From that day on, on weekends, I would stay at his house on the pretext of doing homework with Jing Yehang, and I would not return to my house until the evening. As long as it is related to studying, my parents basically do not object. It's not that they care much about my studies, in fact, they don't even know how many classes I have to study and how many exams I have to take. The reason why they talk about studying hard is because they firmly believe that as a student, I have no and cannot arrange anything other than studying. Rather than boredom me at home, my parents preferred to let me go to my classmates for advice. As for whether I really spend my time studying and whether I am really working hard, the test results will be known.

In response to my cheeky request, Jing Yehang was very tolerant and easy-going at first. Not only did he leave me with the most comfortable spot in the room, but he also promised to have a full lunch, the only condition being that he wanted me to be as quiet as possible. I told him honestly that he could rest assured, because I needed to be quiet too. It's been more than four months since I left the school during the winter break, but the haze that shrouds the memories of the past has not faded. I still dream about the accident over and over again, dream of the star, or stay up all night. No one noticed that I was suffering from nightmares and insomnia, even though my face was pale and my eyes were dark. Waking up early to go to school every day drained my willpower for the day, and as the thoughts of giving up became more and more frequent, I realized that I was running out of ideas. And only in Jing Yehang's home can I temporarily forget those lingering worries and breathe. As for why, if I had to find a reason, it was probably because no one would urge me to do something, no one would accuse me of not doing it, and I would not have to bear the scrutiny of others and the pressure exerted by the outside world.

After that heart-to-heart conversation, Jing Yehang's uncle treated me as if I was his own family. Changed from his previous politeness, he no longer came to shush and ask for warmth from time to time, and he no longer insisted on cooking and treating me with those few specialty dishes. Aside from bringing us drinks and snacks every afternoon, he rarely showed up in Jing Yehang's room. Like parents all over the world, he often stresses to us the importance of learning, and at the same time, he will painstakingly advise us not to be overly anxious and nervous, and that proper play can help us relax.

"I just bought a handheld game console, do I want to borrow it from you?" Jing Yehang's uncle winked at me, looking very funny. Unexpectedly, before he finished speaking, he was pushed and pulled out by Jing Yehang.

Actually, you don't have to be angry, whether it's gaming or surfing the Internet, it's not the slightest attraction for me. I don't want to do anything but sit in a daze, or sleep on my stomach.

One Sunday afternoon, after eating noodles cooked by Jing Yehang, I stretched, looking out the window at the blue sky and white clouds, but I felt drowsy.

Eventually, I was so lazy that I couldn't keep silent anymore. "Are you done with your homework?"

"......No," I replied vaguely.

"How much is missing?" Jing Yehang's voice became serious.

"Didn't do anything at all...... I let out a long yawn and decided to go to sleep.

"Is it too late to finish today?" Jing Yehang asked worriedly.

"If you can't finish it, you won't hand it in......" I looked at him in confusion, not understanding why he suddenly cared about my homework.

"Don't turn in your homework? That's not good......" Jing Yehang sighed.

I blinked in amazement and asked, "Are you done then?" ”

"No ......" Jing Yehang scratched his head, unable to tell whether it was embarrassment or embarrassment.

"Oh......" I never wanted to embarrass him, and I couldn't help but feel guilty.

After half a ring, Jing Yehang staggered to another topic. "Anyway...... Which school are you going to go to? ”

"I don't know......," I replied nonchalantly.

Another sigh. "I'll send you." Jing Yehang carried a thick and heavy book in front of me.

I glanced at the book and recognized that it was actually a directory of the admission scores of various majors in various universities in China last year. Because of the high price of this catalog, I have not been willing to buy it. Considering that the scores fluctuate little from year to year, last year's catalogue is also instructive. "Thank you......" I looked at the new catalog with joy and casually asked, "Have you finished reading it?" ”

"No ......"

"No?" I was stunned.

"I'm going to study abroad." Jing Yehang said quietly.

"Why?" As soon as the words came out, I began to regret it. Not casually inquiring into other people's unspeakable secrets is the etiquette that should be observed as an ordinary friend.

"There's no particular reason, I just want to go out and have a look." He flipped through the books in front of him and replied indifferently.

It was only then that I realized that the book that appeared on the table every afternoon was actually the IELTS question bank. No wonder he doesn't care about notes, he doesn't care about homework, he doesn't care about exams, it turns out that he doesn't plan to take the college entrance examination at all...... I was the only one who was supposed to worry about my study progress and exam results...... I suddenly felt a sense of loneliness of being abandoned. In fact, I should have thought that Jing Yehang's mother had excellent grades, and even if he couldn't inherit her intelligence 100%, he wouldn't go back to the bottom of the class. Judging from the notes he corrected and the papers he redone, he has mastered the skills of using knowledge, and I don't know how much better than I can't even do it. The reason why his test scores are always at the passing level is probably because he is completely indifferent to the school curriculum.

"What's wrong?" Jing Yehang's deep voice revealed a bit of worry.

I came back to my senses and shook my head slightly. "Nothing ......"

"Do you want something to drink? I'm going to buy ......" may have sensed that my mood was a little low, and Jing Yehang's tone became very gentle.

"No need......" I said, turning around and leaning on the table. Although I was already sleepy, continuing to talk to Jing Yehang would only make me feel more sad, so I decided to pretend to be asleep.

When I was parting that day, Jing Yehang repeatedly told me to hurry up and finish my homework, and if I encountered something I didn't understand, I could ask him at any time, no matter how late it was. I smiled wryly and thanked him for his kindness, and my heart was gloomy. There is only a little more than a year left before the big exam, we are not fellow travelers, we can't talk about helping each other, and we will eventually drift apart. I don't want him to waste precious time preparing for exams to help me, and I don't want to be a burden to him...... Perhaps, it's time for us to say goodbye......