Chapter 264: Repentance
Looking at Mu Shiying, who was cold and hard-faced, Leng Mufan sadly found that she couldn't see a trace of her nostalgia and affection for herself. I tried my best to ignore the dull pain in my heart, but Leng Mufan found that he couldn't do it.
Leng Mufan understood very well that he had done something wrong at the beginning, and it did hurt Mu Shiying's heart. But as proud as he is, he has now let go of all his figures, given up the sharpness in his body, and tried all means to make up for and redeem it.
If someone told Leng Mufan in the early years that he would be exhausted in the future because of a woman's lack of thought and exhaustion, Leng Mufan would only sneer and would not believe that such a thing would happen to him at all. But looking at himself now, Leng Mufan only feels that no matter what he pays, as long as Mu Shiying can come back.
But even when Leng Mufan felt that she had reached the limit, Mu Shiying still looked cold, not even softening in the slightest, and even other men appeared around her!
This made Leng Mufan's heart can't help but give birth to a trace of anger. He can tolerate Mu Shiying's attitude towards him, after all, this is what he owes her, and he is willing to wait for her to change her mind. However, the appearance of enemies in his own territory is unacceptable to Leng Mufan!
When he knew that Ling Zixi existed, Leng Mufan originally tried to deceive himself that they were just pretending to be an unmarried couple, at most, they were the tools Mu Shiying used to forget herself. But with such a long time together, even if he wanted to deceive himself, Leng Mufan already felt a strong sense of crisis in his heart - Ling Zixi likes Mu Shiying, and Mu Shiying is indeed thinking about Ling Zixi very seriously!
This made Leng Mufan's heart begin to be restless, he was afraid that if he took a step slower, Mu Shiying would really no longer belong to him! It is precisely because of this panic that Leng Mufan will contact and stimulate Mu Shiying so radically during this time, and will take her to revisit her hometown! What he really hopes is that Mu Shiying can remember the time they used to be together, recall some happy moments, and also want to evoke Mu Shiying's feelings for him.
What Leng Mufan didn't expect was that not only did Mu Shiying not fall into memories, not only did she not feel the slightest touch, but her attitude towards herself was even more cold and bad. This made Leng Mufan's heart even more uneasy and impatient.
After making so many efforts, Mu Shiying turned a blind eye. Now, Mu Shiying's attitude is a denial of everything they have experienced. This behavior completely angered Leng Mufan, he had no way to accept the memories he regarded as treasures, but they were worthless in the hearts of the people he loved, and he even wanted to erase them completely.
This made Leng Mufan both angry and afraid. It was Mu Shiying's disdain that was angry, and what was afraid was Mu Shiying's indifference.
After suppressing his emotions for so long, Leng Mufan finally couldn't help but explode, he looked at Mu Shiying, and roared in a low voice, "Why can't you give me another chance!" β
Listening to Leng Mufan's words, Mu Shiying almost laughed, she said sarcastically, "Opportunity? Why are you asking me to give you another chance? β
"I just want a chance to make amendsβ’β’β’β’β’β’" Leng Mufan didn't seem to hear Mu Shiying's words, and still said to himself.
Mu Shiying really laughed now, she said very seriously, "Mr. Leng, what did you do when I wanted you to give me a chance?" How did you react when I wanted to give you a chance, a lot of opportunities? Now that you want the opportunity, does anyone dictate that I have to listen to you? β
After a pause, Mu Shiying rarely said a few more words to him in a good voice, "Some things are in the past, and some things are missed, we all chose what we wanted and chose the path we wanted to take." In that case, don't look back, it's useless! β
Leng Mufan was still immersed in guilt and remorse for the first few words, but when he heard the words "useless", he seemed to have been hit, and he froze for a moment, not knowing how to react.
Mu Shiying didn't care about his reaction, turned around and prepared to leave.
Looking at Mu Shiying's movements, Leng Mufan came back to his senses, took a few steps forward, and suddenly grabbed Mu Shiying, his tone was eager, and his words were chaotic, "I'm sorry, I, I know I made mistakes before, but I'm also trying to change it now, and I want to make up for it, really!" You β’β’β’β’β’β’" Leng Mufan said with some difficulty, "Can you stop talking like that, I'm uncomfortable~"
Mu Shiying's patience ran out, and when she heard Leng Mufan's words again, she shook off the hand she was holding, turned around and sneered, "Are you uncomfortable? Just because you're uncomfortable, can't I tell the truth? Leng Mufan, you are still the same as before, always so selfish, and you will never see the sadness and pain of others. β
"I β’β’β’β’β’β’" Leng Mufan smuttered, trying to explain something, but couldn't pronounce a syllable.
But Mu Shiying didn't want him to answer, she just changed her tone, and then said mercilessly, "You always say that you have to change, you have to make up for it, do you think you can really make up for it?" There are always some things in this world that can't be made up, just like a broken mirror can't be reunited, and the water spilled out can't be recovered! β
Mu Shiying's tone did not fluctuate, without a trace of feeling. But it was this situation that made Leng Mufan's heart sink little by little, and the hole in his heart became bigger and bigger.
Looking at Mu Shiying, who treated herself like a stranger in front of her, Leng Mufan felt bitter in her heart. He pursed his dry lips and said, "Shiying, don't be like this. I know that what I did hurt you at the beginning, but Shiying, I really know that I was wrong, you, why can't you give me another chance? β
As soon as the words came out, Leng Mufan felt a "sigh" in his heart, he obviously wanted to have a good talk with Mu Shiying, but he couldn't suppress the fear in his heart, and there was a hint of compulsion and questioning in his tone.
Sure enough, Mu Shiying tried her best to be calm before, but Leng Mufan's last few words made her completely abandon her calmness.
For the first time, Mu Shiying unabashedly expressed her rejection of the relationship back then: "Leng Mufan, do you know what I hate the most? Or do you know what I hate the most? β
Without waiting for Leng Mufan to speak, Mu Shiying gave an answer by herself, "It's 'being a junior'!" β
Leng Mufan's face turned white, and he couldn't argue with what he had done at the beginning.
"The incident between Zhao Mengkang and Liang Siyi has always reminded me that I will never be blind again in my life! I kept telling myself that it was because I was young and ignorant that I was stupid enough to be deceived by others, so I let my boyfriend hook up with my best friend, and even wanted to steal my family property! I know that this is not to blame others, but I can't understand people clearly. β
Mu Shiying said self-deprecatingly, "But I didn't expect that even so, I couldn't really polish my eyes, and as a result, I fell into your pit again." Leng Mufan, do you know, I really wanted to have a good time with you, but what did you give me? A fake marriage certificate, a marriage trap, everything is fake! I admit that I am stupid, so I have been deceived by you again and again, but Leng Mufan, I am a human being, and I also have feelings! I can't be like a fool and lie to myself that everything is over, even when nothing happened! β
Ignoring Leng Mufan's increasingly ugly face in front of him, Mu Shiying said word by word: "I will never forget what happened, and I will never forget who put me in such a situation!" β
Although Mu Shiying did not directly point out the fame, Leng Mufan felt that every word in these words was a knife to his heart! He knew that all of this was self-inflicted. He is the root of everything, and he is also the culprit of everything Mu Shiying has suffered! If it weren't for his impure mind that dragged Mu Shiying into the water, if it weren't for his connivance and partiality with Liang Simeng, if it weren't for his suspicion, if it weren't for his cowardly not daring to admit his love, and even childishly trying to cover it up, things would not have developed to such a situation!
However, even if he knew that he was the source of all sorrow, Leng Mufan still sadly found that he still didn't want to let go, and he didn't want to leave Mu Shiying like this. As soon as he thought that this woman would completely withdraw from his life in the future, and he would have nothing to do with him anymore, Leng Mufan would feel that his heart hurt.
Therefore, although he understood very well that the person in front of him disliked him, Leng Mufan still clenched his hand and said, "Is it really impossible?" β
Mu Shiying looked at the man in front of her. It was this man who, when he once relied on him, turned away mercilessly. At that time, he was extremely indifferent to himself, and he really ignored it, let alone had the slightest affection.
But now, it is clear that he has let go and is completely dead, but Leng Mufan doesn't know what medicine he has taken wrong, and he won't let go of life or death, as if he is really his lover who is difficult to give up.
Thinking of this, Mu Shiying couldn't help but shake her head, feeling that she was probably really crazy by him, and she really had such an illusion. And even if it were, so what? As I said before, no one can go back!
It's just that Leng Mufan is just consuming it with herself, and Mu Shiying also feels a little headache. She hoped that her future life would be peaceful and stable, but Leng Mufan's actions invisibly broke the state she hoped for, which was not the scene Mu Shiying wanted to see, and it also violated her original intention.