, the owner of Feipeng Village living in the southeast, for help, Wang Qingming was a friend of Yuzhijiang and had received the favor of Yuzhijiang, but Wang Qingming sent someone to report to the Wuwangfu and betrayed the jade barnacle.

Lin Xiaoyue flew to Feipeng Village and used the eye of heaven to investigate, but did not find the jade barnacle. He flew around again, looking for it with the eye of heaven. After searching for more than an hour, I finally found a jade barnacle in a tree hole. The entrance to the tree hole is covered with leaves.

Lin Xiaoyue pulled out the leaves, walked into the tree hole, and saw the jade barnacle half-unconscious, her cheeks were red, and she muttered: Daddy, the little pot is so uncomfortable.

Jade barnacles clasped their knees in their hands, sleeping as a baby, and I heard that people who sleep with this wanton situation are insecure.

Lin Xiaoyue touched the forehead of the jade barnacle with her hand, she was feverish, her body was trembling slightly, she should be cold. Lin Xiaoyue checked the pulse of the jade barnacle, it should be physically and mentally exhausted, plus infected with wind and cold and fell ill.

Lin Xiaoyue used a green spirit needle to treat her, picked some herbs to boil for her to drink, and lit a fireball with fire magic to keep her warm.

Lin Xiaoyue looked at the jade barnacle and envied her a little, she was loved and pampered since she was a child, and she grew up carefree.

Lin Xiaoyue was born in a patriarchal family. The gender of a woman is frowned upon from the moment she is born. At that time, family planning was strict, and later due to various family changes, the parents did not have any children. The least welcome to Lin Xiaoyue's birth was Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother. I heard that when Lin Xiaoyue was a baby, her grandmother took her grandson out to play, and left Lin Xiaoyue in the blue to accept the summer sun, which was four or five hours. I heard that Lin Xiaoyue, who was in a baby state at the time, was so sunburned that her lips were chapped and her crying was hoarse. But Lin Xiaoyue's vitality is tenacious, and she didn't die or get sick. After Grandma Cun Xiaoyue came back, she also said: It's a girl, it's better to die.

Since Lin Xiaoyue began to remember, Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother was a good elder in front of her, and she was mean to Lin Xiaoyue in the future. Lin Xiaoyue was ignorant and lost her temper with her grandmother, Lin Xiaoyue's father thought that Lin Xiaoyue was disrespectful to her elders and beat Lin Xiaoyue.

Lin Xiaoyue's growth was very difficult. Because her parents worked, Lin Xiaoyue was not loved by her grandparents, so she could only give Lin Xiaoyue to neighbors and relatives to raise.

I heard that Lin Xiaoyue was abused when she was taken in when she was a child, and she cried and cried to go home.

When Lin Xiaoyue was six years old, she began to remember, and her parents took Lin Xiaoyue back to raise her. But his father was indifferent to Lin Xiaoyue and often did not come home. Mother was dissatisfied with Lin Xiaoyue.

Lin Xiaoyue has been inferior and introverted since she was a child. Lin Xiaoyue has been having nightmares since she can remember, and nightmares have often been dreamed of since she was a child. In the dream, Lin Xiaoyue was in the endless darkness, and Lin Xiaoyue kept running away, because there were ghosts and bad people who wanted to arrest her and bully her.

This is also the demon that has always existed in Lin Xiaoyue's heart.

When she slept at night, her subconscious mind came into play, causing Lin Xiaoyue to often have nightmares.

Lin Xiaoyue's childhood was very hard, she was not loved by her parents, she was bullied by her classmates, and her body often felt uncomfortable because of malnutrition.

By adolescence, the pent-up pain begins to flare up, and tantrums with parents are common. Parents couldn't understand and felt that Lin Xiaoyue was temperamental and unreasonable.

When she was young, Lin Xiaoyue went to society, but because of her character defects, ignorance of human feelings, and her introversion, and the society was realistic and cruel, she was beaten by society.

In terms of marriage and love, Lin Xiaoyue had expectations, hoping to make up for the lack of feelings since childhood through love. But Lin Xiaoyue, who has negative psychological energy, no man has ever loved her. Family members and relatives also introduced her boyfriend to Lin Xiaoyue, but Lin Xiaoyue couldn't feel love in them. Although those men don't love Lin Xiaoyue, they are willing to date and marry Lin Xiaoyue. Because Lin Xiaoyue is delicate and dignified, has a solid family background, works well, has no bad habits, and does not have excessive material needs, she is suitable for being a wife. Men can separate feelings from marriage. But Lin Xiaoyue couldn't do it. Lin Xiaoyue didn't associate with those people. Family members and relatives began to think that Lin Xiaoyue was picky.

Lin Xiaoyue has experienced all kinds of hot and cold worlds, and she has no hope for her feelings in the world.

Later, Lin Xiaoyue suffered from depression, which is a heart disease that makes even breathing painful.

Lin Xiaoyue was tormented in her heart and wanted to commit suicide several times to end her life. talked about depression with his parents, and his parents didn't know what depression was, they only felt that Lin Xiaoyue was delicate. There is a way that the sea of bitterness is often used as a boat, because of this extreme suffering, Lin Xiaoyue has also begun to contact Taoism and Buddhism, and has learned to cultivate the truth.

In desperation, Lin Xiaoyue wrote a poem

There is no hope in this life, there is no love in the world, but the cause and effect of life is not exhausted, you can't drift away with your heart, you still need to suffer in the world, the coming day is very terrible, the heart is uneasy all day long, you want to be entangled in mundane things, you can't ask for the most bitter, you can't let go, day after day, year after year, six years of time and practice, cultivate your mind to do evil, practice to improve your realm, the wish you want will not come true, look back and realize half a life, the wish you want to be in the water, the desire to be distressed into a fantasy, suddenly feel that life is meaningless, God wishes me to be merciful and love all beings, never been selflessly loved, Half a life of loneliness, loneliness and coldness, how to love others, not my own love, love is deep and despairing, the heart has tasted all the bitterness, but no one knows, I hope that the Buddha and I can go to the happy land, and there will never be reincarnation in the next life.

Lin Xiaoyue was still depressed when she wrote this poem, hoping that she would never be reincarnated and that she would never have an afterlife.

Later, Lin Xiaoyue realized in her studies and meditation that the reason why she got depression was because she was resentful and couldn't let go, hated the person who inflicted her pain, and complained that her parents did not meet her emotional needs. I can't accept my own broken heart.

At the moment of epiphany, Lin Xiaoyue forgave everyone. Forgiveness is not because what those people did deserved to be forgiven. Rather, this forgiveness is the redemption of oneself, not allowing oneself to indulge in pessimism forever.

Lin Xiaoyue's heart and eyes opened, her wisdom grew, and she began to understand others.

Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother was poisoned by feudal ideology, men were inferior to women, and she worked hard for her husband, son, and grandson all her life, and she never enjoyed happiness. Because of the idea of male superiority and inferiority of women, she bullied her daughter-in-law, and in the end, no daughter-in-law served her, and she also blew the pillow wind to her husband, so that Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother and her sons were separated from morality and became desolate when they grew old. When Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother was sick, Lin Xiaoyue went to see her, examined her, and found that she was in critical condition, and if she didn't go to the hospital, she was afraid that she would die. But Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother didn't believe Lin Xiaoyue's words and said that she was fine. Lin Xiaoyue fed her grandmother food, but Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother didn't believe that Lin Xiaoyue would be good to her, and asked Lin Xiaoyue if she was going to poison her. Lin Xiaoyue was neither sad nor angry about this. After experiencing the process of heart death, Village Xiaoyue has no mood swings in the face of her grandmother's malice. The next day, Lin Xiaoyue's grandmother closed her eyes forever after seeing her grandson who was hurting into the bone marrow. Lin Xiaoyue faced her grandmother's corpse with no sorrow or joy.

Lin Xiaoyue's father thought that housework and taking care of children were women's affairs, and men only needed to make money. In Lin Xiaoyue's growth, there was no communication and no education. After Lin Xiaoyue grew up, the two were not close and never talked about their hearts. But Lin Xiaoyue still tried to treat him as well as possible because of his nurturing grace. Lin Xiaoyue knew that her father was a gentle person, and his heart was not bad. Later, when my father got older, he understood that the family needed to be managed, and began to help with housework. cares about Lin Xiaoyue but is not close, and it is difficult to communicate heart-to-heart.

Lin Xiaoyue's mother has a spicy and strong personality. For her mother, Lin Xiaoyue knows very well that her mother loves her, but she doesn't love much. When I was a child, my father went bankrupt in business, and the family was in debt and had zero income. The mother is under a lot of pressure and vents the pressure on her family, becoming irritable and irritable, and loves to criticize and blame others. Although the family situation became better later, the psychological shadow of her mother was there, she had no sense of security, saved money frugally, and took Lin Xiaoyue's savings of more than 100,000 yuan in various names many times. In this regard, Lin Xiaoyue accepted the fact that her mother did not love her much. Lin Xiaoyue understands that the person she cares about most is her mother, and she is willing to forgive and treat her well.

For those men who don't love Lin Xiaoyue, but want to be with Lin Xiaoyue. Lin Xiaoyue didn't complain. At the beginning, I was dark in my heart, my emotional intelligence was almost zero, my personality was introverted and withdrawn, and it was normal for men to dislike me. As for the fact that they do not love a woman, but want to be with her, it is pathetic. Long out of hair, who wants to be bald. If there can be people who are happy with each other, who is willing to be with people who do not love until old age. Men's emotional needs are not as strong as women's, but they also need affection. But most people are just ordinary people, and they can't have the happiness promised by the two hearts, so they can only retreat to the next best thing and choose a person to live a life to make do. This is not the life they want, but they have to compromise with reality.