In the dark and cold room, Chen Xiao sat on a chair with a pale face.

With trembling hands, he flipped through the journal on the table.

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Ever since my mom died, I have felt that the world has lost its meaning in life.

I want to die.

But jumping off the building and dying was too ugly, it was very uncomfortable to take sleeping pills, and I didn't feel anything when I burned charcoal.

After a lot of selection, I decided to drink paraquat, and the bitter liquid ran down my throat, warning my organs that my lungs were slowly fibrosis, and the feeling of suffocation and irretrievable could not be saved.

Just thinking about it makes my heart tremble.

My life has been so miserable, and my body should be howling and dying in such pain, it's only fair!

I was ready, as usual, sitting on the sofa in the living room, the sunset outside the window, the sun was shining, it was really a good day.

At this time, my neighbor Yaxue came to see me with dinner.

When she saw the paraquat on my desk, she turned bloodless.

Then, she became extremely angry, slapped me hard, chattered and scolded me for a long time, and finally rushed into my arms and cried.

I can't remember what she said, I just looked straight at her.

I said, I'm not suicidal, let's be together.

She was stunned for a while, and said that she liked me for a long time because I had been renting an apartment so that we could see each other every day.

She said that cooking every night is the happiest time for her because she can meet me right away.

I hugged her and said, I like you too.

We naturally became a couple and lived together.

Late at night, looking at her moving side face, delicate eyelashes stand up, eyes closed, it really looks like a perfect work of art.

I carefully stroked her cheeks, her skin, and every white tooth of her heart.

She opened her eyes and smiled indulgently.

I lay on her soft lower abdomen and hugged her tightly.

Mom, have you come to see me?

From now on, we will be inseparable.

When she cooks, I like to be at the table; When she was in the shower, I didn't allow her to close the door; When she slept, I opened my eyes and watched.

In the face of my almost unreasonable request, Yaxue agreed.

Lying beside her, watching her sleep and tranquility, like a delicate and solidified specimen, forever beautiful.

One day, Yaxue said that she was so tired, she was too tired to get out of bed, maybe her aunt was coming.

She said with a pale face, "I'm so sad that I can't make you breakfast."

I reassured her that it was okay and that I was a good cook.

I stewed a hearty and nourishing broth, wrapped them in delicious meatballs, handed them to Yaxue's mouth, and fed them to my heart.

Yaxue went to bed after she was full, and I cleaned up carefully for fear of waking her.

Yaxue usually takes care of me, and I must do my best as a boyfriend.

But God didn't fulfill people's wishes, I tried to avoid making noise, but the huge decoration sound upstairs was buzzing, and I was upset!

At this time, Yaxue stood weakly at the door and whispered that she wanted to sleep.

I was so distressed that I helped her into the room and said I'll tell the people upstairs right away, don't run around when you're sick, you know?

I hurried upstairs and realized that the bed was too big for them, so I had to use a cutter to shrink the bed.

I held back my anger and communicated with them kindly, saying that my girlfriend is sick, can you get it better as soon as possible.

But the other party waved his hand indifferently, saying that it was work time, they had communicated with the property, and it was a legal decoration.

The other party was a big man with tattoos, and he pushed me away and said don't bother him anymore.

I knew I couldn't beat him, so after confirming with the property, I had no choice but to go down.

Yaxue ran out again, she stood at the door, pursed her lips and smiled, "You looked very cute when you were angry just now. ”

She pinched her face and said, "Go back to sleep, I'll cook for you." ”

I stewed red mushroom lean broth, red bean porridge, and ginger black tea for her, and Xiaoxue finally fell asleep.

After waking up, Xiaoxue's condition was still very bad, and I was worried that it would be bad, so I hurriedly ran downstairs with one hand and a garbage bag in the other.

Hurry up and see a doctor at the hospital!

I never thought that I saw yesterday's eldest brother again in the corridor, he looked at me in horror and said, "Blood, blood......"

I looked at him inexplicably, this big brother seemed to be sick too, and he didn't know what he was talking about.

Ignored him, went out with Xiaoxue in his arms, went to the hospital to buy some medicine and came back immediately.

In the evening, I prepared a medicated bath for Xiaoxue and carefully put her in the bathtub.

Xiaoxue frowned and protested quietly, saying that it was cold.

I reassured her that there was no way, and if the temperature was too high, the effect of the medicine would be lost.

Hearing this, Xiaoxue didn't say anything more.

I took some medicine and said to Xiaoxue, "The eldest brother upstairs is also sick, I'll go see him." ”

Xiaoxue kissed me and told me to go home early.

I went upstairs and said to my eldest brother, "Big brother, you're sick. ”

The eldest brother shook his head with an ugly face, saying that he was not sick.

He warned me not to talk nonsense.

I got up in a hurry and said that you must be sick, my Xiaoxue saw it today, why don't you tell the truth!

My eldest brother pushed me again and tried to kick me out.

His voice was so loud that he was about to wake up the other occupants!

I had no choice but to take out the medicine I had prepared and put it on his face.

The eldest brother was convulsed in pain, and I was worried about waking up the other residents, so I had to cover his mouth and comfort: "Relax, relax, it's normal to have a little pain." ”

"Take a deep breath, take a deep breath ......"

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Closing the notebook, Chen Xiao's scalp was numb and gave him goosebumps.

He was too sick to look at it!

Because, in the bottle in front of the notebook.

A slender and delicate human hand sits still, soaked in formalin.

Give somebody the creeps!!

"I've crossed over to the murderer of a perverted madman?!"