The movement caused by He Xianmo throwing his mobile phone was a little big, and Zhou Ruo was startled, and stopped eating to look at him.

"What's wrong with you?" He Xianmo's behavior was so abnormal that Zhou Ruo couldn't help but ask.

He Xianmo: "Annoying. ”

Zhou Ruo: "......? ”

If she read it right, wasn't it his mother who kept calling just now, he had never said a bad word when he mentioned his parents before, and now what's going on?

He Xianmo didn't say anything specific about this matter, he took a bottle of water from the refrigerator, filled a small half bottle in one go, wiped the corners of his mouth, and asked her: "When you heard me talk about my parents before, did you think I was quite ridiculous?" ”

"Why is it ridiculous?" Zhou Ruo asked rhetorically.

"Because I do whatever they tell me to do, like a puppet, without any thoughts." He Xianmo pulled the corners of his mouth self-deprecatingly, "And enjoy it." ”

"Nope." Although he didn't know why He Xianmo suddenly began to think about these questions, Zhou Ruo still expressed his attitude first, "You don't have to think that I said this to comfort you, I have no obligation to comfort you." ”

He Xianmo: "......"

For a moment, he really thought, "Don't you think I'm ridiculous? ”

"The path your parents asked you to take is the safest path in their cognition, and you will listen to them, which means that you have also seen the dividends of this path from them, and besides, your parents are very good to you, otherwise you would not have referred to their advice, right?" Zhou Ruo said, "Everyone will make different choices, and no one has a position to say that others are ridiculous." ”

He Xianmo stared at Zhou Ruo's face, and after seeing her say this, he suddenly laughed.

"I really envy you right now." He said so.

Zhou Ruo: "What do you envy me?" ”

He Xianmo: "You know what you want. ”

Zhou Ruo smiled: "Do you think I know?" ”

He Xianmo: "Don't you know? ”

He thinks that she is a person with a clear goal, so she can be so decisive at the end of every relationship, she can refuse mercilessly what she doesn't want, and act immediately on what she wants.

For example, the test tube.

"I didn't know that I was such a powerful character in your heart." Zhou Ruo put down his fork and wiped his mouth, "To be honest, I don't know what I want." ”

In fact, she has never had a big goal in life, probably because she has lacked nothing since she was a child, but she rarely thinks about any dreams and life, because what she has is what many people want.

He Xianmo choked up, "...... yes, that's what I thought was wrong. ”

He changed his expression, "I just envy your attitude to life and want to learn about it." ”

Zhou Ruoyan couldn't help laughing, "You learn from me?" ”

He Xianmo: "......"

Zhou Ruo was very curious: "You thought about these questions because you broke up with Xu Xuanruo?" ”

Thinking about it carefully, He Xianmo seems to have been abnormal since that time, and it seems that the breakup is like a fuse.

"It's because of you." He Xianmo stared into her eyes, and this time he said it directly.

Then it was Zhou Ruo's turn to be speechless: "......"

"Surprised?" He Xianmo's gaze never took off her face, "I don't know why I'm addicted to you, in fact, when we first met, I was thinking about what it feels like for your legs to be wrapped around me." ”

"You should be the kind of woman I dislike the most, but every time I see you later, I will react, just like someone who sucked du." This is the first time He Xianmo has told Zhou Ruo his journey so frankly.

In fact, he also seriously reviewed it after Zeng Xu analyzed it for him.

It wasn't until that time that He Xianmo suddenly came to his senses, it turned out that as early as the first time they met, he had that kind of thought about Zhou Ruo - that was something he hadn't realized all along.

Zhou Ruo was quite surprised when she heard it, she thought that He Xianmo really didn't like her at first.

"I don't know how it could be, I don't like it." He Xianmo pinched the water bottle, "It's very uncomfortable to lose control." ”

It's uncomfortable to lose control, so you have to forcibly suppress your desires, but the desires themselves will not be suppressed, they will only accumulate little by little, and when they finally break out, it will be a qualitative change.

Zhou Ruo thought that He Xianmo's current state should be a qualitative change.

She crossed her hands together, stared at He Xianmo for a long time, and slowly spoke: "I'm just an introduction." ”

"When you gave up being an athlete, were you really willing and uncomplaining?" Zhou Ruo asked this question sharply, "Do you really think that being a doctor is more stable than being an athlete?" Do you enjoy this stability? ”

"I don't enjoy it." He Xianmo also got the answer to this question before, "You're right, I'm not willing. ”

He was just rationalizing his parents' behavior and brainwashing himself - because he was subconsciously avoiding conflict with them and not wanting to disappoint them.

Zhou Ruo was actually quite surprised that He Xianmo would answer like this.

Because of surprise, her eyes when she looked at him changed slightly, and when she saw the self-deprecation and confusion in his eyes, Zhou Ruo suddenly felt a little empathy for him.

It's an emotion she's never had for He Xianmo before — or rather, she hasn't empathized with most people.

When the people around him encounter problems, Zhou Ruo will come up with ideas to solve them for them, but rarely solve their emotions.

She has always felt that people's emotions are generated by problems, and when the problems are over, the emotions will naturally disappear.

She also knew that she was too rational and her empathy ability was not good, so when she had this feeling similar to "distress" for He Xianmo, she was shocked by herself.

"But it's too late, and I can't tell them now and blame them again." He Xianmo's lips twitched, and his voice was hoarse, "That's it." ”

He closed his eyes.

The light above his head shone down, and Zhou Ruo saw the wetness of his eyes from the side.

She got up and sat down beside He Xianmo, pulled out a tissue, raised her hand and took off his glasses, to wipe the tears for him.

He Xianmo opened his eyes suddenly.

"If you want to cry, cry, I've seen a lot of your ugliness anyway." Zhou Ruo ignored his incredulous gaze and poked his face with his fingers, "Breath." ”

"It's useless to cry." He Xianmo didn't want to cry, he wasn't a person who liked tears.

"yes, it's useless to cry." Zhou Ruo said, "You should think about how to solve this problem." ”

"I've thought about it." "I'm not going to let them arrange my life anymore." ”

Zhou Ruo did not express his position on this sentence.

Although she didn't have the same upbringing as He Xianmo, judging from her observations, only one out of a hundred people who said such things might be able to do it.

He Xianmo's parents are really good to him, and he is not a wolf-hearted person in nature, how can he say that he will not listen if he doesn't listen?

The final result of this kind of "struggle" must be that one of the parents is angry and the body is broken, and then the child compromises.

The same script, Zhou Ruo has read too much.