09 hours memory

When the three of them arrived at the 'Yonghe Palace', Jielan pulled the black pig and prepared to go in with the maids, and Qing Zhan asked all the maids to retreat, and then prepared to enter the Yonghe Palace with Jielan, but Jielan turned around and faced Qing Zhan coldly, and said: "Shaojun can send me here, please go back!" ”

Qing Zhan rarely saw Jielan treat himself like this, hearing Jielan's words that rejected people thousands of miles away, his heart was like falling into an ice cave, his whole body froze, she faced this woman who thought about it day and night, and for a while she was at a loss, "I still have a lot of things to tell you, don't you really want to ask me?" ”

"I already know your business, no need to say anything more to me? Also, thank you so much for taking such pains to bring me to the royal city and to let me meet my mother. Jielan turned sideways, not daring to look her in the eye, she was afraid that when she saw Qing Zhan's eyes, she would not be able to control her heart and fall again.

Such polite words were like a basin of ice water pouring down on the top of Qing Zhan's head, he smiled bitterly and said, "Are you blaming me?" ”

Jielan's heart was not resentful, but lost, understanding that Qing Zhan's love for herself was not out of the loss of her love, she turned her back and said quietly: "You are the young monarch, and I am now the auxiliary king, don't you understand?" Isn't that the result you want either? It's better for us to maintain a relationship between kings and ministers. ”

Qing Zhan heard the meaning of Jielan's words, it turned out that she was worried about the law, worried that they would be convicted for this, but Qing Zhan worked hard to let Jielan come here, not to let her distance herself from the law, but so that they could really walk together.

Qing Zhan didn't care that he was in the inner courtyard of the palace now, and he said to the black pig: "Long Yi, you are guarding the door outside, and you are not allowed to let anyone approach." After he finished speaking, he pulled Jielan to the inner courtyard of the palace, Jielan was a little frightened, and she felt a little angry when she pulled her like this, she struggled to get rid of it, but the strength of Qingzhan was so great, she couldn't get rid of it, so she could only let him drag it like this.

And the black pig saw that Qing Zhan treated Jielan so rudely, and wanted to stop it, but it wanted to Qingzhan no matter what, it would not hurt Jielan, and it was okay for the two to say it clearly in person, it stayed outside, afraid that other people in the palace would know that Qing Zhan and Jielan were getting along together, and would be left behind.

Qing Zhan pulled Jielan into the inner room before letting Jielan go. Jielan had rarely seen Qing Zhan so rude, and she couldn't help but be very angry when she saw it at this time, she took a few steps back, her face was full of anger, and said, "What do you want?" Don't you know where we are right now? Do you want to ruin all that you've been trying to do? Jielan's reproaches made Qing Zhan feel guilty.

But all this Qing Zhan is also helpless, because he can't change, and he can't help it, he calmly looked at the uncalm woman in front of him, and said, "Are you hating me for deceiving you and letting you go on this road of no return?" ”

Jielan thought that Qing Zhan pretended to be a white-robed guest to attack his village, and killed the illusory mother in front of him, although all this was fake, but in order to awaken himself, he did such a painful thing to make her heartbroken, so that she lived in pain and despair during this time, this person in front of him was just a person he loved deeply, why was this person so ruthless, when he saw his crying appearance, he was smug or snickering, laughing that he finally fell for his scheme, Finally let herself live her own way according to his.

"Yes, I resent you, I resented why you deceived me, I still remember the cruel and merciless laughter of the white-robed man, but now I want to associate this laughter with you, do you know what kind of torture this is for me, what kind of joke? I'd really rather I hadn't known you than let me down like that. Jielan burst into tears, which had already made her a little broken, and she turned away, not wanting to face the man in front of her, because she didn't want to make herself sad again.

Looking at the back of his beloved woman so sad, Qing Zhan's chest also hurt as if it was about to explode, he approached Jielan's back, stretched out his hands, and gently hugged Jielan into his arms from behind, Jielan's back suddenly touched his hot chest, and there was a panic in his heart, wanting to break free, but he couldn't get rid of it, slowly Jielan also calmed down, just lying in Qingzhan's arms like this, but thinking that although the two were in the same royal court, they couldn't be together again, thinking of everything in the past, she couldn't let go of herself, couldn't forgive Qing Zhan from her heart, and Jielan felt irritable in her heart.

Qing Zhan gradually relaxed the strength of his hands, feeling the familiar taste of Jielan, and the mood he missed for the past few days slowly calmed down, and he said gently: "I know that you will hate me, and I also know that you will not be able to forgive me, so I was willing to accept your three swords, which can be regarded as my repayment for my sins for you, but I am still very happy, because I understand that you have me in your heart, don't you?" ”

Jielan didn't want to admit her heart, so she only said angrily: "Even if there was before, but the moment I knew that you were a white-robed guest, I didn't have it." Jielan's hands trembled when she said this, and she clenched her hands to prevent her fear.

Qing Zhan suddenly laughed softly and said, "Really? If you really only have hatred for me in your heart, your three swords won't choose three places that are not lethal? When your first sword stabbed me in the waist and abdomen but it was out of direction, I thought you were just nervous, but when your second sword chose to stab me in the shoulder instead of the chest, I already knew that you didn't want me to die in your heart, and you still loved me deeply in your heart, you said I was right? ”

Her mind was completely seen through by Qing Zhan, which felt that it was a kind of ridicule of her for Jielan, she was suddenly ashamed and indignant, she tried her best to break free from Qing Zhan's arms, faced Qing Zhan angrily, and said: "Yes, I can't do anything to you, I don't want you to die at my hands, I still love you, but so what?" Do you still want me to be with you? Impossible, when I stepped into this royal court and faced the worship of hundreds of officials, I would no longer be able to do it with you, I think you should be sober, I don't want to cause my mother to suffer because of the relationship between the two of us, do you understand? ”

"You're worried about the law, right, because the law says that the king cannot marry the person who is in charge of the law, and the violator will be deprived of the status of the two and demoted to the common people." Qing Zhan had a frost on his face when he mentioned the decree.

"Since you remember it so clearly, why do you have to do this, I don't mind much about this throne, I also had to leave it for my mother's sake, but what about you? Are you willing to be your young king? It's not easy to be relegated to a common people's life, and you might give up your noble lineage and status because of me? Jielan's words were full of reproach and sarcasm, which made Qing Zhan feel cold when he heard it.

Qing Zhan looked at the woman in front of him who had completely distrusted him, his heart was like sea water, he didn't expect that he had worked hard to bring Jielan to the royal city, but in exchange for such a result, he didn't expect Jielan to distrust himself so much, he didn't believe in his love for her, Qing Zhan sighed, his expression looked very melancholy, such a melancholy Qing Zhan is rarely seen, because there is rarely anything to stump him, but in the face of this woman, Qing Zhan is a little helpless, "I hope you can understand a little, If one day we really need to give up everything to get together, then I will give up all my choices without scruples to take you away, although I am in the throne, but I don't like this young king's position, I just do it because of responsibility, just like your responsibility to your mother, I hope you can clearly understand this. ”

Listening to Qing Zhan's sincere words, although Jielan didn't know whether it was true or false, Jielan's tears were still rolling down, she turned her head sideways, not letting Qing Zhan see her sad side, and just asked: "When I went to Chiyan City to break into the city, the moment I met you, was it also deliberately arranged by you?" ”

Qing Zhan understood that Jielan was wondering if his love for her was just because he respected her, he sighed and said, "Do you remember the little boy you met when you were seven years old? The boy you swore you would meet again? ”

Jielan was stunned for a while, she didn't know what Qing Zhan meant, but there was a figure in her vague memory that appeared in front of her eyes, the stubborn and arrogant little boy, the boy who told him that he would definitely come to her again in the future, could it be that the boy was the handsome Qing Zhan in front of him? This is really incredible, and I can't believe that all this is true, Jielan stood there stunned, and asked for a long time, "Are you...."

Seeing her expression, Qing Zhan's heart finally calmed down a little, he remembered that he went to Shiluo Village fifteen years ago, when he accompanied his father to find the king, he went out privately because of his greed, but accidentally encountered a demon in the mountain forest, and he was driven down by the demon when he was defeated, and then the little girl in front of him found himself when she was collecting medicine, she dragged him back from under the mountain peak to the mountain avenue, and then used the medicinal materials she picked to apply it to him, and the little boy quickly got better under the effect of the medicine, When he first saw the innocent smiles of these country women, Qing Zhan was fascinated, he remembered that at that time, when his arm was scraped off when he fell down the mountain, Jielan applied it with blue herbs, and then the skin scarred and turned blue, looking like a flower, this is the scar that is still left on Qing Zhan's hand, but Qing Zhan's scar has completely healed, but perhaps because of the medicinal effect, whenever Qing Zhan exerts his spiritual power, this scar still glows blue, therefore, Jielan will understand that he is a white-robed guest.