First of all, the average order has reached 3000.

When the number of words in the VIP chapter is enough for 200,000 words, you can get the boutique badge!

Thanks to everyone's support, it was a great surprise to me that this book was able to achieve such results.

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Summary:

1. So far, readers have given more feedback on the protagonist's problem, saying that the sense of character fragmentation is too strong and has not been dealt with well.

In fact, this sense of disconnection is what I want to express.

Secondly, I don't care, I don't think I didn't handle it well, I think I presented the characters I wanted to write very completely, and whether I liked it or not was just the opinion of the reader (slapping the table hard——!!! ）

I wanted to write an interesting character, which is why I did these bold attempts and portrayals.

Next, the protagonist's personality will gradually find a balance that will not seem so disconnected, because he is also growing and reconciling with the past.

2. It is admittedly that the author believes that his limited strengths lie in the creation of characters, not in the construction of copies.

Therefore, I chose to make up for each other's strengths and weaknesses, and put the focus of the plot on the characters, so that all the plots are character-centric.

As you can see, the structure of the four dungeons so far is very average, and I can only use the character to support this shortcoming, so that it is not so obvious.

The characters in the book are the epitome of the author's multifaceted personality, such as the principal, Ritsu Urushihara, Anson Deer, Yuri, Cosimo, etc., these characters are very popular with the author himself.

Especially Raven and Yuri, the author has written many books, and each book will have characters similar to these two, but each book has bad grades, and few people read it.

Now, I finally have the opportunity to present these characters in front of more people, whether they like them or not, I am very happy, it is a very pure joy, and this is the motivation for my writing.

As I said before, Yuri's prototype is an albinistic classmate, and I admire her sense of distance, her cold detachment, and her independent intelligence.

I always wanted to prove to her that I could write what many people liked.

However, for two years, I kept failing, until finally I achieved something, and I couldn't see her anymore.

But I will continue to chase my dreams, keep improving, and write better works.

It would be nice if she would see me one day, which was a bit unrealistic, but I still had that expectation.

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Feelings:

1. When I was writing this book, I restrained my personal style a lot in order to cater to a wider audience.

In the past, many readers always said that my style was too depressing and uncomfortable to watch, so of course the grades were not good.

So, at first, I just wanted to try to write a "light-hearted and happy upgrade to fight monsters", so I started to write this book.

But I didn't expect that just relaxing and writing with a peaceful and relaxed attitude became my best book so far!

It's unexpected, there's definitely an element of luck, and I'm grateful to God for taking care of me.

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2. The author is a very paranoid person who gave up a lot in order to write about this dream: future, friends, health.

I've loved writing since junior high school, and I used my notebook to write every day, and my teacher tore it up many times and threw it in the trash many times, but I would pick it up and continue writing every time.

I don't hate myself for being so persistent at that time, sometimes, some small things, some choices, may determine what a person will look like many years later.

If I hadn't picked up what I had written from the trash at that time, and hadn't been so dirty and stubborn, maybe my 20s would still be a mess.

The first thing that brought me into the pit was "Selling Crime" by Teacher Liangye in Three Days, which is my favorite online literary work and the enlightenment of my writing.

Mr. Three Days is my idol, he is a very talented person, and he is also the person who made me try to write and changed the trajectory of my life.

Although I don't know him yet, I hope to get to know him for a long time in the online literature circle in the future.

After that, I came into contact with excellent works like "The Wine of Eternal Life", which set the tone for writing that I prefer group portraits, but I can't write pure and powerful group portrait works yet, so I put this dream aside for now.

When I was in high school, I saw Mr. Jiangnan's "Dragon Family", and I really decided to write.

The author once suffered from autism and crowdphobia, lived in a boarding school, and because he was afraid to go to the cafeteria, he would sit alone in the dormitory and eat small biscuits during meals.

If it weren't for the fact that he was treated as a class pet at that time, his weird behavior was diluted, and he must have been a rotten life by Qiling on campus.

When I was in middle school, I changed schools because of auditory hallucinations, and I was very depressed at that time, and I could only rely on reading to relieve my mood.

"Dragons" had a big impact on me at that time, and I was thinking that the world is so vast, and there are so many places, if only I could go and see it.

That's what I thought at the time, and that's why I had the idea to travel the world with my manuscript fee.

So, this book kind of established my writing style, albeit immaturely.

In my opinion, Mr. Jiangnan and Mr. Three Days are both people with great talent for writing, but the talents of the two seniors are not the same, and they are both very dazzling and insurmountable in my eyes.

I hope to one day grow into a very personal author like them, as unrealistic as it sounds.

But I'm only twenty years old, aren't I, and if I don't have the same talents, I'll try until I die.

The above is just a self-description of a hot-blooded fool, don't care.

I wish I could live by my dreams instead of following the crowd.

In the two years since I dropped out of school at the age of 17 due to illness, all my family members had no hope for me, and my relatives said that I was autistic, and if I continued like this, I would be useless.

In such an environment, I stayed in my room every day to read and write, and I was full of reluctance to work hard.

From the beginning of the single-digit monthly manuscript fee, to 600 manuscript fees, to 3,000 manuscript fees, and then to the current 20,000 manuscript fees per month.

I should prove to them that I'm not abandoning, I'm just trying to get my own way of life.

At first, I thought: I want to live in the form I like, not live in the fear that the crowd brought to me like I used to.

But now, I have overcome a lot of psychological problems and can be regarded as a normal person. (Congratulations.)

It's touching that my manuscript fee level and mental health have risen almost simultaneously - because without strong resilience, online writers can't survive

In fact, I am very grateful for the pain caused by those mental illnesses, which have strengthened my life path, cultivated my empathy skills, and allowed me to have a humble personality, not arrogant, and good at self-reflection.

Also, writing is really blissful!

I can continue to write about it for the rest of my life...... Right? Bar——!!!

As long as I can feel this happiness, I will continue to write, whether anyone reads it or not, whether I am hungry or not, whether I am lonely or not.

I don't want to live by anything but writing, because it's my life.

Well, to put it this way, when I can't afford to eat, I still consciously move bricks, and you don't have to worry about seeing the news that a certain online writer starved to death at home.

Finally, I hope you all have a happy life, and I hope that my readers can pursue an ideal life~

I won't write this kind of off-topic testimonial in the future, so I'll write it when I'm done.