Chapter 41: "She Can't Go Back"
Liu Mei was speechless for a while, and the sourness in her heart rose wave after wave, she looked at Xu Mo, dressed in a casual suit, but there was a vicissitudes hidden between her eyebrows.
Perhaps, in his eyes, he has also added a lot of vague life to the tiredness of women, no matter how long it takes, Liu Mei must admit that Xu Mo will always be somewhere in the depths of her heart, and will never leave. Now, in the face of him, she seems to calmly say "I miss you very much" and add "I'm sorry", these seven words exploded wave after wave in her heart like seven thunderbolts. Missing you very much is an attitude, and "I'm sorry" is a last resort, which infinitely enhances the intensity of missing.
It means that he is no longer qualified, and she is not qualified, but she can't restrain herself.
Are there any uncontrollable feelings in this world? At the beginning, she was in so much pain, she almost died of pain, didn't she still spend it like that, and live well?
She has always been so good at disguise, she looked at Xu Mo opposite for a few seconds, then lowered her head, and tears instantly fell like beads crackling and fell into the tea in front of her.
Silence, is it silent reception or condemnation?
Xu Mo stroked his forehead with his hand, a little anxious.
"Xiaomei, don't cry, don't cry, okay?" He tried to reach out to wipe away her tears, but retracted halfway, picked up the teacup in front of him and poured it into his mouth violently, "I don't know, I don't know what to do?" Xiaomi told me that you are not good now, I am distressed, but I know that I am not qualified to say such things, but I want you to know that no matter what, I will always be there, as long as you need me, I will always be there. ”
"Where are they?" Liu Mei whispered, she covered her face with both hands, wiped away her tears, and smiled slightly, "Where will you be?" Where can you be?"
"I ......", Xu Mo said.
"We can't go back, maybe you can, I can't do it Xu Mo" Liu Mei's voice was dull, and he didn't seem to have any emotion, "I know you don't want to come with me, you may just feel guilty."
"I'm not" Xu Mo said anxiously, "No, I'm also guilty, but not just guilty."
"Then can you divorce and stay with me?" Willow eyebrows looked directly at him.
"I ......".
"Look, you can't, you're just not happy now, and you remember that there was once such a me, a me who is wholeheartedly devoted to you, a me who can live and die for you, a me who has accompanied you throughout your youth," Liu Mei said, "But if you are asked to give up your current life or her resources, you will not be willing to do so, even if we both still have the opportunity to choose now, you will still make the same choice, won't you?" ”
Xu Mo's eyebrows frowned together, looked at Liu Mei, and did not speak.
Liu Mei said again: "What's more, I am now in the abyss and cannot be redeemed, because I have a child, the child is a mother's life, for her very happiness, I can pay my own ninety points of misfortune, you are not a woman, you will not understand, you have not been a father, and you will not understand."
"So, no matter how painful, tormented, and unfortunate I am in my heart now, I will not leave, because I want to fight for my daughter, and strive to exchange my pain for a little happiness and integrity for her, no matter what the result is, I will always try, so that even if I leave her in the future, I will understand when I grow up, and I will understand that my mother will choose to leave when she is really exhausted, and I will understand my mother's last resort, so now I am a mother, and I will not give up and admit defeat as easily as before", Liu Mei's smile was very bitter," Even if I don't know how to work hard to change all of this."
Xu Mo has been listening quietly, looking at her quietly, the woman opposite, what is hidden in her small body, what is she thinking in her brain, he feels that Liu Mei has changed in a trance, it has changed a lot, he doesn't seem to want her to have this kind of change, but what qualifications does he have now?
Liu Mei said again, "But, Xu Mo, you said that you miss me, for me, it is a huge strength and support, even if I am no longer qualified to accept your care and feelings, but you know, from a very young age to now, I have always loved you, and no one can compare." ”
Xu Mo's heart moved, this damn man's nature.
Psychology says that men have two natures, one is the desire to conquer but cannot be asked, and the other is the sense of gain.
"Anyway, if you need me, I'll be there, and if you need me, will you tell me?" Xu Mo looked at Liu Mei.
Liu Mei was silent for a while, "I don't know either."
The two of them were so silent, and the waiter next to them couldn't help but look twice, these two men and women who were almost middle-aged.
"The dishes are cold, hurry up and eat something", Liu Mei picked up the chopsticks, "You seem to be a lot thinner than before now."
Xu Mo picked up the chopsticks and spoon and helped her fill her bowl.
In fact, Liu Mei's psychological throbbing is still there, she always can't stop staring at the person opposite, his eyebrows and eyes are the same, her heart is the same, but this life has already undergone irreversible changes.
They can't go back.