Chen Xu knelt in front of a tombstone and said in a sloppy voice: "Teacher, are you okay in heaven?" I'm going to go to college in a provincial town. People say, 'Thank you for your kindness,' but I still want to say: thank you for pulling me out of the garbage pit 12 years ago, thank you for imparting me knowledge, thank you for teaching me how to be a human being, thank you for encouraging me and guiding me. It's been six years since you left me, but in my heart, you've always been there, always with me. I got into a good university, and no family was happy for me, but I know you would be happy if you did. My high school teachers were happy not only for me, but also because they proved themselves. I'm glad I verified what you said, and I did what I promised you. Teacher, I remember every word you said, you said: life is not just about living. You have made me believe that knowledge can change destiny, and from today onwards, I want to live well. Chen Xu got on the green train to the provincial capital, she looked at the fleeting scenery outside the window, ignored the surprised eyes of the passengers opposite, and shielded herself

"Peanuts, melon seeds, ham sausage; Beer, drinks, mineral water, ......". Chen Xu is 22 years old this year, and will soon be 21 years old, and today is the first time to take the train.

But what she was excited about was not getting on the train for the first time, but rushing to her new life. Chen Xu also had a happy home, she remembers that at that time, her parents loved her very much, and would take her to the park on weekends to ride the merry-go-round; Grandma dressed her up beautifully every day, and led her to the neighbors outside to listen to people praise her for her good looks and for being smart.

My aunt would come back every week with her cousin, with a lot of good food, and my cousin liked her very much, spoiled her, and rushed to call her little sister.

Those distant memories became more and more blurred, as if they really existed, and as if they were imagined by themselves.

Since her parents divorced, no one wanted her, her grandmother disliked her, her aunt hated her, her little brother bullied her, and everything changed overnight.

Chen Xu suspected that overnight, he seemed to have become no longer smart, no longer beautiful, no longer likable, as if everything was his fault.

Looking back at the way through the years, Chen Xu suddenly hated himself at that time, with big ignorant eyes at a young age, she began a difficult journey of survival, she flattered others everywhere, with humility, with the eyes of a puppy who was afraid of being abandoned.

No one sympathized with her, they just found her annoying. For several years after his parents divorced, Chen Xu was thinking: If he had jumped up and hugged his mother's thigh and cried and didn't let go like his grandmother taught him before the trial, would the result be different?

After the court ruled that my parents were divorced, because she didn't cry and tried her best to keep her mother, my grandmother gave herself a heavy slap.

At that time, if I didn't hold back my tears, but cried out loud, would the ending be different?

There are no ifs in life, you can't press the pause button, and you can't go back and start over, but people always think about when things are difficult, if they did something at that time, would it be different, and whether there would be no unbearable past when they rummaged through the smelly garbage heap for the next five years.

It's Mr. Lin! It's Mr. Lin! That morning, it was Teacher Lin who was dressed in the sun, stretched out his hand to her, and pulled her out of the garbage pit despite her dirty body, and said to her, "Child, follow me!" ”