Chapter 7: I Don't Want To

"What's wrong with you?"

Ji Jingyuan's voice and gaze came together, but Bae Joo-hyun glanced up and avoided it unnaturally, and looked to the side after squeezing out a smile.

She's really in a messy mood right now, since last night.

Just now when I was on the way to work, I had already put a lot of effort into managing my expressions, and although I really wanted to devote myself to the morning's work, I was always unnaturally stunned occasionally.

A lot of thoughts are gathered in my mind and jump wildly, like entangled lines, tied to death, which makes people breathless.

After her debut, she thought that she had fulfilled the responsibilities of the captain and sister, and when the group was hacked into carbon, even if she was very uncomfortable, she could still comfort each other with the members, and cheer them up when the grades were not good and there was no splash at all, and whoever had any problems would take the initiative to talk to someone, and she would try her best to communicate with whatever the company conveyed.

The most important thing is that she has someone she likes, but because of these, she has never determined the relationship.

Originally, she always thought that the relationship between herself and Chi Jingyuan was quite good, and she had a good impression of each other but was not really sure, and she used to enjoy this mode of getting along.

It's just that Park Xiurong's casual words woke her up yesterday, it turned out that in the eyes of the onlookers like the members, she and Ji Jingyuan had already started dating, and the so-called mode of getting along was just deceiving herself.

At that time, she even had a spontaneous awkward feeling after hearing it, plus some other words, and even thought impulsively about whether to take the initiative to stay away from Chi Jingyuan.

But how is that possible?

Between men and women, the more motivated and the more people pay, the higher the sunk cost, and it has been impossible for her to leave so simply after a few years.

When encountering interesting things, it has become a habit to text and share them with him.

When encountering Meimei's style, it has become a habit to take out a picture of it and send it to him.

When she is in a bad mood, listening to "Go with the Flow" has also become another habit that she remembers in her body.

And so on......

Actively stay away? How could it be.

And what Park so-young said about the names of the female idols that Ji Jingyuan had dated, she had actually heard of them, and she knew everything but never said them in front of Ji Jingyuan, but when these names came out of other people's mouths, she was still very irritable.

Bae Joo-hyun knows very well how popular Ji Jingyuan is with the opposite sex in the circle, if he is not so demanding, and can take the initiative a little more, the names that Park Xiurong said yesterday are estimated to be multiplied by I don't know how many times.

Both of them have already reached this point, giving up on their own? Throwing such a good object to someone else?

Who would be so stupid?

She didn't believe that Chi Jingyuan would be like a jade, waiting for her unswervingly.

But if you don't talk about giving up or something, then continue with the same pattern? I don't change anything at all.,Continue to get along with the 'self-deception' look in my sister's mouth......

I didn't think it was like anything before, but now I suddenly feel a little awkward in my heart.

Oh yes, today is the last issue of "Music Bank", and when I think of this, Bae Joo-hyun's heart is empty, and I always feel like something is about to be missing.

All kinds of thoughts are mixed, her mind is chaotic, and she can't sort out all kinds of bright or dark emotions herself, maybe some thoughts Bae Joo-hyun actually wants to talk to Ji Jingyuan, but she doesn't know how to speak at this time.

After all, they are just 'close friends'......

Although Ji Jingyuan saw that Pei Zhuhyun had a lot of thoughts in her heart and was not in too much state, she didn't ask after seeing that she didn't have the desire to speak and talk.

In his mind, it should be for today's last episode of the show and getting off the car, the eight-month fixed MC career is over, and the memories of the intimate and tacit understanding between the two on the stage in the past have resurfaced in his heart, and his mood has become a little regretful and not very good, and it is understandable that Bae Joo-hyun feels uncomfortable.

He didn't say anything anymore, kept quiet, just sat quietly on the sidelines.

In preparation for today's last episode of the show, the two still maintained bright smiles in front of the staff, but they were uncharacteristically extremely silent when they got along in private.

There was no sound during the meal, and even the agent who followed felt that the atmosphere was inexplicably a little dignified, and he looked at the two people in surprise but didn't know what was going on, and his voice couldn't help but be lowered a lot.

The state is not right.,I'm in a bad mood but I still have to do the work.,After eating and taking a break, the two of them continued to be busy.,Trying to make yourself as a fixed MC in the last issue without any regrets.。

At six o'clock in the evening, the live broadcast of "Music Bank" began, and after an opening stage, Ji Jingyuan and Bae Joo-hyun appeared in front of the camera as usual, and began to host in iconic poses, introducing the next guests and welcoming the start of today's show at the same time.

It's just that when the two of them stand at the entrance of the backstage passage and wait for the stage, they will return to the appearance of the practice room, and they will be unusually quiet.

As they got on and off the stage, the time soon came to the penultimate stage, which was their farewell special stage today.

"Ahhh......h

The two of them had just come on stage, and the audience had already erupted in extremely strong screams before the camera switched, and most of the audience today was coming for the two of them.

"Slow down ......" When Bae Joo-hyun walked on the stage, she stumbled because she was wearing high-heeled platform shoes, Ji Jingyuan naturally quickly reached out and touched her, and after helping her up, the two came to the center of the stage together and sat on the stool that had been placed.

At this time, the two of them have changed into a new set of clothes, Ji Jingyuan is a light-colored casual suit and a white shirt, while Bae Joo-hyun is wearing a white top with a pink hip skirt, her slightly curly hair is dyed dark, and she stays on her shoulders obediently from both sides of her cheeks, looking like she is full of tenderness, holding a microphone, sitting there very quietly.

They sat down and glanced at each other, smelling the smell coming from close by, and they both smiled lightly and entered the state of stage performance.

Soon, the soft music sounded, and the prelude alone had already attracted the strong interest of the audience as well as in front of the TV.

It has been kept secret before, but when I saw the narration of the newspaper, the title of the song, and the melody at this time, many people saw that this special stage was a new song.

"It's beautiful......"

Ji Jingyuan looked at Bae Zhuhyun in front of him with gentle eyes, and raised the microphone to sing the first sentence following the melody: "Today is the same as yesterday." ”

"No, it's prettier today."

The straightforward heart-pounding lines at the beginning of "Ahh......h

I don't know why, after Pei Zhuhyun came to the stage, some complicated thoughts when she was waiting for the scene just now suddenly dissipated a lot, she looked at Ji Jingyuan's face in front of her at this time, listening to his familiar voice, a shy but quiet smile appeared on her face, bright eyes looked at each other's eyes, suppressed her heartbeat that began to accelerate, picked up the microphone, and sang softly:

"I've had a nice dream lately."

"It's a little embarrassing to tell you now......"

"So I don't want to say it."

"And ...... Even if the dream is spoken, it will be invalid. ”

A melodious and sweet song is like a dream story, which is narrated by two people one by one.

Each sentence is like telling and pouring out a small heart.

There is no confession that makes people's blood swell, and there is no too greasy interaction, some are just two people sitting quietly on the stage, looking at each other's faces, looking at each other's lips, looking at each other's eyes, chanting and singing from the heart, saying those simple but accompanied by the corners of the mouth, and laughing from time to time with the melodious melody.

There were no violent drums, no strong melodies, and no choreography, they just sat there, but many of the audience watched the performance on stage with a smile on their lips, as if it was heartwarming and timeless.

By the end of the second chorus, the melody of the accompaniment had changed, the key had been raised much higher, and the sounds of other electronic instruments had been added, and the VCR had suddenly begun to play on the large screen behind me.

Ji Jingyuan and Bae Joo-hyun put down the microphone in their hands and turned their heads sideways together to look behind them.

This VCR was specially produced by the program team, and it contains some selected clips of the hosting clips of the two MCs in the eight months since they took office.

""Bae Joo-hyun!" Ji Jingyuan suddenly shouted out Pei Zhuhyun's real name with a serious face as she spoke, and she was so frightened that she didn't react.

In Pei Zhuhyun's hurriedly revealing smile, Ji Jingyuan took out a coat out of nowhere with a straight face and put it on her: "The weather has been so cold recently, why are you wearing so little?" ”

Bae Joo-hyun reacted, felt a thick coat draped on his body, and suddenly laughed, his face wrinkled, a little ugly."

"It's really nice to see the stage just now, and we have to make an agreement to work hard to show a beautiful face together in the future!" Tick tick! As soon as Bae Joo-hyun's little white teeth were exposed, he stretched out his little thumb and shook it, smiling very happily.

"Then you promise me that you will only look at me in the future!" Ji Jingyuan quickly said that he was about to reach over his hand to tick the hook after a gathering, but Pei Joo-hyun turned around in disgust while laughing happily.

"It's been really cold lately, and if you're not careful outside, you're going to get frozen, and you need to hear a good song or a nice sound to relieve it...... So today, we ......" After Chi Jingyuan said something matter-of-factly, he suddenly stopped moving and made the appearance of being frozen.

Bae Joo-hyun understood in an instant, and immediately began to smile on his face, and after glancing at him, he stretched out his hand and tapped lightly on his body: "Ding, thaw!" ”

"Hahaha"

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The clips kept switching, and the picture kept scrolling, among which there were two people reading the host words together, some laughing and joking together, and some tacit and sweet interactive eye at each other......

Sometimes they wore formal suits, sometimes couples in the same hue, and sometimes in quirky traditional folk or festive costumes to suit the mood of the time......

The two of them kept appearing in front of the camera, wearing different clothes each time, moving differently each time, and even standing in the background of the interview desk.

But what is the same is that the two of them are in each clip, and the bright smiles that appear on the faces of the two people in each clip no matter what they say.

The memories of the past appeared in front of him, and Bae Joo-hyun was stunned when he looked at it, and he didn't know when his eyes turned red when he looked at it.

This VCR has no sound, and only the elongated variation of "dream" is matched with it, but every time the scene appears, and the mouth shape of her and Ji Jingyuan changes in every clip, Bae Joo-hyun can immediately recall what the two said at that time, and even the eyes are clearly engraved in the bottom of her heart.

So much has happened to us.

Originally...... We look, so good.

That's nice.

"Yo Loben! You're not going anywhere, are you? We're the same, stay with us all the time! ”」

Bae Joo-hyun saw the end of the VCR on the screen, he was smiling or stretched out his hand to the camera with Ji Jingyuan, and finally the two of them looked at each other at the same time in tacit understanding, and the slow-motion clip with a brighter smile only felt that the brewing emotions seemed to be about to gush out, and the red eyes were extremely sour, and the tears were a little unstoppable.

But the idol's instinct still made her try her best to control her expression, and after snorting twice, she forcibly let the tears go back.

It's just that at the same time, the heartbeat and strong emotional fluctuations in the heart are inadvertently like the warm sun and melting snow, diluting the complicated and bad emotions that have been lingering in the heart before, and the many contradictory and confused moods and thoughts before suddenly seem less important and less annoying.

She glanced at Chi Jingyuan, who was pursing her lips next to her, her eyes staring at the screen, and Chi Jingyuan, who was also a little out of shape, the corners of her mouth trembled twice, but she laughed.

Ji Jingyuan seemed to feel something, and at the end of the VCR playback, he also turned his head sideways, the two glanced at each other, and the prompt in the headset came while staring at each other, a smile appeared, and he picked up the microphone and sang the last paragraph of "dream" together:

"Even if your sweetness is lying."

"I don't mind at all."

"A dream ...... that makes you feel good"

"That's you."

"Ahhh......h

In the end, Ji Jingyuan and Bae Joo-hyun stood up together, walked to the front of the stage, and one gently took the other's arm and sang the last sentence.

Then, in the frenzied and excited shouts of the audience, the two people bowed continuously and walked off the stage.

They didn't go far, because they were already in the penultimate show, and they had to go on the stage after the final stage, and there was no time to change their clothes and do anything to prepare.

The two men stood at the entrance, still a little silent as before, but one of them scratched his cheeks casually, and the other turned sideways with his back to wipe his eyes.

The atmosphere around them changed significantly, no one cared about the energetic music coming from the front stage at this time, and both of them were quietly thinking about something, but they were standing closer.

Today's last stage of "Music Bank" is the performance of Turbo, the group of Kim Jong Kook, the two of them regrouped at the end of last year and came back after an unknown number of years, which can be regarded as a dream of fans at that time.

"Did you like today's performance?"

All the artists stood on the stage again, Ji Jingyuan stood at the front and began to smile and say the host speech, while Bae Joo-hyun stood next to him with his legs together, and it seemed that he had adjusted his mentality at this time.

"Inside!"

"Ha, I'm really excited and happy to spend time with such a wonderful stage and such a good singer...... So let's take a look at one of today's ones. ”

"One of today's honors is, XO "sing for you", rough Kamida! I will definitely give the trophy to the members. Chi Jingyuan announced with a smile that he had taken one of the hosts in this last issue, which was relatively satisfying.

Today's two alternates, EXO and None came, and there was no acceptance speech and encore stage, but after the award ceremony was over, it was soon time for the final farewell of the two MCs.

β€œIrene xi.” Ji Jingyuan glanced at Bae Joo-hyun next to him,

"Inside."

"Actually, today is the last time we're hosting Music Bank, and it's coming to an end, how do you feel now?"

"Hmm...... Do you think, um, because we come every week......" Bae Joo-hyun looked sunny with a smile on her face, but as soon as she opened her mouth, something was exposed, although she must have prepared in advance, but as soon as she opened her mouth at this time, she could hear that her speech was a little intermittent.

However, what she said at this time should be what she really thinks at this time.

"Ha......" She probably also felt that what she said was a little bad, forced a smile, and pursed her lips: "Next week, well, it should be very empty, after all, I'm used to coming here every week...... Also, I was really happy to be able to work with Yuan xi as the MC of "Music Bank" this year, and it was a very precious time. ”

She felt a lot, but she didn't say much.

Because she was afraid that she would not be able to control her expression if she said it again.

Chi Jingyuan, who was closest to her, also clearly felt some changes in her tone, and the emotions that had just recovered began to surge again, and her forced composure could not be maintained a little, and her tone became choked.

She said and bowed gently in the direction of Chi Jingyuan next to her: "Thank you very much...... So what do you think about Yuan xi? ”

"Hmm......" Ji Jingyuan glanced at Bae Joo-hyun and looked at the audience, muttered for a few seconds before speaking: "I was actually quite nervous when I first took on the role of MC, but in the past eight months, it feels very honorable to be able to be the MC of "Music Bank" with Irene, and it is indeed a very precious memory. ”

"Time flies really fast, and with the cooperation of Irene Xi, I have unconsciously arrived today...... I have always treated "Music Bank" as a very important itinerary, and I am really grateful for the love and support of many audiences, so many honors, and such precious memories. ”

The regulations that Ji Jingyuan also spoke at this time became a little confused, but what he said was very serious.

He glanced at the audience under the stage, most of the audience who came to the studio today were coming for him and Pei Zhuhyun, at this time, almost all the audience in the audience were holding his and Pei Zhuhyun's handwriting, and the names of him and Pei Zhuhyun were written in the hand.

At this time, everyone was waving their hands and looking at him seriously, seriously looking forward to it and a little reluctant.

A sigh of emotion swelled in Chi Jingyuan's heart, he exhaled softly, pursed his mouth, and continued: "I feel that through this journey, I have learned a lot of things and understood a lot of things, and the growth and help I have received so far are difficult to express in words in these two minutes...... But we're all going to go the extra mile. ”

"A big thank you to the staff who worked hard behind the scenes and helped us a lot."

"Thank you for choosing us to be the representative of the program group of MC, Han Jinzhe PD, Kim Mu Shang PD, Shang Min PD, Se Yi PD, Min Jin PD ......"

"Thank you to the fans and viewers who have warmly welcomed us every time they come to the TV station and given us unlimited support......"

When Ji Jingyuan was slightly moved to say the final farewell speech, listening to his words, listening to the cheers of the fans in the audience, and remembering the memories of the past scenes, Bae Joo-hyun was obviously also very touched, she couldn't look at the camera with the best demeanor, her eyes were shining, she bit her lip, and tried to control her expression.

In these eight months of MC career, she has been exposed to many people and things, which has increased her popularity and popularity, and she has also won a lot of honors and titles together with Ji Jingyuan.

Friday couples, Yinyin CP, in-house CP, the most on the MC......

Each title is an acknowledgment of the effect of her and Ji Jingyuan's partnership, and it is also the best praise she has received outside the group since her debut.

After eight months, the weekly recording of the music bank is no longer an ordinary itinerary for her, and it is as simple as a singing show.

For her, this is one of the few personal trips that she has that has helped her popularity a lot.

Once a week, you have the opportunity to meet with Chi Jingyuan.

No matter how some black fans on the Internet scold her, no matter how ugly the scolding is, no matter how hard the practice is, and how much pressure the return is, you can have the opportunity to spend a day happy and relaxed with the person you want during the hard week.

But it's finally time to come to an end.

At this time, Chi Jingyuan next to him looked over: "Finally, it is Irene Xi who has been helping me at work, and she has really helped me a lot during the MC's journey." ”

Even if the expression management is easy to master, there is still a time when there is still a power after all, with Ji Jingyuan's words and various feelings intertwined, in the end, she still didn't control it, a tear slipped down from her eyes, Bae Zhuhyun quickly turned her head sideways and wiped it off with her hand, this scene saw that people's hearts trembled, and they suddenly felt pity.

And the fans in the audience also shouted in distress.

"It's a pity that I didn't become the longest-lived MC and couldn't always accompany everyone." Speaking of this, Chi Jingyuan exhaled again, his eyes blinked lightly, and his smile was sincere: "A little sad...... But we can still come back anytime and anywhere, and support "Music Bank" and the singers standing here anytime and anywhere. ”

"I would like to express my sincere gratitude to everyone who likes me and Irene xi, as singers, idols, MCs and actors, and will continue to work hard with the best in the future, I hope you can always support and bless us."

"So so far, here's Yuan ......"

After Bae Joo-hyun bowed to the audience together, Ji Jingyuan's most familiar smile appeared on his face and looked at Bae Joo-hyun next to him.

β€œIrene!” Bae Joo-hyun also immediately understood, and her face also showed a bright smile that had appeared countless times in the show, even if the tears on her eyebrows and eyes were still faintly visible.

The two people approached each other at the same time, and used their hands to make their signature gestures.

"When you need music......

One last time to look at each other, one last time to lean in, one last goodbye:

"Raw broadcast, Music, Bank!"

In the cheers, the list of staff on the TV rose, and the final picture was frozen on the faces of the two, although the eyes were sparkling, the smiles were still so bright, and the movements were still so tacit.

It's just that many viewers sighed with great regret while smiling at the corners of their mouths.

It's a pity that I won't be able to see it in the future.

After saying goodbye to the staff, the two of them returned to the MC's standby room, which had been used for eight months and left a strong imprint, and it should be the last time they used it.

After coming back, as the door was voluntarily closed, although I could still hear the faint sound outside, a lot of noise and noise were isolated from the door, and it was a lot quieter inside.

"That's the end of the last issue......"

The agent was not there, the two of them sat on the sofa, and after a little silence, Bae Joo-hyun took the initiative to speak, looking like he was still a little immersed in the farewell atmosphere just now.

"Well, time flies." Chi Jingyuan nodded, and then smiled bitterly: "What I said about the testimonial just now is upside down, it's a bit out of shape......

"Ha, well, I'm ...... too" Bae Joo-hyun smiled, looked at him and then asked, "I couldn't speak just now." ”

At this time, the young lady changed the silence and gloom of the day, but looked no different from usual, and at the same time tried to take the initiative to find words.

"What are you going to do tomorrow?"

"I don't have to go to the crew for these two days, and I should go back to the company to arrange music after the variety show filming tomorrow."

"Don't you have to film?"

"It's almost the same amount before the broadcast."

"Hmmm......"

Although the exchange continued, the atmosphere seemed a little strange.

Bae Joo-hyun tried hard to take the initiative to find the topic, but her heart was like a storm.

The infinite emotion and trembling brought by the stage of "dream" just now, the song and VCR, the regret and loss when she said goodbye at the end, and the complex emotions left in her heart, made her keep making final considerations, trade-offs, impulses, and considerations.

But those negative thoughts, in front of the surging emotions that had just surged, suddenly seemed to become a little unmentionable.

If she thinks about the company, if she thinks about the portfolio, if she thinks about this, if she thinks about that, she has so many things to think about.

But if you think more about yourself...... Actually, there is no need to hesitate.

A lot of things, decisions were made in a split second.

She saw Ji Jingyuan get up from the sofa and head towards the bag next to her, as if she was about to walk over and seem to be about to tidy up her things and prepare to leave, Bae Joo-hyun reached out and grabbed Ji Jingyuan's hand.

Ji Jingyuan turned his head and looked at her expression, as if he understood something.

"Today is over ......"

The two of them looked at each other, and Bae Joo-hyun's eyelashes trembled significantly twice, and he paused for a second before speaking.

Without waiting for Chi Jingyuan to reply, she gently brushed the hair that had been trimmed to her forehead, tilted her head and stalked her neck, but her generous expression could not hide her trembling and nervous voice, as well as her tentative tone: "The couple got off the car on Friday, and they can't do it in the future, but can you ...... Can we be on other days, like Friday? ”

Chi Jingyuan felt the deepest, because the young lady held his hand, very hard, very tightly.

"Do you want to be a couple like Friday, do you fall in love......"

Looking at Pei Joo-hyun's unavoidable eyes at this time, Ji Jingyuan first asked a rhetorical question, then blinked his eyes and shook his head slightly, looking as if he was refusing.

Feeling that the young lady holding her hand suddenly became weak, Chi Jingyuan directly shook it back, smiled lightly, looked at the other party's moist eyes, and asked suspiciously, "Why do you want to remove Friday?" Why exclude Fridays when there are seven days in a week? ”

"One day less? I don't want to. ”