Under Zhou Ruo's puzzled eyes, He Xianmo continued, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have told you those things that affect my mood, I didn't mean to ......"

“stop。” Zhou Ruo made a gesture of stopping, he really couldn't listen to it anymore, so he could only interrupt He Xianmo's words, "Where did you come to these conclusions?" ”

He Xianmo didn't answer, just lowered his eyes.

"Didn't you say you wanted to learn from me before, come, I'll teach you the first lesson," Zhou Ruo held He Xianmo's face, "On the premise of not breaking the law, the only principle of doing things is that I am unhappy or not, whether I am willing or not, don't always think about whether you will have an impact on others if you do this, take yourself too seriously, you don't have that much influence, understand." ”

Zhou Ruo found that He Xianmo's internal friction was really serious, and he just felt that he was a little screwed before, but he didn't expect that to this extent, he even had to think about how a few words would affect others, what kind of discipline was this?

"Then why did you let me stay?" He Xianmo is still very obsessed with knowing the answer to this question.

Zhou Ruo was so angry and funny by him, and pinched his face, "Where are there so many why?" I'm happy, am I happy? You're really interesting, ignore you, you have to come up to find a sense of existence, be nice to you, and you feel like I'm pitying you, what do you want? ”

He Xianmo was dumbfounded by Zhou Ruo: "......"

He didn't realize this too much before, after Zhou Ruo's summary, he suddenly found that he seemed to be really like this, in the past she ignored him, didn't care about him, he was angry, unwilling, uncontrollably appeared in front of her repeatedly, trying to get a little attention from her, but every time he couldn't get it, he was even more unwilling if he couldn't get it, so vicious circle.

I thought it would be relieved when I got it, but now in the face of her "enthusiasm", he didn't seem to feel overjoyed, and there was a sense of insecurity rising in addition to surprise, and he began to think about why she suddenly changed her attitude, whether she was pitiful for him or a little bit moved by him, and he was eager to know the answer.

"Okay, don't be so nervous." Zhou Ruo let go of He Xianmo and patted his arm, "Didn't I promise to give you a chance to chase me, you just made me happy, I'll give you a little sweetness, that's the reason." ”

In fact, this reason was Zhou Ruo's nonsense, but He Xianmo believed it, and after listening to it, he was obviously relieved, and even felt encouraged.

Zhou Ruo suddenly had a feeling that he was training his dog, and after giving some benefits, the puppy was encouraged, and he would work harder next time he learned new skills.

"Go to sleep." Zhou Ruo yawned, she was a little sleepy, "Don't think nonsense, good night." ”

After saying this, Zhou Ruo was about to get up and go back to the bedroom, but before she could make a move, He Xianmo had already picked her up.

Princess hug.

Zhou Ruo: "......"

This was the first time between the two of them that this action had occurred.

He Xianmo used to carry her back to the bedroom with her, but basically when the firewood was dry, she hung on him, and the two of them walked back on his legs like conjoined babies.

Zhou Ruo actually didn't enjoy the action of holding the princess very much, even when he was very young, he didn't think this action was romantic.

She also doesn't want to be a princess who is pampered.

He Xianmo's hug made Zhou Ruo not know how to react for a while, and after stiffening for a few seconds, he reluctantly raised his arm to wrap around his neck - it should be like this, right?

He Xianmo saw Zhou Ruo's "jerky", and was a little surprised: "You-"

"For the first time." Zhou Ruo met his gaze very calmly, "My reaction should be right, right?" The arm is going to be around your neck, right? ”

Hearing her admit it in person, He Xianmo was even more surprised: "You haven't been?" ”

Zhou Ruo sighed, "To be honest, I don't like to be held like this, it seems that I have no initiative." ”

Without waiting for He Xianmo to react, she changed her words, "But it's not bad to come once in a while, let's go." ”

He Xianmo swallowed the "sorry" he wanted to say, listened to her words, and strode her into the bedroom and put her on the bed.

When He Xianmo was about to leave, Zhou Ruo suddenly hooked his neck and kissed him on the mouth.

"Good night, good dreams."

He Xianmo's Adam's apple rolled up and down, "...... Well, you too. ”

Zhou Ruo watched He Xianmo walk out of the bedroom, the corners of her raised mouth gradually lowered, she turned over, turned off the light casually, closed her eyes and slept.

——

Separated by a wall, He Xianmo almost didn't sleep all night.

He kept thinking about what Zhou Ruo had said to him tonight, and once again began to look back on his life for more than thirty years.

As she says, he does everything by presetting an environment to give him feedback and evaluation, and then decides whether to do it or not.

This is actually related to his parents' education since he was a child, he has always been told that he can't be too casual, can't do whatever he wants, people have to talk about rules, have education, and take care of other people's feelings.

These are all right, but he has completely drilled into the tip of the horns, and he is too deeply bound by these rules and dogmas, and there is almost no personal feeling anymore.

So, when he was in love with Shilan before, they never quarreled - in fact, he was not without dissatisfaction, just like when Shilan asked him to stay in Birmingham, he was a little offended, but even then, he did not express his anger directly.

His way of anger seems to be to be silent and then digest it himself.

He had never seen anything wrong with it before.

Therefore, after meeting Zhou Ruo, he was suddenly turned on the switch of anger, those emotions that could be well suppressed before, this time he could no longer suppress them, and this sense of loss of control once made him feel very incompetent.

He tried to provoke Zhou Ruo again and again, using this way to cure his anxiety.

But as Zhou Ruo said, he doesn't have that much influence.

He Xianmo had always felt that Zhou Ruo was only like this to him, but after tonight's conversation, he gradually began to understand that she seemed to be like this to everyone.

She was born to be the kind of person who is not easily influenced by others, which is completely different from him.

He should learn from her.

——Do things whether you like it or not, whether you want it or not.

He really thought too much about it before, and he didn't even think about whether they could get married, whether his family was compatible with her, and even had low self-esteem because of this.

Actually, there is no need.

It doesn't matter if he doesn't get married, his need for marriage is not as strong as her own needs, and what he wants is not marriage, but every day with her.

One more day is earned.

He didn't break the law, he wanted to, he liked it.

So...... So be it.

He has lived for his parents for more than 30 years, and he will not take care of their feelings for the rest of his life.

At half past five, the sky outside the window was already white.

He Xianmo closed his eyes and slept for more than an hour, and at seven o'clock he got up on time to go to the restaurant and start preparing breakfast.