It's not like cooking, it's more like fighting.

Plates, bowls, and chopsticks were all piled up on the countertop, and the door of the sterilization cabinet, which had only been used once in the two years since it was purchased, was opened. "Son, come and see how you can use it." The operation of the sterilizer is not complicated. Bo's mother has been in the city for several years, but she still feels too unfamiliar with electrical appliances to adapt to, and she has never graduated from primary school and is not very literate.

The boy put the kitchen utensils into the disinfection cabinet one by one, and Bo's mother chattered on the side: "In the future, I won't touch anything that your father and I use, the face towel and toothbrush will be separated, the rice bowl and your sister will have to be put separately, and the chopsticks will too." Don't stuff your clothes and pants into the washing machine with your dad's." Something unusual happened to his consciousness, but he didn't ask, just nodded his head in agreement as he listened.

For dinner, Bo's mother asked Bo Yaoyuan to prepare.

In the first grade of primary school, he learned to cook fried rice and noodles, and in the third grade, he was able to cook a lot of home-cooked dishes. When cooking, Bo Mu sat in the living room when he looked at it. Just in time for dinner, Bo's father unexpectedly entered the house, since moving to this residential area, Bo Rong'er came to settle in the city, and he rarely came home before ten o'clock in the evening.

Rong'er wanted to add food, and Bo Yanyan said that she had eaten outside.

Bo's mother suddenly had a seizure, raised her head and scolded: "Give him a bastard, don't eat anything!" "War is on the verge of breaking out.

Bo's father endured his anger from the beginning to the final outburst, and the two of them quarreled back and forth. Bo Rong'er lowered her head in fright, holding chopsticks and motionless, Bo Yaoyuan's expression was numb, and motioned to her sister to pick up the dishes, "Let's eat first, don't worry about the rest." ’

The flames of war are spreading, and the flames are burning more and more fiercely. Bo's father was angry, grabbed the teacup and kept smashing the coffee table, "Lao Tzu came back late, you said wrongful things, and when you came back early, you also said, what do you want this mother-in-law!" Don't let people live, and let people live in peace. Bo's mother suddenly cried and scolded: "You bastard! I went to the hospital for a check-up and said that I had a disease, you bastard fooled around outside and came back to hurt us by being sick, how could you be blind and marry a man like you in the first place."

Bo's father's face was cloudy, and his arrogance was extinguished at once.

Hearing Bo Mu crying endlessly, he suddenly got up, rushed over and dragged Bo Mu to the room. Bo's mother screamed and struggled: "If you get sick, you have to beat people."

Bo Yanyan, who was silent for a while, was furious: "Still say! Can this kind of thing be said in front of a child? Do you have brains?" Bo's mother gave up the struggle and was dragged into the door by him.

Bo Yaoyuan ate the last bite of rice in the bowl, and Bo Rong'er opened her mouth slightly. - "Brother, is it a sexually transmitted disease?" ”

"Don't think about it. Mom had been to the hospital, and the doctor must have told her how to avoid infection. She silently took the bowl into the kitchen. He wiped down the table and washed the dishes. The door was closed until 22 o'clock at night, and he walked out of the living room with a dark face, his sister had already fallen asleep, and Bo Yaoyuan had little sleep needs, sitting on the windowsill and looking at the starry sky.

Father Bo leaned on the sofa and stared at the ceiling in a daze.

For a long time, he heard sobbing. The night shrouded the face that was still not old, and tears were running horizontally at the moment, and this was the first time in my memory that I had seen Bo Yanyan look like this. My heart was inexplicably touched, and I approached and sat down.

The living room was as silent as the night outside, and Bo's father cried but there was no sound or wipe.

"You're older, too, and you probably know a little bit about some things. I was thirsty on the construction site alone, and I was reluctant to buy soda to drink, so I just found a water pipe to fill it. Eating to save money is also chili sauce and mustard bibimbap, many times I want to vomit when I eat, I don't eat and I don't have the strength to work, so I eat raw chili peppers, and my stomach hurts after eating, and I have to go to the construction site. "Tears may be a way to convey feelings. These experiences have obviously been heard, but at this moment, the boy's heart is tightly uncomfortable.

"It has been assigned to the current unit, and the situation is better. At that time, I took you over to school first, and you know that money is still tight, and you usually don't have money to buy fruit. A man, he always has to take care of his family when he gets married, and it is nothing to endure hardships, and he finally got all your household registration in 75 years, and he is financially rich. At that time, I was working hard here, and I said that you may not understand now, but I am really very sad, and I can't even find a speaker when I go home all day and night. ”

Bo Yaoyuan really didn't understand very well, but that woman was indeed fickle. One night when Bo Yanyan was taking a bath, the woman entered his bedroom, teased him for a while, and suddenly hugged Bo Yaoyuan and kissed him deeply, not only the touch of his lips, but he still remembers that it was like a wet little snake.

"Don't tell your father about this! In the future, when you grow up, my sister will love you even more. Seeing that Bo Yaoyuan nodded stupidly and agreed at all, leaned over and kissed lightly, praised 'good brother', and went back to the room.

The boy just felt sick to his stomach.

By the summer vacation of the third grade, his classmates had seen the tape preaching to each other, and he realized that he had lost his first kiss. Fortunately, the man's first kiss didn't seem to be valuable, so he didn't mind it too much, but just imprinted the woman from his heart. I feel that I can't cover up the past for any reason, and I really want to ask why I can't get through that kind of hardship at the beginning? But he didn't ask, as if listening to Bo's mother's chatter to him after a quarrel.

"In this kind of place, it is very normal for you to find a woman who lives separately from your mother, and every man will. I can't think of getting sick, at least I'm still a family man, right? Your mother came, I asked Xiao Fang to leave, I never thought about divorcing your mother because of other women, even if she has been noisy and annoying in the past few years, I also consider that you two little ones can't live without their mothers."

Bo Yaoyuan disagrees at least.

At least there is no standard, at least after that there is at least, and after that there is at least. At the very least, the standard can be infinitely low. Bo Yanyan's at least made the sadness that touched him disappear without a trace, perhaps just because Bo's father's sadness has faded since he said at least two words.

But he didn't say anything. I've listened to too many arguments.

When Bo's mother said that whoever goes home after work every day to accompany his wife and children to do homework, Bo Yanyan said that whoever doesn't even care about the family's living expenses only cares about eating, drinking and having fun every day.

The right and wrong of this kind of dispute is determined by subjective cognition, and the objective conditions and facts are ignored. This comparison and 'at least' then become an infinite inseparable, because neither side is fighting head-to-head, and is always competing with different angles. The boy gradually became distracted by the hearing, and unconsciously began to be in a daze. Bo's father didn't notice it, and still talked endlessly. Bo Yaoyuan always looks like that, and it is difficult to notice in a daze.........

The calendar hangs on August 16 in the reception hall of the Youth Library. Arriving at the library full of anticipation, the boy waited from morning to noon, and his distraction turned into disappointment.

Just as he was about to leave in despair, the girl finally came in, still with yesterday's hairstyle. It's just that the hair accessories have changed slightly, and Bo Yaoyuan noticed that the girl walked to look at the bookshelves yesterday, and finally picked out the ones from yesterday.

She didn't seem to have a good memory, and it took a lot of searching to find the book.

The mood was very nervous, and yesterday Bo Yaoyuan secretly decided that he must muster up the courage to chat when he comes again today. Now the boy still wanted to do this, and after the disappointment of the early morning and noon, he felt that he had to do it, and he did not dare to pin his hope on tomorrow, maybe this was the last chance.

It's just that I'm too nervous, and I haven't been able to muster up enough courage after an hour has passed. The girl is too beautiful and otherworldly, which makes people feel graceful and luxurious, and then makes him feel unattainable, although he wants to be close, but the spontaneous inferiority subconsciously denies the possibility of intimacy becoming real.

'No longer hesitate. There's nothing to be afraid of, the fear of a pistol can be overcome, it's nothing, it's a big deal to be rejected, you won't regret it if you try, you can't even be as good as a female squad leader! Finally, when he calmed down his nervousness for the fifteenth time, he took a pen and paper in his hand and wrote.

"Here's my name and home phone number." Bo Yaoyuan suppressed his nervousness and slowly pushed the piece of paper in front of the girl. The face that originally had a slightly melancholy expression was stunned for a moment, and he stared at the paper for a moment and looked up. Subconsciously wanted to avoid looking at each other, and cheered for himself, 'There's nothing to be afraid of, you can't just dare to sneak around.' ’

Facing the gaze without moving an inch.

"I've heard people talk to strangers of the opposite sex who want to know about things, but how old are you?" There was an incredulous surprise in his tone.

"January 15th birthday, 66." At this point, I suddenly felt less nervous, and I guess this kind of thing is the most difficult thing to take the first step. The girl watched him think quietly for a moment, then pressed the piece of paper with her hand, as if to push back the refusal.

"Today I may regret it; If I take this step and still don't appeal to you, you may not regret it, but I certainly won't. Bo Yaoyuan didn't know how to say such a thing, and he didn't have time to wonder if he had seen it somewhere. The girl's push of the piece of paper stopped. After staring quietly for a moment, he suddenly smiled and said, "As long as you take this step, you will definitely be rejected and you will not regret it?" "Yes, I'm sure. ”

"I don't believe it much, so I'm more determined." The girl stopped and pushed it out, and the piece of paper spun and stopped in front of the boy. The wordless frustration spread in his body and mind, but he refused to show it in his face at all, he obviously felt depressed but didn't think about anything, only the urge to run away quickly, but said something that he never thought of.

- "May I ask if you will come tomorrow?" "The girl lowered her face and read the book, and she didn't seem to even want to raise her forehead." You've already taken a step, and if you're sure you won't regret it, why do you ask? ”

"I'm just worried that goodbye will make me impulsively lower my eyebrows, and if you're still here tomorrow, I won't come." - "I'll come tomorrow, it's still today's time, I hope you won't have any more problems." Bo Yaoyuan got up and left to read the book, knowing that it was impossible to read it, but he didn't want to leave like this, although he longed to look at it again, the frustration of being rejected was not a big deal, if he slapped himself, he could almost imagine the contempt and contempt in the other party's heart, that was the real shame. He sat upright and made up his mind, no matter how he thought of what he just said, since he said it, he couldn't slap himself! The girl sat from one o'clock to five o'clock, got up and left.

Bo Yaoyuan knew that he would probably say goodbye forever until the girl's back disappeared, and he could hardly suppress the impulse, 'You probably won't regret it, and I must not regret it, I took that step, and I can't get your willing response......

… After all, you are still young, and you can't understand much of this, let alone understand my mood and feelings. Forget it, go to bed, it's so late, you have to go to school tomorrow. Knocked back to reality, the boy was dazed for three seconds, and then he realized that he had just been in a daze and had a strange daydream. Bo's father has not returned to the room, and remains sitting on his back on the sofa.

Not long after Bo Yaoyuan returned to the house to lie down, he got up and searched the left and right sides of the room carefully, but he couldn't find any traces of insects that always felt floating around him.