He Xianmo didn't answer, his emotions hadn't been withdrawn from Zhou Ruo's indifference just now, and now he was broken by Zeng Xu, he couldn't handle so many things for a while, but Zeng Xu didn't let him go, he grabbed He Xianmo's wrist, lowered his voice and said, "Let's go back to the office." ”

It just so happened that neither of them had any arrangements for going to the clinic today, so it was easy to say anything when the door was closed.

He Xianmo also knew that this matter could not be escaped, he did not get rid of Zeng Xu, so he followed him to the elevator, the two of them were silent on the way and did not speak, until they returned to the office, Zeng Xu asked him: "You have been hiding from me, is it because I was also in contact with Dara at that time?" ”

As a good friend for many years, Zeng Xu knows He Xianmo very well, even if he knows that he and Zhou Ruo are not boyfriend and girlfriend, He Xianmo will still feel that he has an affair with Zhou Ruo, that is, he is "robbing" a woman with him.

But, according to Ho Hsienmo's usual self-control and moral standards, he would not let this happen—

Zeng Xu began to search for the scene where He Xianmo and Zhou Ruo appeared in the same frame in his memory, as well as He Xianmo's words when he mentioned Zhou Ruo.

Some details and remarks are meaningless to listen to without knowing it, but now that the truth has been exposed, Zeng Xu suddenly discovered that in fact, the matter of He Xianmo and Zhou Ruo has always been traceable, just because these two people seem to be too bad to beat, and He Xianmo's first impression of Zhou Ruo is so bad, Zeng Xu took it for granted that these two people are impossible.

"Who took the initiative?" After thinking about it, Zeng Xu didn't figure this out, "What you said to me before, how many sentences are true and how many are false?" ”

He Xianmo was silent for a few minutes, and finally spoke, "I didn't take the initiative to lie to you. ”

Zeng Xu asked about "that woman" before, He Xianmo mostly avoided talking about it, even if he did, it was ambiguous, he didn't want to lie, so he would try to avoid these topics, and later Zeng Xu misunderstood that it was Gu Yu, he really didn't know how to explain it, so he had the next "scam".

"I believe in you." Zeng Xu didn't doubt this, "I've always felt that I know you well, but now seeing a lot of things you do, it makes me feel very strange - I really didn't expect you to like Dara." ”

And it's like being addicted to drugs, I can't quit, I can't let go, and I send it to the door again and again.

Zeng Xu remembered the scene he had just seen in the basement, and asked bluntly: "Isn't that the first time that kind of thing just now?" ”

He Xianmo lowered his eyes and fell silent.

Zeng Xu saw the answer from his reaction, and he let out a long sigh, "Can you tell me what you're thinking now?" Have you ever thought about Xuanxuan when you do this? She talked to you very seriously, your behavior is no different from cheating now, and she will be sad to find out. ”

He Xianmo didn't speak as usual, but Zeng Xu saw the bloodshot under his eyes and the bulging blood vessels on the top of his head.

Zeng Xu knew that he was not feeling well now, so he didn't say anything to accuse him again.

He dragged a chair and sat next to He Xianmo, "You have to think about what you want, who the person you like is, otherwise you can't solve the problem." ”

What is wanted.

This question really stopped He Xianmo - he suddenly realized that he didn't seem to have really thought about this question in the center of his self since he was a child, and he often thought not about what I wanted, but about "what I should do" and "how should I do it".

He never looked directly at the true desires of his heart, and he was consistent with his parents' wishes, believing that their experiences were valuable, and this obedience did bring him a seemingly better life.

At least, his resume is incomparably glamorous in the eyes of others: a doctor from a prestigious university, a patent research project at a young age, a decent job, mature and stable.

Every year when he goes home to see relatives and friends, the most common comment He hears is that he is a son who does not need his parents to worry about.

This seems to be the "value" of his existence.

Living in the traditional social clock and concept for a long time, he seems to have gradually lost thinking about the deep desires in his heart, so much so that he once thought that he was a person without desires.

"You don't know." Zeng Xu read the answer from He Xianmo's reaction, and he smiled helplessly, "Okay, it's normal if you don't know." ”

"But you really should think about it," Zeng Xu said in detail, "Don't care what others think of you, don't care if your parents will support you, just start from your personal needs, what do you want?" Is your current work life and the people around you what you want, or are you making compromises to fit in with the crowd – did you realise you were compromising before? ”

The word "compromise" made He Xianmo empowered.

He remembered that he had given up being an athlete because of his parents' advice.

If it weren't for Zeng Xu asking, he really wouldn't have realized that his giving up was a compromise.

"I seem to understand why you're so addicted to Dara." After analyzing so much, Zeng Xu suddenly figured this out.

"Why?" He Xianmo subconsciously asked.

This is also the one thing he wants to know - so far he doesn't know why he can't let go of her like this, obviously he hasn't even officially talked about love, but it is so painful after separation.

She didn't treat him very well, and she didn't pay anything for him, but he just couldn't stop thinking of her again and again.

"You didn't think about that?" Zeng Xu was very surprised that He Xianmo would ask like this, he and Zhou Ruo have been entangled for so long, and they haven't figured out what kind of trait they are attracted to her?

"You're awesome." Zeng Xu couldn't help but complain.

He Xianmo: "Why do you say?" ”

"Because she has a life that is diametrically opposed to you, she can live casually regardless of worldly evaluations, she can face her desires calmly, she can freely choose her own career - have you ever thought that in fact, what you really want is this kind of life?"

Because she can't have it, she will have extremely complicated feelings for those who have taken this path, which may be rejection, disgust, and jealousy at first, but she is inevitably attracted to her casualness and freedom.

What is addictive may not be Zhou Ruo, but freedom.

Zeng Xu's words gave He Xianmo a new perspective to think.

He began to think deeply, and his breathing grew heavier.

Zeng Xu didn't bother him to think anymore, just patted him on the shoulder and said, "If you don't know what to do, try to learn first not to meet your parents' requirements, don't go to pull an innocent person into the water in order to obey their wishes." ”

Zeng Xu didn't delve into it and asked He Xianmo whether he liked Xu Xuanruo or not.

Whether he likes it or not is not the point, the point is that he has the idea of marrying Xu Xuanruo in order to complete the "task" assigned to him by his parents.

This is unfair to Xu Xuanruo.