On the last day before the winter break, we boarders packed their bags and headed home. When everyone was embarrassed and carrying weights, Xingyuan's relaxation and calmness were particularly prominent. I envy her for not having to be part of this "migration". On weekdays, walking side by side with Xingyuan, who was also wearing a school uniform, was enough to dwarf me, but now, she changed into civilian clothes, holding only a small bag in her hand, looking light and elegant, and the contrast with me struggling to drag a large and bulky suitcase made me even more ashamed of myself.

Xingyuan looked at me worriedly, for fear that I would fall down the stairs with someone with a suitcase. She would love to help me move the boxes, but I would occasionally be reckless in order to preserve the last vestiges of dignity in my heart. Seeing that I didn't let her help, Xingyuan made another suggestion: "Or, I'll take you home?" "She knew my house was far from the station.

"I'll just take the car back by myself." I laughed a little awkwardly. "Don't worry, I can do it myself."

"Okay......" Xingyuan reluctantly compromised.

After we said goodbye in front of the school gate, Xingyuan walked straight to a royal blue car, which was so magnificent that people couldn't help but take a few more looks. Just as I couldn't take my eyes off it, Xingyuan looked back at me and met my gaze. I waved at her in embarrassment and hurriedly turned away. Although I tried my best to hide my inferiority complex, I was white in my heart, Xingyuan was delicate, and she could still detect my thoughts somewhat, just to save my face, she pretended not to know.

It wasn't until the car sped past me that I was relieved. Looking at the long staircase in front of me, I couldn't help but feel a little frustrated. What else can I do but grit my teeth and hold on? My boarding life started in the first year of junior high school, and I did the luggage twice a semester by myself. My parents didn't think it was heavy enough for me to carry it, so they wouldn't take me to and from school. It's one thing to be able to move, it's another thing to stop on the road to breathe a sigh of relief, and it's another thing to feel sore for days every time you move your arm. They don't know how to be considerate of others, and I'm used to that. I'm not so stupid to complain in front of them, because, in their eyes, it's not worth mentioning. Even if I'm not a lucky person and will never be able to live as easily as Xingyuan, it doesn't mean that I don't mind others knowing how tired and wronged I am.

Just when I complained about God's injustice, luck suddenly befell me. "Yin Ran, where are you going?" Xu Yinyao's voice came from behind me.

"Go to the station, take the train home." I pretended to be nonchalant and turned back. How long has he been standing here?

"I'll go to the station too." Xu Yinyao had a hearty smile on his face. "I'll help you pull the box."

I couldn't contain the joy in my heart, and a smile appeared on my lips, but reason told me that I should politely excuse myself. "No need."

"You're welcome!" Without waiting for me to agree, Xu Yinyao picked up my box with one hand and walked up the steps of the overpass.

Naturally, he didn't notice it, and I was so excited that I was so excited that he inadvertently touched my hand, and even the haze that lingered in my heart disappeared in an instant.

At this moment, a slight collision woke me up from my trance. Li Jiamin...... What a coincidence! I greeted Li Jiamin, who passed by me but ignored me. At this moment, I am so happy that I can forgive anything.

Hearing this, Li Jiamin stopped and nodded at me. "Is Xu Yinyao going to send you home?" She looked back and forth at Xu Yinyao's back and my box, and asked softly.

I couldn't help but be complacent at the thought that someone would notice me and Xu Yinyao walking together, and then guess about our relationship. Even if this person is just Li Jiamin, even if this little misunderstanding will be solved soon. It used to exist, enough to satisfy me.

"You're thinking too much." I replied lightly.

This vague answer may have deepened Li Jiamin's suspicion of me, so much so that she did not say a word until we parted ways.

The bus that stops at this station is only the number 11 that goes to my neighborhood, and because of the small number of buses, I often wait for an hour. Today it came surprisingly fast, and I don't know if I should be happy.

"Your car is coming!" After speaking, Xu Yinyao quickly helped me carry the box onto the bus.

"Thank you!" I tried my best to show my composure and wave goodbye to him. I pulled the suitcase and walked all the way to the back of the car, hoping to see him through the window. But when I found out that he had no intention of seeing my car leave, my heart hit rock bottom.

I admit that I am not a good student who is motivated. Although I have been at home with nothing to do during the holidays, I have never opened any homework books. Homework is not a pastime for me in any way. I plan to wait for Xingyuan to come back, wait for her to lend me the books, and wait for everything to be ready before starting my schoolwork. Of course, this is just an excuse for me to procrastinate. I was wasting time in a daze, and it wasn't until I received Xingyuan's postcard that I realized that most of the vacation had passed. Looking at the mountains of homework, I panicked. I suddenly remembered that Xingyuan had said that she had to finish her homework before the trip. She is talented and hardworking, and I am mediocre but lazy. In addition to blaming God for injustice, should I review my own incompetence? This shows how the huge gap came about. Just as I was doing deep self-reflection, my phone vibrated a little, and it was a message from Xingyuan.

"Are you free the day after tomorrow?"

"I'm free in the morning." Actually, I didn't have any special arrangements, but I was worried that it would cause trouble for her family, so I limited the time to three hours. Xingyuan is so kind, presumably her family is also very hospitable, maybe they will invite me to lunch. Besides, I don't want Xingyuan to waste too much time teaching me to play the violin, after all, my goal is only to pass the music elective exam, not to become an amateur.

"Okay! See you at 9 a.m. the day after tomorrow at the school gate. At the end of the message, Xingyuan added a grinning expression to show that she was looking forward to meeting me.

I replied with the same expression. In order not to sweep away Xingyuan's interest, I am willing to do disobedient and hypocritical pandering. It's not hard for me at all, and it's even become commonplace.

After getting into Xingyuan's magnificent car, I was able to explore the layout and furnishings inside. The seats are wide and soft, comfortable to sit on, and the metal fittings are new and shiny, and they look very high-end. I didn't expect the car to be fast but quite steady, and I didn't feel motion sickness at all. Before I could heat up the leather chair, Xingyuan announced that she had arrived at her house. At that time, I didn't realize the anomaly in the car: Xingyuan's house was only a ten-minute drive from the school, why did she live on campus?

I'm used to agreeing with Xingyuan, but when I walked into her house, I had to object to what she had said, even though I desperately hoped that she was right. Yin Ran, we are very similar. I wondered how she could have made such a positive judgment within a few days of knowing me, and on what basis. Aside from appearance, temperament, personality, and grades, she and I are very different from my family background alone. Her home is a duplex structure, decorated in a European style, and looks sophisticated and elegant. The balcony opposite the living room was very large, and it was full of potted plants, roses, jasmine, peonies, camellias, and some plants that I couldn't identify. Imagine how beautiful it will be when this pot of flowers is in full bloom during the flower season. Xingyuan invited me to sit down, and she went to the kitchen to prepare tea and snacks for me. I unceremoniously half-reclined on the scented couch, my eyes drawn to the grand piano under the crystal chandelier. ，

"It's for my sister, I don't know how to play the piano." Xingyuan said leisurely while pouring me tea.

"Do you have a sister?" My eyes widened in surprise.

"She's still very young." Xingyuan smiled softly. "It's only 2 years old. Want to see photos? ”

"Of course!" I don't mean to buy a piano for such a young child, but the idea of the elite is not something that we philistines can understand.

Xingyuan clicked on the photo album on her phone and handed it over.

At Xingyuan's suggestion, I flipped through the photos one by one. The photo shows her lovely sister, her wonderful parents, and her elderly grandmother.

"Grandma took her sister to the park to bask in the sun, and she will be back before lunch, if you are not in a hurry to leave, you can meet with them." Xingyuan said with a smile, her face filled with happiness.

"Great." I barely managed to squeeze out a smile.

"After eating snacks, I'll take you to the study." After saying that, Xingyuan cut a large piece of cheesecake and put it on my plate.

The cake was delicious, but in order to stall for time, I resisted the urge to gobble it up and it took me more than half an hour to finish it. After eating and drinking, Xingyuan took me up to the second floor. On each wall of the study are a row of bookshelves, and the shelves are filled with all kinds of books. They are arranged neatly according to the height of the spine from low to high, and although they are numerous but orderly. On one side of the window sat a large desk, neat and tidy, with nothing but a computer monitor, a pen, a bottle of ink, and a stack of letter paper. In addition to the chair that goes with the desk, there is also a fabric sofa near the wall directly opposite the window. It must be very pleasant to lie on it and read, I sighed to myself.

"The world's masterpieces are here." Xingyuan said, pointing to a row of bookshelves on the right hand side that were at the same height as my head.

A set of 65 volumes. The reason why I know the numbers accurately is because they are all numbered. With so many hardcover books to choose from, I can't help but be a little excited when I think about it. I decided to save the best for last, so I moved on to digging for other interesting books. The collection of books covers literature, history, science, and many other aspects, and the bizarre titles of the books easily piqued my curiosity. Under the influence of such an environment, who would not fall in love with reading? I'm ashamed to let Xingyuan know that I've never read a world famous book, which would make me seem too ignorant. In order to find the right book, I had planned to read the synopses of all 65 books and compare them, but the title of one of them caught my attention and even touched my heart, and I was curious to know what was written in it, so I decided not to make another choice.

When I was choosing a book, Xingyuan's mobile phone rang. After going out to answer a phone call, when she returned, she became worried. "I'm sorry Yin Ran, I'm afraid I won't have time to teach you to play the violin......" It turned out that the call just now was from the teacher in charge of the orchestra, mainly to congratulate Xingyuan on being selected to participate in the theatrical performance at the beginning of the next semester. In other words, Xingyuan had to devote the rest of the winter vacation to practice.

"It's okay, there will be opportunities in the future." I comforted softly. I know Xingyuan will be haunted by the no-show, and if I tell her my true thoughts, maybe she'll feel better. But I'd rather Xingyuan feel guilty than she would be disappointed in me. It's not a mistake to maintain my image, and besides, it's something I've done my best to create, so how can I let it be ruined?

The book has arrived, and I have no intention of staying for long. So, regardless of Xingyuan's retention, I hurriedly said goodbye before her grandmother and sister returned.