Bae Joo-hyun has been having a hard time during this time.

Last month's trainee's month-end assessment, her results were quite good, although not the top but at the top.

The rankings in the last few month-end assessments are about the same, and her strength has entered a plateau.

After the results were announced, the teacher also praised her with a very appreciative expression.

The wording is nothing more than 'doing very well,' 'making great progress', and 'promising debut', and basically every once in a while, it will basically come to this for a while.

Bae is grateful for the teacher's praise and encouragement, but that's not what she wants to hear.

She really wanted to be able to tell her teacher that the company had recently planned a new girl group and that the company had started selecting members for the new girl group.

Even if she herself is not sure that she is one of them, and she needs to work harder to fight for one of the debut spots, she will be extremely happy, and she can't sleep at night when she is excited.

Because she finally doesn't have to practice day by day with no hope like now, and wait day by day.

Even if it's not the news of the debut of the girl group, but the announcement of other arrangements for her, such as advertising models or solo and the like, you can do it.

Even if you just tell her directly that your strength is not good, or that the company may not arrange for you to make your debut when you are old, you can be sentenced to death.

Although it will be very sad and sad, at least you don't have to suffer aimlessly in the company like this.

In this way, Bae Joo-hyun can think about other directions, such as giving up being an artist and taking other paths, or leaving SM Company to join other economic companies to get the opportunity to debut.

Over the years, with her appearance, she has often been accosted by talent scouts and invited her to other agencies for interviews, and her attitude is very enthusiastic.

It's just that she refused, she still hopes to make her debut in SM, in addition to the company she has been staying in, and because this is one of the largest brokerage companies in Peninsula.

But she couldn't wait for what she wanted to hear, and only kept repeating praise and favoritism to hang her, but there was no actual action.

Bae Joo-hyun knows very well that she is different from some other young and lively female trainees, she is a rare older trainee, and she has no capital to survive slowly like others.

She was born in '91, joined SM in '09, and by 2012 of this year, according to Peninsula's algorithm, she was already 23 years old.

Most of the people who practice together around her are several years younger than her, and the new trainees who have recently joined the company are all from 9899, and there will even be post-00s. When she was with them, Bae Joo-hyun only felt that she was extraordinarily conspicuous and out of place.

Peninsula girl groups generally debut at the age of seventeen or eighteen, and it is almost the same in their early twenties when they are a little later, and it is not appropriate to be a little older.

Because the girl group also has a flowering period after its debut, it is best to attract fans, and the most popular is the youngest who has just debuted in the past few years, many male fans on the peninsula only like energetic young idols, and many idols are older, it is easy to run fans, and the group will be half the result if they want to develop again.

Like Xu Zhuxian, who is the same age as her, she was born in 91 and has debuted as a girl for more than five years, and she is still a trainee.

When those little girls called Senior Ernie, Bae Joo-hyun didn't feel respected, only felt a kind of anxiety and sadness echoing in her heart.

She still can't forget the surprise that the other party couldn't help but express after knowing her birth age when she introduced herself to the new trainee, even if she would immediately manage her expression and say hello, but the most real surprise that appeared on the other party just now was like a hammer knocking heavily on her heart.

In addition, because of her appearance, Bae Joo-hyun is valued by the company and often praises her.

This scene is a little unpleasant in the eyes of other people who train together, many people think that her dancing and singing are not very outstanding, and she is completely relying on a face to mix in the company.

"They are already the age of the previous generation, they have wrinkles on their faces, and they are still working as trainees in the company, so they are not ashamed."

"Who makes the good looks of the parents valued by the company, it seems that the company has no girl group plans in the past two years, and she won't wait for her to debut when she is already twenty-six or seven, creating the largest debut idol history on the peninsula, it's really interesting to think about it......"

This is when two female trainee juniors who usually salute when they meet and look very polite are laughing and chatting, Bae Joo-hyun heard it outside the window.

She didn't want to quarrel with people, and she didn't bother to teach each other as a senior, and she didn't know how many people looked at her like this.

She just felt very uncomfortable in her heart, and she couldn't get out of her chest all the time. The tears were forcibly held back and not allowed to stay, and she was not the character to show her emotions wantonly in front of others, and she occasionally cried in private to vent at that time.

The mood has been getting worse and worse these days, and some time ago, I saw the relationship of the airborne EXO, which made her feel a little sad compared to herself.

Recently, I have also felt a little unwell, and the fire is quite serious.

Coupled with the huge age pressure that has always been there......

It always feels like all the bad things are coming together.

Bae Joo-hyun wanted to find someone to talk to, but after the phone call to her mother was connected, she heard the other party's concerned voice, and she couldn't say anything.

Wanting to talk to a close friend to soothe her emotions, she found that she couldn't find a suitable candidate.

She is not a social personality, she is usually quiet and very recognizable, and there are few relatives who have died in the company over the years.

I'm really sad, Bae Joo-hyun couldn't help but smile bitterly in her heart.

The emotions that have been suppressed tonight have reached a critical point, she didn't want to go back to the dormitory after practicing at night, so she ran to the riverside walkway alone, blowing the cold wind alone, looking at the river view.

It's already November, and the weather has become much colder, with temperatures in Seoul in the mid-teens during the day and even colder at night.

The gusts of cold wind kept blowing, even if he was wearing a warm jacket, he could still feel the cold to the bone, and the brilliant river view opposite did not make Pei Zhuhyun's mood better, but because of the bleak environment around him, it was a lot more gloomy.

She was lying on the railing, her eyes were starting to turn red, and she wanted to cry here.

Just then, there was a sound of footsteps, and they stopped next to her.

Bae Joo-hyun looked over with red eyes.

I found out that it was the person who I often heard the name during this time, but I hated it very much.

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