Although Guo Jian couldn't see it, he could feel Zhang Jiaqi's sadness. He wanted her to cry happily, but even when she cried, Zhang Jiaqi was very restrained, for fear of being discovered. He couldn't bear to expose it. After a long time, Guo Jian said again: "Are you willing to tell me your sorrows, sorrows and grievances?" ”

Zhang Jiaqi took a few deep breaths before speaking, "In four years of college, I have been walking on thin ice, I am afraid of losing this way of making money, I dare not be too attentive to Cheng Qi, for fear of arousing her suspicion." Now think about how stupid I am! If I could be friends with Cheng Qi, wouldn't my job be easier? But at the beginning, I only dared to think of it as a job, and I was careful not to make a mistake. I'm stupid, but I also want to graduate from college and find a job where I can live with my mom. Cheng always gives me 30,000 yuan a year, which is more than enough if it is only used to go to college, but I have to give my mother more than 10,000 yuan for living expenses, pay tuition, and I have to work hard to hold on to the rest of the money. Mom doesn't know when she will go to the hospital, and it will be spent all at once. Although Mr. Cheng once said that if my mother is hospitalized, he can afford the hospitalization fee, but I really don't have such a big face to ask people for money, not that I have more self-esteem, I am afraid that people will think I am insatiable, and there will be no 30,000 yuan in the future.

It was easy to graduate, and I was also employed in the company, and the salary was not particularly high, more than 3,000 yuan a month, but I had all kinds of insurance, and I was very content. But my mother is not in good health, and she always has to spend money. My monthly salary has to be calculated and spent, Mr. Guo, the reason why I asked you to turn off the lights is because I can't say these words to anyone when I look at it. It's disgusting to talk about this in order to make others empathize, but for more than 20 years, no matter what grievances I have suffered or what difficulties I have, I have no one to say, and today I don't know what is wrong, so I suddenly have the desire to talk. It's ridiculous, it's only been a dozen hours since the two of us met, but if I don't talk about it, I'm afraid I'll go crazy. I'm getting worse and worse now, last time I saved 10,000 yuan easily, my mother spent it all in one hospitalization, she fell asleep that day, I looked at her and even thought, is she here to collect debts from me? I felt suffocated and out of breath. I wondered if she couldn't wake up, would I be free? I knew that I should not think so, but at that moment I really thought like that, and then I begged God to forgive me for my unfilial piety, because I was afraid of retribution.

I have no future, I have been poor since I was a child, and I don't dare to hope for a good life, but I can't see hope in my current life, no matter how hard I work, the money will never be enough to spend, I have opened two credit cards, sometimes my mother is hospitalized, I have to go to the credit card, and when the salary is not up, I will use another credit card to pay it back, such a day is so difficult!

My aunt has introduced me to several people before, but when people hear about my family's situation, they won't meet again. The people I can find on my terms are all poor, a person who doesn't have much money, who is willing to be such a big burden, who can bear it? Today is the first time I have eaten instant noodles, and I remember that my colleagues in the unit often complained, saying that they were moonlight clans, and when they had no money at the end of the month, they could only eat instant noodles in the last few days, saying how pitiful they were. But you know what? For me, instant noodles are delicious, because a bucket of instant noodles costs four or five yuan, and I have never been willing to buy them.

It has been said that the pleasures that come with material things are limited. But people who are not materially abundant, how dare they have any spiritual pursuits, and the happiest day of my month is the day of salary. If I say it, you won't believe it: our salary is in the card, and every month I pay my salary, I will go to the ATM to withdraw all the money and count it over and over again. Money is in the card, it's just a number, and I can only be sure when I feel the real money. But after a while, I was careful to save some of it, because I had to save it for a rainy day. Zhang Jiaqi burst into tears even more fiercely, and she couldn't go on.

In the dark, Zhang Jiaqi trembled a little because her left hand was suddenly grabbed by Guo Jian. Although Zhang Jiaqi was surprised, she didn't withdraw her hand, she quietly waited for Guo Jian's next move, and subconsciously she even hoped that Guo Jian would be violent to her, so she would have a reason to die, because she was so tired to live!

Guo Jian just grabbed her hand tightly and didn't say a word, as if he wanted to convey something through his hand. After a long time, Zhang Jiaqi spoke, "Mr. Guo, I don't understand what you mean!" Guo Jian's voice was a little hoarse, "Zhang Jiaqi, right?" Do you want to, I'll take care of you! As soon as he heard this, Zhang Jiaqi suddenly pulled his hand back desperately, but Guo Jian's hand was very big and powerful, Zhang Jiaqi was suddenly a little excited, "Mr. Guo, don't be joking, let go of me!" ”