From the moment I stepped out of the house angrily, a wisp of anxiety mixed with anxiety and guilt quietly lingered in my heart. At that time, I was only sad and sad, and I didn't even notice its existence. But its faint figure still disturbed my inner peace after all. Looking back now, that's why I couldn't laugh with other people and enjoy my trip wholeheartedly. Although the sea at dusk awakened the sorrow in my heart, I was reluctant to face it. I tried my best to ignore it, and it wasn't until I returned to campus that I began to think about how to untie the knot.

When it comes to pleasing each other, I'm much more confident than my parents. I know exactly what they want, not necessarily the other way around. Giving in is undoubtedly the easiest solution, and at the same time, the last thing I want to choose. After a lot of struggle, I decided to rise to the challenge, and only in this way could I earn the dignity I deserved. I was determined to prepare for the exam, but I didn't expect it to be so difficult. Without Xingyuan's teachings, I couldn't help but feel a little dazed. I tried to use the question sea tactic, but the more I turned to the question book, the more I felt overwhelmed. I suddenly realized that no matter how hard I worked and how much time I was willing to spend on studying, as long as I didn't get the essentials, my revision plan would still stagnate. As the anxiety and irritability that had accumulated in my chest deepened, my mind gradually became confused, and my mind became stagnant for a while. Looking around at the empty dormitory, I wanted to cry without tears. I tasted the bitterness of being isolated, and this was probably the first time I went to high school. Every time I think of this, I will thank Xingyuan from the bottom of my heart, as a friend, she is really good enough for me. I shouldn't have asked anything of her, but I was used to relying on her for help. I know that whenever I encounter difficulties, I will always be cheeky to go to her, and I firmly believe that she will always do her best to help me.

It's good to improve a few places, but if they maintain their current position, they will probably be satisfied...... Thinking of this, I secretly lowered my target value.

Compared to me, Xingyuan's situation doesn't seem to be much better. You don't need to guess how difficult it is to carry the burden on Xingyuan's shoulders. The staff who are responsible for receiving guests represent the school in their words and deeds, and they cannot make mistakes. Although Xing Yuan is generous, elegant, and knowledgeable, after all, she is still young, and it is inevitable that she will not be tactful and thoughtful enough, and the lack of experience in this area can not be made up for by just a few days of training. Seeing Xingyuan's sad and preoccupied appearance all day long, I feel very sorry for her. Fortunately, the much-anticipated "pledge meeting" will soon come to an end, and after that, Xingyuan no longer has to worry about it.

I was looking forward to an early Friday, but I didn't expect Xingyuan to show up that night. I sat down in front of the dormitory door and waited and waited, and then finally I couldn't hold my breath and texted her to ask her, only to learn that she had already returned home. Surprised, I was a little angry. After living together for almost a year, I thought there was a tacit understanding between us. If we wanted to go home for the weekend, we would tell each other in advance, but this time she went back without saying a word...... Although she didn't need to inform me, although she was busy these days, I always felt that her behavior was a little strange, and I can't say what was strange...... I spent the weekend in a trance, and the revision plan still didn't make any progress.

On Monday, taking advantage of the first recess, I couldn't wait to propose to the string orchestra to form a group review, and everyone agreed, but Xingyuan was silent.

"Xingyuan, let's review together, okay!" Seeing Xingyuan looking out the window in distraction, as if she hadn't heard our words, Xin Tian couldn't help but shake her shoulder.

Xingyuan slowly turned her head to look at us, her eyes a little sloppy. "I've been a bit tired lately...... Why don't you go......"

"We're not in a hurry, we'll talk about it when you're rested!" It's a lie to say that you're not in a hurry, but it's useless to be in a hurry. If Xingyuan doesn't go, Xu Yinyao won't go either, without them, the review group is useless.

"Xingyuan, what happened to the "Pledge Conference" to make you tired like this? Yu Menghan put his hands on his cheeks, his eyes full of curiosity.

"Actually, it's nothing ......" Xingyuan sighed softly and replied lightly, "I'm just responsible for leading the guests from the school gate to the auditorium, and introducing him to the changes in the campus on the way." ”

"It doesn't sound like a chore...... Yu Menghan said casually.

Hearing this, Xin Tian rushed to fight for Xingyuan. "Xingyuan stood in high heels for several hours, it's no wonder that she is not tired!"

"You don't say it, I really didn't remember that there was such a thing......" Yu Menghan hurriedly relented.

Xing Yuan listened quietly to everyone, and she didn't stop talking, without the slightest intention of talking.

"Getting back to business, Xingyuan, didn't you promise to tell us the inside story of the 'Pledge Conference'?" Perhaps seeing that Xingyuan had no intention of talking about the "Pledge Conference", Yu Menghan lost his patience, and suddenly changed his words and asked directly.

Not long after the conference began, the dean received an urgent call from the hospital asking him to rush back immediately. After I saw him off, I didn't go back to the auditorium, thinking that going in and out would disturb others. Xing Yuan paused for a moment before continuing: "I don't know much about the situation of the conference, I disappointed you, I'm sorry for ......"

"It's okay! No big deal! Xin Tian waved his hand, barely squeezing out a smile.

In fact, anyone can see that everyone looks at each other and looks embarrassed, which is not a big deal at all.

I thought I was well versed in observing words and feelings, and I intuitively felt that Xingyuan had something to hide from us. She genuinely felt ashamed of us and knew that we needed her help urgently, but in this case, she was uncharacteristically unreasonable and ignored our requests. What is it that makes someone as kind and easy-going as she is so cold? I began to worry about the reason behind this, and even felt a little scared......

If Xingyuan just didn't want to participate in the review group, it didn't affect me too much, after all, I lived in the same dormitory with her, and I had the opportunity to ask her to teach me to do the questions, but the key thing was that even if she had nothing to do, she still went out early and returned late every day. I had very little time to see her, let alone talk to her, except in the classroom. If you blame all this on her and Xu Yinyao's relationship, it is obviously very far-fetched. Although Xu Yinyao can't wait to stay by Xingyuan's side all the time, he is not a resident student, and he still has to go home. Let him go back in the dark every day, it's really not something that an empathetic Xingyuan would do. According to their abilities, there is no need to help each other at all, so naturally it has nothing to do with exam preparation. I tried to find clues from her expression and actions with confusion, but Xingyuan's evasive eyes and absent-minded attitude made me find nothing. The only thing I know for sure is that she's alienating us.

Why? Why exactly? I felt aggrieved and anxious to know why. Asking her directly to pick things out will undoubtedly only end up embarrassing, and she may not be willing to tell the truth. So, I decided to stay quiet and quietly look for more definite clues. I subconsciously looked at Xingyuan's desk and was surprised to find that it was a little neat and eye-catching. Gone, Xingyuan's diary and the pen used to write her diary were gone, replaced by a hardcover book. In the past, Xingyuan always kept the diary on the table, but now, she put it away, what does it mean? Does she trust me anymore? I had a feeling of being turned away, and I couldn't tell you how uncomfortable it was.

In my mind, peeking at other people's diaries is taboo, and you can't do such an abominable thing under any circumstances, but peeking at the cover of other people's books is still worthy of forgiveness. Although I was sure that I would not be discovered, I felt that I was weak, and I couldn't help but cringe. Letter from a strange woman...... Zweig? Neither the title of the book nor its author seemed alien to me...... Instead of racking your brains to recall a word you've probably never heard, enlist the help of the web. I hurriedly sat back in my seat, typed the title of the book into the search bar on my phone, and clicked on the first message that popped up. I stared at the screen and froze, and before I knew it, my phone slipped out of my hand with a muffled sound. I was shocked to find that I was in a cold sweat, and my hands were shaking and losing their strength. It's hard to believe that in such a hot season, I could feel such a violent cold, strong enough to penetrate my heart. I hurriedly climbed onto the bed, wrapped myself tightly in the quilt, and prayed that I would never come out.

It's a novel about a crush in which a woman has a crush on a man......

She got it...... She must have known......

It turns out that it is not us who she wants to alienate, but me!