07 The pain of the snow
However, even if the black pig didn't finish speaking, Jielan guessed what he dreamed of, and she whispered: "Long Yi, you still care about your appearance, right?" Maybe if I say this, you'll think I can't understand your suffering, but I just want you to know that no matter what you are, you are the Long Yi I like. ”
Hearing this, how could the black pig not be moved, he nodded, and said: "Well, it is also because of Lan that I will wake up, no matter what others say in the future, and no matter whether I can get rid of my somewhat ridiculous heart in the future, but I think if Lan is by my side, I will live well." ”
Jielan smiled slightly, how unhappy she was when she saw such a Long Yi, she held Long Yi's hand and said: "Many times I don't listen to you, I always like to go my own way, this time too, you repeatedly dissuade me from entering the dense forest at night, but in order to find the demon as soon as possible, I almost killed you and Qi Xue, I'm sorry." She has always been arrogant, she rarely bows her head and admits her mistakes, but in the face of her two most trusted partners, her self-esteem cannot be taken into account.
Qi Xue shook her head and said, "No, actually, like you, I also want to find the demon as soon as possible, so I don't blame you, after all, you are also for Chengfeng." Her expression darkened, "It's because I'm too fragile to move on from the past." ”
Originally, Jielan didn't want to ask, but she couldn't help asking: "Xue, you dreamed of your father and Chengfeng in your dream... Right? ”
Qi Xue was startled, she didn't expect Jielan to know, she buried her head in her lap, "I..." may still not be able to face it, she actually sobbed again.
Jielan didn't ask again, just put her hand around her, hoping that she could bring her some comfort.
Qi Xue cried for a while before she said slowly, "Blue, you know what? I... Killed my father. ”
Because Black Pig had already said this beforehand, Jielan was not very surprised, but even now when she heard Qi Xue say it herself, she still felt sad for what happened to her, she knew what it was like to be the closest person to her to die in front of her, because when she saw her mother being killed for saving herself, she was about to collapse and go crazy, not to mention that Qi Xue killed her father, and the pain, despair, and self-blame contained in it are unimaginable to ordinary people.
"I'm sure you didn't mean it, and even if it was, there must be some reason." Jielan knows Qi Xue very well, how could such a kind woman really kill her father.
Qi Xue shook her head, "You know what? At that time, Chengfeng became a demon, he gradually lost his humanity, and became a monster who only knew how to kill, my father asked me to kill him, I refused, and then Chengfeng... He wanted to kill me, and my father fought him to protect me, but in the end I killed him. ”
Jielan and Black Pig were both shocked, in the face of the two people closest to them, no matter who they hurt, they would be painful, maybe Qi Xue thought that both of them were good, but she didn't think of hurting her father, but she wanted Jielan to believe that Qi Xue killed her father because she wanted to protect Chengfeng, which made her unbelievable anyway, she asked: "Could it be... What misunderstandings are there in between? ”
"I'll kill him anyway, so what's the point if there's a misunderstanding?" Qi Xue turned her head away, as if she felt that she was a very hateful person, so she felt that she was not worthy of being with Jielan at all.
"Of course it's very important, Xue, don't put shackles on yourself anymore, you hide these things in your heart like this, you will never be able to let go, tell me everything, don't you even trust me? Or do you simply want me to know about you? Jielan reproached.
Qi Xue's long white eyelashes had a little tears, she thought about it for a long time, and then slowly told the story of this remorseful life that happened hundreds of years ago from beginning to end, Jielan and Black Pig listened quietly, and when they heard the end, they couldn't help but feel sad, and Qi Xue was also physically and mentally broken in the end, after all, it took enough courage for her to recall this painful memory again.
"Xue, I know this must have caused you a lot of pain, but I think your father died to protect you, and you only made a mistake to lead to this result, I don't think your father will blame you, if he sees that you and Chengfeng are all right, I think he will be very happy, because, his only wish is to let you live well, as for himself, I think he was ready to die when he fought with Chengfeng who fell into the demon path, all for you!" Jielan didn't know if what she said could open her heart knot, but she just thought about it from the perspective of Qi Xue's father, she thought that this was the heart of being a parent, because her mother also died to protect herself.
Qi Xue asked tentatively, "Really?" Is that so? Doesn't he hate me? Doesn't Daddy hate me, an unfilial daughter? ”
Jielan shook her head and said, "No, if you hate, you won't be so willing to save you." ”
Thinking of her father's protection of herself, Qi Xue felt a little relieved, thinking that Jielan was thinking about herself so much, she suddenly felt a little uneasy, "Xue, if one day you find out that I have done something sorry for you, will you hate me?" ”
Jielan didn't expect Qi Xue to suddenly say such a thing, she was very confused, and said, "I'm sorry about my business?" How could you do something sorry for me? We have been together for so long, we know each other so well, and if I say anything, you will rush out to help me, if you really say that, only I am sorry for you, how can you be sorry for me. ”
Qi Xue shook her head and said, "No, you don't know me, I've done a lot of things, I'm a very selfish person, maybe one day you'll understand, I just hope you don't hate me the day you understand, okay?" ”
Jielan felt unusually confused, she really couldn't think of what Qi Xue had done to make her so uneasy, maybe because of her father's affairs made her frightened, Jielan stroked her long hair, and said: "I think you are tired, it's not dawn yet, you can lie on me and rest, anyway, we can't walk rashly in the middle of the night, so we have to stay here and rest." ”
Qi Xue hesitated for a moment, but felt that her eyelids were getting heavier and heavier, obviously too tired, she lay down between Jielan's legs, smelling the breath of Jielan's body, which made her feel much more at ease, and soon, she fell asleep soundly on her legs.
Seeing that Qi Xue had fallen asleep, the black pig walked to Jielan and sat down, and said softly, "Lan, what do you think of what Xue said just now?" I saw that she was very solemn, and it didn't look like she was lying. ”
"Long Yi, do you even suspect that Xue has done something to be sorry for me?" Jielan was a little angry.
The black pig knew that he shouldn't suspect Qi Xue, but he was also worried about Jielan, so no matter what, he still had to ask, "I know Lan will be angry, but I'm also worried about Lan, you are looking for Chengfeng in Xueling Mountain, but how can Xue easily take you to see Chengfeng?" You told me that you used the Sealing Spirit Bead to seal Chengfeng's demonic blood, but how could Qi Xue have a Sealed Spirit Bead, if this Sealing Spirit Bead was hers, then it should have been worn for Chengfeng hundreds of years ago when he first fell into the Demon Dao, how could she wait until now? ”
Black Pig's analysis did show a lot of problems, and Jielan was also very puzzled, but she never believed that Qi Xue would hide anything from her, she only defended her: "Wasn't Chengfeng sealed by the Heavenly Maiden at that time?" Qi Xue naturally has to abide by the agreement of the Heavenly Maiden to protect Chengfeng, and maybe it is because Qi Xue's strength is not enough, you see, only my blood has the power to seal the demonic power, and Qi Xue may not use the sealing spirit bead because of this. Even Jielan herself is not sure of this explanation, but even if the reason is far-fetched, she would rather think that it is like this.
The black pig knew that Jielan didn't want to suspect Qi Xue from the bottom of his heart, and he didn't want Jielan to be sad because of this, so he said: "Well, maybe that's the case, Lan, I'm guarding here, you can rest in peace for a while, although this white tree is dangerous, but I think this white tree should be afraid of us, and don't dare to attack us again, other monsters are afraid of the white tree's demon power, and they must not dare to approach, so you can rest assured!" ”
Jielan was a little hesitant, because Qi Xue was on her lap, and she might not be able to rest if she wanted to change her position, because it would wake her up, and when she was about to say that she didn't need it, the black pig leaned over, patted her shoulder, and said shyly: "If you don't mind, you can sleep on my shoulder, but maybe I have some bad smell that may make you uncomfortable..."
Before the black pig finished speaking, Jielan burst out laughing, and some of Fang Cai's troubles disappeared. The black pig didn't know why Jielan was laughing, so he was even more shy, he thought that maybe what he said just now was too rude, and when he was about to apologize, he saw Jielan leaning her head over, leaning on his shoulder, closing her eyes, and sleeping quietly.
Looking at Jielan so closely, the black pig's face became hot, and even her breathing became short, but fortunately, Jielan had already fallen asleep, and she couldn't notice his abnormal reaction. But although he was nervous, Black Pig also felt extremely happy.
Because this is the first woman who is willing to rest on her own, this trust is nothing to gain.
"Lan, it's really good to know you, I want to be your demon acolyte for the rest of my life, just like this to guard you." The black pig thought in his heart, a satisfied smile on his face.
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In the morning, the sun shone down through the cracks in the jungle, rendering the gloomy woods a little lively, and the dew condensed in the night on the white trees began to melt and drip down after staining the sunlight, and the cold feeling caressed the faces of several people, awakening them from their sleep.
Jielan opened her eyes and saw that it was already bright, so she wanted to hold it up, but this movement also inadvertently woke up Qixue, Qixue got up, looked at the surroundings of the forest, and said, "It's already bright." She stood up, looking much better than she had been last night.
Jielan also wanted to stand up, but as soon as her legs wanted to stand up, she felt numb and uncomfortable, and she retracted it stiffly.
Seeing Jielan like this, Qi Xue asked, "Blue, what's wrong?" ”
"This, the legs are a little inconvenient." Although he didn't want to say it, he was afraid that Qixue would be embarrassed, but he still smiled reluctantly and said it.
Qi Xue thought that it must be because of herself that she became like this, blushed, and said, "It doesn't matter, it's all my fault, Lan, I'll rub it for you." Qi Xue squatted down, rubbed Jielan's numb legs, and after rubbing for a long time, the blood began to circulate, and she was able to exert her strength. The black pig also woke up, and the group decided to cheer up and start looking for the demon's place again.
Although the sun shines down in the forest, it still looks cold and gloomy, and when the three of them walk in this thorny forest, they are all summoning spiritual power at any time, and they are all on alert, just in case.