12 The Monitor
The last person I want to meet at this moment is Bluebird.
Rensser's dream assumptions and memory lapses that occurred in my own consciousness had shaken me a little. Originally, I didn't doubt reality if it was just that, but long before I met Rensai, I was already doubting, and I suspected that I was not based on reality, but on a prophetic dream.
To make matters worse, as I continued to retrace my memories, I found that I was missing more and more memories.
I know I'm 19 years old and I'm a college student, but what kind of university did I go to? Where do I study before I go to university? Many things that were taken for granted were full of holes inside, and after a little scrutiny, they fell apart.
Suppose, I'm really dreaming, and the blue bird is what Ren Sai said, the watcher of dreams......
Where did this near-reality dream come from, and what is the task of the watcher?
The blue bird spoke first, and her voice took me out of thinking that even I thought was absurd.
"I've read your information, you are Li Duo." She said in the tone of a stranger, "What are you doing here?" ”
"That's my question, why are you here?" I asked rhetorically.
"Now I'm asking you. But yes, I have to introduce myself first. Speaking of this, she suddenly summoned the Thunderbolt Sword, and the tip of the sword was aimed at me, "I am a national first-class demon hunter 'Blue Bird', and someone reported to the Nameless Mountain Police Station that you are in possession of illegal weapons. You can also see clearly through the internal monitoring of the train, and what you are holding is the 'Siren Blade'. But you're supposed to be a person who lives an ordinary life, right, where did you pick up this weapon? ”
It turns out that this is the reason why she is here, she is following the footsteps of me, a "dangerous person", up the mountain.
But wouldn't this reason still be a bit far-fetched. How did the ordinary enforcers quickly identify the axe as a siren blade and contact the bluebird through surveillance video? Why did the bluebird collide with me on the mountain so coincidentally? Although it is not completely impossible to defend it, once you have doubts in your heart, you will be suspicious of everything.
I really don't want to believe I'm living in a dream, but I can't take Rensai's words as if I haven't heard them.
Perhaps the most rational way is to present your doubts on the table in the most direct way, and then use the blue bird's answer to clear up all your doubts.
Seeing the blue bird aiming the thunderbolt sword at me, I felt indescribably sullen in my heart, and at the same time made up my mind to say what I wanted to say, "You should know the memories before going back." ”
"Before backtracking?" She frowned.
"And it's all a dream." I said it deliberately in a confident tone.
"What are you talking about?" She asked rhetorically.
"Last time you joked with me about the past love letter incident at my front table, saying that the love letter might have been written by the front table itself. But as I recalled before, I didn't tell you about the love letter incident last time, only the important events in the previous backtracking process. And the love letter incident does not occur in the process of backtracking, nor is it important. "I think if she really doesn't remember the memories before the backtrack, I would say this from a chicken to a duck, and it's very embarrassing to think about it, but even if there is that possibility, I want to say my doubts to my face," frankly, although I told you about it in person in the previous backtrack, I quickly regretted it after I finished it. Because instead of laughing at me, you encouraged me. It made me feel like I was being exerted with unwanted sympathy, and I wasn't very happy. ”
"Although you said so many strange things, I'm sorry, it's the first time I've met you." She said, "To answer my question first, what are you doing here?" ”
Sure enough, I didn't get anything out of that, but I already had a plan in my mind. I said, "I'm here to find my young girl who disappeared in the mountains a month ago." ”
"What?" She looked surprised.
"And, I know you're also investigating this incident." This is what Bluebird mentioned when he first met me, and I continued my temptation, "But do you know what the young girl's name is?" You can't possibly know, because it's my dream. If I don't know a person's name, I haven't made it up yet, and you have no way of knowing. ”
"Listen, I don't know if you came up with these ideas yourself, but someone has instilled them in you...... "these are all ridiculous, tell me where your weapon came from." Did someone give it to you? And indoctrinate you with these ridiculous thoughts? ”
I didn't answer her question. Assuming she was the so-called watcher, I would never have told her who told me these things. Because that is equivalent to revealing her own intelligence details, it will give her the idea of weaving a statement.
But I hope she isn't, so I also hope that she will be indifferent to what I say next.
"I've figured out how to prove it, and that's to make up a name for that young girl now and confirm it later. Although I can't leave Nameless Mountain right now, it doesn't matter if I wait until the next time I go back and find someone who knows her to confirm. "I lifted the axe a little," to use an analogy...... This axe is called 'Siren's Blade', so I might name her 'Rensai', or whatever...... If it turns out that her name matches mine, it means that this is really my dream. ”
This is my final temptation. Suppose I am the watcher and the bluebird is the dreamer; And I have the intervening power of "adding a new setting to the dream character that doesn't contradict the old setting" described by Ren Sai, and I don't want the blue bird to prove that he is dreaming. Then now I will make up a new name for the young girl, and then tell the other party to hear it, and then let the other party confirm it.
Judging by what Rensai said, the Monitors are unable to detect our conversation here, and should not be aware that the young girl has a name.
This is already the best strategy that I can think of with my wisdom racking my brains, and I can only resign myself to fate as far as I can go. At the end of the day, I don't know the details of the capabilities of the so-called Watcher at all. Perhaps this approach is just self-defeating.
Or maybe the dream theory was a well-completed prank from the start.
When I finished, the bluebird fell silent. I waited quietly for her response, and her words sent my heart to the ground.
"I don't know what you're looking for 'Joe Licorice,'......" she said with a name I had never heard of, "but you'd better not have any bad ideas." ”
I took a few deep breaths to sort through my mess and said, "Follow me." ”
"Where are you going?" She chased after her.
I went to the place where the young girl was hiding and carried her down from the tree. When the blue bird saw this scene, his expression changed significantly.
"Tell this sister, what's your name?" I say.
The young girl cautiously said, "Hello, sister. My name is Rensai. ”
Bluebird fell into a long silence.
"So......" I looked straight at her, "am I really dreaming?" ”
After a long time, she lost strength in her shoulder.
"Yes." She said, "This world, this nameless mountain...... It's all an illusion built within your consciousness, it's your dreams. ”
After receiving her personal confirmation, my thoughts seemed to freeze, and it felt like it had been shattered by a hammer, reduced to pieces, and scattered all over the ground.
What Ren Sai said was true...... No, there are other possibilities, such as Ren Sai and Blue Bird teaming up to deceive me...... What is the motivation? How can I explain my memory loss? Could it really be that Ren Sai used some kind of conscious force to delete some of my memories...... But......
"Did the outsider tell you? She's now out of the role of a missing young girl? "I've been following her, but I've never seen her face once. What else did she say to you? Beware, she may be the one who made this dream so dangerous. ”
"You haven't seen her?" I barely drove myself to think," she said, "She said that her spirit was badly injured, and that wasn't caused by you?" ”
"Seriously injured? She's hurt? Who did it? She was at first confused, and then said, "Compared to this, the demon has not come yet...... How did you avoid the Majin's senses? The Secret Talisman I gave you must have been retraced, right? ”
She no longer hid the memories she knew she had regressed.
"It's backtracked, yes. So I'm now avoiding the sense by obliterating the breath. I replied.
"How is it possible to evade the demon's induction in the way of obliterating the aura?" Confused, she said, "Even the talisman I gave you couldn't avoid it, it was specially made by me to respond to the induction of the demons. Ah......h
She seemed to suddenly realize something, and quickly covered her mouth.
But it was too late.
In the distance, there was the undisguised sound of the Majin's footsteps like a cannonball falling to the ground, and the footsteps approached at a great speed.
I realized: it turned out that the reason why the demons didn't notice me was not because I had erased my own breath, but because I, as a dreamer, thought it would be useful, and that's it.
And now, this "magic" has lost its effectiveness!
"Wait, I'll give you the amulet right away!" The blue bird hurriedly dug out his pockets, and at the same time actually worried about the young girl next to him, "Your name is Ren Sai, right, hurry up and hide!" Ahhh ”
"No, there's no need for that." I immediately picked up the young girl on my back, grabbed the blue bird's hand, and ran away from the demon at a gallop.
If this is really just my dream, then I should be able to break through this mountain forest.
Why did I mysteriously get lost while climbing the Nameless Mountain, and why did I never be able to leave once I entered the mountain forest...... Now it seems that the truth has been found. Because this mountain forest is embodied in my memories. My memories of this mountain forest are such a place where "you can never return to your senses".
But is it really impossible to turn back? Not really. Because I was finally rescued by the search and rescue team. While running at a high speed, I also closed my eyes and reminisced about the feelings I had at that time.
At the end, a searchlight-like light appeared faintly, and you could see it even with your eyes closed. I ran towards where the light was. The light grew brighter and brighter, and when the whole field of vision was taken over by the light, I involuntarily opened my eyes.
Looking around, it has returned to the normal mountain path. But the time is not day, but night. The previous glow vanished like an illusion.
"It's really back...... Blue Bird sighed beside me.
It's another fact that proves that this is my dream...... I silently let go of her hand and said, "I still have a lot of things to ask you, and you'll answer me, right?" ”
She looked at her hand, paused for a moment, then nodded, "Yes." ”
We returned to the scenic area at the foot of the mountain.
At this time, the scenic area is empty, the shops and other facilities are closed, and the lights of the residents here are not visible.
It seems that only me and Bluebird are left in the world.
When I thought of this, I suddenly found that the young girl was also gone. Seeing my reaction, the blue bird explained, "That character's area of activity is probably limited to Nameless Mountain." ”
"Character ......" Her tone was not a description of people, but of objects, and I asked concernedly, "Will demons attack her?" ”
"No, it won't. The Majin's target is always you, and those who stand in his way from killing you. "And you don't have to worry about that character, she's just something you've imagined, not a real human being." ”
"And you cared so much about her before?"
"I ......," she said, her face turning red, "I am...... Before I could think about it, my body moved first...... Wait, what are you laughing at? ”
Her childish reaction made me feel relaxed and happy somewhere in my heart. Maybe she hid a lot from me, but her nature is still the blue bird I know.
"By the way, why did you find out about my peculiarity? If you hadn't deduced it yourself, but the outsider had told you directly, I would have been able to sense it. She asked.
"Because you use the same systematic terminology as her, like spirituality, spirit, awareness...... These are terms that I can't possibly grasp, and only people who don't belong to this dream realm bring this knowledge. Although I said "dream", I still couldn't accept it in my heart, as if there was a thick layer of glass between me and the word.
"Really...... She doesn't seem to tell you much. "But that's right, going too deep will trigger my attention, and if I don't have time to finish it, I'll be removed from the dream......"
She spoke as if my conclusions were correct, but the process was all wrong.
Speaking of which, when Renses heard my reasoning, he also said, "Your conclusion itself is correct." Do I know these terms in so-called reality?
"Why the hell am I dreaming about this?" I started by asking what I was most concerned about, "Why did you end up in my dreams?" ”
This is to be explained from the beginning. First of all, my identity is not a 'national first-class witcher'. In the real world, I'm a mainstay law enforcement warlock under the National Secret Security Agency. However, the work is no different from that of a witcher, and he is responsible for dealing with all kinds of hidden events and the warlock criminals who cause them. She said, "As for you...... As an ordinary person living in a secular society, you are a tragic victim who is unfortunately involved in a secret event in the real world. When we freed you, you suffered from a severe mental illness. And in order to treat your mental illness, the treatment methods we used before ...... It's this dream that is now out of control. ”