Zheng Pianqi really didn't have the strength to think later, but she knew very well that this was just a short-term paralysis and escape, and there were some things she had to face sooner or later.

For example, Sansan is becoming more and more sensible, and as her contact with the outside world increases, she will have more demand for the role of mother.

Qin Lie didn't leave at night, and when Zheng Pianqi woke up the next morning, the person was still in Qin Lie's arms, he had already woken up, but he had maintained the posture he had held her in the same way as last night.

Zheng Pianqi is no longer the person who would be so shy that he blushed after waking up in a man's arms, even if he saw the marks on Qin Lie's chest that was scratched by her, he could not be shocked.

"Why didn't you go back?" Zheng Pianjiao opened his mouth to ask casually, and his voice was hoarse and couldn't speak.

Qin Lie let go of Zheng Pianjiao, picked up his glasses from the bedside table and put them on, "You were in a bad state yesterday, and I was a little worried about leaving you alone." ”

Zheng Pianji: "Thank you." ”

Qin Lie: "I'll go to the bathroom outside to wash up, and remember to come down to eat later." ”

Zheng Pianji: "Okay." ”

Zheng Pian got up from the bed, and her feet were a little weak when she walked - she was too many times last night, and her body couldn't stand it.

If it weren't for her request, Qin Lie wouldn't have been so unrestrained.

Zheng Pianjiao took a shower, changed his clothes and went downstairs, Qin Lie had already made two plates of breakfast, English scrambled eggs, ham slices and toast, plus a glass of milk.

The two sat down at the table facing each other for breakfast.

Qin Lie took a bite of bread, stared at Zheng Pian's face for a long time, and asked her tentatively, "Are you feeling better today?" ”

Zheng Pianqi didn't know whether to nod or shake his head.

Qin Lie read the answer from her state, and turned to her: "If you want to love your child, you should love yourself first. ”

Zheng Pian pursed her lips and swallowed the milk in her mouth, but there was some astringency in her mouth.

Love yourself.

Maybe it was love before.

But over the years, she seems to have lost that ability.

"When we were in love, I couldn't feel your love for me, at that time I thought you just didn't love me, but then I found out that you didn't even love yourself anymore." Qin Lie looked into her eyes.

Zheng Pian's eyes are very beautiful, her double eyelids are thin, almond eyes, and she looks cold and difficult to approach.

These eyes would have been more beautiful if they had lit up—but he had not seen them, and her gaze had always been erratic and dim since they had known each other.

Zheng Pianqi has not had many friends around her over the years, she has always disliked socializing, and it is impossible for her to share her feelings with people who are not related by blood.

Qin Lie was the first person to say such things to her.

Zheng Pianqi was not annoyed and angry, her emotions were calmer than she imagined, and after a moment of silence, she laughed self-deprecatingly.

"That's right." She said, "I don't have anything to love." ”

Qin Lie didn't speak, he stared at her, suddenly desperate to know what kind of state she was in in that relationship that hurt her deeply.

Zheng Pianjiao stuffed half a piece of toast into his mouth, chewed it mechanically, and swallowed it before saying, "I often feel like I'm dead." ”

Qin Lie: "That person, is your child's father?" ”

Zheng Pianqian nodded.

Qin Lie: "Does he know about the existence of this child?" ”

Zheng Pianji: "He doesn't need to know. ”

She expressed this sentence very firmly: "I am over with him, and I don't want to see him again." ”

Qin Lie was silent for a few seconds, "You hate him." ”

"Nope." Zheng Pianjiao took a deep breath, "I just hate myself. ”

hated himself for knowing that he was a prodigal son and was moved by his rhetoric, and threw himself into a relationship without hesitation;

hated himself for not making a decision when he first found out that he was entangled with Rong Yue, and he manipulated his emotions to become suspicious;

hated that he didn't listen to Zheng Rinxu's words from the beginning, and hated that he couldn't help his family and caused trouble for them.

Every time she sees Zheng Rinxu and Zheng Yuemi busy with her affairs, she hates herself even more.

Qin Lie was suddenly speechless, he thought about a lot of words and wanted to comfort her, but when it came to his mouth, he couldn't say it - people see the things of others thoroughly, and the big truth is the first thing, but who can ensure that when things fall on him, he can also behave like those big truths?

But Zheng Pian's sentence of "hating herself" made Qin Lie react violently to one thing - she was punishing herself by "self-abandonment" depravity.

If he hadn't proposed to keep this relationship for a long time, Zheng Pianji would probably go to a different person.

Qin Lie didn't have any prejudices and thoughts about this behavior itself, he just felt that Zheng Pianqi shouldn't do this kind of thing with such a mentality, otherwise she would hate herself even more.

After figuring out this matter, Qin Lie was suddenly glad that the person who appeared in front of her at that time was him.

——

More than a month after this time, Qin Lie's work was transferred, and he was sent to the branch in Haicheng for more than a year.

Before leaving, Qin Lielai and Zheng Pianjiao met with him.

They did it heartily as usual, Zheng Pian leaned limply into Qin Lie's arms, the broken hair on his forehead was soaked and stuck to his skin.

Qin Lie raised his hand to arrange her hair, lowered his head and kissed her forehead.

"Fluttering, I'm leaving." He said.

Zheng Pianqi listened in a trance: "Where to go?" ”

Qin Lie: "The company is dispatched, and I have to go to Haicheng for more than a year. ”

Zheng Pianqian nodded, she knew what this sentence meant.

From the start, I knew there was a day of difference.

"Qin Lie." Zheng Pianjiao shouted his name over again, "Thank you." ”

Qin Lie smiled helplessly, picked her up, and caressed her back with his palm, "Love yourself well, flutter." ”

Zheng Pian's eyes were a little sour, "I'll do my best." ”

Qin Lie: "We will still be friends in the future, if you need help with something, feel free to come to me." ”

Zheng Pianqi couldn't speak at this time, so he could only lean on his arms and nod.

——

After separating from Qin Lie, Zheng Pianqi soon returned to normal life.

She thought she would be a little uncomfortable, but the imaginary situation did not happen, and the trajectory of her life hardly changed.

Zheng Pianqi later thought about it and realized why she was able to pull it out so quickly—because Qin Lie had never really been involved in her life.

When the two of them met, most of them were just for the sake of doing it, she would not deliberately adapt to Qin Lie's time, nor would she let go of the original things she was doing for him.

There are no concessions and compromises, and when you separate, you can be quiet, which is actually very good.

Zheng Pianqi suddenly felt that this should be the way Zhou Yi has always been, so he can get out very quickly in every relationship.

There weren't many classes this semester, and not long after Qin Lie left, Zheng Pianqi set off for Greece.

She and Mu Chen met in Santorini.