[You told your wife about the options given by the doctor, and she refused to be admitted to the ICU.] 】

When she knew that her death was a foregone conclusion and she was destined to be separated from you, she thought about how she could bring you as little harm as possible, and lying like a corpse, living on instruments and potions, was a terrible torture for both Ling and her. 】

[My father contacted experts from other major hospitals and sent them Reina's medical records, and the replies they received were all mournful. 】

[You told the doctor about Reina's decision, and the doctor combined it with new drugs to make Reina less painful in the last days of her life. 】

[However, these drugs are a drop in the bucket until they are tortured enough to bring death to the pain.] 】

Memory scenes appear.

Entering October, the temperature has dropped a lot, and the sky is often gray, looking like it is going to rain, but there is not a drop of rain.

In the morning, when the sky had just turned white and there were few pedestrians on the road, Minami Yuki walked briskly across the green-lit sidewalk, entered the hospital, and walked towards the special ward.

As he passed by the garden, he hesitated for a moment and broke off a branch of osmanthus flowers.

The nurse at the front desk had already met Nan Yuki, asked him for the morning, and helped him fill out the registration for the visit.

He walked straight to the hospital room on the second floor, and the palm he raised did not fall on the door panel for a long time.

Through the crack in the door of the ward, he heard muffled sobs.

It was Reina's voice.

The suppressed crying sound was like a finely jagged saw, pulling back and forth in Nan Yuxi's heart.

What is it that makes the wife cry? Sickness? Grief of the heart? Or both?

He knocked on the door.

Hearing the knock on the door, Nan Rena immediately stopped sobbing, she hurriedly wiped away her tears and lay back under the quilt.

In the wee hours of the morning, she had a dream in which she had managed to hide her illness a month earlier and miraculously recovered.

Two months later, she and Yuki traveled to Yoshida Town, and when they reached the lake, it snowed heavily. The blue surface of the lake freezes in an instant, becoming a mirror printed with the blue of the sky, and the dead wood in the middle of the lake is covered with snow in an instant, like a Christmas tree made of chemical agents in science class.

She and Nan Yuki stood on the shore of the lake, looking at this beautiful scene. Nan Yuki pulled her, stepped on the ice, and walked towards the center of the lake, and the boy broke off a snowy branch and invited her to taste it.

Then, she was awakened by a sudden stabbing pain in her chest.

She opened her eyes and stared blankly at the strange and familiar ceiling, the lake was gone, the snow was gone, Yuki was gone. She had just taken the dead branch, and she hadn't been able to taste the snow of the Blue Lake.

Tears fell instantly, and the drunkenness of the dream quickly dissipated, but the returned sobriety made the heart even more sad after examining the current situation.

It wasn't until there was a knock on the door that she realized she was looking down and sobbing.

Is it Yuki outside the door? Did he hear himself crying?

Nan Rena felt guilty, and she complained in her heart that she was not self-controlled.

"Please come in." She tried to make the same voice as she always could.

Nan Yuki pushed the door in, and he handed the osmanthus branch in his hand to his wife.

"It's osmanthus, it's so fragrant." Rena sat up.

She lowered her head, the tip of her snowy nose tapping at the golden osmanthus petals, and smiled.

The corners of her eyes, cheeks, and lips all changed with this smile, like a flower blooming with all its might.

Nan Yuki thought to herself, was this smile a lie from his wife to comfort him, or was she really just happy because of this humble cinnamon branch?

Either way, it tingled in his heart.

"It's been so early today." Rena raised her hand and put the osmanthus branch under Minami Yuki's nose and let him smell the fragrance too, "Help me put it in the water." ”

"I missed you, so I'll come over early." Nan Yuki took the osmanthus branch from his wife's hand, got up and walked to the sink.

"It's so meaty!"

In her pretended cheerful voice, tears fell again. She thought of the hydrangea that Nan Yuxi gave her three years ago, the bright yellow and small osmanthus was more noble and fragrant than the hydrangea, but at this moment, she was even more envious of herself when she was a hydrangea, and she still had three years to live at that time.

Nan Yuki held the glass with osmanthus flowers, and when she came out of the bathroom, the tears on her face were wiped away.

Under Reina's arrangement, Minami Yuki places the glass on the windowsill. The sun had risen, and the yellow morning light shone on the glass filled with water, reflecting a complex light and shadow.

"Didn't Yuko come along?" Reina asked, staring at the glass.

"I didn't call her."

"Call her in the future, be more lively."

"You obviously don't like to be busy."

"What about Nao Asano? According to Yuko, she is a very quiet person. ”

"In some ways, she's more noisy than Yuko."

"Where's Chiju and Ichimi? She looks very well-behaved. ”

Nan Yuki didn't answer, he sat on the edge of the bed and looked into Reina's eyes.

Reina avoided his gaze and looked down at her palms, the soft, jade-like hands that Nan Yuki liked, were now sickly white.

Minami Yuki reached out and stroked his wife's cheek and kissed her slightly dry lips.

"All I need is you."

"But I'm leaving you soon."

"And our children."

"I don't have children, I obviously have time to have one."

"Yes, the child named Mozi, we agreed in the summer, and we will go to her in a few days."

"I don't want to go with you to adopt a child. You go and have one with Yuko, and one with Nao and Kazumi! ”

"I love you."

"But I'm going to die."

The tears burst the embankment again, rolling down the blue quilt. Reina looked at Nan Yuki's face, tears blurred her vision, and she was stunned by her husband's appearance, making her blink and drive away the tears in her eyes, but new tears poured out again.

She choked up and apologized: "I couldn't do anything for you, I can't even accompany you, I'm sorry." ”

What flowed from her words and tears was her endless remorse, and the source of remorse was love, and if she had known this outcome, she would never have come near her beloved.

Nan Yuki hugged her in her arms, melting her love and resentment between her burning lips.

[What is more torturous than the illness is the remorse in the wife's heart, she feels that she has not left you anything, and in your relationship, she has always been asking for it. Her love for you turned into a grudge against herself. 】

[You kiss her on the lips and tell her that the time you spend with her is the best gift she can give. 】

[The wife gradually calmed down. Outside the door, the nurse brought washing utensils, and you helped your wife wipe her face and brush her teeth, and a faint red glow appeared under her reddish eyes. 】

[In October, my wife's condition deteriorated again. 】

[At the end of the month, you decided to take her to Yoshida-cho.] 】

(End of chapter)