Speaking of the girl Xinghe, her life is not very good, she is Tianhe's second sister, and now in a third-rate pheasant university in other provinces, she has also suffered grievances at home since she was a child and stumbled up, the only difference between Tianhe and her sister Xinghe is that she put her fate in her own hands and did not let her father manipulate her.

The remote university is surrounded by several mountains, as the so-called mountains and forests, there are often unscrupulous people, where the per capita literacy is low, and six out of ten students studying at this university are "committed" during the college entrance examination.

Xinghe is here, she doesn't believe in anyone, the only thing that is worthy of her happiness is to get rid of the shackles of her father and mother, there is an old saying: "The general is outside, the military life is not affected", and Xinghe is "the woman is outside, the father's life is not affected", which is also the reason, but at the same time, she often feels how lonely and lonely a person is, some words are always found in a corner where no one is secretly said to the air, everything is careful, never pleased, never cares, and has no sense of security.

One day, Xinghe's diary fell on the bed in the dormitory, but there is really a kind of hero in the world called "voyeur man", there is an arrogant roommate called Anxin, who returned to the dormitory from the bathroom and accidentally saw the diary on the bed of Xinghe and opened it without hesitation......

April 5, 2008 was sunny

I just started my college life, and finally I can live without looking at my father's face, in that family, I am fed up with quarrels, fed up with cold violence that is more terrible than quarrels, I don't want to see my mother's helpless face as always, I don't want to see my father with a straight face for three days or two, even speaking with a commanding tone, from the beginning of my memory, I rarely see a smile on my father's face, his happiest thing is how much money he earns, how much business he has negotiated, I can't remember the last time my family had a meal with Amiki. Now that my sister is also in high school, I am worried about her whether she will also be arranged by her father to go to architecture school.

May 26, 2008 was cloudy

The college life I expected was still a little different from what I had imagined, but what made me happy was that my mother secretly called me last week and said that my sister was not "controlled" by my father, and that she had her own ideas, and although she was beaten, my father had not looked at her for a year, but I still mentioned her happiness from the bottom of my heart.

If I had "resisted" at the beginning, I wouldn't have gone to this broken university, and I wouldn't have dared to make friends in a city alone, for fear that someone would know that I had been listening to my father's words all along, and walking the road paved by my father through the back door.

……

Anxin is not Xinghe's bosom friend, and after reading Xinghe's diary, she naturally won't help her keep it secret, and she feels that Xinghe intends to slander her and her friends and classmates in the diary, so after reading this series of diaries, An Nai can't help the anger in her heart, and calls her roommates in the same dormitory over, and hypes up the contents of the diary.

"Whose diary is this?"

Anxin said: "Who else can be, whoever is not there is who's who!" ”

"It turns out that she came to this school through the back door.,And day by day pretending to be a special love of learning.,Studying here is Pheasant University.,I don't know who to pretend to see!"

"Isn't it, but it's not easy for her to be born in such a family, she has helped her parents take care of her children since she was a child, how can she have time to study"

“……”

There was also a girl living in dormitory 208, and she happened to open the door at this time.

"Wu Wang, you're back! I discovered the secret of Lu Xinghe in our dormitory, do you want to listen? ”

Anxin beckoned Wu to look at her very proudly, and deliberately pointed to the diary in her hand, she looked like a young lady beckoning a girl.

Wu Wang frowned at that time, and asked puzzledly, "Does Xinghe know?" ”

"It's a secret! Of course she doesn't know? ”

A few people laughed secretly there, especially proud that they had earned hundreds of dollars. There was only one girl, who never said a word, and there was no expression on the two of them.

"Is that good? Isn't it a bit too much! ”

"She usually has the same attitude with anyone, she doesn't believe us, she also said in her diary, she hates us, she hates everyone in this school, just such a person who ignores everyone, do you still speak for her?"

"Hey, forget it, I don't have the habit of reading other people's diaries, I stay neutral!"

If the sadness of the 17-year-old Tianhe is that his father has not spoken to him for more than a year, then the sadness of the 22-year-old Xinghe is that he is in the "gutter", and has always been, under the constraints of his father, his personality is inevitably introverted, he does not approach people, he does not trust anyone, and he adapts to life with his tail between his legs prematurely. The damage brought to Xinghe by her original family, she may have to spend a lifetime to heal.

Life always has to go down alone, no one will go with her from beginning to end, she is the warrior in her own life, it is she who understands this truth, she will be calm after the blow of many storms, she used to look forward to who will be her eternal light, but unfortunately expectation is expectation, no one is forever.

The night gave Xinghe a moment of tranquility, and after bidding farewell to the hustle and bustle of the day, Xinghe walked on her favorite neon path unique to the whole courtyard, feeling that even the night has sound and temperature, and those neon lights are the light in Xinghe's heart, the light that will never be extinguished. If you feel that you are in the shade, it may be because there is a light behind you, and you dare not look back, let alone go back, but life is not sometimes cloudy, sometimes hail, and suddenly sunny.