Chapter 37: Suicide and it's all over

Countless pains and despair drilled into Zheng Kai's body.

Even a blood scab mask can't bear such a huge amount of hatred.

Zheng Kai's eyes turned pure red, and his expression became dull.

A sea of blood engulfed him.

Memories that didn't belong to him were shoehorned into his head.

Zheng Kai used a third-person perspective to endure the pain of the explosion in his head, and spliced together these broken memories.

Many years ago,

A child was born.

He was born with thick hair, turned lips, sharp teeth, and a face full of folds and sarcoma.

Not only that,

His whole body is an eerie black.

Regarded by everyone as an ominous representative, this child came into the world.

As the child grew up, his appearance did not improve, but became more and more hideous and ugly.

Everyone treats him like a monster.

Including his parents.

finally

On the child's tenth birthday, he was abandoned.

In this child, there is no glimmer of a bright future, he is like an ugly filler, used to set off all the good in the world.

As long as they see his appearance, people will flash such a thought: it turns out that the ugliness corresponding to beauty looks like this.

Dirty, filthy, monsters......

Such an adjective made Zheng Kai's head almost crack.

From a third-person perspective, Zheng Kai also felt a wave of disgust for the child.

People pursue beauty.

Corresponding,

The subconscious mind will unconsciously reject ugliness.

Especially when there is no moral condemnation of such exclusion, abuse, spittling, and disgust become a matter of course.

Zheng Kai felt everyone's emotions.

I also felt the emotions of this child.

He went from ignorance at birth, to humble and cowardly later, and finally looked at everyone with hatred in his eyes.

This hatred manifested itself first in physical movements, and he began to fight back against everyone who spat on him, beating them desperately.

But gradually, he began to bury his hatred in his heart.

Because the moment he made his move, he had two more items on his ugly list: violent, rude.

At that moment,

The most negative and ugly things in the whole world can be seen in this child.

"It's so ugly, don't come out and be scary, okay?"

"What did your parents do to give birth to you!"

"It looks like a monster, no wonder no one wants it."

"Look at this kid's eyes, it's like you're going to eat people."

"Look at me like that again, and I'll gouge out your eyes!"

.......

Zheng Kai's consciousness was instantly torn apart.

He couldn't tell who was saying the words in his head.

In a trance,

The voices of these people became his own.

In the surging sea of blood, two lines of bloody eyes flowed out of the corners of Zheng Kai's eyes, and countless cracks appeared on his skin, like a doll about to be torn apart.

His mouth was repeating the words.

Over and over again!

Just now he was from the perspective of a bystander, witnessing memories one after another.

Right now

He became one of the spitters.

The endless sense of disgust rendered Zheng Kai's expression extremely terrifying.

I don't know how long it took,

Zheng Kai saw a ray of incandescent light from the overwhelming sea of blood, weak and warm, and tore a gap.

"Stop arguing!"

Zheng Kai yelled.

The curses that haunted him and bothered him disappeared in an instant.

Zheng Kai did not escape from the sea of blood.

His consciousness was only momentarily awake for a moment.

The fragmented memories continue.

Further on,

The ugly-looking child began to understand people's disgust with ugliness and began to yearn for the most perfect "beauty".

There is no such thing as a perfect person in the true sense of the word.

at least

In the eyes of this child, no one in the world is perfect.

Some people have delicate facial features but mutilated limbs; Some are hand models, but the exit is full of swear words; There are also people who are kind and optimistic, but they are plagued by illness.

Everyone has shortcomings.

Everyone has imperfections.

He began to hate the people around him, and even felt a little pitiful for them.

With a scalpel he picked up from nowhere, he cut off what he thought was the best part of everyone, and sewed it on his body.

First the legs, then the hands, the organs, the facial features, and even every inch of delicate skin are stuck to their bodies.

In the end,

He turned out to be a very perfect person.

This man has the most delicate facial features, perfectly proportioned hands and feet, and the smile on his face is impossible to fault with in any way.

........

Zheng Kai understood.

He knew how the 25th came to be.

He also knew where the hatred of the 25th was coming from.

Perverted control of beauty!

His hatred was not a simple physical pain, nor was it a psychological shadow left by crying in despair.

He hated every imperfect thing as much as he hated his former self.

There was a vague memory in the middle.

After skipping this memory,

The so-called ugly child has become the school doctor of the puzzle kindergarten.

He showed a gentle and kind smile in front of the children, and the children also respected him very much.

In the memory of the 25th,

Zheng Kai saw Qiu Jing, the principal of the puzzle kindergarten.

More than half of the memories related to Qiu Jing are the pictures of Qiu Jing reprimanding No. 25.

At an unseen angle,

No. 25 lowered his head, his expression becoming increasingly hideous and terrifying.

Eventually, the 25th began to remodel his brain.

The most perfect person should not have negative emotions.

Anger, irritability, anxiety, fear, etc., should not appear in a perfect person.

The blood-stained scalpel became particularly beautiful in his hand.

He even performed a craniotomy, which was amazing.

Emotions are controlled by the brain.

And the most perfect brain should also be a masterpiece of countless perfect pieces combined.

"He's the one who killed all the kids in the puzzle kindergarten."

"Not only did he kill the kindergarten kids, but he also dragged a lot of strangers back from outside and took their brains out."

Zheng Kai's consciousness was rare and lucid.

The school doctor No. 25 was the real culprit in the child abuse and murder case that year.

He killed far more than two dozen people.

From the transparent glass jars he saw, Zheng Kai saw hundreds of transparent glass jars.

This means that

The victims were far more than just kindergarten children.

However, in the investigation file of that year, there was no such person as the school doctor at all.

Even Chen Xiangping didn't mention the existence of the school doctor to Zheng Kai, as if this person who should have existed was naturally forgotten by everyone.

No one felt that something was wrong.

Before Zheng Kai could think more, his consciousness was once again covered with hatred.

The bloody scab mask fell from his face, and a familiar sharp pain came from his chest, better than before.

The double pain of physical and psychological made Zheng Kai have suicidal thoughts.

Suicide......

That's the end of it.......