From Xu Xuanruo's personal point of view, she was happy 90% of the time during her relationship, which was enough.

Some things can be unhappy and destroy memories that are still good.

Xu Xuanruo thinks that people fall in love in the first place to pursue happiness, and if two people are noisy every day together, there is not much point in falling in love.

After He Xianmo saw Xu Xuanruo's empowering appearance and stopped talking, he also knew that some things might not be hidden.

He Xianmo lifted his lips and explained in a dumb voice: "I'm sorry, I just ...... at that time"

“Stop。” Xu Xuanruo interrupted him with a "stop" gesture, "It's already broken up, you don't have to explain to me why you did it at the time, let alone feel sorry for me, I like you very much, but I will like others soon, you are not so special to me." ”

He Xianmo: "......"

"Moreover, your attitude will make me feel as if I can't find a boyfriend after leaving you." Xu Xuanruo didn't say this because she was reckless, she really felt that He Xianmo's attitude made her a little uncomfortable.

She is a beautiful young woman of great age, will she have to be widowed without him?

He Xianmo stared at Xu Xuanruo for a long time, and her relieved and transparent attitude inevitably reminded him of Zhou Ruo.

Of course, there is still a difference between them, if Xu Xuan can afford to put it down, Zhou Ruo is ruthless.

But no matter which one it is, He Xianmo can't do it.

In the end, He Xianmo smiled self-deprecatingly, "Maybe, I will learn from you in the future." ”

Xu Xuanruo: "Then I wish you an early success." ”

She knows what He Xianmo is talking about "learning" - he is really a person with a very heavy burden, the longer he gets along, the deeper Xu Xuanruo's feelings are, he will think a lot no matter what he does, the ideological burden is very heavy, and the internal friction is also very serious.

But in fact, many choices in life are made casually, and a life is only so short, so it is natural to put your own feelings first.

Take the breakup as an example, he has obviously made a decision, but he has to foreshadow so much, he seems indecisive, and he has to apologize constantly after the breakup - if Xu Xuan didn't doubt the sincerity of his apology, he really felt that he had wasted her time and felt guilty, but what could it change?

The guilt after a breakup is worthless and will only exacerbate internal friction.

Of course, from the perspective of the traditional social evaluation system, he is a "good child" in the eyes of his parents and elders, steady, reliable, and decently working...... But can these things bring him happiness in themselves?

If Xu Xuan thinks about it, He Xianmo may not know the answer himself.

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He Xianmo wanted to stay and cook a meal for Xu Xuanruo at night before leaving, but Xu Xuanruo said that he didn't want to eat, so he ordered him to be evicted and kicked him out.

He Xianmo got into the car, put his arms on the steering wheel and looked ahead, thinking about what Xu Xuanruo said just now.

Then I remembered what Zeng Xu asked him that day: What do you want?

And his sentence: It's not Dara that makes you addicted, it's freedom.

In the end, He Xianmo's eyes flashed Zhou Ruo's indifferent, calm, and casual gaze.

Maybe Zeng Xu is right, his addiction and addiction to Zhou Ruo all comes from the fact that he has never lived the same life as her, and he can't do her chic attitude of not caring about anything.

He may not get Zhou Ruo in his life, but he can get freedom and chic.

Start with the fact that you can end a relationship at any time, without guilt or internal friction.

He Xianmo let go of the steering wheel, pulled on his seat belt, stepped on the accelerator, and drove out of the parking lot.

Twenty minutes later, Mr. He's car pulled up near a bar.

This street will be especially lively at night, and there are many people who come to have fun, although He Xianmo is not far away, but he rarely comes.

He had just gotten out of the car when his phone in his trouser pocket vibrate.

He Xianmo took out his mobile phone, and after seeing the white remarks on the screen, he suddenly felt like he had been dragged from the illusion into reality.

He Xianmo clenched his phone, stopped, and pressed the answer button.

Bai Qingru didn't have anything special to call He Xianmo, just asked him about his current situation, and also cared about the relationship between him and Xu Xuanruo, and by the way, he mentioned that he had a student who was about the same age as him, and the child was born recently......

Although Bai Qingru did not directly urge, He Xianmo immediately understood her intentions.

He found himself very good at reading his parents' off-strings, but he didn't realize it before—

"Mom." He Xianmo called her and calmly threw out a bombshell news, "I broke up with Xuanxuan." ”

Bai Qingru on the other end of the phone was silent in surprise for more than ten seconds, and then asked in disbelief: "Why?" Haven't you been thinking about getting married before? ”

"I'm not going to get married." He Xianmo didn't explain the reason for the breakup to Bai Qingru, and told her his thoughts in one go: "Tell Dad, don't count on me." ”

“…… What happened to you? Bai Qingru felt that He Xianmo was very abnormal today, and his attitude of breaking the jar was not like him at all, "Is it that you can't think about breaking up, you ......?"

"It's not." He Xianmo interrupted her.

Bai Qingru: "But you are thirty-two, if you don't get married at this age, how will you find it in the future?" ”

"Then don't look for it." He Xianmo repeated, "When I say not getting married, I mean not getting married for the rest of my life." ”

“…… You are crazy? Bai Qingru, who has always been gentle, was frightened by He Xianmo's words, and suddenly raised his voice: "Your father and I are just your son, what should we do if you don't get married?" ”

He Xianmo did not answer.

Bai Qingru: "How can anyone not get married?" How pitiful you are alone, with a home of your own—"

"I don't want it." He Xianmo said, "You think it's good to have a home of your own, but now I think it's better to be free and easy, we respect each other, I don't ask you to change your concept, and you don't want to impose your ideas on me." ”

Since Bai Qingru called at this juncture, and the topic is here, let's make it clear at once.

He Xianmo had never spoken to Bai Qingru with such a tough attitude, and after he finished speaking, he felt his fingers trembling, and the adrenaline rush made him feel like his body was floating.

It's very refreshing and refreshing.

"What are you stimulated by?" Bai Qingru took a deep breath, "You just broke up, I just used your words to be just a brain, but you are already in your thirties, mature people should think twice before speaking, don't be like a child who hasn't grown up, make jokes and tell the truth." ”

"Whatever you want." He Xianmo knew that she couldn't listen to it, and he said everything that should have been said, he didn't give Bai Qingru a chance to continue educating him, so he hung up the phone directly, and turned off his mobile phone by the way.

After doing these two things in one go, He Xianmo put his mobile phone in his trouser pocket and walked in the direction of the bar door with his long legs.